Chapter 7: Unraveled Threads
The air in my apartment feels thick, heavy with the scent of rain and the faint musk of Julian's cologne clinging to my skin from last night. I'm pacing barefoot across the hardwood, my silk robe slipping off one shoulder, when the door buzzer jolts me. My pulse kicks up. I know it's him before I even press the button—I can feel his brooding energy seeping through the walls. Julian. The artist who's carved himself into my thoughts, my body, like one of his damn sketches.
"Let me up," his voice crackles through the intercom, low and edged with something dangerous. No pleasantries, no games. I hesitate, my finger hovering, but my body betrays me—heat pooling low in my belly, a traitor to my better sense. I buzz him in.
He's at my door in seconds, all dark hair and darker eyes, his leather jacket slick with raindrops. He doesn't wait for an invitation—just steps inside, kicking the door shut with a thud that reverberates in my chest. "You were at the ball," he says, not a question, his gaze pinning me where I stand. "With her."
Mara. The masked woman whose lips tasted like sin and secrets in that alcove, her hands bold and knowing. I'd suspected it was her—Julian's wife—but hearing it from him makes it real. My throat tightens, but I lift my chin, defiant. "So what if I was?"
His jaw clenches, a muscle ticking under the stubble. "Did you know?" He steps closer, crowding me, his heat brushing against the thin silk of my robe. "Did you know it was her when you let her touch you?"
I should lie, play it cool, but the truth spills out, sharp and reckless. "Not at first. But when I figured it out? It made it better." My voice drips with challenge, daring him to react. His eyes flare, and before I can blink, he's on me—his hands slamming into the wall on either side of my head, caging me in.
"You're a fucking mess, Sasha," he growls, his breath hot against my lips. "You think this is a game?"
"Maybe it is," I shoot back, my heart pounding so hard I'm sure he can feel it. "Maybe I like the chaos." My hands find his chest, shoving him—not to push him away, but to feel the solid wall of him, the way his muscles tense under my palms. He doesn't budge. Instead, he grips my wrists, pinning them above my head in one rough motion, his other hand sliding to my throat—not choking, just holding, his thumb brushing the wild pulse there.
"You don't get to play me," he says, voice low and ragged, but his eyes betray him—pupils blown wide with want. I can smell the paint on him, the faint tang of turpentine mixed with rain, and it's intoxicating. My thighs clench, and I hate how much I want him right now, hate how this fight is unraveling me thread by thread.
"Then stop me," I whisper, tilting my head to graze his lips with mine—just a tease, a spark to the fuse. It works. He crashes into me, his mouth claiming mine with a bruising force that steals my breath. Our tongues clash, all teeth and desperation, and I taste the anger in him, the possession. My robe's slipping now, the tie loosening, and he doesn't hesitate—his free hand yanks it open, exposing me to the cool air and his burning gaze.
"Fuck," he mutters against my lips, his fingers digging into my hip as he presses himself closer. I can feel him, hard and insistent through his jeans, grinding against me, and a moan escapes me before I can stop it. The wall's rough at my back, scraping my skin as he releases my wrists to hoist me up, my legs wrapping around his waist on instinct. My nails rake down his neck, leaving red trails I know he'll feel later, and he hisses, thrusting against me harder.
"You saw me with her and liked it," I taunt, my voice breathy, daring him to deny it. "Didn't you?" His response is a growl, his hand sliding between us to fumble with his belt. The clink of metal, the rasp of his zipper—it's a symphony of chaos, and I'm drowning in it. He doesn't bother with finesse, just shoves his jeans down enough to free himself, and then he's pushing into me, rough and unrelenting.
I cry out, the stretch and burn of him overwhelming, but I don't want gentle—not now. The wall bites into my spine as he thrusts, each movement a claim, a punishment, a plea. My hands tangle in his hair, pulling hard, and he bites my shoulder in retaliation, teeth sinking in just shy of breaking skin. The pain sparks through me, mingling with the pleasure coiling tight in my core, and I'm lost—lost in the rhythm of him, the slap of our bodies, the wet heat where we're joined.
"Say it," he demands, his voice a rough rasp against my ear. "Say you're mine."
I laugh, wild and jagged, even as my body arches into him. "I'm nobody's." It's a lie—I'm his in this moment, and Lena's, and maybe even Mara's—but I won't give him the satisfaction. He snarls, his pace quickening, and I feel the tremor in him, the edge he's teetering on. My nails dig deeper, urging him over it, and when he groans my name—low and broken—I shatter too, my release ripping through me like a storm.
We're panting, slick with sweat, still pressed against the wall as the aftershocks fade. He doesn't pull away, just rests his forehead against mine, his breath ragged. "You're going to ruin us all," he murmurs, and there's no anger left—just a quiet resignation that chills me more than the fight ever did.
I slide down, my legs shaky, and tug my robe closed, suddenly aware of the mess we've made—of me, of this. "Maybe," I say, meeting his gaze. "But who's pulling the strings here, Julian? You? Me? Her?" I don't say Mara's name, but it hangs between us, a ghost in the room.
He doesn't answer, just watches me with those dark, unreadable eyes as he fixes his jeans. The silence stretches, heavy and suffocating, until he turns for the door. "This isn't over," he says, more promise than threat, and then he's gone, leaving me alone with the ache in my body and the questions clawing at my mind.
I sink to the floor, my fingers tracing the marks he left—on my skin, in my head. Who's manipulating whom? I thought I held the reins, but now I'm not so sure. The threads are unraveling, and I can't tell if I'm the weaver or the one caught in the web.