NOVEL WEB Chapter 142
"…Revenge?"
Hearing the words coming out of Youyu's mouth, the "confused" Bai Yu reacted, his purple eyes slightly dilated, and then he seemed to realize something and asked:
"Revenge? Youyu, how could you..."
"Well, I did remember some memories."
Youyu nodded and answered the question that Bai Yu wanted to know first.
Then, after a moment of silence, he sighed and said:
"Although the situation was quite sudden... But, I did remember some things from the past through this battle with you."
"I remembered... When I was first turned into a negative beast by that Night Demon, Wu Yue 'killed' me."
"I also remembered what you said... I blocked the attack of the snake knight for you in order to protect you."
"I also remembered some things... about Wu Yue and what you said."
"..."
"So, Bai Yu, I want to confirm one more question with you-"
"Do you want revenge?"
"You told me before that this was one of your motivations for becoming a magical girl."
"And from the rules we discovered before... only If you do things related to your "wishes", the magical girl will become stronger. "
"... Youyu, you brought this up because--"
"That's right."
Nodding, Youyu said affirmatively:
"I want to help you become stronger."
"Because I can see... you are very "uneasy" now."
"And since I can't convince you with words."
"Then I have to help you through practical actions."
"By helping you achieve your "wishes"... to make you stronger."
"..."
"No."
After a long silence, Bai Yu shook her head bitterly and said in a low voice:
"Now I... may no longer have that kind of wish."
After experiencing so many "partings".
After paying so many "prices".
After seeing all the tragic situations caused by the "revenge" she thought of in her heart.
In her heart, the desire for "revenge"--
has long been numb.
Because...
"Why?"
Looking at Bai Yu who turned away and bit her lips, You Yu asked softly.
"Because...if I insist on doing that--"
After sighing, Bai Yu continued:
"There may be another 'tragedy'."
"I don't want to...see another 'tragedy'."
"...Is it related to what happened to you before?"
After thinking for a long time, You Yu still chose to ask.
After hearing his question, Bai Yu was silent for a moment, nodded, and said:
"Although it has been a long time... but, if Youyu wants to hear it again, then I will tell you."
"In the past... before I became a magical girl... I saw the Night Demon with my own eyes, killing all my family... except for my father who survived by chance."
"Therefore, because of my hatred for Him, I became the magical girl Lan Ye, vowed to kill Him and avenge my dead family. This was my wish at that time."
"And it was because of this wish... I was really strange and wrong at that time, and it was difficult to control myself... I couldn't even listen to the words of my father who took me away from the 'home'."
"I just fought blindly... I killed the newly appeared negative beasts blindly, and I kept looking for the Night Demon that caused this situation. I vowed to kill Him and avenge my family."
"But... it was precisely because of my 'stubbornness' at that time 's actions..."
After a long sigh, Bai Yu continued:
"I paid the price for this."
"On that day...about half a year ago in September, I once again found the traces of the 'Night Demon', so I was very 'surprised' and 'happy' at that time, because I knew that I finally had the chance to kill Him."
"But...it was just a trap, it was just a piece of information that the Night Demon deliberately released to deal with me, so after I got there - I was instantly subdued by those traps."
"It was at that time...I learned that these evil cadres have always been executing plans through 'acting puppets', that is, no matter how I fight, I can't find their real bodies and completely kill them."
"Then...after explaining this, that guy was ready to kill me."
"But at that time-"
"My father suddenly appeared at the scene."
"..."
After a pause,Bai Yu continued:
"At that time, I didn't understand why he appeared there, why he proposed to exchange his own life for mine, I really thought... it was stupid."
"But now I think..."
"It was because he was worried about me that he secretly followed me out and appeared there."
"...It was also because he was worried about me that he lost his mind and proposed such a 'stupid' condition."
"But...that Night Demon agreed to his condition."
"..."
Speaking of this, Bai Yu wiped the rain off his face with his arm and exhaled. After getting angry, she continued:
"So, I watched with my own eyes--"
"He walked into the bottomless 'black hole' in front of me... and then, I couldn't even hold his hand. I watched him being swallowed by the black hole, his body torn apart, and disappeared in front of me."
"And the reason why this happened..."
"It was because I was controlled by 'hatred' at that time and lost my mind."
"It led to... the loss of the only remaining beauty."
"..."
So, it was precisely because of this that her desire for "revenge" had gradually... been lost.
Because of "revenge", she had already lost her last relative.
And if she continued...
What would she lose?
If she could still hold the idea that "it doesn't matter if I die for revenge" before she met Youyu and Wuyue.
Then now, she can no longer hold this idea.
Because she is very worried and afraid.
She is afraid that this idea...
will make her lose the important people around her again.
Therefore, she could only maintain this "half-baked" mentality -
Have been fighting until now.
"So... Youyu, what I want to say is."
Turning her head to look at Youyu, Bai Yu exhaled and said helplessly:
"Now I have no wishes."
"No matter what... I may not be able to become stronger."