Reborn 1990: Running towards the life of a housewife

"I... let him go, let him go free." When he said these words, Shen Xiaojun could feel Ye Feiyang's loss.

Shen Xiaojun still remembered what she said the last time he saw her.

She said that even if she never got married, she would have a lifelong relationship with Zhuang Yan.

She said that she had identified with Zhuang Yan for the rest of her life and just wanted to be with him.

Although there was confusion about the future on her face at that time, her feelings for Zhuang Yan were firm. Unlike now, she seems to have given up completely, and that relationship has become a thing of the past.

This kind of giving up is not because she doesn't love Zhuang Yan anymore. Shen Xiaojun can see her reluctance and the seriousness of her words.

"Do you think it's funny?" Ye Feiyang smiled as if he was laughing at himself.

"When I think about the stupid things I said to you before, I feel ridiculous."

Shen Xiaojun shook his head, "It's not funny, I understand."

"Thank you." Ye Feiyang picked up the coffee and took a sip. The bitter coffee entered her mouth and spread to her heart, making her feel as if she had been soaked in a coffee bucket, exuding a bitter taste.

She shook her head to get rid of the annoying emotion in her mind.

He picked up the sugar cube again and threw several sugar cubes into the cup.

Shen Xiaojun didn't ask her why, and the two just sat quietly for a while.

"I went to meet his mother..."

Ye Feiyang suddenly spoke and saw Shen Xiaojun looking at her with a bitter smile on his lips. Sure enough, no amount of sugar could sweeten his heart.

"She was very gentle, kind, and kind. She didn't say anything bad to me because I was the niece of the third party who ruined her marriage, nor did she show any dissatisfaction because of my uninvited visit. She seemed to have been waiting. I……"

"My purpose of going to see her was to get her to agree with me and Zhuang Yan, but I didn't expect that I would leave Zhuang Yan in the end."

"That day, we chatted for a long time..."

"She said that she knew about Zhuang Yan and me, that I was Zhuang Yan's first love, and that we reunited after a long separation..."

"She said that in so many years, she was particularly happy to see Zhuang Yan only twice. One time was probably when Zhuang Yan and I were together, and the other time was when we were together again."

"Xiaojun, she didn't object to us from the beginning, but told me that she recognized our feelings, but she couldn't bear to face me all the time. She told me what happened many years ago, and her relationship with Zhuang Yan Dad’s feelings, and my aunt…”

"Everything I heard before was what my family told me, or wanted me to know. From her perspective, the reality was even more unbearable. She told me what she had experienced, and I suddenly I really hate my aunt, really..."

"She told everything about how she brought Zhuang Yan back to her parents' home. She said it was a story about an abandoned woman and her son struggling to survive amid gossip..."

"I know her past. I feel sorry for Zhuang Yan, and I feel sorry for her too. She is a very good mother. She asked me, what should I do if I were her?"

"I suddenly didn't know how to answer her. If Zhuang Yan...if I had experienced the same thing as her, I don't think I would want to live anymore!"

"Finally, she told me that I could be with Zhuang Yan or marry Zhuang Yan. We didn't have to get her permission and approval, but she had one condition, that is, she would never see her..."

"I don't know what kind of mood I left that day. I thought a lot, a lot. In fact, I already had the answer in my heart, but I still asked Zhuang Yan, and I didn't get anything from him. Reassuring answer, I told my mother about my troubles..."

"Do you know what my mother said about me?" she asked Shen Xiaojun.

Shen Xiaojun shook her head, she might have guessed it.

Ye Feiyang smiled bitterly, "My mother said that I am not kind. She asked me, why do I want to hurt Zhuang's mother? There are so many men in the world, why do I have to be Zhuang Yan? She said what is the difference between my aunt's and my views on love? ? They are all hurting others, saying that I am inserting knives into Zhuang’s mother again and again! She asked me to leave Zhuang Yan..."

"I suddenly felt terrible. It turned out that my love was a sharp knife that stepped on Mother Zhuang. It was not simply recognition or disapproval, agreement or disagreement. The deep affection I thought could not move anyone, but was hurting others. , no one will bless us..."

Ye Feiyang sighed, "I went abroad, saying I was going to study, but it was actually just an excuse I made for myself, to go to a place where I could escape from here and be far away from Zhuang Yan."

She touched her chest and murmured: "I'm hurt too, and I feel bad too, but no one cares. Maybe everyone will clap and applaud. Who told me to bring it upon myself?"

He picked up the cup and drank the sweet and greasy coffee in one breath, as if he was drinking wine that could relieve a thousand worries.

"Ahem!" Ye Feiyang was choked and coughed several times, with tears in his eyes.

Shen Xiaojun took out a piece of paper from his bag and handed it to her.

Ye Feiyang took it and wiped the tears from his eyes, "Am I stupid? Bad?"

"No, it's just fate." It's not bad, just stupid.

"...You are still young and think the word love is very important. If you really get married, maybe within a few years, you will look back and feel that your behavior was stupid and your life was good. Over time, it becomes a family relationship, and those who have gone through bad things become enemies, and they become disgusted with each other..."

Shen Xiaojun gave her an example. Who was who before marriage and who was after marriage? There was no question of who was right and who was wrong. Everyone seemed right from everyone's perspective and had their own reasons.

"Love is actually just a tonic. Of course it's better if you have it. It won't affect you if you don't have it. Maybe you can live an easier life..."

The two chatted for more than an hour and lost track of time. They didn't end until Shen Xiaojun's cell phone rang.

Looking at the number, it was Lin Zhe.

When he picked up the phone, he found that Lin Zhe had already arrived and asked where they were.

"Let's go."

Ye Feiyang nodded, and the two of them walked out hand in hand, "I lost track of time while we were chatting. I have to apologize to Brother Lin later."

"What's the matter? He just arrived. It only took a few minutes to walk over."

Ye Feiyang smiled and said, "Xiaojun, I feel much better after chatting with you. Thank you for your explanation."

Shen Xiaojun: "Don't be polite to me. Besides, I didn't say anything! It's all trivial matters between the East and the West."

"I said it, I said it." Ye Feiyang patted her hand, "Tell me the ending of love and the true meaning of marriage!"

Shen Xiaojun raised his hand, "It's just my humble opinion, don't let me influence you..."