Xiu Erdai's daily essays

3208_Some changes are bound to happen

Fuqiu: "The jokes are getting weirder and weirder."

It's not weird, as long as I seriously communicate with Xiao Sui, Xiao Sui will be happy, the content of the communication doesn't matter, the key is that I focus on Xiao Sui.

Xiao Sui nodded happily: "Yes."

Because Xiao Sui also set up a mechanism: when I focus on him to a certain extent, the ease of being aroused by him increases exponentially.

Xiao Sui: "Why does Master have to resist my temptation?"

It's not intentional confrontation, but I just feel that I'm just going to do it like this... It seems that I'm stupid: the trap is dug in front of my face, and I go straight in?This discriminates against IQ more than straight hook fishing.

Xiao Sui: "What does this have to do with IQ? It's just about going to bed."

It has nothing to do with IQ, I just don't want to sleep with you.

Xiao Sui has a tendency to cry again.

Where do I make you uneasy, you told me that physical intercourse cannot solve psychological problems, and, as we spend more time together, it is difficult for me to simply see you as an extension of my soul, of course you are, but, you It is also an independent entity.If we go to bed, there are bound to be some changes in our relationship, maybe subtle, maybe not embarrassing, but I prefer the current relationship and the future development of the same tone as the current relationship.

The master and Lingbao can become bed partners, but there are some subtle changes in their relationship.

Xiao Sui: "Where is the subtlety?"

I stroked Xiao Sui's hair: "It's probably the difference between the blood rushing to the head and heart when thinking of you, and the blood rushing to the lower body when thinking of you."

Xiao Sui: "Can't two types of places spring up at the same time?"

Me: "It may be difficult. My thinking line is relatively straight. If I look at one side, I may neglect the other side."

Xiao Sui: "I don't like that so many people like you, know you, and you think too much about them. I know I have to get used to it, but it's very uncomfortable."

You try to think of it this way, think of them as my snack suppliers, intelligence suppliers, skill book suppliers... It's a relationship of interest.When it comes to feelings, you only need to consider my family members.

Xiao Sui: "Are all the disciples of Yunxia Sect counted?"

How can I be so fraternal?The Yunxia Sect as a whole is my home, but each individual disciple may not be regarded as my family by me, and may just be the object of observation staying in my home, such as the disciples of the outer sect and handymen.Of course, when life and death are at stake, I will definitely stand on the same front as them, but in daily life, there is no need to pay too much attention to them, especially their individual ones.

3209_raised

Let’s put it this way, if you talk to me alone with more than a thousand sentences, you should only use key considerations, if you have more than a hundred sentences, you should consider ordinary considerations, and if you have less than a hundred sentences, you should treat daily life as non-existent.After such a sieve, there are very few, right?

Xiao Sui: "I also don't like people who only look at you from the perspective of profit, such as those in Kunlun, or some of the people who reject you in Yunxiazong."

I asked Pei Bing: "Why haven't you been so entangled?"

Pei Bing: "Two reasons. First, Sui Sui's mind is delicate and exquisite, which is raised by him taking care of all your belongings; I am rough, because I have been raised by you since I was raised by you, and I basically don't worry about everything except defense. It’s not cumbersome, it’s a big deal to cover it with a cover, and it’s done, don’t worry about the details.”

Pei Bing: "Secondly, Sui Sui not only regards you as his master, but also all his interests and hobbies are you. Although I regard you as the most important master, I also like to eat things that have little to do with you. So with It's easy to take things related to you very seriously, but I can sometimes watch them, especially those things that you don't care about, and I'll just chew off the meal."

I asked the furball who was the oldest among the three——Lingbao’s age was counted from the day Qi Ling woke up. Spirit Tool——"You have never been so contradictory."

Mao Qiu: "Spirit beasts are very simple, without so many complicated emotions."

The second half of the sentence is okay, but the first half...

Fuqiu: "I am pure."

Well, you have the final say on your attributes.

Xiao Sui: "Master, don't you like me being so capricious and long-winded?"

No, I'm just very emotional: I can still raise such a delicate and sensitive child.

You have to know myself, even when I was adolescence in my previous life, I was never so delicate.When I discovered my sexuality back then, I knew that the attitude of that society towards this sexuality was very unfriendly, and I didn’t accept it too hard, maybe with a bit of arrogance: I am like this, you can like it or not.

——The illness of secondary school, although it causes a lot of stupid things, but it also has a positive side. At least self-centeredness will not cause self-suffering.

Later, I found out that the issue of sexuality really didn’t bother me too much. The root cause of my singleness was that I strongly repelled others from intruding into my private life, and I was wary of the whole world. Even when I wanted to have a one-night stand occasionally, I would be suspicious of the other party. There is an unspeakable...malignant infectious disease and I have no interest-of course, if I ask the other party for a medical report because of this, it will be replaced by the other party's indifference.

3210_derived from

Xiao Sui: "But master won't be on guard against me."

Yeah, but, I'm wary of change.

Good thing, I'm afraid it's going to be bad.Although it may actually become better, I don't want to take risks, and if I am forced to take risks when I don't want to, then I will be repulsive about its subsequent development, no matter what the development is, even if it gets better. Like bad.

Pei Bing: "So, Sui Sui should give you a hard bow when you first wake up, let you adapt to your bed partner relationship immediately, and then develop your future relationship based on that relationship?"

Probably not.At that time, although I knew that he was my beloved storage utensil, but when I met him in human form for the first time, he was a stranger to me.A stranger raped me?Maybe I will forcefully strip Xiao Sui with the damage of my soul.I don't want a soul link that makes me feel intimidated.Xiao Sui happened to be stuck at a critical point at that time, allowing me to accept that he would seduce me, and felt some aggression, but the aggression was not to the point of repelling me.

Follower: "I won't let my master reject me. Before the master feels rejection, I will have a premonition and adjust my behavior. No, it should be said that the behavior that makes the master reject me is also what I reject. I have the same emotional preferences as the master."

So, actually you are as worried as I am that our relationship is going to go in a bad direction if we go to bed.

Xiao Sui: "So, in fact, I just rely on you to refuse, so I use this method to grab more of your attention."

Mao Qiu summed up: "Trouble with your mouth, cowardly in your heart. It's the same. Xiao Sui's repeated entanglements are also inherited from Pei Lin."

Pei Bing: "Well, Pei Lin just thinks that he is very nervous, but in fact he is as sensitive and slender as Sui Sui. Oh, on the contrary, Sui Sui's sensitivity and slenderness come from the master and magnify it."

Mao Qiu asked Pei Bing: "What did you inherit from the master?"

Pei Bing: "Fizzy? Gluttonous? Picky eaters?"

I am not a picky eater.

Pei Bing: "You think you are more than that. Brother Maoqiu inherited your self-cognition bias."

Xiao Sui: "I also inherited my master's collection habit."

Pei Bing: "The follower is as soft as the master."

Fuqiu: "Stay the same."

3211_ image positioning

Xiao Sui: "I don't like being too much concerned about my master, but I also inherit the master. The master prefers not to be watched by others, and can be himself at will. When others stare at him, he has to pay more attention to his own image, and he will feel restrained. Even now The owner is limited by the environment and can only adapt to a wide range of attention, but the owner still prefers to be a transparent person without pressure."

Yes, it's all from me, and if it's wrong it's all my fault because you all belong to me.

But don't pay attention to this matter, it is inevitable now, we can learn from our predecessors.

For example, Dad, who is so famous that he surpassed the Mahayana stage, low cultivation bases dare not harass him because of the violent impression of sword cultivation, but high cultivation bases do not harass Elder Pei because the childbirth is too transparent. No new information can be obtained through harassment.It's a frank way of fading attention.

Another example is Eldest Brother, there are countless people of the same level of cultivation staring at him and wanting to punish him, but because Eldest Brother's actions are tied to Yunxia Sect, outsiders can't do it.And what can they see if they pay attention to the elder brother?Busy.Let's study again what the big brother is busy with. Damn, what kind of cultivation path are you, a workaholic, taking?Do you still have spare time to practice with this workload?Why is your cultivation still rising steadily?Are you corrupt and using public property to fill your cultivation base?

I decided to position my image as a vase. After a long time, people will get tired of looking at me, and naturally they will not stare at me too eagerly.Moreover, the beautiful image of the vase is too eye-catching, and I am covered under it when I do other things, and it is easy to be ignored. This is another sense of transparency.

The same is true of the attention paid to me by Rift.There is communication between the secret realms, and when more and more secret realms find that I have superficial appearances and can't bring them actual benefits at all, they will pay less and less attention to me.But because I am not harmful to the secret realm, on the one hand, the secret realms will not look forward to me too much, and on the other hand, they will not avoid me. When they need to attract people into the secret realm, they will still give me a place, and do not expect me to give it to them. They bring benefits, just grab me to have a look, as a beautiful decoration.At that time, I will be able to watch the information in the secret territory from the perspective of a decoration without any pressure.

Xiao Sui: "What if they, including monks, secret realms and others, keep paying attention to you?"