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Shen Mochen sighed, "Issues with exam grades could simply mean you haven't mastered the right study methods..."

"Actually, I feel quite embarrassed. Whatever I do, I fail at, not just in my exam grades. I learn everything much slower than others. I feel so useless. When we were divided into groups back in my childhood, all the groups despised me, and no one wanted me..."

Yuncui lowered her head to look at her knees, her hand slowly tightening on her thigh, with a smile on her face.

"That's why I've been desperate to please others since I was young. I hoped that by being nice to others, they would like me. I'm such a coward, always afraid that people won't need me and then they'll discard me... I am actually terrified of being alone; I don't want to be by myself."

"Because I don't have any strong points, I've always felt very inferior. As I grew up, I became more aware of my body, constantly getting looks and jokes, and I had to walk hunched over every day to school... I don't know my purpose for existing. I can't do anything right; it seems like the world wouldn't be any different with or without me, but I don't want it to be this way."

"I only feel a bit useful when I'm helping others; that's when I feel I have some value to my existence... I am such a coward that I can only strive to do things to feel like I exist; I'm not really a good person."

"To tell you the truth, I really don't want to leave Buque. For the first time, I found a purpose for my existence in Buque, which is such an extraordinary thing. Every day in Buque is so joyful for me! I really don't want to retire. If I retire, I'm no longer a Buque, and without being a Buque, I'll lose my sense of purpose again... Why is my superpower fading? Why can't I stay with Buque? Why am I becoming more and more of a burden to the team? Why must I retire... Why do I need others' approval to feel like I have a reason to live?"

As Yuncui laughed through her words, large teardrops fell, wetting her hands.

Shen Mochen listened silently and then calmly spoke, "When I was a child, I was a little thug. Always fighting and stealing, peeping at girls bathing. Of course, there weren't many normal people where I lived: drug abuse, alcoholism, violence... I'd often get caught stealing, then get beaten, scolded, and taken to the police station, but I'd go back and steal again. Do you think I'm a good person?"
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"But all that was..."

"Do you think I'm a good person?"

Yuncui, under Shen Mochen's intense gaze, felt somewhat flustered and couldn't help but recall what Liu Chaoyan had said: "He doesn't seem like a purely good person, but rather someone playing the role of one."

"I think you are a good person!"

Yuncui asserted firmly. Liu Chaoyan had only seen him a few times; she must have misjudged him. Although Yuncui had somewhat believed those words at one point, if Shen Mochen wasn't a good person, then why would he help her at her old home today?

Shen Mochen smiled; he knew Yuncui would say that. Even if he made her strip naked today, as a humiliation, she would still be grateful to him for standing up to those people at her old home.

But sometimes bad people do good things, not necessarily out of kindness. What a fool.

"If even someone like me can be a good person, why couldn't you be one?" Shen Mochen countered.

Yuncui was at a loss.

"You're too hard on yourself. Everyone wants to be affirmed by others, everyone is afraid of being alone. You're not special, but the vast majority don't do as well as you."

"Shen Mochen... are you the same?"

"You know, my mother abandoned me when I was young because she wanted to remarry, but it was hard to leave the slums with me as her baggage. I've always hated her and was determined never to forgive her, much less see her... But when I saw Yin Caiyu lying in the hospital, suddenly, I really wanted to see her. She was the person I most despised, but when alone, I found myself desperately wanting an emotional anchor."

Yuncui looked at Shen Mochen, her tearful eyes becoming softer.

"I was thinking at the time that I should listen to Yin Caiyu and reconcile with my mother. Now that I have money, I'm no longer that burden. My life is better than hers; she has no reason to reject me anymore. If I make the first move, if I give her a way out, I could reconcile with my mother. Even if she doesn't love me like a normal mother loves her child, there would still be a smidgen of sincerity."

"If I had a mother, if my mother was here, at least I wouldn't be alone; at least I could have a good cry in her arms."

"I've always thought that I was grown-up, more mature than most people, but in the end, I'm just a cowardly, scared little kid afraid of loneliness," Shen Mochen said softly.

"Shen Mochen... Shen Mochen!" Yuncui suddenly embraced Shen Mochen in her arms, sobbing and gritting her teeth, "I won't let you be alone, I'm your family. No matter how strange you think I am, I'll always be by your side, always good to you!"

"I've been angry at God, the monsters, myself for what happened to Xiaolian, but I've never blamed the Buque at that time." Shen Mochen buried his face in Yuncui's embrace, the soft warmth helping him relax slightly, and the scent of coconut milk brought him pleasure, "So, I've never blamed you."

Shen Mochen wasn't sure how sincere he was at the moment, how sincere he was toward Yuncui, or why he wanted to reconcile with her.

Maybe he just didn't want to live so lonely anymore, being alone was too oppressive.

"If you don't mind, from now on, you can think of me as Caiyu... I'll be like your sister, and I'll be good to you like Caiyu was," Yuncui said once more with seriousness.

"You don't need to be Yin Caiyu, and I won't think of you as Yin Caiyu..." Shen Mochen pushed Yuncui away gently, looking into her slowly dimming eyes, he added, "You are you; you're my sister Yuncui."

Why always compare yourself to Yin Caiyu? Do you want to sleep with me like she did? What a fool. Catherine, who had never met Yin Caiyu, knew about my relationship with her, but you still can't see it.

If you can't see it, then let it be. It's better for you to be in the dark. Explaining it would just embarrass you, thought Shen Mochen.

However, his gaze quickly swept over Yuncui's body: that busty figure, slim waist, ample hips... If he really had a relationship with such a perfect girl, it would certainly be thrilling.

Moreover, with this fool's intelligence, he felt he could easily deceive her into willingly offering herself to him.

Shen Mochen swallowed reflexively, but after the brief flush of desire, he struggled to dismiss the idea.

Forget it, forget it. Even though Yuncui is very tempting, it's not worth it.

A sister can be for a lifetime, but a lover might break up.