chapter 23
23 – Reunion (4)
It was a pleasant outing that is rare these days.
Every time she came down to the royal capital, her real purpose was somewhere else, but the first place Yuuna always stopped by was a familiar dressmaker.
A place full of memories with Ben.
I wanted to feel that feeling of happiness again, even if just for a little while, by reflecting on those memories.
But of course, that didn’t work out as planned.
When she returned, Ben wasn’t there, and the designers were just showing off high-end dresses to impress her.
And even that didn’t suit Yuna’s taste at all. However, Yuna was too old to confidently choose a dress of her own taste.
Yuna always swallowed her frustration and sat silently, mulling over her memories.
Even though I couldn’t choose the clothes I liked, it was a place I came to remember my memories with Ben.
If I can recall even a little bit of my memories with Ben here, that’s it.
“… Princess. “Try this on.”
But there was something different today, Beryl. The fact that he brought clothes without even knowing the subject matter.
But then again, it was a cute outfit that completely targeted Yuna’s taste.
At first, I thought he was making fun of me, but his expression was extremely serious.
He brought the clothes because he truly thought they would look good on Yuna.
After thinking for a moment, Yuna readily accepted his offer.
Strangely, that dress was Yuna’s perfect taste, and she wanted to try on a dress like that for the first time in a while.
I had the excuse that he had suggested it at the time, so I was able to try it on without anyone worrying about it.
“… “Let’s do this.”
And in the end, I decided to buy the dress.
The other people’s expressions were filled with astonishment, but Beryl nodded as if it was natural.
I guess she genuinely thought the dress looked good on her.
It was a situation where, under normal circumstances, he might have gotten angry because he was being presumptuous.
He was not even from a noble family, but was a bodyguard from a commoner orphan.
It might have been embarrassing to buy a dress chosen by such a man.
Still, why did you accept the offer?
Just last night for the first time in a while. It might have been because it was the first time in a long time that I had a good sleep.
So, since I was in a better mood than usual, I may have been willing to spend.
And the dress was also my favorite. Regardless of the fact that he chose it.
So everything didn’t matter. There was no problem with purchasing the dress.
“Princess. “Can you please wait here for a moment?”
While rationalizing it and moving to the next location, Beryl suddenly stopped her and Shien and ran off somewhere.
She, who felt slightly better after purchasing clothes she liked, was looking at his back with a questioning expression.
Normally, he would have gotten angry and asked how dare he give orders to him, but hearing those words was also surprising.
“Huh… after… Would you like to try it? “It’s food for the common people, but it tastes pretty good.”
“… Wow, knight… !!!”
After going somewhere, he returned with a fruit skewer made with hardened sugar on the outside.
And then he thrust it at her without fear. Among the many fruits, it was strawberry.
Shien, the maid who was watching the scene from behind, looked on with a shocked expression, but could not bring herself to intervene.
This is because he didn’t know what would happen to him if he got involved.
However, Yuna’s subsequent actions were even more shocking.
“… is it so.”
“… Eh, eh?!”
Because she accepted the fruit skewer that Beryl brought.
Shien ended up screaming so loudly that he could be heard next to him at that ridiculous behavior.
Cassock-
Yuuna walked down the street again, eating the fruit skewer he gave her.
The sight of eating skewers with your back straight was even old-fashioned.
In fact, if it had been the case, I would have naturally been angry and called it arrogance.
She gets angry when you even talk to her without permission, and she even gave me food on her own.
But the reason she couldn’t do that was because the fruit skewers were actually her favorite snack.
A common people’s snack made by melting sugar and covering it with fruit.
The taste created by combining sweet sugar and sweet and sour fruit was a taste that Yuuna loved since she was young.
Moreover, strawberries were Yuna’s favorite fruit.
In addition, this snack is a snack that Yuna and Ben always ate together when they came out to the royal capital to play when they were young.
Every time I went out, I always wanted to eat it, but I held back out of respect, and how did Beryl know that I bought it for her?
“I will throw it away, princess.”
Even the quick disposal of the finished skewers was perfect.
This is because if you carry around a skewer with sugar on it, it could end up on your dress.
Even this consideration was the same as what Ben had shown in the past.
Normally, it would have been a cocky behavior that would have made him angry, but strangely, it didn’t occur to him.
Was it because all his actions were as natural as flowing water?
-Crackling
The ladies are seen enjoying the well-organized streets of the royal capital.
Scenes of daily life that are not usually visible.
Some of them are shopping with noble ladies, and others are enjoying a date with a handsome noble man who appears to be their lover.
Things that were completely invisible in emotions colored by negativity such as anger and disgust.
For some reason, those lights were disturbing my vision today.
“… “Princess?”
Yuuna stopped walking, feeling a feeling she felt for the first time in her life.
Beryl, who stopped after her, called from behind.
He was strangely rude, but somehow Yuuna couldn’t execute him.
She had never blinked at the thought of killing someone, but strangely enough, she couldn’t give the order to kill him.
No, I didn’t really think of that. If you listen to his indifferent voice.
When I was with him, the negative emotions that had dominated me for the past 10 years seemed to momentarily bow down.
Unintentionally, Yuuna’s feelings as an ordinary daughter that had been sleeping deep inside her heart arose, and it was not awkward for her to act like that.
It might be because of last night’s dream. A warm dream that didn’t end in a nightmare like usual.
I guess I only feel this way because he happened to be by my side at the moment the dream ended.
Anyway, such an arrogant knight will soon die by his own hand. I just don’t feel like it right now.
Unable to name the emotion that now dominated her, she glanced at Beryl for a moment and then walked away again.
Anyway, I can kill this man at any time.
Right now, I didn’t want to break the peace of mind that I had found in a long time.
I’m sure I’ll have another nightmare tonight. Then, starting tomorrow, those nightmares will haunt you again.
“… “Let’s go.”
Yuna opened her eyes coldly again and walked to the bookstore she always stopped by when she went out.
In the royal castle, it was a place where information that could not be easily exchanged because of the gaze was passed on.
Yuuna arrived at the bookstore, looked around for a while, and then selected the designated book.
It would contain information about the first prince that Yuna had requested.
Going out like this every week was cumbersome, but it was unavoidable for her as she was still building her foundation.
“now stop… ”
After finishing paying, Yuna called Beryl and Shien, who were waiting, and tried to tell them to leave the bookstore.
However, when I saw two people standing at the entrance talking about what was fun, I was momentarily speechless.
“The driver too… Huh, huh. “Princess.”
“Have you finished your business?”
Shien, who was looking up at Beryl and smiling like a fox, immediately hardens his expression when he spots her.
Moreover, the two of them were talking right next to each other, wondering when they had become friends.
Beryl’s expression was still expressionless, but somehow she seemed to be having an enjoyable conversation.
Shien’s expression looking up at him looked very happy.
It was the pure expression of a young lady that he had never seen before when she was serving him.
“… “Let’s go.”
Yuna, feeling strangely uncomfortable, didn’t hesitate to cross between the two and leave the bookstore.
Even though he has such a cold face, is he actually a libertine?
It was never a feeling like jealousy.
It made me feel bad to think that actions like simply picking out a dress or buying snacks were things he was used to doing to women because he was actually a libertine.
I felt somewhat uncomfortable thinking that she might have thought of herself as the same as other women and acted like that.
It was just disgusting to see him trying to charm a woman with a face like that. It was really just that.
However, even Yuna did not realize that it was something he would not normally do.
Normally, I would have felt bad and cut off both of their heads, but I couldn’t even think about that now.
I just feel bad and create a bad image of Beryl in my head.
And I was just concerned about the conversation between the two people, who seemed to be whispering behind my back.
Those emotions were actually quite different from the uncontrollable anger that Yuna usually felt.
Of course, she was not aware of that fact herself.
“… “Me, princess.”
As she was in a bad mood, Beryl called her from behind.
That was also cheeky. The guard knight dared to call the royal family from behind.
“… “What is it?”
“for a moment… “I have something to give you, would you mind?”
However, Yuuna obediently turned around to his call this time.
As expected, it was probably because I didn’t feel any anger at the call.
“It may be presumptuous, but I bought it for the princess because it caught my eye. Could you please accept it?”
What he handed over was a book.
Are you saying that you picked up another book in the middle of your escort mission?
Yuna was almost laughing at his actions.
Has there ever been a knight who behaved so arbitrarily while protecting himself?
“you. Something now… ”
“It’s a picture fairy tale. “I really wanted the princess to read it.”
Yuuna thought she couldn’t bear it any longer and tried to say something to him.
If I fired at him like that, I might get angry and punish him.
But Yuna’s thoughts dissipated like bubbles as soon as she saw the book he handed her.
“He is my favorite author.”
Because the book he gave her was a fairy tale illustrated by an artist she used to like.
The author, who is a bit childish but popular with adults, has been her favorite author for a long time.
And the only person who knew that she liked the author was Ben.
Because Ben was the only one who talked about the author.
And even that was already 10 years ago.
“Princess?”
But after Ben died, I never looked for the author’s books again for 10 years.
The artist’s painting was so beautiful, it was like a memory I had with Ben.
I kept trying to capture all the other memories, but I just couldn’t unfold those picture fairy tales.
Because those pictures were more beautiful than the memories she had with Ben.
Those beautiful pictures and memories cut Yuuna’s heart with the sharp tip of the paper every time she turned the pages.
Whenever the memory of Ben came to mind, Yuuna would be consumed by pain again, like the nightmare she had every night.
This man gave me the book again, which was beautiful, but the more I read it, the more painful it was.
The paintings were so beautiful that I couldn’t open them for 10 years.
“… thank you.”
Yuna thought for a moment and quietly accepted the book.
Beryl slightly raises the corners of her mouth as she looks at him and says thank you.
There was a choice not to accept it, but her hands naturally went to those memories.
“… Did you choose it together with Shien?”
Instead, Yuna asked him another question.
I didn’t even understand why I asked this question.
“I chose it. I boldly asked Sien if I could give the princess this book as a gift. Of course, Sien was very opposed to it, but I still wanted to give this book to the princess as a gift.”
So does this mean that the conversation you two have been having all along was about this book?
Once my curiosity was resolved, I felt like my heart became lighter for some reason.
“… is that so.”
After taking the book, Yuna turned around and walked away again.
Her dry cheeks were slightly flushed, but no one noticed. Even Yuna herself.
“… “I will escort you until the end.”
I hear those words from him following behind me.
Why does he insist on saying the obvious, that stupid man?
However, Yuna did not bother to leave an answer to those words.
I didn’t get angry or criticize him like usual.
Just slowly, holding the book he gave me in my arms. I just walked slowly.
I still couldn’t define the name of this unresolved feeling,
Still, today wasn’t a very bad day.
“Hi… Yuna… ?”
If only I hadn’t met her at the end of the day.