Chapter 5: Underneath It All
The days that followed were an intricate dance one of subtle glances, quiet moments, and barely there touches. Emma could feel the change in the air, the electric tension that hung between her and Jonathan. It was as if the space between them had narrowed, but there was still a distance neither of them dared to cross.
She'd thrown herself into the campaign, determined to prove herself. The brainstorming session had gone better than she'd anticipated, and the team had started rallying behind her ideas. But every time she caught Jonathan's eyes across the office, her stomach twisted. It wasn't just about work anymore. It never had been, if she was being honest with herself.
One afternoon, Emma found herself lingering by the coffee machine, her thoughts scattered. She hadn't even realized how much she missed the little moments of the past, sharing quiet conversations over coffee, laughing at things only the two of them understood.
The soft hum of the office around her seemed distant as she stirred her drink, lost in thought. That's when she heard his voice.
"Mind if I join you?"
Emma's heart skipped a beat. She turned to find Jonathan standing just behind her, his presence as commanding as always, but there was something more in the way he stood now, an openness, a vulnerability that she hadn't noticed before.
"No, of course not," she said, her voice a little too shaky. She quickly moved to step aside, but Jonathan held up a hand.
"I was hoping we could talk."
Her heart lurched. Talk? About what?
"Sure," Emma said, her throat tight. "Is everything okay?"
Jonathan leaned against the counter, his eyes scanning the room briefly before they settled on her. There was an intensity in his gaze that made Emma's breath catch, and for a moment, she forgot how to breathe.
"Yeah, everything's fine," he said, though his voice was softer, more thoughtful than usual. "I just wanted to check-in. See how you're doing with the campaign."
She swallowed, trying to keep her composure, but the way he was looking at her made it hard to think clearly. "It's going well. I think the team's starting to get behind it. But I still feel like I have a lot to prove."
Jonathan's gaze softened. "You've already proven yourself, Emma," he said, his voice a low murmur. "I've seen the work you've put in, and I know how hard you've worked to get here. I trust you."
His words hit her like a wave, sweeping away all the insecurities she'd been harboring. Trust. He trusted her. Not just professionally, but… there was something more there. It was the same way he used to say it, back when they were together. The weight of it hung in the air, thick and heavy.
Emma opened her mouth to speak, but the words caught in her throat. She wanted to tell him that she appreciated his faith in her, but something told her that this conversation was going somewhere else. Somewhere more dangerous.
"I…" She began, then stopped herself. She couldn't say it. She couldn't acknowledge what was beneath the surface.
Jonathan shifted closer, his gaze never leaving hers. "Emma," he said quietly, his voice low and hushed, as if he was testing the waters. "I know we've both been avoiding this, but I think we need to talk about what's been happening between us."
Her heart thudded in her chest, and she took a step back, suddenly feeling trapped. This was it. The conversation she had been avoiding, the one she knew would eventually come. She wasn't ready, not now, not here, in the middle of the office, with the weight of his eyes on her.
"I'm not sure what you mean," Emma said, her voice coming out sharper than she intended. She instantly regretted it, but it was too late.
Jonathan sighed, running a hand through his hair, looking frustrated. "Emma, come on. We both know there's something more between us. It's been building for weeks, and I can't keep pretending like it's nothing."
Her stomach twisted. Was he saying this now? In the middle of a workday, with everything on the line? But the truth was, she knew exactly what he meant. The connection between them had never disappeared. It had only been buried, hidden underneath years of silence. She had tried to ignore it, to move on, but the feelings—those damn feelings—were still there, lingering.
"I don't know if this is the right time," she said, her voice quieter now, tinged with uncertainty. "We're… we're working together now, Jonathan. It's complicated."
"I know," he said softly, his eyes never leaving hers. "But that doesn't change what I'm feeling."
Emma's breath hitched, and for a moment, she just stood there, lost in his gaze. There was no turning back. The barrier they'd built between them had crumbled, and now there was nothing left but the truth.
"Do you… feel the same way?" Jonathan asked, his voice low, almost a whisper.
Her heart pounded. "I don't know," she said honestly, her hands trembling. "I… I haven't been able to figure it out."
Jonathan nodded as if he already knew the answer. "That's okay," he said, his voice gentle. "I just… needed to hear you say it."
Emma's mind was spinning. She felt like she was standing on the edge of a cliff, staring down at something she wasn't sure she could face. The old feelings, anger, betrayal, passion, regret, all of it was rushing back.
But beneath it all, there was a longing. A yearning.
And, for the first time in a long time, Emma found herself wanting to reach for it.
She met Jonathan's gaze, trying to steady herself, her breath shallow. "We can't just pretend nothing happened, Jonathan," she said, her voice barely above a whisper. "We can't ignore what we were… and what we still are."
Jonathan stepped even closer, closing the gap between them. "I don't want to ignore it," he said, his voice thick with emotion. "I can't."
Emma's pulse raced, her breath shallow as she looked up at him. The space between them felt charged, and for a moment, she couldn't think. She couldn't speak. All she could do was feel. And in that moment, she felt everything, every bit of the connection, the history, the desire that had always been there.
She reached out slowly, her fingers brushing his arm, a silent invitation. Jonathan's eyes softened, and without another word, he closed the distance between them, his hand cupping her cheek, pulling her gently toward him.
The world seemed to disappear as his lips met hers, soft at first, hesitant, as if they were both testing the waters. But then, as the kiss deepened, the years of silence and distance melted away, leaving only the raw, undeniable connection that had always existed between them.
When they finally pulled apart, Emma's heart was racing, her mind spinning.
Jonathan's breath was just as shaky as hers. "We can't go back," he whispered. "But I don't want to ignore this anymore, either."
Emma nodded slowly, her chest tight with emotion. "Neither do I."
And for the first time in a long while, she felt like maybe, just maybe, they could find a way forward