NOVEL WEB Chapter 686: Growing up is hard
After Bai Xinyu and Yu Wenzhen talked on the phone, they checked the public opinion trend online. After confirming that the situation was under control, they didn't plan to take care of it anymore. They just bought Professor Ma's wig with some evil intentions and some hot topics.
After finishing all this, Bai Xinyu was just about to take a rest when he found that the originally closed door slowly opened a gap.
Bai Xinyu looked at the gap and called out with some uncertainty: "Liang...yu?"
At this time, the gap gradually widened, and Liang Yu poked his head in from outside the door: "Can we talk? I can't sleep..."
"Come in and chat." Bai Xinyu waved to Liang Yu: "But can we only chat for half an hour? I'm a little tired today."
"Okay, okay!" Liang Yu immediately opened the door and came in, sitting next to Bai Xinyu: "I actually don't know what's wrong with me. I just feel that after becoming smarter, I don't seem to be as happy as I imagined. Just... there is a kind of... um..."
"Sense of gap?" Bai Xinyu said the words Liang Yu wanted to express.
"Yes!" Liang Yu nodded immediately, and then sighed softly: "They used to say that I am not smart. I also know that I think things are simpler, and I often need my brother and third master to help me. Deal with mistakes.
I have thought more than once, if only I could be smarter, as smart as my brother, would I stop making mistakes, and would I be happier, but...
Although I am not as smart as my brother now, I am definitely much smarter than before...
But I don’t seem to be that happy. Instead, I think about more things and have more worries. "
"What are you worried about?" Bai Xinyu poured a glass of water for Liang Yu.
"If it were in the past, if my brother said what I should do, and if the third master said what I should do, I would never have to think about the purpose of asking me to do it, and I would not think about the consequences of these things. But now..." Liang Yu took a sip of water and looked at Bai Xinyu with complicated eyes: "I feel a little uncomfortable."
"Is it because of what I told you after the award?" Bai Xinyu thought for a moment, and this was probably the only thing that could make Liang Yu sad.
"Yeah." Liang Yu nodded: "Xinyu, you might not know if I don't tell you. My brother and I have been in the same laboratory since we can remember. There are dedicated people who are responsible for taking care of us, teaching us knowledge, and educating us. Testing day after day, that memory... was painful and single.
At that time, I felt even sadder after the only researcher who treated us as [human beings] also left.
Until Third Master showed up, he took my brother and I out of the laboratory, gave us clothes to wear, let us eat food other than nutritional supplements, and allowed us to read according to our own preferences. Although I don’t like reading at all, I My brother is really happy. He has read many, many books.
Sanye also let us listen to the music we like, not Bach and Mozart, not Schubert and Beethoven, but all music, as long as it is what we like.
We have our own independent room. There is no surveillance or eavesdropping in the room, only a retro landline handset.
When the phone rings, it is not a cold electronic voice asking us to do various tests, but calling us to eat, go out to bask in the sun, or go fishing together.
Although Third Master will also assign tasks to us, he will never punish us or break my bones to see how long it will take for me to heal myself.
I really treat Third Master as my and my brother’s relatives. I feel that Third Master also takes care of me and my brother as his children.
But..." Liang Yu hesitated.
Does the person who would deal with her life so casually really treat her as a relative?
"Xinyu, I don't know if it's because I've become smarter, so I'm becoming more and more greedy, or something else... In short, I'm really sad now. Is it because I've had my bones broken, scolded, and ridiculed? It's a failed experiment... It's a different kind of sadness than those."
Liang Yu's big round eyes were covered with a layer of mist, and she looked at Bai Xinyu helplessly, with an aggrieved look that made people feel heartbroken.
"I can understand your thoughts and your feelings." Bai Xinyu slowly held Liang Yu's hand, looked into her eyes, and said in a gentle voice: "Your current mood is normal, everyone will have it. Don't be afraid or worried about your emotions. This emotion only reflects your emotional orientation when facing this matter. It does not verify what kind of problems you have. Your unhappiness and grievances are all related to you. Emotions have nothing to do with you becoming smarter."
Bai Xinyu could understand Liang Yu's grievances, her helplessness as if she had been betrayed, as if she had been living in a self-righteous illusion, and when the illusion was broken, the extremely cruel reality became pieces that cut her.
"Xinyu, what does the third master think of me and my brother?" Liang Yu looked at Bai Xinyu: "Does he also think that we are...failed experiments?"
"I'm sorry, I can't answer this question for you." Bai Xinyu showed a forced smile: "People's hearts are unpredictable, and I don't know what the third master thinks of you brothers and sisters."
"Then what should I do?" Liang Yu's face was full of loss and confusion: "What should I do? Can you tell me? I..."
"Do you remember what I told you?" Bai Xinyu raised his hands and held Liang Yu's cheek: "I want you to have independent thoughts, I want you to be able to make decisions about your own life, and I want you to see it through your own eyes. Get to know this world, I want you to be happy, and I want you to be yourself.”
Liang Yu blinked, her expression still blank.
"Liang Yu, San Ye and I have different ideas. We may become hostile one day. If you ask me what you want to do, I will probably instill in you some thoughts that are unfavorable to San Ye out of selfish motives. I also have I may encourage you to leave Third Master, betray Third Master, or even invite you to join my camp.
What happens after that?
Are you really ready to be hostile to Mr. San? How do you face the cool breeze?
If you are shaken again and you want to go back to Third Master and your brother, what kind of relationship will we have when we meet again?
It's very simple to tell you how to do it. I can talk about it with just a touch of my lips, but this is a very irresponsible behavior on your part.
Liang Yu, you have become smarter than before. You have begun to think about your relationship with the people around you and your connection with the world. This is a very good thing, this is really great.
It doesn't matter if you take it slow. Don't force yourself to make a choice immediately. Take your time to see the world and make decisions slowly.
It's your life, you can be yourself. "
"Then...what if I make the wrong decision?" Liang Yu's tone was still hesitant.
"It doesn't matter, it's wrong, just change it." Bai Xinyu showed a warm and comforting smile: "At the worst, just say sorry with a smile, and then choose again."
"Is this... enough?" Liang Yu looked at Bai Xinyu: "Smile and say sorry?"
"Well, that's it." Bai Xinyu gave Liang Yu a hug and patted her back: "Growing up is hard, take your time, I'll wait for you."
"Yes." Liang Yu rested her head on Bai Xinyu's shoulder, feeling a sense of security coming from her heart.
It seems that I am not so anxious anymore.
After Liang Yu calmed down completely, Bai Xinyu looked at her and asked the question he had been hesitating in his mind for a long time: "Liang Yu, can I ask if the last name of the researcher you said is the only one who treats you as human beings... Xiao?"
Bai Xinyu remembered that Liang Yu once called out the title "Mother Xiao" when she was unconscious.
Is this Mother Xiao... the person she thinks of...