The Love They Never Had

Chapter 307: Shu Brocade Part 1

Depression soon overtook me again in a more severe case after I had realised Seon-ho's plan for me since i changed my look when i had lost my memories. He had done a lot of questionable things even in my presence, but this was…it was deplorable and it was cunning to the upmost....but it was also a stroke of genius and even thinking about it more made me realise that Seon-ho had gotten stronger after his father's death to come up with a plan that could heal him from his life's trauma. "Do you mean it? Will you really do whatever it takes…for you to have me?" "You just wait until you finally get pregnant, and then i shall show you what i mean." "What if…I ma not healthy enough to give you a son?" "We will keep trying until you do, do not worry about that." "And what if...if our feeling disappear…." Never in my life will i forget the look on his face when i said those damned words, it was almost as if I sucked out both of our souls, but i still needed to know the answer for the sake of my own sanity. "If there is no love between us, then wha point is there for me to live anymore? And on he day that I loose my life, i assure you that I will not permit you to live either." He replied menacingly as he backed me into a wall with so little space between us that i could feel his breathe on my entire face before we….

What was love? Was it like this? Truly? Why was it that no matter what this man did or how far he went, my heart never once faltered for him? Instead, it became stronger with everything that he did, even if it was done in arrogance. My love was not based on what this man had done for me, even if it went a long way in my heart. And i had always cared for hm greatly, almost treating him like a husband from the very first tie that we met as children. And as crazy as this sounded, I did not want him to chance at all, because i could not deny that his arrogance against me simply transfixed me in a way that i never thought i was experience before. His possessiveness and protectiveness of me made me feel unlike anything that i had felt since my father's death. He planned things for me even ahead of time, just as my father did and he kept watching me as my father did and…if he wasn't so good in bed every single tome then i probably would have cooled things off a long time ago, even if i wasn't in he mood for it at all. That man knew my entire body down to a t, so when i was pinned under him, I couldn't even try to fought him off as much as i wanted to….it was his lust fr me that set my body on fire and it was his 'love' for me that kept me grounded and safe in everything that i did, because i knew that he would always be there for me no matter what happened. no matter how confused or torn i was in this moment, i could not loose hm no matter what, even though he was acting so weirdly at e moment…

"...My Lady? There s a servant from The Third Prince that is waiting to greet you outside…" "I wonder what he could possibly want right now, after everything that his harem has put me through…." "You cannot ignore them, My Lady…" "Very well, let him inside." "I bow in respect of The Young Mistress Seo." "Is everything alright? Has something happened?" "His Majesty specially sends you this, My Lady." "Are these Shu brocade shoes? From China?" "The sole is made from a variety f Lantern jade, which feel soft and keeps your feet warm. The shoes were filled with assorted spices after being hallowed out, calling them 'The Fragrant Steps.' The tips of the shoes are adorned with eastern pearls and the most notable feature of these shoes are the upper part made with gold embroideries. It is a real rarity My Lady, the last woman to own such possessions were The Late Empress. A single piece of the shoe will take embroiders 3 months to sew and is worn about 20 galleons of gold." "I am grateful to His highness, but i wonder where this gift came from, as i am not one of his concubines, and doesn't these shoes take up to a year to produce?" "His Highness had The Household Department work on these day and night." "And how did he know my shoe size…." ""My Lady?" "Forgive me, it just worries me a little when he treats me so well like this in his own harem…" "Fondness is a demonstration of love, My Lady." Nam Seon-ho, am i the exception to your love? For i shall rejoice in any amount of love in your fondness now, I swear it.

I saw the look on his face when he stealthily entered my quarters and i didn't like it either. I wanted nothing to do with that man and any gifs that he gave me, but it was an expensive gift and I knew exactly how to put it to good use. "Fret not, i only wish to wear it once to his satisfaction and then send it to my brother so that he can use it to fund my father's village." "Very well, but send it to him via my sister-in-law." "Why should I…" "Just do it, trust me." "Soon-ho? has something happened between you both? will you keep it from me?" "When we will trim the candle wick at the westward window under a clear sky of stars, we will have plenty to talk about."

**********************

"Just after The Concubine Park deposed me and send me to this horrible place, why on earth would she spur the fastest horses to deliver such an expensive items to me? What is she thinking of? Unless…can this be that my husband has changed his mind? He wishes to bring me back up to my rightful status?That is why he humiliated his favourite concubine by making the horses gallop through the dust for my smile...i knew it! i knew that he loved me still! But this colour...i am no fond of it at all..." "You are what you wear, My Lady, and the garments are ablaze with a colourful love between the married couple like wild flowers. i know that my lady usually likes to wear vibrant colours, but has s a rather elegant robe which is perfect for you when you re-tenter your husband's harem. Your brother must have won The Third Prince over in your favour, who else could have done this for you? Shu brocades are not even produced during this time of year, so they must have required a great effort and favour alike to acquire these pieces. Haven't you noticed? The embroiderers have done a fine job in using moon-white threads intertwined with the silver ones that will shine brightly beyond the sun. This must have been so difficult for them to achieve in such a small amount of time."

"You are far more intelligent than the previous servant than i had; of course everyone should know that i always get what i want, even if it is rare and costly. But this flower, I cannot recognise this at all. I usually wear pretty peony patterns, so what is this flower?" "My Lady, i believe that this flower is known as 'the face of Eventide.' This particular flower will blooming the morning and it will wither the next day. It will fade without even seeing the sunlight."

"What did you just say! How dare you use such audacious words! The Textile Department must have lost their minds! How dare they offend me with such ill-fated flowers! You! Servant girl! Tear them up and send them back!" "My Lady! They must have been aware of this flower! And it is so expensive that this could put you in an even worse position! This was almost just as expensive as the one that Seo Yeon received from The Third Prince himself!" "Is that so? sS she is his new target, is that what you are telling me? Very well, I shall bestow this to her precious sister in the palace! And give her the shoes to match; the complete outfit will accentuate her place in somebody's heart sooner or later." "But my Lady, we do not have Shu Brocade shoes..." "I do not, but i know somebody that does, and you are only allowed to leave The Cold Palace once a day, so do not miss this opportunity, or i will have my brother keep a close eye on your family for you." "Yes, My Lady..."