Chapter 186: Shared Umbrella
The mid-festival break lingered in a hush that somehow made everything more vivid.
By the time the afternoon sun began dipping behind the Grand Pavilion's spires, the festival grounds had started to stir back to life. Lanterns were being relit. Merchants reopened their stands. Musicians tuned their instruments in hidden alcoves.
And in the quiet garden path behind the main square, Charlotte was staring up at the sky.
She held a folded paper umbrella, patterned in pale clockwork cogs.
I'm going to do it, she told herself, fingers tightening around the lacquered handle. I'm going to tell him.
It was ridiculous, really, how her pulse could hammer so fast over something so simple. She could face down an Abyss incursion without blinking, recalibrate Kyrosyn in less than three minutes under enemy fire—yet here she was, nearly breathless over the thought of standing beside him under an umbrella.
She had chosen this moment carefully: the day was quiet, the others resting elsewhere. She wouldn't have to fight for his attention.
She spotted him at the far end of the gravel path, examining a stall of old books that had reappeared after lunch. The sight of him—dark uniform neat as always, his expression preoccupied and serious—sent a sharp ache through her chest.
He looked up as she approached, his gaze lifting to meet hers. For a heartbeat, neither of them spoke.
"…Charlotte."
She nearly laughed at how calm his voice sounded, when her own heart was a storm.
"It's going to rain," she said, holding up the umbrella as if it were proof she was not completely losing her nerve.
He glanced at the clear sky. "Is it?"
"It will," she insisted, a bit too fast. "The forecast said so."
He regarded her for a moment, then nodded. "If you're certain."
She swallowed. "Would you…walk with me?"
His hesitation lasted only a second—but it was enough to make her wonder, absurdly, if she'd overstepped. Then he inclined his head, and the worst of the fear melted away.
"…All right."
They set off along the winding path, the umbrella closed but resting between them like a promise. Charlotte felt every brush of her sleeve against his.
The silence grew, companionable and unbearable in equal measure.
It was she who finally spoke, voice low. "Do you remember when you helped me repair Kyrosyn?"
"Yes."
"I thought…" She hesitated, searching for the words she'd rehearsed in countless late-night hours. "I thought you only stayed because it was your duty."
He stopped walking. The afternoon light slanted over the garden wall, catching in his hair, turning him to something quietly luminous.
"I stayed," he said slowly, "because I knew what it felt like."
"To be alone with something broken?"
"To be alone," he corrected. His eyes met hers, steady and unguarded. "And to be afraid you weren't enough to fix it."
Her breath hitched.
The sky above them dimmed—just enough to draw a shiver of cool air through the garden.
Rain, she thought, in an absurd rush of triumph. I told you.
She snapped open the umbrella. It spread above them in a soft rustle of lacquered paper. She held the handle carefully, angling it so he would not have to stoop.
"Thank you," he murmured.
Their hands brushed. Her heart tumbled.
"I…I'm glad you were there that night," she whispered. "I think I would have given up otherwise."
"You wouldn't have."
"You don't know that."
"I do." He paused, his gaze steady on hers. "Because you never give up."
She felt warmth flood her chest, flooding every place that had been cold and uncertain.
The first raindrops began to patter on the umbrella's surface.
For a moment, they simply stood in the hush, sheltered together under clockwork patterns and falling rain.
"I wanted to tell you," she said, voice small, "that I…I admire you."
His expression didn't change—but his eyes softened in a way that made her breath catch.
"Thank you," he said quietly.
Neither of them moved to step out from under the umbrella.
And as the rain gathered strength around them, Charlotte felt a small, daring hope bloom: that maybe—just maybe—he had begun to understand what she felt.
That maybe she wasn't the only one standing here in the downpour, heart laid bare.