Chapter 666 "The pursuit of self" (page 12)
Because the adventurers lied about the information about the subjugation of the floor master, they originally wanted to see the "Maze Paradise" with the teachers behind their backs with full confidence. However, they encountered the tall giant and got into a bitter battle on the 17th floor of the Wall of Sighs.
In front of them was the floor master, and behind them were the chasing monsters from the seventeenth floor. They were attacked from both sides and fell into a desperate situation in an instant.
No matter how much you resist, there is no hope at all. It is a doomed situation in which you cannot survive.
But despite this, no one will give up resistance and wait for death.
The three teams started fighting at the same time, but this small resistance could not change the final result at all.
The students fell down one by one, Arisa cried helplessly, and the little human with the reputation of being a genius was hit by Goliath as soon as he came up, and he fell in a pool of blood, his life and death unknown.
Batin lost an arm in order to save the crying Arisa. At that time, he was too scared to even cast magic.
If they weren't Loki Familia, they might have died in the dungeon.
At that moment, she encountered that touch of gold, that strength, and the "golden longing" that countless people looked up to.
Ace Wallenstein, a girl who was only one year older than herself, defeated the giant they couldn't face with one blow, and also chopped off the giant's huge arm.
To be honest, she was shocked. She didn't expect that this was a so-called adventurer, and it was not at the same level as the ones she encountered during special internships.
Just by looking at Aisi, she was able to fight off the floor master. Then Aisi, who was standing in front of her, turned around and squatted in front of her, gently asking herself if she was okay.
He was not seriously injured, but he lost his fighting ability because of fear and fear.
Finally, before starting the battle, she commissioned herself and said that she would use magic to save them.
"Are you a magician?" 』
"Eh? ! ...Yes, I am a mage...but I am useless...not useful at all. 』
Although she was involved, she was already stronger than a normal magician, but she was unable to save her companions from the monster.
She is a member of the seventh team, and what the teachers call the "elite".
Can people like her really be called elites?
"Then let's release the magic. 』
"I always have this feeling. If you don't release it now, you won't be able to cheer up..."
"I think this won't work..."
The gentle Ais said this, she first gave herself affirmation.
"I, I'm very weak and worthless. I can't even release magic by myself..."
"But, where is the person you must help?" 』
She said this while pointing to her companions who were lying in a pool of blood and fighting against the monsters in the passage behind them.
"We will protect you from the monsters, and you have to use your magic to save us from the monsters." 』
It was impossible for just three adventurers to save twelve students, not to mention fighting monsters and the floor master.
Not only Aisi understands this, but she herself is also aware of it.
After leaving these words, Ais turned into the wind and started fighting with the ferocious monster.
Looking at Aisi's back as she struggled to fight the giant, as well as her classmates who were trapped in a tight siege, she made up her mind.
"Proud warriors, the archers of the forest..."
Under their protection, she began to chant magic, and then successfully used the "volley fire javelin" she learned for the first time, destroying a large number of monsters in one fell swoop.
Afterwards, the floor master was attacked by Aisi, and the students who were in trouble miraculously survived.
Tiona: "It's so powerful, like Riveria's magic. 』
Tione: "What? You are quite capable. Are you interested in joining our "Family"?" I can recommend you to the group leader! 』
Ace: "You did it." Very awesome...』
The smile that greeted him at that time was in stark contrast to the crying self.
Finally, at that moment, she found her purpose.
The next step is for her to join the Loki Familia for "faction internship", and then after obtaining the permission, she actually joins the Loki Familia, and then improves her strength, goes on an expedition, or creates a man-made maze.
alright. That's about it when I think of it. It's time to stop.
Lefiya said to herself in her mind, put the quill pen in her hand in the notebook, and then closed the notebook spread on her lap.
She now remembered her wish and her mood at that time.
Ah~ why would she forget?
She blamed herself like this, and under Arisa's doubtful gaze, Lefiya's expression suddenly began to turn sad.
The figures of the adventurers fighting bravely, and the heroes-like figures that came into view were all the driving force and "origin" for her to become an adventurer.
She was very timid, so she rushed out of the village and studied in the school district, and finally reached Ais and the others.
She longed for strength, and also for Miss Ais who saved her from the crisis.
This curiosity, this longing, this desire, everything is connected together to form the person Lefia Viridis.
From the beginning, she just wanted to understand the outside world, and then find "the goal she wanted to be" before leaving the village.
Now that the target has been found, the truest "self" slowly begins to appear in front of her.
She doesn't want to be a fairy in the Forest of Vishe, but wants to become the unique "Lefia Viridis".
That would make sense.
Tazmi saw her chasing the phantom of Miss Fairwiss, so she said those words.
She always habitually improves her thinking level while ignoring her true self in reality. Ignoring the importance of experience, I always try to use my thinking to create a perfect self, a self just like Miss Fairwiss.
I feel that as long as I wake up mentally, I can use my mind to control my body and become a perfect person.
However, she ignored that the body needs to adapt and get used to it through constant trials and experiences.
So much so that every time she puts forward very high demands on herself, she will be very disappointed with herself after failure, gradually forming a vicious cycle.
Thinking about it now, she didn't consider her true situation at all, and just pursued the phantom of Miss Fairwiss. He suffers from the same "anxiety" problem as Luke.
Tazmi asked her to find her original "original intention" and her truest "self". In fact, it was to stop her from deliberately imitating others.
Because it is impossible for her to become someone else. No one in this world can completely become someone else, unless that person loses his memory or is taken away from his body.
Now it seems that her behavior all along was just to miss (mourn) that person (Fair Weiss).