Chapter 28: A Step Forward
The sun had long since set by the time Kieran returned to his room after the runic studies class. His mind was still buzzing with thoughts of dimensional storage and spatial manipulation, but another challenge demanded his attention tonight. The failed attempts at shadow stepping from two nights ago still rankled, a reminder of his limitations.
*"Back to our little project, are we?"* the entity's voice carried a hint of anticipation. *"At least try not to bleed on the floor this time."*
Kieran ignored the jab, pulling out the grimoire from beneath the loose floorboard. The leather-bound book seemed to pulse with dark energy as he opened it to the now-familiar page on shadow stepping. The diagrams hadn't changed, but somehow they looked different after his experiences in the runic studies class.
"The runes create channels for power," he murmured, tracing the patterns with his finger. "They don't force reality to change – they guide it, persuade it."
*"Finally learning to see beyond the surface,"* the entity approved. *"Perhaps tonight won't be a complete waste after all."*
Kieran set up the candles in their usual positions, creating pools of light and shadow across his small room. His magical core had recovered from the previous attempts, but the memory of that bone-deep exhaustion made him cautious. He couldn't afford to drain himself completely, not with classes tomorrow.
"Three attempts," he decided aloud. "If it doesn't work by then, we stop for the night."
The entity's presence shifted like ink in water. *"Wise. Though I suspect you won't need all three."*
Kieran moved to the center of the room, where the candlelight created the sharpest shadows. His first attempt two nights ago had been all about power – trying to force the shadows to bend to his will. The second had focused on technique, following the grimoire's instructions to the letter. Both approaches had failed.
"The shadows aren't tools," he reminded himself, recalling the entity's words. "They're partners in this dance."
He closed his eyes, reaching out with his magical senses. The shadows responded immediately, curling around his feet like curious cats. But this time, instead of trying to control them, he simply... listened. Felt their natural movement, their endless dance between light and dark.
*"Good,"* the entity murmured. *"Feel how they flow. Like water finding its path, darkness always seeks the deeper shadows."*
Kieran's first attempt was careful, measured. He gathered his power slowly, letting it seep into the shadows rather than forcing it. The darkness wrapped around him eagerly enough, but when he tried to take that final step – to become one with the shadows – his concentration wavered. The spell collapsed, though more gently than his previous failures.
"Better," he panted, wiping sweat from his forehead. "But still not right."
*"You're thinking too much,"* the entity observed. *"The shadows don't think about where they're going. They simply... go."*
Kieran nodded, taking a moment to steady his breathing before attempting his second try. This time, he focused less on the destination and more on the feeling of the shadows themselves. He let his consciousness expand, becoming aware of every dark corner, every patch of shade in the room.
The magic built more naturally this time, darkness flowing into darkness. For a brief moment, he felt his form begin to blur, to merge with the shadows – but then his instincts kicked in, that primal fear of dissolution jerking him back to solid form. He stumbled, catching himself against the wall as the spell unraveled.
"Damn it," he growled, frustration building in his chest. He was close – so close – but something kept holding him back.
*"One more try,"* the entity reminded him. *"Make it count."*
Kieran pushed himself away from the wall, sweat soaking through his shirt. His magical core ached from the strain, but he forced himself to focus. This was his last chance for tonight.
*What am I missing?* he thought, staring at the darkest corner of his room – his intended destination. *The shadows flow naturally, seeking deeper darkness. They don't fight their nature...*
Then it hit him. He'd been thinking about shadow stepping as a way to move through space, but that wasn't quite right. The shadows didn't move through space – they were already everywhere, connected through the darkness itself. He didn't need to move through space at all.
He just needed to let himself become part of that connection.
"Last try," he whispered, closing his eyes.
This time, he didn't think about moving from one point to another. Instead, he focused on the simple truth that all shadows were one shadow, all darkness connected in ways that light could never understand. His magic flowed out, not trying to control or direct, but simply... joining.
The shadows responded differently this time. Instead of wrapping around him like a cloak, they seemed to welcome him, to recognize him as one of their own. The white streak in his hair tingled as his form began to blur.
*"Yes,"* the entity's voice seemed to come from everywhere and nowhere. *"Now you understand."*
That familiar panic tried to rise as his body began to dissolve, but this time Kieran was ready for it. *I am the darkness,* he thought. *And the darkness is me.*
For one endless moment, he ceased to exist as a solid form. His consciousness spread through the shadows of the room, experiencing space in a way that defied description. He could feel every corner, every crevice where darkness dwelt. The candlelight didn't drive the shadows away – it defined them, gave them form and purpose.
Then, as naturally as breathing, he chose his destination. Not by thinking about it, but by simply being there, letting his consciousness coalesce in the deepest patch of shadow.
His body reformed in the corner, the transition so smooth he almost couldn't believe it had worked. For a moment, he just stood there, trembling with exhaustion and exhilaration.
*"Well done,"* the entity purred, genuine approval in its voice. *"Though I suggest you sit down before you fall down."*
The warning came just in time. Kieran's legs gave out as the full impact of what he'd done hit him. His magical core felt hollow, drained in a way he'd never experienced before. He slumped against the wall, sliding down to sit on the floor as the room spun around him.
"That was..." he gasped, struggling to find words for the experience.
*"Enlightening?"* the entity suggested. *"Transformative? Perhaps even a little terrifying?"*
"All of the above," Kieran managed a weak laugh. His entire body felt like lead, and dark spots danced at the edges of his vision. "Is it supposed to be this... draining?"
*"The first successful shadow step always is,"* the entity assured him. *"Your body and soul need time to adjust to being unmade and remade. It will get easier with practice."*
Kieran tried to push himself up, but his muscles refused to cooperate. The exhaustion was bone-deep, unlike anything he'd felt before. "How long..." he started to ask, but consciousness was already slipping away.
*"Rest,"* the entity's voice seemed to come from very far away. *"You've earned it. And tomorrow..."*
But Kieran didn't hear the rest. He slumped to the side, unconscious before his head hit the floor. The candles flickered in an unfelt breeze, and the shadows seemed to shift protectively around his fallen form.
The entity maintained its vigilant watch through the night, its presence a dark guardian in Kieran's mind. *"Sleep well, little shadow dancer,"* it murmured to its unconscious host. *"You've taken your first step into a much larger world."*
The grimoire lay forgotten on the floor, its pages still open to the shadow stepping diagrams. But Kieran no longer needed them. He had found his own way into the darkness, forged his own connection with the shadows. It had nearly drained him dry, true, but that was a small price to pay for such power.
After all, what was a little exhaustion compared to the ability to walk between shadows? He would recover, grow stronger, learn to manage the drain more efficiently. And next time, perhaps he would try for a longer jump, or experiment with carrying objects through the shadow space.
The possibilities were endless – if he survived learning to master them.
In his unconscious state, Kieran's dreams were filled with shadows that moved like water, and darkness that whispered ancient secrets. The white streak in his hair seemed to glow faintly in the candlelight, a testament to the price he'd paid for power.
And somewhere in the Academy, other forces stirred, unaware that the balance of power had just shifted ever so slightly. Kieran had taken another step down his chosen path, drawing closer to the darkness with each passing day.
The game was changing, the pieces moving into new positions. And when Kieran finally awoke, he would be ready to play his part – one shadow step at a time.