Reincarnated as a Villain That was Killed Before the Game Starts

[29] The Day of Tears

“I mean, the day I fell down the stairs, Meiko was becoming a lady… is that all right with you?

“Yes, you’re right.”

Claude confirmed it and nodded.

I told Claude who came to the room that I wasn’t actually Hilda.

“… is that what happened? When it comes to amnesia, I thought it seemed too different. That’s what happened to being nice to the boys and getting along with Ixis.”

Claude seemed to think silently for a while, but eventually opened his mouth.

“In conjunction with what Jimmy was saying, can I assume that the soul of a real lady is out of her body and in a state where Maiko’s soul is in there”

“Maybe, I think so”

If you nod at Claude for putting it together, he looks a little weird.

“Will you stop saluting me, Master Meiko? Things are going crazy.”

“Oh, yes, I’m sorry”

Laughs like trouble, stiffens you up.

Claude seemed to accept this weird situation, albeit bewildered, when he wondered if he would be offended that he had been fooling him.

“If what Jimmy is saying is true, it would be better if you let Jimmy go and look for the lady, too, for Maiko’s sake. It’s… it’s hard to stay a lady, isn’t it?

Claude turns a carefree gaze.

I’m a little happy about that.

“Until the day Maiko and the lady return to their original bodies, I will serve as ever. So give me an order.”

Leaving that behind, Claude left the room.

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The next day.

I felt like thinking alone, so I decided to head out of town for a bit.

“Hey, are we gonna get wet?

“It’s okay. It’s light rain, and it’s a little hot, so it’s just fine.”

If I laughed at Ixis trying to follow me as an escort, Ixis opened his eyes and solidified.

Face as if you saw something you shouldn’t.

I saw it and realized I had failed to laugh.

Try to turn your back and leave the inn early.

The weather, which was rough until yesterday, had settled to about light rain.

Ixis walks behind me a little further away. I guess you’re taking care of me.

I don’t mind breaking the magic doll itself to release Jimmy from Hilda’s pledge.

What bothers me is what Jimmy said I was a ghost.

I remember him dead.

I bought the game and was in an accident on my way home.

So I reincarnated into Hilda, and I just thought the shock of falling down the stairs had brought back that memory.

I wonder why I assumed that.

Think about it carefully. Whatever you think, it was caused by the novel you were reading in the original world.

The protagonist dies in Nihon, reincarnates and starts a new life in another world.

That type of novel was quite a boom in me, and I read so many books like that that that I thought so without a doubt.

The only thing I thought was reincarnation was possession as a ghost.

Looks similar. This is quite different.

When the soul of the original Hilda returns, where should I go with the ghost?

Claude seems to mistake me for having a body to go back to, but there’s nothing like it.

I was going to avoid the death flag as Hilda and live in this world.

I was a dead ghost in the first place. This body is not mine either.

I just dodged the death flag, and he’s already dead.

When Hilda gets back, I’m useless and I don’t know where to go.

That makes my heart darken.

Right, am I dead?

I get a real feeling now.

Hilda, put me in a situation where if I lost a little mind, I’d be dead.

It makes me realize that I’ve never had to think about it before.

Or I was trying not to look at it intentionally.

Well…… I also call it a reality escape.

The first thing I wonder how you’re doing with me gone is thinking about my brothers. My parents are busy and I’ve been taking care of them for a long time.

Next, mother, stepfather and brother. So, my friend.

Normally at this age, I guess I remember my lover’s face first or something.

Think of the character in my favorite maiden game than that, I can’t play a sequel. My low female power to be depressed.

Well, it’s just because I don’t have a lover… Ha.

If you were going to die, you should have worked a little harder in love.

I hadn’t even kissed you yet…… well, I had some experience over here.

… This may be a bit of a mess.

Even empty energy doesn’t work.

The pouring rain sucks on my clothes.

It seemed like that droplet of water that was taking away the heat was trying to cool my heart, which was sore and feverish.

“… Hey, I’m gonna bump into you”

Ixis pulls my hand and realizes I wasn’t looking forward.

I almost hit the wall.

“Ah… sorry Ixis”

When I apologized and tried to change direction and walk out, Ixis suddenly hugged me.

“Hey, why are you so desperate? You don’t like Jimmy so much that he disappears?

He asked me, and I remembered that Ixis was telling me how I felt.

Because of emotions I don’t know why, they seemed more confused than me.

“I’m not. I’m sorry.”

“You don’t have to apologize for anything, give me a reason. I don’t know why Mako feels that way.”

Apologize and Ixis will say that.

I thought you were causing me trouble.

Exhale small and force your mouth up.

Then away from the gentle Ixis arm.

“No, I, you just thought I was reincarnated into Hilda! But it’s not like he was a possessed ghost. It’s dead in the original world, and I don’t know what to do when Hilda gets back, and it’s getting a little dark. Because it’s okay now!

Haha laughing with his back of his head, Ixis frowned.

“Oh, I thought I was reborn in the corner and I could be such a good tit beauty. Well, it’s always dangerous and next door. I was starting to feel like I could do something about it. If you’re dead in the first place and this isn’t your body. You didn’t mean much by your hard work so far either!

Makes me look like Ixis is in pain, rubbing my chest as usual.

I don’t want you to look like that, I want you to flush it in light shape, as usual.

“Hey, Meiko”

“Oh, it’s okay, Ixis! Don’t worry, I’ll keep my promise to Ixis. Strive to return the treasure balls as well. I’m just sorry if this body died five years ago or if Hilda comes back!

Ignore Ixis trying to block words and screw him up in bright shape.

I thought if I stopped now… I’d cry.

“I’m not worried about that. I’m worried about Meiko!

Screaming, Ixis sends a strong gaze to me.

The brittle part of my heart was about to collapse into that look I could see looking at me, not Hilda, and I accidentally drank my breath.

“… it’s going to rain harder, so it’s time to go home! You’re going after me!

I missed my face and tried to get away from this place, and Ixis couldn’t forgive me for it.

It grips my wrist so painfully.

Let go of me, Ixis.

“Why do you need to laugh when it’s hard? You can cry.”

Ixis makes it easy for me to say.

If I did that, I’d be weak.

Whether it’s unpleasant or hard.

It’s not like I can handle it where I cried.

That’s what I realized when my real father died in that world over there.

It’s more meaningful to move forward, laughing to support someone who’s crying, than to mourn something that can’t be helped.

Whether there seems to be no analogy or a stack of uninterrupted challenges in front of you.

If you have time to stop and think, you should think and go as you go.

That’s how I’ve lived.

“It’s pointless to hide it from me. If you don’t want to cry so bad…… I’ll do it because of the rain, and I’ll do what I didn’t see. So look.”

Ixis tries to lead me into my arms.

This dragon is really sweet. That just makes me cry a little bit.

But I don’t think you should be sweet.

Be comfortable with that tenderness.

If I cry – I get weak.

I’m trying to fight alone.

No, I’ll try to rely on it again next time.

Even though it’s just a lot of trouble for Ixis.

Yet no more.

That’s nothing more than using this friendly dragon.

Exhale one.

Disconnect yourself from every feeling.

It’s the feeling of other HR watching from a distance, and I don’t think about it.

That would make it easier. If you keep your mind far away, your bitterness will be far away.

“… no, that’s Mr. Ixis. Hot men say different things! If you’re a normal girl, you’ll see that it’s called colloquy. But that sounds a little tarnished, doesn’t it?

Laugh like a tear, and the look on Ixis’s face changes.

You looked like you were caring for me until just now, but for some reason you looked angry.

That’s crazy.

I should be laughing right now.

Both my brothers and mother were relieved if I laughed this way.

Yet Ixis won’t let me go.

“… you’ve never been able to hide your emotions there. You’re trying to tell me I can’t count on you.”

“About what?

Bite your teeth tight like Ixis was pissed off if you let him smile at you.

The power to hold my wrist became stronger.

“I… I don’t hate seeing Mako laugh so much. But I hate that face right now.”

“Even so, this is Hilda’s face.”

If I pulled aside and shrugged my shoulder with a shooting glance, I was pushed back against the wall of the building.

“You know that’s not what this is about, right? Why try to delude me when it’s painful”

“There’s nothing wrong with that. As usual. Ixis must be carrying my emotions, right?

Golden eyes stare at me like I’m trying to peek into my heart. If you say that in a slightly bitter way, Ixis has embraced me.

“Oh, it’s telling. As much as Meiko can’t and she’s trying to do as she normally does, it’s a prospect. I’ve seen enough pity. So I don’t pull it off or abandon it as much as I cry. I’ll take good care of you till the end.”

So like cry, Ixis pushes my head against my own chest.

My big hand gently stroked my wet hair.

A hot chunk seemed to creep up my throat.

“… that annoys Ixis a lot”

“I’m already full of them. Are you unconscious? It won’t change anything, even if it’s a little more now.”

If you whine, Ixis says that like you made a fool of yourself.

But my hands combing my hair were warm and comfortable.

“Besides, if you’re a ghost, we’re just talking about having a body of magic dolls, like Jimmy. Unlike humans, if you’re a ghost, life expectancy is strange… but you can live forever. You can go on a journey with me.”

Ixis whines in a serious tone, just as there is such a future.

“Meiko wouldn’t be bored with you, and I’ll take you. The Dragons have a pretty long life span, and I was just tired of traveling alone.”

Ixis, looking up, looked a little lit up.

If you look at that, you’ll see that you’re seriously inviting me, not some sort of social dictionary.

I felt gently rocked behind my chest as I enjoyed crying.

“Ixis… you like it”

If you say what you think, look at me. Ixis laughs all the time.

“I won’t deny that”

I laughed at that laugh, which looked like a prank, so that if I noticed it, I could follow it.

At the same time, I couldn’t stop what I had endured from spilling out of my chest.

I didn’t hesitate, I borrowed Ixis’ chest and cried woefully.