The Deadly Revenge (GL)

I could sense the awkwardness in the air the moment I woke up. Unlike usual, Teddy didn't wake me up. I woke up to find her already leaning against the window and smoking her morning cigarette. I reached for my new glasses on the nightstand and put it on.

My heart fluttered in my chest as I recall what happened the previous night. Teddy took me out to have fun, we had a delicious dinner at a restaurant, she gave me a new pair of glasses, and I ended up kissing her.

Teddy had looked so shocked when I pulled away, and it left me feeling flustered and embarrassed. How could I have been so careless to have kissed her without checking if she wants me to or not? What if she's mad at me? What if she goes back to giving me the cold shoulder?

I was terrified of what would happen after our kiss, but I found that I don't regret it one bit. Teddy's lips was so soft against mine, and if anything, I would do anything to feel them against mine again.

But seeing how shocked Teddy had looked, it made a lot of depressing thoughts run through my mind.

Maybe she was disgusted at the kiss and that's why she looks so shocked.

I shouldn't have acted so stupid as to let my emotions get the best of me. What if Teddy now thinks that I was taking advantage of her kindness?

I pushed all these thoughts out of my head. Its too early to be thinking about this and worrying over what Teddy must have thought of the kiss.

A big part of me hoped that she liked it just as much as I did, and even if she doesn't, I just hope she isn't disgusted by it.

One thing also troubles me. I don't even know if Teddy likes girls or not. My action was foolish on so many levels. I won't blame Teddy if she ends up hating me now.

She hadn't noticed that I had woken up yet, and I was a bit nervous to greet her. After kissing her last night, I hurried home ahead of her without apologizing because I was too scared and embarrassed at the way she might react. The fear seems to grow worst this morning.

I cleared my throat and fidgeted with my fingers, then I forced my voice to become cheerful. "Good morning Teddy!"

I watched her froze, her cigarette stopping half way to her lips at the sound of my voice. There was silence for a moment. She didn't say anything, and neither did I.

Teddy resumed her smoking without bothering to acknowledge me. My stomach dropped in sadness and disappointment. I guess we really are back to being strangers. She did something nice for me yesterday, and I was happy that our relationship was improving, but my stupid self just had to go and ruin everything!

I hate myself so much!

We remain there in an awkward silence for what seems like a long time until Teddy was finished with her smoke. She walked towards her side of the room and picked up her towel and bathing stuff. I watched her every move like a hawk, hoping she would at least look at me, but Teddy avoided looking at me entirely.

She left the room and I felt my heart breaking in my chest. It took all my will power not to burst into tears. I hated when she ignores me. It makes me feel so sad and worthless.

Not knowing how to handle my emotions, I lay back down on my bed and allowed the silent tears to flow naturally.

Shortly after, Teddy returned to our room and I went ahead to take a bath. I have missed school for too long. Now that I have a new pair of glasses, there is no reason to remain at home. I have missed too much of school activities as it is and my scholarship might be in danger if I don't catch up.

I returned to the room after taking a bath. Teddy was already fully dressed and preparing to leave.

As usual, she ignored me and proceeded to leave the room, but I couldn't take it anymore. I had to talk.

"Teddy!" Teddy stopped in her tracks at the sound of my voice, her hand hovering over the door knob. I lowered my head and fidgeted with my fingers nervously, "are you mad at me because I kissed you last night?" Silence followed the question. Teddy didn't move an inch. She kept her back turned to me, but she made no attempt to answer the question.

I assumed her answer and continued, "I know you don't like me like that, and I know you're expecting me to apologize and tell you it was a mistake, but I can't do that Teddy. Because that kiss wasn't a mistake to me." I lifted my head and looked at Teddy's back, "I like you Teddy. I like you a lot, and I know you don't feel the same way for me nor do I expect you to, and I promise I won't bother you with my feelings. I won't even talk about the kiss. We can forget about it and pretend that it never happened. Please just..." My voice broke, and I let out a shaky breath, "please just don't ignore me anymore. It's killing me."

There was silence again. I waited for Teddy to speak. I needed her to say something, anything at all. I just want to hear her voice telling me that it's okay, and we can go back to how things were yesterday.

But Teddy didn't give me that satisfaction. Without a word, she twisted the door open and walked out, shutting it gently behind her.

I couldn't help the overwhelming sadness that overcame me in that moment. I buried my face in my hands and sobbed into my palm.

I was sad and terrified. I have successfully pushed the only person who had ever shown that she cares away from me.

I know it for sure.

Teddy is going to leave me now.

Just like the others.

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I returned to school in sadness. No one even realized I had been gone for days. No one wondered about my reason for being absent. I doubt they even knew that I was absent.

I moved around my classes like a zombie feeling too sad to concentrate on anything. I was too lost in my pain to even catch up on the things I missed during my sadness.

There was an overwhelming fear tugging at my heart. The fear that Teddy might leave now that I have made her uncomfortable.

Now I would have no one. No one at all!

She protected me, took care of me. Even though she was still cold towards me, she was the only person who had ever been nice to me. But now, I ruined everything, and I am going to lose her.

It was lunch time, and I didn't feel the need to go to the cafeteria least I get bullied by Josh and his gang.

Speaking of Josh, I haven't even seen him since I came to school. I haven't seen any of them. Its strange that they didn't come to bother me after I returned, or were they also absent?

I decided to hide in the girl's bathroom until lunch was over. Maybe they were looking for me at this moment. I realize I didn't even see Ken in math class either.

Weird!

As I headed down the hallway for tye girl's bathroom, I caught sight of Carlos coming from the opposite direction. I frown when I noticed his forearm had been bandaged. What happened to him?

When Carlos saw me, his eyes widened in shock and what looks like panic. Without wasting a second, he rounded the corner and headed for a different direction away from me.

That's even more weird. Carlos who wouldn't miss an opportunity to play his humiliating prank on me just avoided me entirely. But why does he look so shaken?

I didn't put much thought to it as I continued on my way to the girls bathroom. Maybe he wasn't in the mood to play his pranks today. Whatever happened to him must have been serious.

I arrived at the girls bathroom and thanked the heavens that none of the girls where there, then I proceeded to lock myself in one of the stalls. I closed the lid and sat on the toilet bowl before sinking back into my depressing thoughts about Teddy.

The bathroom door opened and I stiffened as I heard voices outside my stall. Some girls were gossiping about Josh and his friends which peeked my interest.

"Has Josh being discharged? I heard he got hurt more than Ken and Carlos." One of the girls spoke.

I frowned at the information. They all got hurt? How did that happen?

"Nope. I heard Josh is gonna be discharged tomorrow. Ken is still unable to come to school because his body still hurts, and Carlos arm hasn't healed completely. Whoever did that to them must have some serious beef with them. That's just brutal."

"I know right? I wonder who's responsible."

"I heard it was a hit and run case." One of the girls whispered.

"I doubt that. Knowing them, they might have offended the wrong people. I think they got just what they deserve." She sighed and changed the topic, "let's go to the cafeteria. I'm hungry already."

I listened as the door closed behind them, and I took that as an opportunity to think.

So, someone beat up Josh and his friends and put them in the hospital.

Who could have done that? A lot of people feared and respected Josh and his gang because their families were the wealthiest in our small town. Whoever did that to them would not be left off the hook for sure.

My mind suddenly flashed to the night Teddy returned home with bruised knuckles.

My heart pounded in my chest and my mind was reeling at my own thoughts.

Did Teddy do that to them?

DEADLY REVENGE.