THE LOVE I WISHED FOR

I came back from my business trip after 1 month.

I planned of surprising my boyfriend jack. He doesn't know anything about my arrival.

I straight went to his apartment. I bought some flowers on my way for him.

I can imagine his happy and surprised face after seeing Me.

Me and Jack are in relationship for a pretty long time.

We love each other and thinking about making it official soon and getting married.

I opened the door with the help of the spare keys and entered inside the living room.

Living room was silent.

Where is he?

Then I heard some sound coming from bedroom.

He must be in there.

I smiled and hide the flower Bogue behind me.

He will be so surprised .

I slowly walked towards the bedroom.

As I was walking towards the bedroom I heard some sound of moaning.

Huh? What is that?

No I should have heard wrong.

My heart beat dropped and the moaning sound gotten louder with each step.

This wasn't giving me good feeling.

I felt something bad inside my chest.

As I opened the door and the scene in front of me left me heartbroken.

It felt like my heart broke into million pieces.

I saw rosie his secretary

Laying on the bed while Jack hovering over her

Sucking her neck.

Tears start rolling down from my cheeks.

I felt the breath hitched in my chest.

My mind went black and I couldn't thik anything at that time.

No word came out from my mouth.

It felt like someone was chocking me.

As I couldn't believe my eyes.

This isn't what i expected at all.

"J_Jack..." I said softly with tears rolling down from my eyes.

It was like a whisper.

It was the largest sound i could let out.

Jack and rosie look towards my direction and saw me standing there.

Mine and jack eyes met with each other.

His eyes widen in shock.

My heart hurted more.

Jack fastly got up as same with rosie and they start fixing their clothes.

I felt disgusted looking at them.

"..it's not like that..." I heard Jack saying.

What was it then?

"Anna...y_uou.. misunderstood ever-."

I cutt off his sentence by slapping him. His face turn to the side due to the impact.

It wasn't a slap to him it was to myself.

" It's not like that huh?..then what?"

I screamed as i finally could get my voice out that was stuck in my throat.

"listen to me I can explain"

"Do you think after watching you making out with her i will listen to your bullshit."

I said with tears continuosly falling from my eyes.

" Anna...listen..to me"

He tried to touch me but i yanked his hand away.

"Don't touch me"

" Anna i love you. Please listen to me once"

"Love? Huh.. I can see how much you love me that you cheated on me"

"it's not like that"

I can't take it any more and fell on my knees crying.

"Why..why me i loved you with my whole heart but you Broke m_me"

Jack came toward me and tried to touch me but I yanked his hand away.

"Don't touch me...with your filthy hands which whom you touched her."

I screamed at his face and got up wiping my tears.

"And jack one last thing we are over"

Tears start falling from his eyes but I don't care.

Does he think I will fall for his petty tricks.

While rosie was just standing there this whole time and watching the whole drama.

She was holding a different expression.

Was it...guilt?

No it can't be.

She wants me to believe that she is guilty even after doing this all.

"no no Anna listen...."

He said looking in my eyes with his teary eyes.

Why is he crying?

Or does he think I am this stupid that I will fall for his act.

"..I.. p_please..let's talk"

Before he can complete his sentence i ran out of the room. While crying heavily.

My vision was almost blury.

It was getting harder to breath.

I heard jack yelling my name from behind but I kept running straight.

I came out of the house crying while walking on the streets.

Is this what I deserve?

I need someone right now.

Only one person came to my mind.

I called my best friend jinie and asked her to come at my place.

She asked me but I couldn't tell her anything on phone.

I came to my apartment and after some time jinie came.

As soon as I opened the room.

I hugged her and start crying.

She hugged me back and rubbed my back.

" shhh don't cry....what happened?"

I cried more in her arms.

Only I know how much I needed this hug.

" I loved him so much and.. he just cheated on my back"

I said between my tears .

I finally let my pain out.

"W_what are you talking about?"

She asked me like she was scared.

"J_jack...he..I went to his house and found him there with his secretary....he cheated on me..."

"That bastard...shh please stop crying Anna."

She patted my back and I broke the hug.

She looked at me and wiped my tears.

" Why ?why was I not enough for him"

I swear I never cried that much in my life.

She dragged me inside the living room and made me sit down on the couch and she sat beside me.

"you are the most wonderful girl in the world.

Its his fault that he lost you. He should be the one who should cry. You are the most strongest girl i have ever seen. How can you Broke down like this."

"B_but...I loved his so much"

" I know but sometime you just can't be with that person you love. He didn't deserved your love..so.. stop crying over that cheater and just think you found the truth about him early otherwise it had hurted more in future."

" I.. really thought that he also loved me as much as I love him...I swear I have seen the love in his eyes

...but how can I be this wrong?"

"You are not wrong....you have a pure heart you couldn't see the bad side of him..just think it's all for your own good.

She said and i just hugged her and she hugged me back.

"Don't worry there must be someone who will love you more than anyone else...someone who would sacrifice everything for you"

She said rubbing my back.

I cried till I couldn't cry anymore.

" now stop crying and eat something and than go to bed"

"I am not feeling like eating"

She sighed and said.

" okay I will not force you."

I nodded and walk straight to my room.

I changed into my night wears and laid on my bed.

Than the scene of jack and rose flashed in front of my eyes.

No matter how much I try I couldn't get the image out of my head.

I again start crying hugging myself.

will i ever be able to love someone else?

will I ever be able to trust someone else in my life?

All these questions kept bothering me?

I looked out of the window beside my bed.

"Why..it's so dark today?"

The night was darker than usual.

Was it the night or my life?

" SOMETIME YOUR FIRST LOVE DOESN'T NEED TO BE YOUR TRUE LOVE."