Stunned for You

Chapter 119

Three days before the postgraduate entrance examination, at about three o’clock in the afternoon, Fu Sitian had just picked up the courier from the courier station and went out of school, when she received a call from Fu Jiantao, and asked her with a heavy voice, “Are there classes in these two days?”

Fu Sitian has been numb by the old man’s torture. She did not directly answer yes or no, but instead asked: “What’s wrong?”

She hasn’t returned for half a month.

Fu Jiantao said: “Try to come back, Tian Tian. Your grandma may be about to die.”

Fu Sitian’s head buzzed. She subconsciously wanted to agree, but when the words were about to be spoken, she suddenly thought of something and stopped abruptly. She forcedly asked calmly: “What’s the situation now?”

Fu Jiantao was stunned for two seconds, as if surprised that she did not agree immediately. He squeezed his emotions and described it concisely and concisely: “Almost nothing can be eaten except water. I have been coughing up blood for the past two days, and the diapers are all blood.”

Fu Sitian was flustered. She knows that she should agree to it right away. But she still asked hardly: “In two days, can you wait for Monday?”

Is it okay to wait for Shiyi to finish the postgraduate entrance examination?

“Yes, I can, Tian Tian, ​​I can, can your grandma?! Can she?!” For a moment, Fu Jiantao’s low growl voice penetrated into Fu Sitian’s ears through the speaker.

This is the first time in memory that Fu Jiantao yelled at her so fiercely and loudly. Fu Sitian’s eyes were red in an instant. She gritted her teeth, raised her head, and replied with tears: “Okay, I’ll buy the ticket and go back right away.”

Fu Jiantao yelled at her and felt uncomfortable. He sighed heavily, and said in a slow tone: “No matter what, she is also your grandmother, who raised you with hard work. Xiaoyu also took leave of absence and returned.”

A drop of tears still rolled down in a disobedient manner. Fu Sitian quickly raised his hand and wiped it off, and said in a dumb voice, “I know, I know…”

Why educate her in this tone, she doesn’t understand. The old man used her to think that she was going to be dying to lie to her more than once. He didn’t know what she had done to her after she lied to her. She just couldn’t walk away for two weeks and didn’t go back. She has tried very hard to balance her life on both sides. Why does it seem that no one is satisfied with her.

She hung up the phone and called Shi Yi after checking the train time of the latest train.

The phone rang for a long time before Yi picked it up. Fu Sitian guessed that she should have walked from the study room to the corner of the outer corridor.

“What’s the matter?” Shi Yi’s voice was cold and indifferent.

Fu Sitian had listened to her such indifference for many days, but at this moment, she still felt her chest tightness so hard to breathe. She swallowed twice before she could barely feel that her throat could vocalize normally: “Shi Yi, I have to go back to Ningcheng temporarily, my grandma may not be well.”

Shi Yi said, “Okay.”

“You have to solve the dinner by yourself. I will see the situation tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. If it’s okay, I will try my best to come back.”

“it is good.”

“You should be careful to close the doors and windows alone at night. There are newly bought milk, muffins, and small cakes in the box next to the desk. You can eat it if you are hungry at night. Remember to warm the milk with warm water.”

Shi Yi is still monosyllable: “Okay.”

Fu Sitian’s throat was astringent, and he wanted to say something. Under her indifference, she couldn’t say anything.

The two compartments were silent, and the air was quiet for several seconds.

Fu Sitian woke up and said goodbye nonchalantly: “Then I’ll go buy a ticket and hang up first.”

Shi Yi let out a seemingly nonchalant “um”.

Fu Sitian quickly and embarrassedly pressed the hang up button.

For no reason, she remembered the winter vacation of the first year when they were separated, talking on the phone in the cold wind until the phone turned off automatically when the phone was out of power. At that time, no one was willing to hang up first, as if there were endless words to share, endless happiness…

There is nothing to say-how did they get to this point.

Holding her mobile phone, she leaned back, standing motionless as if her soul had been taken away.

Seeing that her look was too ugly, a classmate passing by, kindly asked her, “Classmate, do you need help?” She then recovered, shook her head hastily, and staggered away.

She did not return to the rental house, carrying her schoolbag, went directly to the bus station to take the bus, and took the train back to Ningcheng in forty minutes.

At about eight o’clock, she got off the bus at the town bus station. Because dripping water didn’t come in all afternoon, her abdomen started to ache again.

She pressed her right lower abdomen, while walking outside the station, looking for Fu Jiantao outside the station. On the way, Fu Jiantao asked her about her arrival time and said that he would drive a motorcycle to pick her up.

All the way out, she never saw the familiar figure.

Suddenly, a strange and familiar face came into her eyes, and the owner of that face also smiled at her and stretched out his hand to greet her: “Si Tian, ​​here!”

Fu Sitian’s footsteps stopped suddenly.

As if a basin of cold water was poured, Fu Sitian was so cold that his blood was about to freeze, and his upper and lower lips trembled.

It was Wang Ze—the man who had been blindfolded with her after the old man had cheated her back before, without her consent.

That’s it again! That’s it again! An instant filled her heart with resentment.

She clearly told her grandma that she didn’t want to think about getting married now, and stop arranging blind dates without authorization. She also told Wang Ze clearly that she didn’t feel anything about him, don’t send text messages to her, don’t have any more contact, and more. I have told my uncle several times how much she dislikes this matter.

Everyone knows what she thinks, why do you want to treat her like this, arrange like this?

Wang Ze was still beckoning to her enthusiastically, Fu Sitian was so cold, his waist straightened up instead. She couldn’t find a trace of the gentle expression on her face, so she walked to Wang Ze’s step by step with a solemn face.

The smile on Wang Ze’s face was stiff for a moment, but soon he was okay and smiled and said, “Uncle asked me to come and pick you up. I borrowed a friend for four rounds, and the car is on the opposite side. Two rounds are too cold now. .”

Fu Sitian looked at him indifferently, and said, “No, you have to go for a hard time. You can go home, and I will take a ride back by myself.”

The man could see that she didn’t want to see him, but still begged with a good temper: “Don’t, I’m here, I’ll send you back. I promised my uncle, and give me some face.”

Fu Sitian looked at him as if watching a clown’s performance. She stopped talking, turned around and walked forward, beckoning to a passenger motorcycle parked on the side of the road.

When the motorbike driver saw the incoming passenger signal, he immediately turned the front of the car and drove over.

Wang Ze was anxious and stretched out his hand to grasp Fu Sitian’s hand, his strength was so strong that Fu Sitian felt a pain: “What do you mean?” His voice went low, with uncontrollable anger.

Fu Sitian looked back, his eyes as cold as a knife: “Let go!”

At that moment, the hatred reflected in her eyes shocked Wang Ze. Wang Ze let go of his hand unconsciously, but still screamed sternly, “Do you think I’m in love? Fuck, your grandma called me to come, okay?”

Isn’t she dying? Why can I still have the energy to do this. Is she too persistent, or is she too stupid.

Fu Sitian wanted to cry, but in fact, she sneered. “That’s her business, what does it matter to me?”

Wang was speechless.

Fu Sitian didn’t even ask about the price, reported the address, got on the soliciting motorcycle, and left without looking back.

The cold wind blew her face like a knife, she closed her eyes, her breathing was so dull that the sound of the wind couldn’t cover it.

The soliciting driver has nothing to say: “Have you quarreled with your boyfriend?”

“No, that’s not my boyfriend.” Fu Sitian replied dumbly.

“That’s the one who yelled and yelled at you, who is this?”

Fu Sitian said nothing.

The driver continued speaking on his own: “Let me tell you, girls must keep their eyes open when looking for someone. People with a bad temper like this, don’t look for them, it looks like they can do it.”

“I don’t think you are very old, you are beautiful, you have to be more careful, don’t be fooled.”

“Now this society is too chaotic. It’s too difficult to raise a daughter. Hey, let her grow up healthy and happy, and I am afraid that we will be too naive to raise her so that we will not be able to distinguish good people from bad people in the future. My daughter is about the same age as you. When I went to college this year, I told her that it’s okay to fall in love, but if you have to bring it back and give me a check, she still thinks I’m annoying, asking me whether I’m in love or she’s in love, which makes people angry and funny.”

He babbled, Fu Sitian was forced to listen, and never spoke. She actually felt that he was very noisy and noisy at first, and slowly, she heard his complaints about his daughter, a little funny, but before her emotions turned to laugh, her heart became more depressed and uncomfortable.

She didn’t have this life.

She didn’t protect her father like this.

She didn’t.

Why didn’t she have it, why… She found out that she was thinking about this question again. She hasn’t had such useless emotions of anger and unwillingness for many years. She heard that the long-sealed monster in her heart seemed to be roaring, struggling, and wanting to break free, and broke out of the cage.

Not possible.

She bit her lower lip, and tried to persuade herself over and over again in her heart, trying to make herself sober, calm, kind, and open-minded, as she had been doing for so many years.

But all her efforts fell short when she got home.

The old man sits on the bedside drinking water with his stomach full of ascites. He looks like a haggard, but his eyes are still energetic.

As she entered, her gaze quickly fell behind her. It goes without saying what she was looking for.

Fu Sitian looked at her, thinking that maybe he was malicious, and the old man was clearly not what Fu Jiantao said was going to be dysfunctional. She was not much different from the last time, or even the last two times, when she lied to her to come back.

Her heart is completely hardened. Suddenly, she felt fooled again and again, frugal and frugal, and when she left, she looked like a fool when she came back to see her, and felt that the creature with its belly and wrinkled face resembled a monster.

It seems like a monster who thinks so coldly.

But she couldn’t help it anymore, her stomach hurts, and her chest was stuffy as if something was about to explode.

She stood by the bed, looked straight into the eyes of the old man, and said forcefully every word: “Wang is not behind. I didn’t ride in his car. I came back by myself.”

The old man’s eyes widened, and before he said a word, Fu Jiantao hurriedly said, “What’s the matter, didn’t he pick you up? He said that if he drives four rounds, you will be warmer. Ah, that might be because he didn’t touch him.” Give Fu Sitian a wink.

Fu Sitian heard it even more indifferently. He really knew it. He didn’t stop, he should be her accomplice.

If, if she is Fu Siyu, if she is his daughter, will he be like this too? She used to know her position very well, and never made this kind of comparison recklessly. She didn’t know what happened to her today. She felt like she was going crazy.

Everyone forced her. Why, why on earth. The same is human, why does she have to endure all this? Even if she did something that she missed, after so many years, has she not been sincere enough and not enough to be forgiven? Why does she have to lose even the only treasure because of these messy things.

She heard her stiff voice, tearing away all the disguise without the temperature at all, and said: “I got it, it’s because I don’t ride in his car.”

“Grandma, not only will I not ride in his car, I will never see him again, let alone marry him. I won’t agree to a blind date, I won’t get married, and I won’t live a lifetime according to your wishes.”

“You don’t have this kind of delusion anymore.” There was a loud voice, leaving no room.

The old man straightened forward in an instant, his eyes widened, as if he was trying to say something, but he clutched his chest, yelled “Uh, uh”, and almost couldn’t get up.

Fu Jiantao and the babysitter were shocked, and quickly stepped forward to pat her on her cheeks.

The old man always stared at Fu Sitian, trembling all over but not forgetting to lose his temper. He stretched out his hand and swept down everything on the table. He wanted to scold Fu Sitian, but he was vague and he could only hear that he was full of anger.

Fu Sitian lowered his eyebrows and quietly stared at the old man.

Seeing that she didn’t seem to be subdued, Fu Jiantao was afraid that she would say anything to irritate the elderly, and scolded Fu Sitian: “You go out first.”

Fu Sitian turned to look at him, pursed his lips, and turned away without saying a word.

She didn’t go far, so she went outside the door where the old man could not see, hung her head, grabbed her belly, and stood against the wall.

Fu Siyu came down from the stairs, saw her posture, and asked amused: “What are you doing, stop here?”

Fu Sitian looked up at her, did not speak, and stared down at the ground again.

It was the first time that Fu Siyu was treated so coldly by her. She consciously pressed her hot face to her cold ass, frowned and tried to lose her temper, but saw Fu Jiantao walk out of the room with the sharp eye, and then quickly retracted upstairs with wink.

“You come out with me.” Fu Jiantao ordered.

Fu Sitian obeyed.

Standing in the yard, Fu Jiantao looked at the girl in front of him by the dim light projected by the street lamp.

She is very strange tonight.

In the past ten years, he had never seen her look so surly. Even the struggle with the old man during the winter vacation two years ago because of going on a date was not as gloomy and cold as tonight.

She lost a whole circle, and she was almost skinny, and all her energy seemed to have been taken away.

Fu Jiantao was frightened. He suppressed his embarrassment, both his mother and the child’s irritability. He cared about her: “What’s going on recently? Why are you so thin?”

Fu Sitian ignored him and said lightly: “No.”

“Broken up?”

Fu Sitian still said, “No.”

Her resisting attitude made Fu Jiantao powerless, and Fu Jiantao never talked to Fu Sitian in this state. He grabbed his hair anxiously, and tried his best to calmly communicate with Fu Sitian: “Tian Tian, ​​why bother? Why bother to live with the countdown, there are people who have no tomorrows to breathe. I know you are angry in your heart, you are uncomfortable, you don’t want to Blind date, but because she doesn’t have much time, don’t care about her. She is not malicious either. She just wants to care about you in her way. Please be considerate. You can even coax her. It’s okay for those people to be soft when they meet, do they. There won’t be a few more times.”

Fu Sitian finally looked up at him. She looked at him, her eyes quiet, as if she had never known him before.

“I didn’t mean anything.” She muttered. “Don’t worry about me either.”

I don’t know if it was an illusion, Fu Jiantao even felt that her eyes were a bit mocking. His temples jumped suddenly, and his mood suddenly got worse.

But he didn’t care about her, he couldn’t bear to be angry with her again. He suppressed his anger and asked, “What’s the matter with you?!”

Fu Sitian didn’t speak.

Fu Jiantao pressed his forehead with a headache: “You have emotions now, we can’t communicate, you go back to the room and calm down, and I will calm down too.”

He flicked a cigarette from his pocket irritably, and finally glanced at Fu Sitian, curled his brows and turned to leave the hospital. Fu Sitian watched him, tears gradually blurring his vision.

She knew she made him sad and disappointed, but did she do something wrong? She did not understand. I don’t understand more and more.

What is right and wrong?

She went upstairs clutching her belly and walked out of a cold sweat. In the colic, she poured out all the things in her schoolbag and found the painkiller hidden in the board. She swallowed two dry swallows, and after lying on the floor for not knowing how long, the pain finally eased slightly.

The innermost underwear was soaked with sweat and chills. She curled up and hugged herself, still cold. She struggled to get up, took the change of clothes left here and went to the bathroom to rinse.

The water ran across her cheeks and all over her body. She raised her head and gasped in the thin air.

She is still thinking about that question.

What is right and wrong?

When she was a child, she asked her mother: “Why do those people treat us like that? You want me not to hate them or to be angry with them.”

Mother said: “Because they are also very poor. We are angry with them, and they will be even more pitiful. We should be tolerant and kind people. Tolerance is the greatest kindness to ourselves. Such people will also get the most destiny. Treat justly and kindly. Well, you don’t understand if it’s right. It’s okay, in fact, such a person will be the one with the best luck and the happiest person.”

She was so young at that time that she didn’t understand or didn’t want to understand. It seemed that her bones were destined to be engraved with Fu Jianze’s despicable genes, and she couldn’t fully digest the mother’s persuasive teaching. She just felt that fate was already unjust. She didn’t understand that the people who did the wrong thing were never her and her mother, so why should they be punished and be abused and bullied like that by others. She can’t stand it. She doesn’t have the kindness and generosity of her mother. She will hate those who hurt them, hate them, fear them… and envy them.

She envied the children who bullied her, that they would always be clamored for when they were in class and play games, and that they could be princesses and princes during lunch breaks, instead of being forced to be cows and horses. People riding, being big baddies, being thief, being chased by people holding wooden swords and broomsticks, envious that they can get the little red flowers, can not be viewed by the teacher with dirty and troublesome eyes, and envy them that they are clean A place and a stable life, don’t be afraid that the debtor will hit the door in the middle of the night, and when you wake up, the door of the room was painted with red paint again. All the neighborhoods pointed and cursed them.

She has had enough.

She didn’t want to. She didn’t want to be in front of the street rat all the time, and grew up in the gutter.

So, when she came home from the kindergarten again with bruises and bruises, her mother wiped her medicine and asked her chokedly: “Come on, mom will take you to the car in two days and visit grandma by the way, okay?” Grandma’s house has a lot of fun new toys, and there will be many children playing with you.” She did not refuse; therefore, her mother lied to her, “Come on, wait for your mother here with grandma, and mother will buy you a little cake” At that time, she did not retain.

Many times in her dreams, she cried and held her mother’s thigh to keep her from walking.

But the reality is that that year, she endured her tears, nodded, and watched her mother leave without saying a word to stay.

Mom thought she was still young, and she didn’t know anything.

But in fact, the harsh environment has already made her mature earlier than all children of the same age. She knows it all. She knew that her mother wanted her to live better and wanted to send her away, so the night of parting, her mother held her and kept crying; she also knew that her mother would not come back after she went to buy cakes, so she left. At that time, my mother turned her head three times, her face was full of tears.

She couldn’t bear to her mother. However, she was really scared of the old days. She yearns too much for the new city her mother said, the new life she might have, a good life…

Therefore, she was ruthless, selfish, and abandoned her mother without knowing anything.

When grandma beat her and scolded her, she always said that she had no mother, her mother abandoned her, and her mother didn’t want her. But she herself knew, no, it was not her mother who abandoned her, it was she who abandoned her mother, and the person who regarded her as all the hope of life, loved her the most and the most selfless in the world.

Therefore, she deserves to have received the fairest trial of her destiny, which made her pay the heaviest price for her selfishness and ruthlessness-she fell to the hands of the tyrannical old man.

She fell under the fence and lived a life looking at people’s faces.

This is her fault.

She pleaded guilty.

She began to confess, began to suffer day by day, and regretted every night. She did not dare to sleep, often had nightmares, dreamed that her mother had a bad life, dreamed that her mother scolded her, hated her, and denied her. She always fell from the dream I woke up from crying, and then was beaten. After being beaten, I regretted, feared, and missed my mother more.

She began to look forward to her mother coming back to find her, and she started to be afraid that she would never see her mother again in this life. But what to do, she is too weak, she can’t do anything.

She saw her grandma and the adults who always burned incense to worship Buddha and worship the gods religiously. So desperate, she knelt barefoot on the floor in another night when she dreamed of her mother, and bowed her head sincerely.

She prayed to the gods and destiny to forgive her sins. She said she knew she was wrong. She regretted it. She didn’t dare anymore.

She promised that starting from today, she will be the kindest and most well-behaved child. She will be a good person.

She begged them to return her mother one day.

Give her luck back.

From that day on, she put away all her edges and corners, all her premature thoughts, lowered her eyebrows, pleasing to the eye, beating or scolding, putting people first in everything, and being kind to others. Tolerance, patience, and kindness have almost become her obsession.

She fulfilled the promise she exchanged with God, and forbearance lasted more than ten years.

She asked herself that there was no slack and she had tried her best.

However, fate didn’t seem to have forgiven her, and good luck didn’t seem to really favor her. If it is right to be patient forever, forgiving forever, and forever kind, why can’t her tolerance and kindness be exchanged for good results?

Her kindness was exchanged for Zhang Lulu’s calculations and Shi Yi’s bailout was deprived, and her tolerance was exchanged for grandma’s decent advancement, even uncle asked for granted, “Please be considerate.”

Hasn’t she been considerate enough for so many years?

That’s ridiculous.

Why on earth did she live herself like this. Is persistence for so many years really meaningful?

All the past reappeared in her mind like a revolving lantern, and what was finally frozen was that in the darkness, Shi Yi’s figure with her back turned away, thin and indifferent, out of reach.

Fu Sitian couldn’t find the answer.

She turned off the faucet, dried her body, put on her clothes, and walked out of the bathroom precariously and back to the room.

From a distance, she saw that her room door was wide open, and Fu Siyu squatted on her tatami with her back facing her. She seemed to be holding something in her hand and didn’t know what she was doing.

Fu Sitian didn’t have the energy to care about her, let alone the strength to be courteous to her. She walked into the room silently.

Fu Siyu heard the sound and made a guilty conscience. He was startled and turned to look at her sideways.

As she turned to the side, Fu Sitian could see what she was holding on her hand-it was a new deep-sea blue underwear.

Fu Siyu unpacked it, and she even removed its label.

Like the last straw that crushes a camel. For an instant, Fu Sitian shook his body, and blood flowed back into his head.

Pointless! Pointless! Tolerance, tolerance, and kindness are all meaningless ghosts.

She grabbed the underwear from Fu Siyu’s hand and asked her in a stern voice that she had never uttered: “What are you doing?! Why are you touching it! Why!”

Fu Siyu’s face changed when he was shouted. She had never seen Fu Sitian’s stern expression, her face was still the same, she sank down, her eyebrows were pressed down, she was so fierce as to eat people.

She was actually a little scared, but she didn’t want to admit it. She was even a little wronged and puzzled. When did Fu Sitian be so fierce to her, how could she yell at her like this, just for this broken underwear?

She didn’t want to admit defeat, so she bit her scalp, and yelled back at her arrogantly: “Why are you so fierce? You took gunpowder? You put it on the ground yourself. What’s wrong with me? Will you die?”

“Yes!” Fu Sitian answered her loudly.

Fu Siyu was choked by the roar. She looked at Fu Sitian not letting her look, and didn’t know why, her nose was sour. So, in order not to lose face, she shouted back louder: “Then you go, why are you going to die! It’s just a piece of torn underwear, are you as good as it? As far as it is!”

“As for… As for…” She hugged the underwear, still choked up.

Fu Siyu didn’t know anything. She didn’t know how much Shi Yi needed this underwear; she didn’t know, when she washed Shi Yi underwear, she found that the cups of the underwear she brought out were deformed, and the laces did not know when there were awkward stitches. When she was heartbroken and blamed herself; she didn’t know how hard it was that she secretly took back her resigned tutor in order to save money. She didn’t know, when she used all the school fees to buy this one. The most expensive underwear she had bought in her life, when she was about to give it to her when she was celebrating the end of her postgraduate entrance examination, she had so much expectation and hope for it.

She always didn’t know anything, she was always so unscrupulous.

again and again.

“I won’t forgive you forever.” She looked at her, gritted her teeth every word.

Fu Siyu was shocked, unbelievable, but still stubbornly responded: “If you don’t forgive, you won’t forgive, who is rare.”

“My ancestors, what are you arguing about at night.” Wang Meifen heard the quarrel upstairs, and ran up from downstairs, before people arrived first.

Suddenly, Fu Siyu rushed to the door like a backer, grabbed Wang Meifen’s arm and started to complain: “Mom, she took a gunpowder. I was curious to take a look at her new underwear. She didn’t give up and lost her temper.”

Wang Meifen was so disturbed by her daughter’s cry that it wasn’t a big deal after all. As for the two children. “It’s okay, it’s a big deal.” She looked at Fu Sitian with a calm face, and wanted to press Fu Sitian as usual, so that she would stop worrying about Fu Siyu and turn big things into small things.

But when her eyes touched Fu Sitian and Fu Sitian’s fragile and stubborn pupils, she did not dare to speak easily.

She remembered how tough she was in the old man’s room just now.

“This is a gift I want to give to someone. She broke the label.” Fu Sitian explained in an ups and downs voice.

“It dropped by itself, not by me. It dropped as soon as I picked it up.” Fu Siyu couldn’t bear any wrongdoing.

Wang Meifen is one of the first two big people. Unsure of Fu Sitian’s current emotions and attitude, she has to pretend to be fair: “This is a small fish that is not right. Can you stick it? Or sew it, or I will see, I… …”

Before she finished speaking, Fu Siyu opened her mouth: “What is wrong with me, I will say it again, it was dropped by itself, not by me!”

Wang Meifen was going to be mad at her and scolded her: “Shut up first, you.” One did not control her, and the tone became a little harder.

Fu Siyu was aggrieved to the extreme. He spread his arms around Wang Meifen’s arm and cried and asked, “Even you protect her! Mom, even you protect her. Is there any place for me in this family?!”

She turned around and went to the top of the stairs. Wang Meifen trembled and reached out to catch her. She didn’t catch her. He saw her and ran downstairs, and hurriedly turned around to run to pull her.

After all, he was getting old, his hands and feet were heavy, and he was walking fast. One slippery foot, holding on to the handrail of the stairs, almost collapsed.

Fu Sitian instinctively rushed down to help her: “Auntie…”

At the same time, the sound of an iron gate in the yard was thrown to the sky.

Wang Meifen glared at her angrily: “What are you trying to do? Go chase her! She is a girl in the middle of the night!”

Fu Sitian was reprimanded and chased down.

She has obeyed for too many years, and has already formed a reflexive obedience to their orders and their commands. Wearing pajamas and slippers, she followed Fu Siyu out of the courtyard, ran to the village road, and watched Fu Siyu who was running in front calling out: “Little fish, don’t run, come back…”

Fu Siyu heard it clearly, but he kept walking, but he ran faster.

Fu Sitian ran after her mechanically, stumbled, and the dim village road suddenly turned into a double image, pressing against her eyes.

It’s like a road with no end, no life, and no idea where to lead.

Fu Sitian suddenly didn’t know why he wanted to run, why he wanted to chase, or even, why he wanted to live?

This world is like a huge cage, no matter how she struggles or runs, she can’t escape this shackle.

She is so tired.

Where else can she go.

Can she just fall down like this and never get up again?

At the crossroads ahead, there were two obvious yellow lights lit up, and they were clearly going straight ahead and begging for a car. Regardless of his back, Fu Siyu kept moving forward, about to cross.

In that second, she opened her mouth and wanted to call her: “Be careful, car!”

But for that second, it was like a demon possessed.

She didn’t know what she thought, maybe she didn’t think about anything.

She opened her mouth without making a sound.

In the next second, harsh brakes, crashes, and screams sounded in the cold winter night.

Fu Sitian knelt down with weak legs.

She knew that she was done.

Her life is over.

Kindness is not necessarily right.

Vicious, but it must be wrong.

It’s like a curse.

The children of murderers, when they grow up, also become murderers.