Falling apart in moonlight

So I had another dream today with Ren in it again . I repeat AGAIN. Ha.... seriously don't you want me to let go off the feelings that I have for him? I mean if this goes on I might never be able to overcome this and might end up having a crush on him forever !

Anyway the dream was like this-

We all are having a class with all the desks like a proper class in my maternal grandmother's living room. Weird, I know, but it's a dream that I have no controll of.

I am standing in front, flustered, and all of them are talking about me and Ren being together and all sorts of things, maybe rumors . I am trying to tell all of them that it's not true but none of them is listening to me. Then suddenly the girl that I dislike the most for lying to me, the one that missed my, Shifu's and Lisa's name in the farewell speech, came to me and said, "You and Ren suit each other and are perfect for each other" and I was tired of all of that.

I mean if this happens in reality my father would kill me and the first one to find out will be my mother's sister, who is teaching at our school. I'd be dead meat for sure. And no one would be able to save me from that. By the way the washroom attached to the living room was the place that I entered from . Hahaha. I can't believe that even in a dream that small detail was still there, I mean the dream started from there.

I swear if it was under my control either I would've made it Lisa's or Shifu's wedding for sure since I really do hope both of them getting married to their favorite people. I mean I know I am being a typical idiot but that's how I am, so bear with me.

Today I might have talked rudely to my mother. I was planning on giving every one of the perfumes that my not-so-favourite cousin gave me as a gift, I don't know why she did, bcoz she's not that nice.

So she asked me " what have they given you?" And I said angrily "So? Its okay, its not like I have been friends with them on purpose , like I want someting from them?" Then mother said do whatever you want.

I was like I only have 3 friends okay. And If you ask me what they have given me , I would gladly say the reason to live, the strength to live and to bear the hard moments of life. They matter to me the most after my family. They are my life boats in the lonely sea of life. And I love them.