I Want to be Alone, Beautifully

Chapter 29 Ome Ome (21)

What does it feel like to look at a person who is extremely cold in nature, domineering, presumptuous, and inaccessible in the eyes of others, showing a pitiful cry in front of you?

Shen Yelan imagined countless times.

However, when this day really came, she realized that the pictures she had imagined were less than one ten thousandth of the real.

The sweaty person came up weakly and bonelessly, and weakly pressed his forehead against her shoulder, causing the messy, hot and cold breath to pour through her neck, and the gradually unable to be tolerated. Live sound.

have to say–

In fact, Xu Jiao’s physical strength is very good. At the beginning, even if she was disturbed by the changing rhythm of ice and fire, she didn’t say anything too awkward. She just covered it silently, forbearingly, and like a business. With Shen Yelan’s eyes, she wanted to pass this time as soon as possible.

However, Shen Yelan did not fulfill her wish. At the moment when Xu Jiao was overly focused, she suddenly raised her hand and slowly walked toward the other side’s touchable, untouchable, and taboo places.

Once the rhythm is disrupted, this initiative…

I will never be able to come back.

…

The light outside the window gradually faded from its peak state, and after waning, it was eaten away bit by bit by the cold and silent night, until it was completely swallowed.

The original movement of the breeze and the rustling of branches and leaves was replaced by those little things that dared to jump out in the dark of night, calling out from time to time, and I don’t know who I want to attract attention.

The room was completely dark.

No matter how good Xu Jiao’s physical strength was, she gradually softened at this moment, and even the part of the sheet that was pressed by her calf, after being sunken, the color of the surface layer became darker.

Darkness can always magnify certain emotions in people’s hearts–

So Xu Jiao finally couldn’t hold it back, the emotions in her eyes became hazy, and Qingming was completely lost. Because the other party couldn’t see clearly, she said softly in a somewhat exhausted, pitiful-sounding voice:

“Please.”

The first pleading for an exit was like the first person on the battlefield to raise his hand to surrender. After that, he was completely defeated and vulnerable.

No matter what Shen Yelan asked for, there was only one thought left in her mind:

Hurry up.

As long as it can end quickly, let her do anything.

In such a lively picture, the system is naturally unable to appear, that is to say, there is not even a sound to wake her up again, like a person who fell into the game but was cruelly shut down and returned to reality.

At the moment of surrender, Xu Jiao’s emotions and desires were handed over to Shen Yelan, and she was in charge of life and death. She had to do what the other party wanted her, and she had no other choice but to obey.

At first, it was only physical tears streaming out of her eyes. Later, even Xu Jiao could no longer control the sound from her throat. She was like a broken rag doll, crying like pleading and pleading. first name:

“Shen Yelan.”

“Shen Yelan…”

In the hoarse, sobbing voice, all the requests that couldn’t be expressed were said.

Where is she now like the above-mentioned god?

This was pulled from the altar by the pagans and lost the godhead… Ordinary people can only be slaughtered by others, praying helplessly and at a loss for the enemy’s tenderness and forgiveness.

Shen Yelan finally touched, and changed her actions like charity, and let Xu Jiao lie down. Then, she covered the person’s ear and chuckled happily:

“carry on.”

“Sister Xu Jiao keeps calling me, and I will always help you.”

“If you stop, then I won’t continue.”

She wanted to use this method to imprint her name on Xu Jiao’s heart as deeply as possible. The more memorable the better, she wanted Xu Jiao to bear her own mark in all her passions and desires in the future.

…

The light on the second day came longer than before.

When Xu Jiao woke up, she was exhausted as if she was run over by a wheel, her eyelids were extremely heavy, her arms, arms and legs were full of soreness from excessive exercise, as if she didn’t even have the strength to turn over.

It’s all because of yesterday’s madness.

From noon to sunset, and from evening to late night, and in most cases, she was tricked into sweating, which naturally consumes a lot of money.

“Are you awake?” The system’s voice sounded. The long-lost mechanical sound represented absolute sanity, breaking a path to soberness in Xu Jiaoshang’s chaotic mind.

Xu Jiao slowed down, buried her head in the quilt, and after a long time she replied: “Yes.”

The system asks: “Do you still think she doesn’t like you?”

Xu Jiao: “…”

Her sigh was swallowed by cotton, without making any movement in the air.

Opening her eyes and looking at it, Xu Jiao found that there was no sign of Shen Yelan on the bed. She stretched out her hand to probe around in the bed. Except for the place where she slept, the surroundings were cold, which proved that the other party had been away for a long time Up.

Xu Jiao wanted to raise her hand to rub her head, moved her finger, and then gave up lazily. She kept her sleeping position unchanged, and asked the system aloud, “Is Shen Yelan still in my house?”

The system can still detect this distance, and immediately replied: “No.”

Xu Jiao scolded immediately: “This little **** who doesn’t even settle accounts when he’s full—”

She laughed angrily. She moved her muscles along with pain. She changed her posture in despair, looked up at the ceiling, stared at the wall lamp for a while, and then slowly closed her eyes.

“I admit, this time I made a mistake in judgment.”

Xu Jiao slowly said to the system from the bottom of her heart: “I thought she was just new to this matter, or that I was taking advantage of it, so I wanted to doubly… um… humiliate me and let me feel it. Her situation at the time.”

but.

But in fact, it’s not.

Xu Jiao met Shen Yelan’s eyes in the gap of sweating and rain yesterday. Their eyes were full of focus, persistence, and an amazing desire for control, as if she wished she could crush herself a little bit and eat it in.

The look in the eyes of a person is not deceiving——

When people look at the object they like, there will be temperature in their eyes, either warm or scorching hot, as long as they have seen this look, they will never forget it.

Hearing her answer, the system’s cold voice continued to sound: “I found that your behavior conflicted with the previous one. When you found that Shen Yelan had a tendency to like you before, you directly chose to stay away, avoiding her as much as possible. contact.”

“But yesterday, when she asked you to use this method to compensate, according to your behavior pattern, you were highly likely to refuse, but you agreed uncharacteristically. Why?”

“I have not found that you have too much guilt for the previous offense, which affects your emotional choices, and you are not a person who will be dazzled by desire. According to your previous behavior pattern, I think you I would rather find someone from the street to solve the needs, and never touch Shen Yelan.”

“What changed your mind?”

Xu Jiao: “…”

So she really hates this system.

Raising her hand to touch in the bed, she could only feel for a while. Xu Jiao didn’t have the energy to direct her arm to work, and directly asked the system: “Where is my phone?”

System: “Yesterday you put the dishes next to the sink and did not take it over. Please do not change the subject. The more I understand you, I will be able to work out a task to help you complete the final goal as much as possible. I believe you too. I don’t want to go through this local book.”

After a pause, it said: “After all, there are more than thirty books that you have just finished, not to mention some early serialized works of the deep pit…”

“Stop.” Xu Jiaoyu threatened to warn: “If you mention black history again, our topic will be over.”

The system is as she intended, no longer mentioning Xu Jiao’s earlier works.

Xu Jiao didn’t rush to talk about it, but told the system, “First, order a takeaway for me? I want to eat maocai. It’s slightly spicy. Just order the street in front of our No. 18 Lieutenant Colonel. That’s the best one. Eat, I think about what to add, kelp, beef, chicken wing tips…”

The system was silent for two seconds. Seeing her ordering food, she couldn’t help but say: “I’m not your smart housekeeper!”

Xu Jiao let go of her voice: “Hey, you don’t want to see me become the host of the unfinished first mission in history, starving to death in the world, right?”

“And you, a super artificial intelligence that surpasses the existing technology, can’t you even do something as simple as a network point of delivery?”

System: “Excitation method is invalid for me.”

But after being quiet for two seconds, it continued: “Anything else besides this? Rice?”

Xu Jiao hurriedly replied: “One bowl of rice will do! Well, I will add duck intestines, ham, baby vegetables…”

…

The hungry belly finally settled.

Xu Jiao originally planned to save her energy to take a shower, but she found that she was refreshed and cleaned long ago, so while waiting for the takeaway to arrive, she slept in the bed and put a pillow on herself. Until after adjusting for comfort-

“This is my own problem, right?”

She said slowly in her heart.

The system has a stance to ask questions: “What’s the problem?”

Xu Jiao’s eyes were half-closed, her long eyelashes fell, as if she was trying to block her one-third of acre, and she didn’t even want light to enter, her eyes were full of peace.

After exhaling a long and light breath, Xu Jiao’s voice slowly sounded in the room: “The night I drank too much, I confused her with one person…”

“I don’t know if it was because of the wine, or if my memory made a mistake at the time. I always felt that Shen Yelan that night was very similar to the person I knew. After I woke up, I would be distracted when I saw her. ”

“Clearly knowing that I was affected by drunkenness, my memory may have been biased, but I… still subconsciously look for that shadow on Shen Yelan’s body.”

“When she asked yesterday, I agreed with one bite—”

“If it were that person, she would not make such a request, Shen Yelan did.”

Therefore, Shen Yelan…just Shen Yelan.

Xu Jiao finally awakened herself from that illusory dream.

Before the system responded, after Xu Jiao finished speaking, she adjusted her mentality and continued: “I made this option. If the world still has a BE ending, it must be my responsibility, in order to make up for this mistake. , I will be more active than before, and I will work hard to eliminate Shen Yelan’s blackening value.”

“It’s true this time,” she emphasized.

System: “…so your last world effort just pretended to fool me. The essence is still passive, right?”

Xu Jiao made a haha: “Oh, how can you tell the truth in this relationship between us? How hurts your feelings.”

system:”……”

It indifferently concluded: “I hope you will do what you say… After all, before entering this world, I remember a person who promised to be full of love for this world.”

Xu Jiao: “?”

She was surprised: “Huh? Is it me?”

When the system was heated up by the core of her rogue temperament, Xu Jiao smiled again and said: “Okay, tease you, wait, when I’m full, I will start to greet her.”

…

Xu Jiao made a good guarantee in front of the system.

Even after eating the slightly spicy meal, I turned around and asked for Shen Yelan’s chat account from Su Xi, and forwarded a bunch of high-quality, carefully selected chicken soup texts to ensure that people read it. The kind that the soul can sublimate.

unfortunately……

She waited for a week and did not wait for a reply.

After returning to school to fill out the volunteers, Xu Jiao finally couldn’t hold back, sending out a punctuation mark in the dialog with Shen Yelan.

“?”

Still haven’t waited for a reply.

Xu Jiao pursed her lips, threw the phone aside, sat on the desk bored, and flipped through the “Walden Lake” that she used to hypnotize before going to bed. She shook her feet and noticed that Xiao Huang was under the desk. Drilling between her legs, rubbing her hairy head back and forth.

She enjoyed Xiao Huang’s favor, leaned over and gently touched its ears, rubbed its head again, and doubted the system in her heart:

“Am I wrong?”

“Or is this guy’s boring appearance the soul of Mensao? Looks serious, and his heart is full of tricks?”

“If she really likes me, the news to her sweetheart should be returned in seconds, right? Or is she playing with me in a game of jealousy?”

Xu Jiao was puzzled.

She didn’t know that this question of her could accompany her throughout the summer vacation of her senior year.

…

“There is no next time.”

Shen Yelan got off the plane, in the loess-filled Gobi Desert, raised her hand to gather the scarf around her neck, and said coldly to the person who came in front of him, Dongqing.

Holly raised her hand and patted her on the shoulder vigorously, and slapped her with a smile: “You can’t be ungrateful, kids. It was not this attitude when I asked me to lead you to make money. Why do I ask for it now? You, you just turned your face and didn’t recognize people?”

“A scumbag is not good, apprentice,” she said earnestly and earnestly.

However, Shen Yelan’s face was still like ice and snow, and she was not easily melted by her attitude. After standing upright again, she looked at the surrounding environment, and focused on Holly up and down, with a bit of anger in her tone:

“That’s what you said is only a breath, bedridden and just want to see me for the last time?”

“Is it time to come back now?”

Holly touched his nose, raised his eyebrows, and said again: “I’m really short of people, I’m afraid you won’t come? Hey, look at your face, why? I called you out of bed before you could eat it. Down?”

Shen Yelan gritted her teeth and said nothing.

I have eaten it–

However, after receiving the news, she didn’t even have time to take care of Xu Jiao, so she left the person at home. She originally counted the time and got off the plane to send a message to the other party to explain, and then order a lighter takeaway. As a result, the signal along the way was only a weak one.

She was bored and said to Holly: “Stop talking nonsense, and quickly take me to where there is a signal.”

Holly smiled and didn’t move.

Shen Yelan had a bad premonition inexplicably: “What?”

Holly pretended to look briskly at the sky: “You know, this area is chaotic, and there are always inexplicable currents-bombs flying everywhere.”

“So?” Shen Yelan asked patiently.

Dongqing: “So just one second before you came, our signal base station was mistakenly blown up, and someone from a base station company stationed here abroad was just kidnapped again. It took no more than two months to recover. No signal.”

Shen Yelan: “…”

Shen Yelan: “???”

She looked back and forth in amazement, and then asked: “Then what if you didn’t pick me up today?”

Dongqing gave a haha, and patted Shen Yelan’s arm vigorously again: “How could it be! Apprentice, you are so lucky, how could you not be able to find me? For the sake of our many years of relationship, I will be here. Waiting here for you till twelve o’clock in the evening! How is it, is it loyal?”

Hearing her words, Shen Yelan suddenly had an urge to kill the teacher.

In other words, if because of some accident, I cannot rendezvous with Holly today, then I can only resign to my fate in the unfamiliar corner of this life, relying on the sparse ability before.

Seeing that the killing intent in her eyes was condensing, Holly knew that she was wrong, and quietly gave her place to Shen Yelan, and said:

“Don’t be angry, apprentice, you see you come and stay with me for three months. Our boss is very generous with this order. When you go back to school, what kind of girlfriend do you want, right?”

Shen Yelan stayed unmoved, got into the car and closed his eyes to rest, and said lightly:

“I only want that one.”

Dongqing recalled the appearance of Xu Jiao that he had seen in the club at the time. He held Shen Yelan’s seat with one hand in the back row, and leaned over to look at her with his head tilted: “I didn’t expect that I actually taught a love-kind. ?”

Shen Yelan didn’t say a word.

After driving off-road, it was bumpy on the bumpy road. Holly had nothing to do, and continued to gossip, and asked Shen Yelan: “Then how long have you liked her?”

“She likes you too?”

Suddenly, the vehicle passed through a deep pit, almost knocking all the people out of the seat. Shen Yelan raised her hand in time to hold the top handle, stabilized her body, opened her eyes, and looked calmly. Looking at the front view.

Although Dongqing has not talked about any unforgettable love, she is also someone who has seen the world in Fengyuechang. Seeing her such a calm appearance, she can’t guess the answer. After sitting firmly again, she sighed.

From the back row came a thoughtful sentence of education:

“Good apprentice, listen to Master’s advice–”

“Passionate hatred since ancient times.”

Shen Yelan turned her head to look at her faintly, and accepted the next sentence blankly: “The origin of a good dream is the easiest to wake up. It comes from the “Flower Moon Mark” by Wei Zi’an in the Qing Dynasty. It can suffocate such a poem. Are you thinking about it?”

holly:”……”

The scumbag who was exposed by the Xueba slapped his seat, and said murderously: “Today I will clear the door as a teacher! No one will stop me!”

…

Shen Yelan squatted for more than two months in the broken place at the corner.

If she hadn’t set up a voluntary report earlier, it is estimated that her future would have to follow the holly bath. Even the school report was late, and she had missed the guidance of the seniors and senior sisters, and went to the college office obediently.

Therefore, the counselor also educates her earnestly: “We will regard it as voluntarily giving up the degree if it is less than a week after the start of school. You can call the college to ask for leave if you have something, but this can’t be done anymore.

The dusty Shen Yelan lowered her head to apologize: “I’m sorry, teacher, next time I will be early.”

Before understanding all the freshmen’s personalities, the counselor didn’t mind leaving a good impression on the new classmates. After the official instructions, they exposed the matter and gave all the information of the previous freshmen to Shen Yelan. There is also a rough map of the school.

After Shen Yelan walked through the process, she found her dormitory building on the huge campus all the way, cleaned up the dormitory, and greeted the roommates briefly, finally figured out her own because there is no signal, and there is no electricity behind it. If the phone is too lazy to charge, plug it in again and turn it on.

A bunch of junk messages popped out, accompanied by strange group messages.

Before being contacted by Su Xi, she didn’t download the chat software at all, so she didn’t set up the filter for adding friends. At this moment, there are everyone in it, and all group messages are jumping randomly.

In this bunch of news, there is a personal profile that makes her familiar.

It’s a big yellow dog with a smirk.

Shen Yelan has seen it several times.

At the same time, there was a series of sharing articles in it, and at the end a question mark came over, as if to test whether I was there or not.

This person’s name is…

“My dog ​​is super cute”

Shen Yelan: “…”

She opened the shared articles one by one, although they were somewhat endless, she finished reading them patiently, and sent the edit message:

“Is it sister Xu Jiao?”

“Sorry, something happened to my friend before. I left in a hurry, so I didn’t have time to contact you. Where are you now?”

…

“What kind of friend can keep her off the internet for three months?”

“System, do you believe this reason? I don’t believe it anyway.”

Xu Jiao and her friend were studying in the old school building. Hearing the movement of the mobile phone, she picked it up and looked at it for a long time. From the bottom of her heart, she criticized the system for Shen Yelan’s bad reasons.

The system was silent for two seconds, “But she never lied, at least to you, didn’t she?”

Xu Jiao flattened her mouth, “Wait, I’ll finish this set of six levels, and I’ll take care of her again.”

Then Xu Jiao became addicted to Tihai, accidentally staying in the classroom until almost 11 o’clock in the evening, and she was the only one left in the classroom. The security guard patrolled the building back and forth twice, reminding the students to go back to the dormitory early, and they will soon. The door is closed.

Xu Jiaoman nodded carelessly, pondering the answer to her reading question just now.

At this moment, the classroom door was pushed open again—

Xu Jiao thought it was the security guard to urge her, she looked up at will, but saw a person with a darker skin color than before, a little familiar and a little strange.

It’s Shen Yelan.

The reason why he is said to be unfamiliar is because the feeling on this person has changed. The black eyes that people used to dare not look directly at are now like a tempered blade, exuding a sharp cold light, and it darkens outside the corridor. In the light, it was still shining.

Autumn is now in the north, and the temperature drops at night. Shen Yelan wore a very light gray windbreaker, and the coat grew to the calf. As she walked, it led to an arc of takeoff.

She closed the door of the classroom with her backhand, recovered the silence of the room, and moved in Xu Jiao’s direction step by step.

Xu Jiao raised her brows and said the same thing as when she reunited last time: “Long time no see.”

Shen Yelan stopped in front of her, glanced down at the paper on her table, and asked in a low voice with a slight dumb voice:

“I gave you a message back, didn’t Sister Xu Jiao see it?”

Xu Jiao let out an “Ah”, and later realized: “I forgot to go back–how did you know that I was here?”

“If I remember correctly, we don’t seem to be a professional.”

Shen Yelan looked at her fixedly for two seconds. In her understatement of “forget”, she was quiet for a long time before answering: “I learned from the cafeteria, your college classroom, your department’s dormitory, and away from your major. , The teaching building near the dormitory was found one by one.”

Xu Jiao stunned to herself.

She knows how old the school is, and the engineering of finding someone makes people feel desperate.

Shen Yelan is really…

Before she could figure out how to describe this person, she suddenly saw Shen Yelan approaching her, raised her hand to hug her, and lowered her head to smell the new shampoo in her hair, and her voice was filled with emotion, deep Deeply:

“I miss you.”

Xu Jiao: “…”

Did she take the initiative to send it to the door before she became probation?

The problem is that they don’t seem to be lovers, what should they take?

Xu Jiao hesitated for two seconds, and was about to say “Me too” politely, when she saw Shen Yelan let go of her hand, she lowered her eyes and said, “I want you.”

Xu Jiao: “…?”

She focused on the subject and calmly replied: “Just think about it.” She didn’t even look at where it was.

Hearing her refusal, Shen Yelan didn’t know what was happening, and there was emotion in her eyes, and she suddenly raised her hand and held the back of her pen holding the pen, saying every word:

“I want you.”

“Right now.”

“This is the second time.”

Xu Jiao was shocked by her declaration, and the pen fell out of her hand, and asked the system in her heart: “Am I on the wrong path? You can’t influence her with love, you can only…”

“Melting with the body?”