Chapter 185: Hot Springs and Cold Realizations
The morning after the Garden Gala dawned in a hush.
The festival's mid-point had arrived—a day carved out for rest and quiet reflection before the final surge of celebration. Though the city of Gaia was still alive with gentle music and drifting flower petals, the mood had changed.
It was softer now. More uncertain.
And in the secluded hot springs behind the Grand Pavilion, that uncertainty simmered just beneath the water's steaming surface.
Cyg didn't plan on staying long. He had only come to check the perimeter—ostensibly to ensure no rival factions had slipped past the festival wards. But after three sleepless nights, even he had to concede that the thought of sinking into blessedly warm water had its appeal.
He stepped through the tall cedar doors into the male side of the springs. Mist curled around polished stone. Soft lanterns cast halos of light that flickered across the steaming pools.
For a moment, it felt peaceful.
Then the partition door slid open, and he heard the unmistakable voices drifting from the women's side.
"—I'm telling you, I'm not blushing!" Harriet's voice snapped, edged with flustered heat."Oh?" Sylvia sounded entirely too amused. "Then why is your face redder than your hair?""It's the steam!""Mmhm."
Cyg closed his eyes and took a slow breath. Just ignore them. You're here to rest.
Yet the quiet didn't last long.
On the other side of the partition, seven women occupied the wide bathing pool, their cheeks pink from heat and—if they were honest—nerves.
Elaine floated languidly near the waterfall, her hair fanning across the surface like pale silk. "So…does anyone feel like they understand how they feel about him now?"
The question silenced the water itself.
Hikari looked down at her reflection, her slender fingers curling against her chest. "I don't know. I thought…after he called me beautiful, it would be easier."
Eun-Ha's gaze softened. "Did it help you understand your heart?"
"No," Hikari whispered. "It made it worse. Because now…I don't know how to let go."
Sylvia tilted her head back against the stone edge, droplets sliding down her neck. "He's a curse, isn't he? That cold face of his, and the way he looks at you like he's seeing something he doesn't know how to name."
Mia hugged her knees to her chest. "I wish he'd look at me like that more often."
"You mean the way he looked at you during your solo?" Charlotte teased, her voice gentle despite her own lingering ache. "He didn't take his eyes off you once."
Mia's cheeks bloomed crimson. "It wasn't like that."
"Oh, it was," Harriet muttered, sinking lower into the water so only her eyes showed. "He looked at all of us that way at some point. That's the worst part."
Eun-Ha's smile was thin. "Because it means he cares. Even if he'll never say it."
The silence stretched, heavy as the night sky.
Then Charlotte spoke, her voice uncharacteristically subdued. "He's not just brilliant. He's…kind. And he doesn't even realize how much that makes it harder to walk away."
Sylvia let her arm drift across the surface, scattering silver ripples. "He doesn't realize anything about himself. Or maybe he does, and he's just too afraid to say it."
The lanterns flickered. In the hush, each of them relived the moments that had bound them to Cyg:
—Charlotte, remembering the night he'd stayed awake helping her recalibrate Kyrosyn after she'd shattered it in training.
—Sylvia, the countless hours in the practice hall when he'd listened to her compositions with a stillness no one else ever offered.
—Harriet, when he'd held her shoulders after the Abyss attack and said her flames were what saved them all.
—Elaine, the dawn when he'd whispered, Your laughter is the first thing that feels real in a long time.
—Eun-Ha, the single look that had made her think he saw straight through the divine veneer she wore to keep everyone else at arm's length.
—Mia, the way he always treated her inventions with respect, as if her bright imagination were something precious rather than childish.
Hikari shut her eyes. I can't pretend not to care anymore.
On the other side of the partition, Cyg had sunk into the farthest pool, ignoring the faint echo of their voices. Or trying to.
He rested his arms on the warm stone ledge, staring up at the mist-laden stars.
They deserve better than this, he thought, the first fissure of uncertainty creeping across his usually unshakable mind. Better than a strategist who can't even name his own feelings.
Footsteps approached, slow and deliberate.
"Cyg."
He turned. Thea Synthesis stood there, wrapped in her robe, her expression both understanding and quietly stern.
"You can't run from it forever," she said simply.
"I know."
"Then stop pretending you don't care."
He didn't answer. But something in his chest shifted—an admission he wasn't ready to speak aloud.
Thea inclined her head. "Rest while you can. Tomorrow, the festival resumes—and so will all the choices you've been postponing."
She left him alone again.
Cyg exhaled, tilting his head back to let the rising steam blur the stars overhead.
Maybe they're right, he thought. Maybe there are some things you can't outthink.
But even as he tried to clear his mind, he knew the truth:
No strategy could change what he'd already started.
No calculation could erase the feelings waiting for him in the dark.
And no armor—tactical or emotional—could protect him from the moment he'd finally have to decide.