WHAT REMAINS OF ME

Hinata's POV

"What are you doing here!?"

It was the anger in his eyes that made me sob harder. I didn't know what I was even expecting coming here. Maybe I really just lost my mind this time. I covered my face with my trembling hands and did my best to muffle the sounds of my cries. 

I knew from the heart that he hated it when I became too loud. He hated it when I did something stupid. And right now, I'm doing all the things he hates. He surely hates me now more than ever. And I hate myself, too. 

"Hinata," he called out. 

I didn't budge. Not because I didn't hear him, but because I was too afraid to move. Afraid to make another stupid mistake that would anger him. 

"Yna..." he uttered in a soft voice. 

I still didn't budge. My tears wouldn't stop from falling, so I dropped my head to my knees and desperately covered my ears. They might be doing tricks on me right now 'cause Zeke would never call me that name again. 

He used to call me Yna when everything was going well. There was a time when a day would not pass by without him pestering or annoying me. But I wouldn't care 'cause I knew that it's his way of showing affection. He used to share his dreams. His passion. We used to be buddies. Not until that night. The night that changed everything between us. 

"Yna, what's wrong?" he asked. He knelt in front of me. 

I slowly looked him in the eyes. They're blue and I love them. They reminded me of an ocean- deep, calm, and mysterious. I used to joke with him before to not look at me because I might get swept away by the depth of those pair of eyes. The same pair that's looking at me with worry at this moment. 

I sucked a deep breath and rubbed my eyes multiple times. This couldn't be real. 

"Tell me what's wrong. Why are you panicking? Are you hurt?" he asked consecutively. He even rested his hand on my knees. 

I stared at him in disbelief. And just like that, my tears stopped. The rhythm of my heart erratically changed its beat. And my thoughts... My tangled thoughts suddenly became clear. I couldn't help but do some fact-checking. 

First, he called me Yna. Second, he was looking at me with worry in his eyes. Third, he asked me if I was alright. Lastly, he put his hand on my knees. Holy, cow! Is the world ending? Or am I dreaming?

I slapped my face hard to make sure that I was not dreaming. That this was not a make-believe scenario that my brain had formulated to soothe my aching heart. 

"What the heck, Hinata!" His voice boomed in the whole house and confirmed! I was not dreaming at all. I was so happy, it made my eyes water. I finally got to experience the old Zeke. I missed it. I missed him so much. 

"Zekieee, is that you?" I managed to ask. 

The moment that question left my mouth, I realized how stupid it sounded. His eyebrows furrowed while his eyes shot daggers at me. He annoyingly removed his hand from my knees and stood up. He was fuming with anger. 

"Get out of my way, Idiot."

I hurriedly moved out of his way. He entered his room and slammed the door shut. I repeatedly slapped my forehead, mulling over the stupid mistake I had made. It was definitely a wrong move. However, a smile found its way to my mouth, which led to a giggle. I covered my mouth and walked to my room. My steps felt lighter, and I liked it. 

I must be really crazy.