Shadows before dawn.

It's been a while now...

Yeah, I quit smokin'

I told you I needed some space.

Shit, I wasn't jokin'

I've been feeling free as of late.

Yeah, I've been floatin'

I thought I deleted that face,

But fuck, I was broken...

And sometimes I think of the days when we were together...

No matter the time or the place, no matter the weather...

I just kept on telling myself that things would get better...

I never imagined that traumatic pain was keeping us tethered...

I sat in the bathtub,

And you took that picture...

Laughing at the bad jokes,

A beautiful mixture...

And I was so sad folks,

Needed an elixir...

But you loved that sad smile,

A permanent fixture...

I had to escape it.

I had to embrace it...

I needed that downfall.

I never could fake it...

And I needed synergy then,

And you couldn't take it...

And you kept on "testing" my love,

And I couldn't shake it...

Now look where it got us.

Now look how it ended...

I offered my whole heart,

And I was befriended...

I tried to fill all of the gapes,

Fuck, I tried to mend it...

I wish I could take it all back,

I'd undo the finish...

I've been single for two years,

That's an associate's degree.

I keep my heart inside my books 

You can negotiate with me.

Yeah, I know everything I want,

And everything I want to be.

I learn from all the falls I take,

I keep my heart off of my sleeve. 

Taking the time to heal.

Taking the time to grieve.

Letting my heart forgive.

Letting my mind believe.

Trying my best to live.

Trying to let it be.

Open to being loved.

Open to being me.