Stunned for You

Chapter 61

Two days later, on Saturday, November 16, Shi Yi’s birthday on the lunar calendar. On this day in previous years, Fang Ruohua deliberately made time to cook personally, and Shi Yuanmian would also come back specially. It is rare for a family of three to have a meal at home neatly and spend a warm time together.

Last year was the first year of the divorce. Shi Yi’s birthday coincided with the same day on the lunar calendar and the solar calendar. Fang Ruohua always wanted to let her concentrate on celebrating with her classmates and friends. This year, Xiangye meant to let Shi Yi come to the house, he personally cooks, and helps Shi Yi to celebrate. Fang Ruohua couldn’t find the reason why Shi Yi lost control of his emotions last time. He was worried and didn’t want Shi Yi to contact Xiangye again.

She didn’t know if Shi Yi had always been aggressive, and whether her remarriage caused Shi Yi more harm.

She made an appointment with Shi Yi to go to the resort in the city on the same day, and the two of them, mother and daughter, had a good time and relax.

Shi Yi thought it would not be so troublesome, but after receiving a call from Xiangye halfway through, he changed his mind and agreed.

They arrived in the morning, wandering around the scenic spots in the resort area surrounded by the tropical atmosphere and blue sea for most of the day. In the evening, they were tired. The two went to the set restaurant for dinner and birthday. Night fell, and the two returned under the moonlight and lights. Rest in the villa.

The villa is located on the mountainside, looking up, with layers of greenery, charming light and shadow, refreshing and happy. There is a hot spring in front of the court, Fang Ruohua suggested to soak in the water for a while.

Shi Yi followed the kindness, but Fang Ruohua didn’t get into the water. He just closed the skirt and accompany her gracefully on the hot spring pool stage that Shi Yi was leaning against.

“It’s not convenient for me these two days.” She explained naturally.

Shi Yi did not force it. One of them was in the water and outside the pool, chatting one after another.

After talking, Fang Ruohua’s cell phone rang. Fang Ruohua took a look and said, “It’s your uncle”, stood up and walked away to pick it up.

After a while, Fang Ruohua returned.

Shi Yi was strange: “So fast.”

Fang Ruohua explained: “It’s okay, just ask us if we have eaten or what we have eaten.”

Shi Yi let out a faint laughter: “Uncle should have come together.”

Fang Ruohua paid close attention to Shi Yi’s expression, Shi Yi’s expression was normal, and even a slight smile, not as if it were pretended.

“Can’t bring it.” Fang Ruohua said with a little smile, “It’s not convenient for us to follow him as a big man.”

Shi Yi looked at her smile, feeling a little sour, but more soft. Fang Ruohua’s smile when he mentioned Xiang Yeshi was very different from other times.

This kind of happiness was never given to her by Shi Yuanmian, nor could he bring her.

She suddenly turned sideways, and stretched out her hand to cover Fang Ruohua’s flat abdomen.

Fang Ruohua was caught off guard, and her whole body froze.

Shi Yi looked at her with a calm expression and said softly: “Mom, if your body allows it, stay.”

Fang Ruohua’s lips trembled and she was rarely flustered: “Yiyi, you…”

“I know.” Shi Yi looked down. “Uncle called me two days ago.”

“Who asked him to say that!” Fang Ruohua gathered her brows and furious.

Shi Yi got up and got out of the water, put on a bath towel, his face was calm, “I should know.”

Thinking back to receiving the call, Shi Yi still felt a little bit uncomfortable when she knew that Fang Ruohua had a new life in her belly and that she was no longer Fang Ruohua’s only landslide and tsunami. That was the panic that the mother was about to be completely taken away.

But what was even more uncomfortable was that Xiang Ye told her that they had undergone various inspections and considered them again and again. They had planned to have this child, but Fang Ruohua had visited her that time and decided not to go back.

He apologized to her, frankly because he was selfish, he was reluctant, and felt that Shi Yi had the right to know about this, so he wanted to chat with her and listen to her thoughts.

At that moment, Shi Yi’s heart was full of flavours, and his brain was chaotic like a hurricane passing by, completely unable to think. She didn’t answer, and directly hung up Xiangye’s call.

Xiang Ye made two more calls, but she didn’t answer it. After taking a deep breath, she replied a message to Xiang Ye: “You let me calm down.”

That night, she blew the wind for a long time on the balcony, stepped into the audio-visual room, and opened the starry sky instrument for a long time.

Under the vast stars, she thought a lot for a long, long time. Just like when I went to the counseling room these two times, I was silent and talked to myself in my mind, trying to sort out my thoughts objectively and rationally.

At around five in the morning, she replied to Xiang Ye: “I will talk to her on Saturday.”

“Because I don’t know anything, and become the executioner who stifles your happiness, I don’t want to experience it a second time.” Shi Yi sat beside Fang Ruohua in a low tone.

Fang Ruohua couldn’t hear her say this to herself, “It’s not like this, it’s my own decision, and it has nothing to do with you.”

“But I can’t help but think so.” Shi Yi looked into her eyes, “If it really has nothing to do with me, Mom, tell me, if you don’t consider my thoughts, do you want to keep him?”

Fang Ruohua’s throat choked and she rolled her eyes to deny it, but Shi Yi saw through her hesitation and whispered: “Mom, do you want to listen to my thoughts?”

Fang Ruohua hesitated.

Shi Yi said to herself: “I was really upset some time ago, and it made you worry.” She looked at the white gas rising from the hot spring, and said calmly: “But it has nothing to do with you and uncle, it’s my own problem.”

“From the time I told you that I approve of your remarriage and bless you and uncle, I have no complaints about your marriage and your life.”

“If there are more people sharing your attention, of course I will be lost. But seeing you have a good time, I still have more happiness than being lost.”

She is not a person who is good at expressing love. The first time she confessed herself to Fang Ruohua like this, she thought she would be embarrassed. But after speaking, she found that everything was much easier than she thought. She turned back to look at Fang Ruohua, “I don’t need you to sacrifice anything for me, I only want you to live a happy life.”

Fang Ruohua was moved, her voice astringent, “Shi Yi, I don’t need you to force myself for me.”

“I didn’t force myself.” Shi Yi held her hand and put her hand on her belly. “If you want him, I will look forward to his arrival just like you do. I look forward to this. There is one more person in the world who is connected to me by blood and loves you as much as I do.”

Fang Ruohua’s eyes flushed, raised her head and took a deep breath to ease her emotions, and asked Shi Yi: “Then the problem that has made you unhappy for a long time, have you solved it?” She still felt uneasy.

“No.” After a pause, Shi Yi added: “But I seem to have the answer I want.”

Just as she didn’t need Fang Ruohua to sacrifice for her, Fang Ruohua also said that she didn’t need her to force her.

Perhaps many things are not easy to accept at the beginning. It’s like accepting the broken family, accepting Fang Ruohua’s remarriage and re-pregnancy. But they have all experienced it. One party’s grievances and begging for one party are even less likely to make both parties really feel good.

She looked at Fang Ruohua’s gentle face and asked seriously: “Everyone chooses to be responsible for themselves, is it also a kind of responsibility for those who love them?”

Fang Ruohua nodded subconsciously.

Shi Yi smiled lightly, “I think so.”

The light of Qingming opened the haze under the eyes, the night breeze passed by, and after a long time I felt the sensation of hair fluttering and pores breathing. It seemed that the body that had been numb for a long time finally came to life.

She stretched her eyebrows and said with confidence: “Then I hope you will make the decision to be responsible for yourself so that you can really live well and have a good time. This is what I hope most, the way you are responsible to me.”

She solved Fang Ruohua and also solved herself. She convinced herself that this was not an excuse. After all, Fang Ruohua’s love for her must be the same as her.

Fang Ruohua’s eyes filled with relief, “Shi Yi, you really have grown up.”

Shi Yi turned to his side, hugged her vainly, lowered his head, leaned his chin on her shoulder, and promised softly: “So, don’t worry about me, I will also be responsible for myself.”

“No matter what happens in the future, you are my mother and I am your daughter. I love you very much and it will never change.”

The rare intimacy, the rare confession, the rare little daughter acting. Fang Ruohua felt soft and soft.

The two chatted in this position for a long time, until the night was getting colder and Shi Yi was a little cold, and the two ended the conversation and returned to the villa.

Shi Yi went into the bathroom to take a shower. Most of the shackles were removed, and the hot water washed over the whole body, the warmth melted, and the weight of the whole body seemed to be flowing with the water.

Her thoughts gradually drifted away, entwined with Fu Sitian who was thousands of miles away.

Be responsible for yourself, accept your true self, then, what then?

Can she be with Si Tian?

Si Tian… can you forgive her? She thought of Fu Sitian’s avoidance and resistance to her, and her heart was heavy.

She left the bathroom after the shower, sitting on the bed and blowing her hair, absent-mindedly. The screen of the mobile phone in his hand stayed on the QQ homepage for a long time, and Fu Sitian’s dialogue bar was pulled to the top again.

His hair was about to be scorched, and Shi Yi finally opened it.

Then, looking at the last record that Fu Sitian did not reply, she lost her courage again.

Every word pierced her eyes like a needle, reminding her how cruelly she had hurt Fu Sitian.

How could she look back.

Chen Xizhu’s words rang sharply in his ears, “Shi Yi, you also think of yourself too much.”

The phone screen darkened, and Shi Yi’s eyes darkened. She turned off the hair dryer, turned off the ceiling light, closed her eyes, and tossed and turned in the dark.

She has a realization: she has never been a person to escape, but when it comes to Fu Sitian, she has always been a coward.

At one o’clock in the morning, she still could not fall asleep. Opened his eyes and habitually opened Fu Sitian’s trumpet homepage.

One minute by one, she refreshed Fu Sitian’s homepage. She set a time for herself, three o’clock-the latest time she has seen Fu Sitian appear. She looked forward to it not appearing, and looked forward to Fu Sitian’s sleep tonight.

However, at 2:30 in the morning, she did not wait until that ”

She just liked this Weibo entry, but she was keenly aware that the number of Weibo posts increased by one.

Fu Sitian posted a Weibo that was only visible to him.

Shi Yi frowned and sat up with his arms. She stared at the row of numbers on top, her thin lips pressed tightly, and her distress overwhelmed her heart.

How many days have passed. It’s not a coincidence at all. Fu Sitian never slept peacefully all night.

It can’t go on like this.

She rubbed her forehead, closed her eyes, took a deep breath, let go of all her reservations and worries, and opened Fu Sitian’s dialog again.

Do you apologize? Where to start. Do you care? I don’t even know where to start.

To be reconciled, there must be a beginning.

“Si Tian, ​​are you asleep?” She struggled to squeeze out a question.

The screen lit up, and the moment Shi Yi’s name jumped out, Fu Sitian was stunned.

She looked at the screen stupidly, suspecting that she was dreaming.

The author has something to say: the little cuties are crazy calling: chasing wives in the crematorium! Is the wife chasing crematorium coming?

Shi Yi sneered coldly.

Pick up the little rabbit and start rua.

The bunny stubbornly resisted.

quickly……

Xiaotuji: Wait, I can…

“Yi” hadn’t even spoken yet, and the little rabbit started to whine, hum, and he was so red that he couldn’t speak.

Guess, how long can Xiaotu Ji be unfamiliar with it?