chapter 18
18. Deep Sea Bluebell (2)
18. Deep sea bluebell (2)
“I am going to die!”
Bluebell put his life on the negotiating table.
This is not normal behavior.
What normal person would risk their life and threaten them?
That too seriously.
‘Alternatively… ‘
Which part did I make a mistake, so Bluebell comes out so dependently?
‘Why do my plans keep going awry?’
I don’t understand.
My head hurts from the plans that keep going wrong, and my head hurts even more from Bluebell threatening to die.
‘Which part did you do wrong? Didn’t I keep the line like Nadia did?’
No.
I kept my line firmly.
We are teachers and students. It’s a relationship that can’t be friendly.
From the beginning, he hit Bluebell on the head and planted a proper relationship.
‘I clearly drew a line this time, but why… ?’
I taught you everything from one to ten so that you can become a teacher and stand on your own so that you don’t depend on it.
Why?
Bluebell answered, stomping on my innocent question.
“If you leave, you will die. I am going to die!”
I shook my head in denial of reality.
“Still, it is not impossible. Shouldn’t I go back to my family?”
“So, don’t go! Be my teacher for the rest of my life! Then it will be solved!”
Bluebell screamed.
She has no intention of bending her ego, and it seems like she will continue to use her shoals.
Still, she can’t let Blue Bell take her initiative.
In order to protect her teaching authority, the stronger she came out, the stronger I responded.
“Nothing is solved by using a group. I will go home when the contract period is over.”
“I hate it. Don’t go. I’m going to die. If you want to see me die, go see it.”
However, Blue Bell seemed unwilling to stop threatening her with her life.
“When you leave, I will send a letter to your Sinclair family telling me that I am dead. Will you come to my funeral and regret it for the rest of your life? So, don’t go. If you go, it’s a funeral.”
“… Stop it It makes no sense.”
“Why should I do that! You stop! Don’t leave!”
I can’t understand the language.
Even if you say so, you can’t listen to Bluebell’s words.
There are still many wicked women in the world, and in order to rehabilitate her, she has to go north as she planned.
I cooled my head, gritted my teeth, and turned my back on Bluebell.
“Let’s talk about this here. There is no point in talking.”
“M, what? Why don’t you suddenly end it on your own! Am i dying? If you leave, you will die! Can’t you hear me?! Die!! Don’t go!!”
Suicide threats are going crazy.
Nevertheless, in order not to give up the initiative, I said as I left the seat.
“… If so, let’s do this. I will decide whether or not to leave after seeing Young lady studying.”
A remark that leaves room.
At the same time, I closed the classroom door.
Bang-!!
I hear Bluebell’s voice behind me as I leave.
-You mean you won’t leave if you study hard?! Said!? You promised!?
I ignored Bluebell’s constant shouting and walked down the hallway.
‘I really have no intention of dying. I must have thought that I wanted to die. When I imagined a future without me. He wanted to die, so he came out emotionally like that.’
I don’t know if it’s five years from now.
Now Bluebell won’t die on its own.
She has more reasons not to die than her reasons to die.
‘More than that.’
It is fortunate that Bluebell got enthusiasm for studying instead of death today.
For me, it’s a happy event.
But…
‘Did Bluebell say that knowingly? The harder you study, the better. You won’t need a teacher.’
I’d rather not know about Bluebell.
I felt like I was taking advantage of a clumsy child, so I wasn’t in a good mood.
Still, Bluebell won’t threaten suicide while I’m at the mansion.
‘When the time comes, you can quietly disappear. Leave room for Bluebell to get some hope.’
Because every season can’t be the same.
As I walked down the hallway, I dreamed of a hopeful future quietly disappearing from the mansion.
It was summer, so I had plenty of time.
***
After Bluebell’s suicide threat.
The way she approaches her studies has noticeably changed.
I was trying to maintain my concentration as much as possible, which I usually struggle with.
Compared to the beginning, it was a crazy level of improvement.
“How far do you remember what we just said?”
“That, that… In the past, the Fritz Empire… I had weak power, but… With the power of other families… I said I overcame it… ?”
Great.
However, it is still not enough.
“Which families are among them?”
“That, what is that? With the Verdium family to the east… Northern Sernia… Verton of the West… ?”
“One thing is unfortunate. This is the Bertin of the West. When you later join the banquet. You can never go wrong.”
“Why?”
“Because I am embarrassed by the nobles.”
I am greatly disgraced.
In her novels, Bluebell would reveal to her people at a banquet that her own head was empty.
‘You may not know! Why are you f*cking with me!! Do you all know and live?! Uh?!’
The nobles criticized Bluebell even more.
She cursed her family and her entire family, making her one of her own sinners.
Her proud Bluebell didn’t even know how to apologize, and she couldn’t stand her humiliation.
‘My, what did I do wrong… ‘
She also suffers from severe depression, and each night brings up shameful memories of her past. She
She gradually wanted to give up her will to live.
‘Painful past. And, an uneasy future.’
This is the most representative reason why Bluebell suffers from her depression.
She’s still low on strength.
If you go through a big experience later, the intensity of your depression will continue to increase.
To stop him…
“If you don’t want to be embarrassed, you should study hard like today.”
“… OK, I got it! You don’t have to study hard! You are still working hard!”
Are you too agitated?
Bluebell replied impatiently and annoyed.
I felt impatient when I heard that I was leaving.
I put my hand gently on Bluebell’s head.
“Calm down, and it’s okay to slow down. Books do not run away.”
“I know… you threatened me! I’m leaving the mansion! I mean I don’t like… “
“I’m not saying I’m leaving right away. You’re leaving when the contract ends.”
“That’s the same thing! Until when is the contract!”
Um.
“Two months left.”
“Yeah, that’s right… Shi, I hate it! I’m going to study! Do not disturb!”
Took-
Bluebell refused to put his hand on his head and began to concentrate on his studies.
I studied with my face attached to the book, diligently underlining the places I pointed out.
I didn’t want to disturb her, so I opened the door to silence her and left her classroom.
It was because I had something to do for a while.
“I think Belua should be in the room by now.”
I’m always locked in my room, so of course I’ll be there.
I walked quickly and headed towards Belua’s room.
Located at the end of the mansion, Belua’s room is rarely visited.
I stood in front of her and knocked on the door.
Smart-
“… “
Don’t say anything.
Then, about 10 seconds had passed.
A voice came from the room.
-Are you Bluebell?
Bellois anxiously awaits the arrival of her daughter.
I didn’t move even when I heard her voice.
Then, I put my hand in her pocket, waiting for her to come out.
There was an object in her hand.
-Bluebell? My daughter? Won’t you answer me?
“… “
-Would you like to hear your voice, my daughter?
Dalgrak- Dalgrak-
Bellois was preparing to hang herself from inside her, when she heard the sound of her chair being moved.
I didn’t say anything until she came out.
‘I have to come out soon so I can have an alibi and deal with it… ‘
There are a lot of doubts and it is not easy.
I know it’s not meal time, so I don’t seem to want to open the door and come out.
‘I have to go slow as planned. I have a lot of doubts. Today ends here.’
If I keep knocking on the door at the same time anyway.
Belua will naturally be curious and open the door.
‘It’s not me who’s in a hurry, it’s Belua.’
It was clear that she would want to die right now from the melancholy of the past.
The girl I know is the one who gave up on the future and feels depressed because of the past.
I thought I was wrong this time, and turned around to leave Belua’s room.
However, at that moment, I saw a blue-haired girl running towards her at the end of the hallway.
“This is crazy.”
Bluebell was running towards me and shouting.
“Hey! Tell me where did you go! Don’t leave me alone! And, why in front of mom’s room-“
-… Bluebell. Is my daughter here?
It’s a big deal.
Did it take too long to think about it?
Blue Bell’s voice from far away merges with the rattle in her room.
‘Absolutely not. You can’t show it and let it be heard.’
If this goes on, Blue Bell will sit still in front of the door and listen, just like we saw in her novels.
The sound of Belua hanging herself to death.
And then, when she met her death and forced the door open.
Blue Bell witnesses her own mother hanging herself.
That should never happen to Bluebell.
“I can’t let it go the way it was written.”
Kwaang-!!
I immediately hit Belua’s door.
Once, twice, three times.
Every time my body hits the door, I feel pain in my injured shoulder.
Bluebell was embarrassed by my appearance and stopped me.
“What, what are you doing? Damian! Why would you break down her mom’s door-“
“Stay still!! There is a reason for everything!!”
I knocked it behind Bluebell just in case.
Push-
I hear the voice of Blue Bell sitting in her seat complaining about me.
“Cee… I, pushed me… Damian pushed me… “
I heard Bluebell’s voice, but I bumped into her, barely enduring her pain.
A visit from Belua, who is unnecessarily strong.
I think they bumped into each other about 10 times.
With the sound of the wooden door cracking, my body entered Belua’s room.
‘Bee, where is Belua?’
I hurriedly turned her head to check Belua’s location.
Then, a chair in front of me and a woman’s feet floating in the air.
“It’s like a real dog… !!”
I vented my anger and lifted Belua’s lower body.
Fortunately, it wasn’t too late.
I heard Belua’s emotionless voice.
“Ah, that’s a shame. She could have died in front of Bluebell.”
“Seriously, you’re really crazy. Bluebell Mother.”
As expected.
The answer is to get rid of this woman.
She must be kept out of Bluebell’s eyes.
‘… It’s the day of the accident, so there’s a risk of getting caught.’
Before it’s too late.
I’m here tonight.
I will kidnap Bluebell’s mother.
After making that decision, I heard Bluebell’s melancholy voice behind me.
“What is this… ? Hey, Damian… ? You saved my mother… ?”
My conscience stings me.
Nevertheless, I had to answer.
“Yes, I saved it.”
I intend to deal with Belua tonight.
Looking at Bluebell’s eyes full of tears, I had no choice but to answer that.
***
After a day.
Bluebell lies on a soft bed, holding her weary head and her body.
She sighed and looked up at her ceiling.
“Something happened today.”
An incident happened today as well.
Her mother was about to die by hanging her on a rope.
However, Bluebell’s shock was not that great.
“My mother knew that she would one day die on her own… “
My mother treated me kindly when I was young, but then abandoned me.
I knew that I would die one day due to the sudden change and the feeling of the atmosphere.
The death of her father was shocking because it was sudden, but it was not shocking because her mother’s death was expected.
Bluebell was dazed. She looked up at the ceiling.
“Luxurious room. Shiny ornaments. Beautiful dress. As Damian said, the only thing I lack is knowledge.”
Why do so many accidents happen to me?
Has God abandoned me?
Why does this only happen to me?
“Everything since Damian came here… There are many accidents… But that doesn’t mean it’s Damian’s fault.”
Rather, Damian is not a teacher, but a warrior.
When times are tough, when his head is complicated, he appears like a warrior and saves him.
“Even though she is a mother I hate today. You saved her mother.”
Blue Bell thought she could do everything if Damian was there.
If he is, he is himself abandoned by people.
He felt like a competent person, as if anything had happened.
Most of all, he liked that when he was with Damian, Blue Bell could be immersed in happy thoughts.
“Hmm, let’s see. An idiot trying to leave my mansion. Still, because I said I wouldn’t leave if I studied hard… Hmmm.”
Beep-
Bluebell started reviewing what he wouldn’t normally do.
He looked at the book and read the textbook that Damian had arranged.
Nevertheless, there was still a part that I didn’t understand.
“Why raise taxes. Do the territories revolt? Wouldn’t it be better to collect a lot of money through taxes and make the territory more colorful? Then, Young Ji-min would love it too, right? Why? Umm… I don’t know.”
Because it’s evening too…
“I have to sleep with Damian today. It’s for review! I fall asleep while studying!”
Wada da da-
Bluebell took a book to review and headed to Damian’s room.
The hallway was dark and scary, but going to Damian’s room would be more fun.
Breaking through the uneasy darkness, I headed for Damian’s room where the light was on.
However.
“What, where did Damian go! Did you go to the bathroom?”
Damian was not in the room.
Bluebell thought that Damian had gone somewhere, and sat quietly on the bed for a while and waited for him.
However.
No matter how long Bluebell sits and waits.
Damian did not return to his room.
“Couldn’t it be…?”
Bluebell bit his fingernails in anxiety.
Kkaduk-
“You must not have left the mansion… ? Because there is still time left on the contract. I wouldn’t have left… ?”
I’m anxious.
I’m anxious even if there’s still time left on my contract.
I’m going crazy because I’m afraid I’ll suddenly leave.
Bluebell keeps imagining a bad future.
“Damian, where are you? I-I told you not to leave me alone… “
She finally left Damian’s room and started looking for him.
“Huh, huh… Damian… Where are you… “
The hallway was dark and I couldn’t see ahead.
Unlike before, Bluebell was afraid of the uneasy darkness.
Nevertheless, Bluebell is looking for a ray of light.
Leaning on the moonlight, she took a step forward.