Stunned for You

Chapter 120

On the night of December 21st, when Fu Sitian was bloodstained in the county People’s Court in Ningcheng, when she was experiencing a snowstorm, Shi Yi made two phone calls to her. Fu Sitian didn’t hear anything, so it vibrated to automatically hang up.

Intracranial hemorrhage, spleen rupture, right leg amputated, left leg is also dangerous, whether you can wake up depends on good luck…The critical illness notice and the informed consent form for surgery are signed one by one, and the phone number for borrowing money is one by one. Dial, Wang Meifen and Fu Jiantao’s sky collapsed, and Fu Sitian’s world also collapsed. The light in front of her was clearly dazzling, but she only saw the swaying red and black spots. This dark night seems to never light up again.

She didn’t know what to say to Shi Yi when she answered the phone, or what to say to Shi Yi.

What about the treatment fee? What if Xiaoyu can’t wake up anymore? What will uncle and aunt do from now on? What will she do with Shi Yi’s in the future?

she does not know. She couldn’t face the voice of Fu Siyu who called her in the pool of blood, “Sister…Save me…Save me…” I swallowed my conscience.

Unable to face, unforgivable.

The aunt made her roll with her red eyes. She did not dare to stand in her sight to irritate her, so she had to retreat to the stairwell outside the aisle. She curled up, dressed in thin clothes, leaning against the wall, looking obliquely at the closed operating room door, half of her face flushed and swollen, half of her face pale as paper, biting her lower lip, and convulsing physiologically, like a winter A stray cat that gradually lost heat at night and died.

She doesn’t quite understand why people like her were born and why they are still alive. To live seems to be a sin, tiring and tiring. Whatever you do is wrong, and how you struggle is useless. No one can save her, no one can illuminate her, and Shi Yi can’t.

That is a line called destiny. It restrained her to move forward, no matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t change the trajectory of sinking.

She gave up.

If fate is destined to sink her, at least, she can let Shiyi go.

At 13:00 on December 22, after more than ten hours of surgery, Fu Siyu was finally pushed out of the operating room. She was unconscious, her right leg was gone below the knee. Fu Sitian staggered to support himself, emerged from the stairwell, followed the operation cart from a distance, and came to the intensive care room. As soon as Wang Meifen swept her away, her emotions were blown up again, and she rushed towards her, but Fu Jiantao buckled her from behind. Crying, biting and kicking, she passed out.

The doctor said she was exhausted and overstimulated. Fu Sitian stood outside the ward, shaky and ashamed.

Fu Jiantao was exhausted.

It is false to say that Fu Sitian has not angered at all. But the palms of the palms and the backs of the hands were all meat. He knew in his heart that this was just an accident, no wonder Fu Sitian. He clutched his hair, as if he was ten years old overnight, and told Fu Sitian: “You go back first. These days…Don’t come here yet, your aunt…” He sighed, and couldn’t find words. Finally I can only repeat it again: “Go back, you can’t help here either.”

“If there is something in school, you can go back to school first. Wait for your aunt to calm down.”

Fu Sitian looked at him with tears in his eyes, and could not say anything except nodding his head.

She would rather him be like her aunt, scolding her and beating her, she would be better off. But he didn’t have any.

She had no self-confidence, and was completely swallowed by a deep sense of guilt and self-disgust. She drifted back to the old man’s house like a wandering spirit. After entering the door, the nanny aunt cared about Fu Siyu’s situation and told her that in the morning, a woman dressed very gracefully and surnamed Fang came to her and heard that after an accident in her house, After waiting for a while, he left a business card and left.

Fu Sitian’s brain was dull, and he reacted for several seconds before remembering who this woman surnamed Fang might be.

She took the business card from the nanny aunt Fang Ruohua.

It really was her.

She didn’t panic at all, there was only one-the feeling that the day had finally come.

It hurts everywhere, but the pain is so numb that she finds that she is not intolerable anymore. As long as you imagine that you are dead, it doesn’t matter what this body is, and it doesn’t matter.

She took the business card and went to the rooftop. She looked at the business card without moving for a long time. A number key and a number key dialed the series of numbers.

After the ringing lasted only two seconds, the call was connected, and Fang Ruohua’s gentle voice came from the speaker: “Hello, hello.”

Fu Sitian unconsciously picked his nails on the concrete wall, bit his lower lip, and replied: “It’s me, auntie, Fu Sitian.”

Fang Ruohua was not surprised at all: “I know.”

“The family said that Auntie, you came to me in the morning?”

“Yes.”

After a two-second pause, no one spoke, Fang Ruohua broke the silence: “I heard that something happened in your house. I’m not sure if it is appropriate to tell you this time?”

She had been tossing and turning all night after receiving a phone call from a bodyguard who had been keeping Shi Yi’s secretly protecting Shi Yi last night. But when she heard that her sister had been in a car accident, she moved with compassion again, wondering if she was too cruel.

But unexpectedly, Fu Sitian replied: “It’s okay, let’s talk about it, Auntie.”

Her voice was as soft as it was about to go away in the next second, Fang Ruohua prepared the reprimand and questioning words all night, but suddenly she couldn’t say it.

After a while, she asked: “You should know what I’m going to say?”

Fu Sitian looked at the distant blue sky out of focus, and said, “I know.”

“Auntie, do you want to persuade me to break up with Shi Yi?

Fang Ruohua admitted: “Yes.”

Fu Sitian’s nails had been cut and the nails were separated, but she didn’t notice anything. She closed her eyes, and what sounded in her ears was the whistling wind and the announcement of Shi Yi word by word in her memory: “Fu Sitian, listen, I want us to go to the end. It’s a minute and a second, I’m sorry. Me, mistake me for life.”

She wanted to answer her “good”, but she opened her mouth, but she heard what she said: “Auntie, do you still care about her?”

“Yes.”

“You still love her, don’t you?”

“Yes.” Fang Ruohua said: “She is my treasure. I love her more than anyone in this world.”

“Including your husband, your little daughter?”

Fang Ruohua did not hesitate and said, “Yes.”

Fu Sitian shed tears, but smiled, and murmured: “That’s good…that’s good…”

She promised: “Auntie, I promise you that I will break up with Shi Yi.”

The wind on the rooftop was so strong that she felt that her soul had disappeared. The white in front of her was not white, and blue was not blue. She supported the wall and climbed onto the balcony, looking at the sun, sitting quietly in the dark field of vision.

The sun slowly went downhill, and the wind dried her tears.

She climbed down the balcony silently again.

She knew she couldn’t die yet.

She is not qualified to die.

It has caused too much trouble to others, and she still has her unfulfilled responsibilities.

On December 23rd, Fu Siyu was still in a coma, and Wang Meifen still didn’t want to see her. As agreed, she returned to Shencheng to accompany Shiyi for the postgraduate entrance examination.

The night before the postgraduate entrance examination, Shi Yi was still lying with his back to her. After returning, what she and Fu Sitian said, ten fingers were found. She did not tell Fu Sitian why she made two calls to her that night. Just like Fu Sitian didn’t tell her what happened after she went back.

Shi Yi’s reason, patience, reservedness and pride have almost reached their limits.

She even persuaded herself in her heart that as long as Fu Sitian can find out that there is something wrong with her, and can hug her from behind and coax her like in the past, she will be considerate of her, and she will give up all her self-esteem, really as if she doesn’t know anything. , Hugged her back firmly and told her how scared that night she was, how much she needed her, how longing for her shoulders and arms, and how disappointed she was.

But Fu Sitian did not give her such a chance.

She just lay neatly, motionless, not even kicking the quilt. An arm’s distance, like thousands of mountains and rivers, separated them into two worlds.

Shi Yi’s heart was completely cold.

Although Fu Sitian accompanied her to go to bed early and get up early during the two days of the postgraduate entrance examination, take her back and forth, put her specially requested amulet, and prepared fresh and delicious meals for her, the number of phone messages received was less than usual. A caring lover who accompanies his girlfriend to postgraduate entrance examination.

But Shi Yi knew that something was getting closer and closer. Fu Sitian occasionally looked at her eyes, giving her a hunch, which made her desperate and helpless.

She didn’t know what else she could do or what else to do.

If only one person wants to persevere in a relationship, what is the meaning of unilateral perseverance besides being passionate and making jokes?

Her reason and pride allowed her to accept and let her let go.

She also thought that she was ready.

But when the last scientific examination was over, they had a long time to eat outside, and after walking the way home they had walked hundreds of times in the past six months, Fu Sitian stopped her and said, “Shi Yi “When I have something to say to you,” her heart still trembled.

Fear grabbed her heart and soul, and she asked in a low voice, “Can’t you go home and say it?”

Fu Sitian shook his head. She stared at her with sad eyes and a little compassion, and said, “I’m sorry, Shi Yi, let’s break up.”

Gentle and skillful, as if I have practiced it countless times in my heart, it is not difficult to say at all.

Shi Yi once loved her soft voice so much, but at this moment, she wanted to cover her ears so that she would never hear the cruel words behind.

But Fu Sitian couldn’t hear her pleading, and he calmly and mercilessly followed her: “My clothes and books are all taken back to the dormitory. I don’t want the rest. If you don’t want them, you can throw them away. I haven’t moved the money in the card. It’s in the bedside drawer. You know the code. You can continue to rent the house, or you can sublet it and refund the money…”

Shi Yi couldn’t listen anymore, she asked her: “Why…”

Fu Sitian squeezed out the words calmly and suddenly got stuck.

“Why do you want to break up? I want a reason, but it’s not too much?” Shi Yi wrapped his chest with one hand, staring at her, and repeated.

She regained her aura, stood very straight, her expression was cold, her eyes were deep and deep, her face was still the same as that year, and she took away all of Fu Sitian’s mind and spirit of extraordinaryness and coldness. , But in her eyes, there was no longer the shining light at that time.

Exhaustion covered the corners of her eyebrows and eyes.

Fu Sitian burst into tears, his throat hurts like a needle. She held back her tears, opened her mouth, and tried to say coldly: “I thought we all had a consensus.”

“Shi Yi, we are not suitable. If this goes on, we are all tired.”

“Are you tired, or am I tired?” Shi Yi heard himself ask mockingly.

She didn’t want to be like this. She wanted to agree casually, she wanted to get together and get away, and give herself and Fu Sitian the last decent point, but her chest, her throat, and her mouth were filled with anger and unwillingness, and she didn’t listen to her instructions at all.

“Where is it inappropriate? Ability, character, or…gender?” She bit the word “gender” very hard, full of mockery.

Fu Sitian looked at her blankly, as if he didn’t recognize her. After a while, she looked down and perfunctorily: “What do you think it is. I am sorry for you.”

When Shi Yi looked at her, he also felt that he did not know her. Is this indifferent, unwavering girl really the gentle lover she loved?

Did she really know her, really know what she loves? She used to think it was stupid to fall into love and dig her heart out for someone who was not worthy, but she didn’t expect that in the end, she would be no different.

She looked at Fu Sitian without blinking, as if she wanted to see through her soul and carve her into her bones. After a few seconds, she curled her lips and sneered coldly: “Fu Sitian.”

After a pause, she said, “Perhaps, should I change the name?”

“Jiang… Cun… Xi…” She stared at her and said word by word.

Fu Sitian’s perfect calm mask finally cracked, and her familiar panic and pain appeared in her eyes. Shi Yi continued to stabbing her with satisfaction: “Why didn’t you say it was inappropriate at the beginning?”

“You went on a blind date?”

“Can’t wait so much?”

Her acquiescence, her panic, made her more and more mean, “Is it fun to play with me? From the beginning, shouldn’t I believe you.”

“Sure enough, bad genes will be inherited.”

The last two words fell, and for an instant, Fu Sitian couldn’t bear it, and his whole body trembled, tears raining down.

She finally didn’t calm down, and finally cried, and finally seemed to hurt too. Shi Yi felt that he was happy and even more painful.

She heard Fu Sitian choke, “So you knew it a long time ago. So, did you always look at me like this?”, looking at her thin and trembling figure, she suddenly didn’t know what she was talking about or what she was doing.

No matter what, why bother…why bother…

The hostility all over his body was washed away by Fu Sitian’s tears. Shi Yi’s head exploded and it hurt. She was so tired that she almost ran away from the wasteland, turned around, turned her back to her, and said in an extremely indifferent tone: “That’s it. I promise you, I broke up. In the future, the bridge will return to the bridge, the road return to the road, As if we had never known each other.”

Fu Sitian’s cry was still there, but he answered without hesitation: “Okay.”

Shi Yi was stiff for two seconds, and finally lifted his footsteps, step by step, and walked towards the cold and stubborn “home” where she was alone.

Scenes of the past appeared before her eyes. It was when she sang “About I Love You” on the wind and rain runway during the big rain of that year, she sang her brows and whispered; it was when they sat side by side when their affection was unknown, and she hugged her She said softly and shyly, “If you need it, I will be your father, your mother, your home”; still that year, she had a high fever, bare feet, holding her hands, crying and begging She “Shi Yi, don’t go, don’t like her”…

She didn’t understand why loving someone is so fickle, why Fu Sitian’s love, like his mother’s love, can be taken back.

In this world, what else will not change?

She had no spine to fantasize and begged: come, call me, hug me, don’t leave.

But until she stepped into the iron gate and closed the gate, Fu Sitian didn’t say another word. Even, maybe, she has already left.

Shi Yi’s strength was taken away, and he supported the stairs to support him staggering upwards.

She didn’t want to look back, she didn’t want to stop, and she didn’t want to cry. She told herself, forget it, it’s okay, but it’s a broken love, it’s a rich life experience.

When you are young, it is no big deal to miss someone. Isn’t she the one who wants to drive the most?

She can live better alone.

But step by step, she finally squatted down halfway, like a beggar abandoned by the world, hugging her knees, crying.

She didn’t know how Fu Sitian stood at the side of the building and at the alley, watching her with nostalgic eyes, watching the little starlight remaining in her life, disappearing into her own world forever. disappear.

She couldn’t hear her crying, she couldn’t hear the thousands of “I’m sorry” that she said to her from the bottom of her heart, and in the end it only turned into a silent blessing: “Shi Yi, go forward, don’t look back.”

“The future is bright.”

At half past eight, Fu Sitian walked back to the dormitory like a corpse.

Jian Luhe asked how she came back, what about Shi Yi? She replied without ups and downs: “I broke up with Shi Yi, and I will come back to live for a few days.”

Jian Luhe’s face suddenly became ugly. She turned her head and asked in disbelief: “What did you say, you say it again.”

Fu Sitian’s eyes were as still as dead water, and he repeated it once: “I broke up with Shi Yi, and I will come back for a few days.”

In the next moment, she was held by Jian Luhe by the collar, reached the iron ladder, and hit her head **** the ladder.

“Fu Sitian, you bastard! You said the breakup, did you say it?”

She looked at Jian Lu and her angry eyes, without denying it.

“How can you be like this, how can you be like this.” Jian Luhe glared at her, so angry, he started crying first. “Do you know how much she likes you? Do you know how much she has suffered for you, and how much wronged she has suffered for you, and you are afraid that you are not willing to let you know. But in the end, you are not worth it at all.”

She should have known it long ago. Two days ago, Yi was followed by a drunk. After the accident, Aunt Fang couldn’t contact Fu Sitian and contacted her to accompany Shi Yi. She should have known. Fu Sitian has changed! She has changed!

She had never seen such a fragile Shi Yi, and she had never been so angry with Fu Sitian.

But Shi Yi was still talking to her. She said: “She should have something at home and it is not convenient to speak.”

How inconvenient can it be? ! She didn’t understand at that time, but now suddenly she understands.

No matter how convenient it is if it is intentional. Without heart, it’s inconvenient.

She couldn’t wait for Fu Sitian’s response, and Fu Sitian didn’t seem to respond to her. Jian Luhe hit the cotton with a punch, furious and weak. She let go of Fu Sitian, backhanded and grabbed the frame on the desk with pictures of Fu Sitian and her, Shi Yi, and Yin Fanlu and smashed it, and said in disgust, “Fu Sitian, I saw you wrong.”

Slam the door and leave.

Fu Sitian slid down the iron ladder, knelt on the ground, swept away the broken glass little by little, stroking their brilliant smiles in the photo, blood pouring from fingertips.

Jian Luhe did not come back until late at night. Fu Sitian knew that Jian Luhe disgusted her and didn’t want to see her. Fortunately, fortunately, tomorrow morning, she will return to Ningcheng. There will be no courses in the next semester. She will not come back unless she responds and takes an exam. It will not affect Jian Luhe’s normal life too much.

She didn’t lock the door, and she was confused and chaotic, and she had insomnia until midnight.

I don’t know what time, the door of the dormitory rang. She thought it was Jian Lu and or the new roommate who had come back.

But the footsteps were heavy, step by step, as if coming towards her bed.

Fu Sitian’s heart jumped violently, and it ached violently.

She dared not open her eyes. In the darkness, she heard footsteps finally stop beside her bed, motionless.

“Liar.” She heard Shi Yi’s heartbreaking accusations, humble and hoarse. “Obviously promised me that I won’t dislike me, I will always like me.”

She reached out and touched her cheeks, eyebrows and eyes, gently and cautiously, as if she was touching an easily shattered mirror.

Fu Sitian’s heart cramped, as if his soul was being burned by the temperature of her fingertips. But she was motionless, as if completely asleep.

Shi Yi retracted his hand, looked at Fu Sitian by the moonlight, and stood quietly.

Fu Sitian always pretended to sleep without responding.

Shi Yi finally gave up completely.

She laughed low, her lips were chapped and bleeding, her voice was clear and cold, and she said, “Jiang Cunxi, don’t be afraid.”

“I came to you to make a Christmas wish.”

“From now on, I will never like you again.”

“Goodbye.”

Fu Sitian remained motionless. She tried her best to nail herself to the bedboard, her hands hidden in the quilt, clutching the bedboard tightly, crying until her fingernails were filled with cracked blood.

Life does not meet, moving like participating in business.

She knew what she had lost. For the rest of her life, her night will never light up again.

In 2016, after a “goodbye”, they really never saw each other again.

For all the exams at the end of that semester, Shi Yi applied for postponement.

Fu Sitian never saw Shi Yi again.

Until graduation.

Until many years after graduation.

Shi Yi disappeared into Fu Sitian’s world.

Fu Sitian disappeared in everyone’s world.

The mountains and rivers are far away, and the brief encounters of those years are like a fleeting dream in everyone’s long life.

Woke up from the dream, everyone moved on. Even Chen Xizhu gradually gave up looking for Fu Sitian after going abroad.

Only occasionally gatherings, open-air picnics, full of wine and food, and reminiscences of the past, will they remember that there were a few stars in the midsummer, and there was a girl who also spent time talking and laughing with them.

But none of them said anything.

Everyone seems to have forgotten her.

I forgot that Shi Yi once loved a girl very much, that girl, when she laughed, she had a very gentle and gentle Liwuo.