Stunned for You

Chapter 40

“Candid photos of girls are still posted on public platforms, which is impolite and not thoughtful.”

“I really like it. I should ask you for contact information at the time.”

“It’s very frank and brave like this.”

Shi Yi seems to be very serious about analyzing with her why she thinks this boy is bad, like an ordinary good friend, a good girlfriend…

Fu Sitian’s raised heart fell again.

Even lower, “Shi Yi, do you like brave people?”

People who are seated in the right place, very unconvinced and very brave-myself too.

Shi Yi seemed to be a little puzzled about her question. He paused for a few seconds before replying, “What is the definition of like?”

“It is more appropriate to use appreciation. The quality of bravery, no one does not appreciate it.”

Fu Sitian stared at the words “brave”, his eyes gradually darkened.

So, how do you define bravery? If she muster up the courage to chase a dream, is it greedy or brave?

Chen Xizhu is still concerned about her follow-up. Fu Sitian briefly talked to her about Shi Yi’s reaction, and Chen Xizhu began to dream her again: “Shi Yi’s reaction is definitely beyond the limit of an ordinary good friend!”

Fu Sitian’s heart rose and fell, and he sat leaning against the wall for a while, rubbing his forehead and sitting back in front of the small table, forcing himself to concentrate on reviewing.

Can’t imagine it. Too many dramas. She warned herself. But the mind still floated around uncontrollably.

The end of thinking too much is that she did not review this course very well, and she was not very sure about the selection of several multiple-choice questions. After the exam, she joked with Chen Xizhu and let her be responsible. Chen Xizhu pushed her completely and teased that she could not be held accountable, and whoever moved the girl should be held responsible.

Fu Sitian bit his lip and smiled, saying that he couldn’t help her.

The senior year has been cleared, and the new dormitory allocation schedule has been issued before the holiday. Jian Lu and Yin Fanlu wanted to wait for the next day after the exam to move to the dormitory. Fu Sitian and Shi Yi had no objection. They only asked for the dormitory key from the auntie over there, and occasionally organized some things first.

On the evening of July 2nd, there are still two days before the last course-the modern history exam. Shi Yi brought the printed review materials to the new dormitory. She found that this new dormitory that no one had moved in had a balcony with a wide view, facing the boundless sea in the distance, suitable for one person to review and relax.

She took the elevator to the 15th floor, the door of 1510’s dormitory was concealed. Pushing the door open, through the light of the corridor, she saw a thin figure standing with her back facing her on the balcony.

It is Fu Sitian.

Why don’t you turn on the lights? Shi Yi closed the door, afraid of frightening Fu Sitian, and called her first: “Sitian?”

Fu Sitian seemed to be in a trance and did not respond.

Shi Yi walked behind her in the dark and called out again, “Si Tian.”

Fu Sitian was obviously still frightened. She trembled all over, turned her head, widened her eyes and opened her small mouth, panicking and cute.

Like a frightened little rabbit.

Shi Yi put a soft voice, “It’s me.”

Fu Sitian was undecided in shock, seeing that it was Shi Yi, his face was sour and burning, “Sorry…did you scare you?”

Shi Yi was funny, “Didn’t I scare you?”

Fu Sitian’s eyes were wet, “I am the one who reacted too much.”

A smile appeared on the corners of Shi Yi’s lips, and he suddenly asked, “Did you know, rabbits are easily scared to death.”

“Ok?”

“Don’t turn on the lights next time.” She smiled seemingly, standing beside Fu Sitian, looking at the dark sea in the distance, and asked casually: “What are you looking at?”

Fu Sitian crossed her profile and looked at the darkness behind her that seemed to swallow everything. The emotion that had just passed away slowly sank again, “I’m looking for stars.” She said softly.

Shi Yi raised his head, “Are there any stars tonight?”

Fu Sitian followed up and said, “No, there will be no stars tonight.”

Why use the word “also”? Shi Yi was still wondering, Fu Sitian repeated it again, “Shi Yi, there are no stars tonight.”

The tone was as low as a whisper.

Shi Yi was stunned, and later realized that Fu Sitian was… sad?

Without light, she couldn’t see Fu Sitian’s expression clearly, and Fu Sitian didn’t look at her either. She just raised her head, her eyelashes trembling in the gloom, like the last struggle of a butterfly in a hurricane.

The smile on Shi Yi’s lips disappeared, and his thin lips formed a line.

Standing in silence for a while, she stretched out her hand and touched Fu Sitian’s cool fingertips.

Fu Sitian shook reflexively, and Shi Yi held her harder.

“Shi Yi?” Fu Sitian’s heart beat faster.

Shi Yi said, “Are you going to talk to me?”

What are you talking about? Fu Sitian’s heartbeat was as loud as a drum.

“Talk about your unhappiness.” Shi Yi’s tone was flat.

Fu Sitian’s heartbeat slowed down, and he didn’t know for a moment whether he should be lucky or lost. The hand holding her was soft and hot, and it was not at all the same as its owner’s appearance, and she couldn’t bear to withdraw it at all.

She looked up at Shi Yi, Shi Yi looked at her, her eyes seemed to be twinkling, so focused and gentle.

Fu Sitian’s heart trembled, and his mood collapsed again.

She thought she would never talk about these useless emotions to others, but she heard that she still opened her mouth: “Shi Yi, I sometimes feel that if I didn’t exist from the beginning, it would be fine.”

It seems that once you start, it becomes much easier behind.

“My grandma always said that without my existence, my father might not have to marry my mother and walk all the way to the dark. Maybe everything will be different from now.”

“My sister also said that if it were not for me, I s… my parents would not always quarrel now, they would have a good time.”

“My sister just cried at home, because the college entrance examination was not ideal, she could not apply for the volunteer report. She could not report for any school she wanted to go to. And the wrong start seemed to be me. During the entrance examination, if I did not have me, add With two points for the only child, she will be able to go to the best high school in the county.” Because of these two points, she couldn’t achieve a goal, and fell to the general high school, and it took a lot of hard work to pass the first line.

It was another violent storm at home at the moment, and she was hiding here.

“I have delayed a lot of people.” She seemed to merge with the darkness.

Shi Yi squeezed her hand tightly, making Fu Sitian even a little painful.

“But it’s not your fault. The cause and effect of life is not inferred in this way.” The girl’s voice pronounced for her in a cold voice, “All the results in life are just people paying for their own choices. If you choose, you have to bear it, nothing special.”

To vindicate her, “Your existence is not the result of your choice. What does it have to do with you?”

Just like what she said many years ago, “Your father is the one who does bad things, but not you. What does it have to do with you?” She always speaks such unusual things in such a normal tone.

Fu Sitian bit her lip, and suddenly an uncontrollable vulnerability swept over her.

She quickly turned her head away, holding her chin trembling, not wanting Shi Yi to see her red eyes and tears that filled her eyes.

Shi Yi was muffled, raised his head to look at the sky, pretending to see nothing, but gently rubbed the back of her hand with his thumb.

In the air, Fu Sitian’s breathing gradually became heavier.

Shi Yi said, “If you don’t exist, we can’t meet each other.”

Fu Sitian’s heart seemed to be hit by something, and the feeling of wanting to cry was hard to hold back, and his throat became astringent again. She plucked up the courage, curled up her fingertips to feel Shi Yi’s heat, and asked in a low voice: “Shi Yi, is our encounter important?”

I held my breath unconsciously.

Shi Yi laughed softly from his nose, in a very soft tone, “If I didn’t meet, then I will not be the one who is watching the stars with you at this moment.”

“It’s very important.”

Although it is not the answer that I want to hear most in my heart. But Fu Sitian was also satisfied.

She raised her head and looked up at this dark night with Shi Yi. It’s still the same piece of darkness, but not the same piece of darkness.

“It would be great if there were stars.” She finally got a little mood to laugh.

Shi Yi glanced at her, his eyes rippled, “Do you like stars?”

“Well, when I was a child, when I couldn’t sleep, my mother taught me to count the stars and tell me the story of the stars. She always said that each star represents a good blessing from the universe to the world. So every time I look at it, There will always be a feeling of being patronized by beauty. Although, it is very far away.”

Shi Yi heard the taste of nostalgia.

“There will always be moments when there are stars.” She comforted.

Fu Sitian smiled and did not speak. Even if there is, it doesn’t belong to her.

After a while, she completely cleared up her emotions and changed the subject to care about Shi Yi, “Are you here to review?” She looked at the information in Shi Yi’s hand.

“Yeah.” Shi Yi released his hand.

“Then…then you hurry up and review it, I won’t bother you.” Fu Sitian said wittily.

Shi Yi could see that she didn’t want the two to meet under the light, at least not tonight. She did not hold back, nodded, and allowed this conversation to end in the darkness.

Fu Sitian was about to go out, and Shi Yi suddenly asked her: “Is there time at this time tomorrow?”

Fu Sitian was stunned, “Yes.”

“Then this time tomorrow, come here.”

“Review?”

“Look at the stars.” Shi Yi’s expression was plain.

Fu Sitian blinked, knowing that Shi Yi’s words would not have the romantic meaning that he wanted at all, and his mood rose, “Okay.”

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After dark the next day, Fu Sitian packed up the review materials and came here as scheduled.

The light in the 1510 dormitory was bright, and Shi Yi had arrived, looking through the materials with his head down. Hearing the sound, she turned her head, smiled slightly as a greeting, stood up and walked out.

Fu Sitian just wanted to ask her where to go, and the lights went out with a “click”.

Shi Yi walked back again.

Fu Si Tianchu was at the desk and asked blankly: “What’s wrong?”

Shi Yi seemed to laugh and did not speak. She bent down and fumbled for something on the chair in the middle of the aisle.

Fu Sitian was still in strangeness, and the dark bedroom in front of him instantly turned into a vast sea of ​​stars. On the low blue sky, tens of thousands of stars were shining, shining, and shining on her.

Like setting a wasteland, like in a dream.

Fu Sitian felt dizzy for a moment, like the weightlessness of stepping on the clouds, and the suffocation of forgetting to breathe.

Suspect that I had hallucinations.

Shi Yi’s voice truly rang in his ears: “Tonight, there are stars.”

She looked sideways at the sound source with her throat tight.

Under the sky full of stars, Shi Yi looked at her, his expression hidden in the bright stars, so hazy, gentle but so clear.

“At this moment, all the stars belong to you.”

“Do you want to count?”

Fu Sitian heard her own heart set off a huge wave with blood, engulfing her limbs. Her reason was breathing hard in the huge waves.

There is a desire to ask repeatedly.

If the stars belong to me.

Can I belong to you then?