Xiu Erdai's daily essays

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The proportion of men and women in the entire cultivation world is higher than that of men. This is a sequela caused by sexism in the early years. However, the proportion of men and women in the top ten has always been considered balanced, because the starting point for the top ten is high, and generally the three spiritual roots are accepted. Even a family that discriminates against daughters by cultivating spiritual roots, even if it is a family that treats their daughters as a family object, will push their daughters into sects and expect their daughters to cultivate Then bring benefits to the family.

The fourth and fifth spiritual roots, especially the five spiritual root monks, are the hardest hit areas for the imbalanced gender ratio. Because they think that they may not succeed in cultivation, they don't want to let their daughters waste time, and feel that it is better to keep them at home to help the family.

What's more influential is that even the girls themselves are timid under the nagging of people around them, and "voluntarily" give up this difficult road.

Of course, for Wulinggen, this road is really not easy, and it is indeed very likely that it will not be successful—unless it is considered a success after entering the Qi training period—so if you choose to give up, other monks can’t blame anything, but they will still sigh , because this is not self-selection in a complete sense, it is brainwashed by the environment, otherwise, under the same conditions, why are there so many men with five spiritual roots entering the path of cultivation?

The strange thing is that although the number of women with five spiritual roots is obviously less than that of male cultivators, among the five spiritual roots who have become powerful and have cultivated to the Mahayana stage of transformation, there are more women than men. Senior Gan Ling——In the era of Senior Gan Ling, the ratio of male to female monks of Wulinggen was much more unbalanced than it is now.

Some analysts say that this is because when women with five spiritual roots get rid of the influence of the environment and resolutely embark on the road of cultivation, they are much more determined than men with the same innate conditions, and their state of mind at the beginning of cultivation is a level higher than the latter.

The most difficult part of the journey for a cultivator with five spiritual roots is the stage of low cultivation. If you can survive the two stages of Qi training and foundation building, the cultivation of five spiritual roots will still be more difficult than other cultivators with spiritual roots under modern spiritual conditions. , but compared to his early stage, he can see some hope-the premise is to enter the golden core stage by himself, not by external force.

Pure masculinity, no matter how tuned it is, it is not suitable for the face of a female beauty. Yunxia Sect does not seem to have it, but Hehuan Sect has some. This is a body-oriented beauty. Some sword cultivators have this tendency, but Yunxia Sect has this tendency None of the sword masters are beauties, at least I have not seen them, and in the history of Yunxiazong... I am not sure if there are any, I have not seen Yunxiazong's "Beauty Collection of Past Dynasties".

Elder Huigu: "Want to see that thing? Why, want to rank yourself among the beauties of the Yunxia Sect?"

I'm just curious, right?

I just want to see how beautiful the top beauties of this sect are. After all, it is said that our Yunxia sect is better than the Hehuan sect in this regard?But in fact, I haven't even seen a portrait of Senior Hua Xiao who I can name - I have seen a lot of paintings by this senior, but he didn't draw a self-portrait.

Under the pressure of Elder Huigu, I still don't know the history of the beauties in this sect, and I haven't seen them in the materials outside the sect. Is it true that the beauties in this sect are as keen as the little uncle to destroy their own video records ?

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After staring at Elder Tian in a daze for a long time, I felt drowsy again, so I just lay down and compared the similarities and differences between Tianfeng Sky and Peifeng Sky—I didn’t see the difference, nor did I see any new connotations, it was just the starry sky at night , the cloud patterns during the day, and the light changes at the turn of day and night seemed to make me feel something. It seemed to be the rules of the world, but it didn't seem to be such a serious thing.

Just over a month later, I heard a voice asking:

"Do you care much about death in the gap?"

I didn't react at first, then sat up abruptly, and looked at Elder Tian in surprise: "He and I are the only ones here, and the voice just now was indeed Elder Tian's, but Elder Tian took the initiative to talk to me?"

I tried not to be too fussy and replied, "I'm not sure. Now I remember what happened in the gap, it seems to be a layer away, and even then, because I was full of doubts, I blocked my mind a lot." Feelings. However, I’m not sure if my sense of isolation is a self-protection mechanism, or if it’s because I actually care about it, so I deliberately imply that I don’t care. Especially when I finally tried the gate of the gap with a fake Aonuo, when the fake The moment Aonuo died or appeared to be dead, I wasn't sure if the indifference in my heart was real or if I forced myself to be indifferent...and because it was unnecessary to try a fake Aonuo, so I felt that I might have I feel guilty, but I feel as if I just think I 'should' feel guilty."

Elder Tian: "Necessary."

Me: "...Are you saying that it is necessary to test with a fake Aonuo?"

Elder Tian nodded.

Me: "If I don't try that, I go straight through the gate, will I die or be seriously injured?"

Elder Tian: "Elder Pei."

Me: "My dad has to shoot me to be safe? That's really lucky, and it gave me another reasonable reason to experiment, but this still can't be covered up. I didn't think about it so deeply at the time. It's dangerous, but I didn't consider other ways of probing, I chose to try the fake Aonuo's life."

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Me: "Although I thought that the fake Aonuo was not a complete living body, he might be a puppet or a clone or something like that, and his shattered head that rolled in front of me also confirmed this guess, but... I don't mind Yes, in fact, I may not mind, I... fear that I may be indifferent to human life."

Me: "The gap did not make me uncomfortable, what made me uncomfortable was my own actions in the gap. I was not cautious, looked at the death of others coldly, and with the assumption that 'may be a scam', I shirked my responsibility to save others, and for myself Not being responsible, being able to sit back and watch and... feel relieved."

Elder Tian: "It's not a mistake."

Me: "Thank you, but this makes me uncomfortable. I'm uncomfortable with myself. I can be indifferent now because I doubt strangers, and in the future, will I be more indifferent because I doubt my own people?"

Me: "Brother once commented on me, saying that if he did something that made me unhappy, I might put him in the category of 'don't care about it' and won't give him a chance to correct his mistakes. He was right, I will. No matter how familiar or close a person is, as long as he does something that I can't stand, just once, I may completely cut off my relationship with that person, completely, and then become a stranger. It's not even against each other, but it just doesn't arouse my feelings anymore."

Me: "It's not so much indifference and cruelty, it's better to say that this is my protection for myself. Because I'm afraid of being hurt, when there are signs of being hurt, I first block the feelings that may be hurt; if I'm caught off guard If the time has already been hurt, then the injured part will be cut off, and the remaining soft feelings will not be revealed. It's not that I don't want to give the other party a chance to correct their mistakes, but that I don't have the guts to give it."

Me: "Because... I am timid, vulnerable, and afraid of getting hurt, so I can only hypnotize myself and say... 'It doesn't matter, I don't care' when I am about to be hurt or may be hurt more deeply."

Elder Tian: "Don't use the 'fake' Aonuo judgment, tell me again what you did with Aonuo."

Me: "...I used Ao Nuo to test the gate of the gap, and found the exit for myself, even though I had a ticket for the gap. This led to Ao Nuo's death."

Elder Tian: "What is your purpose for entering the gap?"

Me: "Bring back Aonuo, alive."

Elder Tian tilted his head slightly and looked at me, as if to say 'he has been reminded in detail'.

2687_ feeling is encouragement

I struggled to put together: "My actual actions were contrary to my purpose...but at that time I was basically sure that Ao Nuo was a fake, a disguised body of a monster or demon." Promise to travel' was actually realized at that time, and the only thing left is that I also travel... My actual action is in line with my goal of going to travel, and is it the most simple and cost-effective solution at that time?"

Elder Tian: "Self-persuasion?"

Me: "...It seems to be a rational analysis. Because if I am not very sure, then Aonuo is fake, and my actions will not be like that... But I am still not sure, like, even though I was very sure at the time. Aonuo is fake, but I am not completely sure."

Elder Tian: "It will be determined."

Me: "I also saw the tragic death of a girl. At that time, I was only suspicious but not completely sure that her death was a disguised illusion, but I chose to think it was an illusion, and then let her die, whether I could save it or not."

Elder Tian: "Can it be saved?"

Me: "If I save it, it will cause the demons to hate me, and it will cause them to attract more monsters to deal with me, but even if I do nothing, as I actually choose, the demons and monsters will not Let me off as an outsider. So saving or not has no effect on my safety."

Elder Tian: "No?"

Me: "... If I save her, I have to protect her until I bring her back to the main world. But if I save her by mistake and she is indeed a demon in disguise, I will bring her by my side to bring more happiness to myself." How dangerous, and when you take her out of the gap... the residents in the gap will not be willing to leave the gap, and will make trouble for me, so that I may be stuck by the door? Even if she is really the victim, she has already After being partially transformed by the Youxia demon, can she still live a normal life when she returns to the main world? Will she choose to become a demon and return to Youxia after living for a period of time?"

Me: "If I didn't use the fake Aonuo to test the door first, why would the door hurt me? Is it the door that hurt me, or something that I can't see that blocks the door? The fake Aonuo wasn't killed by the door, Is that thing that attacked? That thing may be the body of the fake Aonuo, or the enemy of the fake Aonuo who came for the fake Aonuo? The death of the fake Aonuo satisfied that thing, and I can only go out after leaving ?”

Elder Tian didn't answer, but smiled at me slightly.

It feels like encouragement.

I also laughed: "Thank you. You are tired and worried."

Elder Tian: "Not tired. No."

'No' means 'never worried'?Is it trust?