What Are We??!

Everyone wishes to have that perfect designed love and Philip wasn't an exception nor for Aiden on that matter. But, we do differ in our kind of love and how we express it.

For Philip, he believed to be the jinx in the mix but, Aiden? He was relishing the feeling of having Philip there with them.

Aiden seemed like he forgave and forgot everything that he went through to get Philip back but, it was still gnawing at Philip's conscience. What's that something special that Aiden sees in him because, honestly? If he had a chance, he'd never date himself.

"I'm gonna head in first" Announced Aiden as he made his way to the bathroom without waiting for Philip's reply which didn't go unnoticed by him. Was he mad? Was that their way of fighting? What should he do now?

Philip felt guilty and everytime he thought about it the more embarrassed he got. He wanted to run away and hide from the feeling or better yet erase the incident from history which was highly impossible. He knows.

"Hey mama" Called out Aiden, concerned as he shook Philip. He called like three times to the frozen Philip on the bed.

"Hi there" Greeted Philip masking his concerns and worries behind a smile.

"Are you okay? I can sleep on the couch tonight if you are still uncomfortable with me" Suggested Aiden, finger crossed for he didn't want that but, if it can make Philip have an easy then, that's where he'd be sleeping.

"It's not that..." Trailed off Philip holding his head with a sigh.

"Let's go wash you up first" Suggested Aiden as he led Philip to their bathroom where he proceeded to undress him gently, caressing every exposed part as he goes and whenever he felt Philip flinching he'd always stop and check in with him.

"Baby, I'm sorry I ran away" Said Philip out of nowhere, stopping Aiden in his assault as he gathered his attention for Philip's words.

"Don't be" Replied Aiden kissing Philip's abs once more, trailing to his hip bone too close to his pubes, "I understood that it was too much for you to face it at that time"

"I can't always be this weak" Mumbled Philip before stopping Aiden's attempt to suck him off, "What should I do?"

"I don't know, Philip" started Aiden making Philip grimace at the name, "But, we can start with selling your boy clothes at your salon tomorrow and buying a new set. My brave and strong girlfriend"

"You don't sound weirded out that it's making me self conscious" Commented Philip dryly and sincerely.

"I don't sound weirded out because, it's not weird. I actually love making out with you in drag..." Trailed off Aiden as his eyes darkened and breath became ragged, the room was full of oil and soap scents before Aiden arousal became prominent.

"Can we not have sex tonight?" Asked Philip when it was getting too much overwhelming with Aiden's intentions.

"Of course we can but, please don't deny me from jerking off to you" Replied Aiden with yearning, "You are such perfection"

"..." Philip couldn't believe what he was hearing from Aiden, "What is it that makes you want me so much?"

"I wish it was that simple to be put into words" Said Aiden kissing Philip on his shoulder as he sat down the bathtub.

"There's still space in here" Offered Phillip as he scooted forward to leave a space behind him.

"I'll just make a mess of your scented bath" Said Aiden swallowing his greed, he wanted to do more than just caress that melanin beauty, "I'll have our food ready when you are done"

Once again, Philip was left feeling everything in that small space after Aiden left. He couldn't help but fear for his future. It was just too deep and too sudden.

As much as Philip loves Aiden, it was obvious how much Aiden was obsessed over him. He was low key controlling and have anger issues. Is it worth it? Should he really stay?

He took more time to get himself up from the bath than he spent showering. He found Aiden on their bed with a laptop on. Already into his work.

"There she is!" Announced Aiden enthusiastically closing his laptop and walking towards Philip who blushed at the respect he was getting from Aiden.

"You were working?" Asked Phillip the obvious

"Just proof reading my work. You can't be too sure, you know?" Replied Aiden with a shrug as he took a towel from Philip and started to dry him, making him melt.

"When are we moving?" Asked Philip when he remembered one of their pressing matters.

"Whenever you are ready, mama" Replied Aiden simply, "But, we can still stay here if it'll be a big hustle moving to and from your salon"

"And what about Mia?" Asked Philip as he faced Aiden seriously, wide eyed. What the heck is he doing?

"I can always rent her an apartment near campus, don't worry" Explained Aiden, kissing the top of Philip's forehead.

"Aiden?" Called out Philip, "what would we tell your child? How are people going to perceive them?"

"Look at you being overly protective even before the ultra sound!" Teased Aiden with a chuckle, "But, you are right. It's easier for us because, we chose to be together and they would just be roped into this. What are your suggestions?"

"I don't know, Aiden" Cried out Philip running to Aiden's embrace, making the man panic in the process.

"Don't suggest we break up, please" Begged Aiden.

"I can't leave that's why it's hard to see our future together" Replied Philip in tears, "I used to be okay without emotions but, now? Even if they terrifies me, I want to feel them all for you"

Aiden was left speechless. He didn't understand Philip and even when he tried to, he still came up with more questions than answers so, for the sake of his emotional release? He let Philip say whatever he was feeling.

"Aiden, for the longest time I thought it was my fault that my parents were fighting constantly and that sucks, I can't wish that on an innocent soul"

"We won't be fighting, me and Mia though" Clarified Aiden

"But you won't be together though" Argued Philip back.

"You want us to stay together? With Mia?" Asked Aiden confused.

Philip went silent for awhile after that question. What did he wish to happen so as to prevent ruining an innocent person's life. What can be done?

"Philip, I can't just switch my heart on and off like that" Started Aiden cautiously, "I can't get back with Mia. Not for our child, not for my love for her and that's not on you. Plus, raising a child in a cold household is more hurtful, don't you think?"

"I hate always being all this vulnerable around you" Said Philip embarrassedly.

"I love how you trust me with your naked soul" Said Aiden kissing Philip on the tip of his nose, "You make me want to be better for you. To be worthy of that"