Pivot of the Sky

Chapter 30: I Just Cannot Hate You

Amon was crying for his father, for CrazyOle, and for the Ducians. He finally knew what the disaster was, and had just confirmed it from the message in the Terroculus. Nietzsche died, his father died, Mayor Dusti died. No one in Duc had survived in the flood!

When he had heard the thunder and seen the low dark clouds from the east, Amon knew that there was a thunderstorm brewing. In his short fourteen years of life, Amon had never seen a summer rainstorm in Duc, nor had he ever witnessed heavy rain that lasted so long. When the thunder became denser, the rain also became heavier, and Amon realized what was going to happen.

It was too late for him to go back to Duc because it was also raining relentlessly in the mountains where he lived. Mountain torrents were everywhere. Valleys were filled, roads were covered in water. He finally understood why CrazyOle had told him to go as high as possible.

Amon looked out to the western horizon from a hill to the area where Duc should be. He could see nothing besides thick, low clouds, and lightning leaping within. Tears glistened in his eyes. CrazyOle had told him that the next message would appear when the disaster arrived. However, Amon still couldnt read it until two days after the thunder began, when he heard a bang from far away. It was not loud, but Amons heart clenched. Suddenly, he sensed that the Terroculus in his belly pouch was calling out. He returned to the village and hid in the big cave of fire, telling the others not to enter. He then took out the Terroculus and started meditating, trying to sense the message inside. He finally saw an image. It was CrazyOle standing in front of him in the darkness, hair and beard tangled as usual

My boy, when you see this message, I would have just ended my life. You hear it right, Im dead and so is your father. I died due to the gods rage because I flew to the sky to reveal his existence and attacked him with all my strength. Ive been studying the gods and their secret throughout my life, but I havent seen any of them even once. I couldnt miss this last chance.

Dont ask me why. I can tell you clearly, Im tired of living! You have every right to think Im crazy. I am over one hundred and fifty years old. The magic makes me powerful, full of energy, but it means nothing to me anymore. I know that you have questions, and I can give you the answers now.

You must want to ask me, why I cant just wait for you to solve the secret, which may make me a god as well someday. I dont have that much time left to live. Even if I did, it wouldnt be possible for me to return to the right path. I was on the wrong path from the very beginning. Bair had told me that.

You awakened the power of two sides, and passed the tests accordingly, becoming a second-level sorcerer and warrior. I saw it with my own eyes, but what may surprise you is that I cannot do it myself.

Its been too many years since I last practised any body arts, and I am really too old now. Though I look strong, the power in my bloodline has decayed. Ive been wounded too many times in my life, and have suffered from too many diseases. If I restart from the beginning, I wouldnt even pass the body purification test. How ridiculous, an eighth-level sorcerer is weaker than a little boy!

If you have picked a wrong path, the further you go, the higher you achieve, the harder it will be for you to restart. Thats why I asked you to find Bair, whom I presume may have found the right path all before the supreme levels. For the rest, you can only count on yourself.

You must also want to know how I can foresee the disaster. Lets just keep that a secret. Ive told you all I can. This is the last thing I will keep from you. As for Duc, maybe its meant to be destroyed. People get what they deserve, and Im one of them. I die for everyone, everyone dies for me.

The next content of the message was similar to what Golier had received in the shrine but more vivid and detailed. It was about how the rainstorm had been generated, and how it was related to what occurred in Duc. Amon cried in his mind, CrazyOle, why didnt you save them if you already knew what was going to happen? My fathers dead too! He was innocent!

CrazyOle continued, as if he had known what Amon was going to ask him, he laughed, Do you want to ask me why I didnt save your father? Why I didnt save everyone? My child, Ive done my best to save you, and guided you on a path to becoming a deity! Are you going to hate me instead of thanking me? Ive been asked too many questions similar to this in my life, I think so are the gods!

Amon was speechless, then he wailed like a child, or to say, he was indeed just a child.

CrazyOle had ended his crazy life, Amons father had ended his drunk one, along with all the Ducians. How could Amon drive away the grief? He had to say farewell to his loved ones so early in his life. Ducs downfall meant that he had lost his hometown and his family. Amon felt like he was abandoned by this world.

Unlike Golier, Amon didnt witness Nietzsche flying into the sky defying the god, nor did he know why there must have been such a flood. He couldnt understand some of CrazyOle explanations either. For example, CrazyOle claimed that he died due to the gods rage. But why did he have to fly into the sky and defy the god, and which particular god it was? CrazyOle didnt tell him any of those explicitly.

Maybe CrazyOle thought that it was not Amons place to understand all this. The boy in grief didnt have the energy to even begin to try and understand. He was engrossed in sorrow, which distracted him from keeping the absolute serenity in meditation. He was interrupted from reading the message.

When he was able to control himself from crying, wiping the tears from his sore eyes, Amon recalled that he hadnt finished reading the message yet. So he tried to focus and activate the Terroculus once again, but he found that something unexpected had occurred.

CrazyOle was not a god, he couldnt predict everything. He didnt expect that Amon had already passed the faiths confirmation, becoming a third-level sorcerer even before the disaster had arrived. When the message was interrupted, the next message came out. So when Amon activated the Terroculus again, he read the next message. The message about the disaster disappeared forever, and Amon lost the last part.

The next message was about advanced magic. Not every magic, but only those a third-level sorcerer could practice. Since he could only read them once, Amon had to force himself to stay in a state of tranquillity so as to carve them in his memory. Only when one passed the faiths confirmation could one stay in a state where it was possible to memorize so much information all in one time.

Third-level mages might favourite different types of magic and potentials. But it was a basic line for a third-level mage to be capable of staying in absolute serenity.

At the end of the message, CrazyOle started to talk again

My child, when you are reading this, you must have ascended to the third level. I dont know if you have already found Bair. Youll have to take the rest of the journey by yourself. You have nothing to worry about, nor anything to lose. The whole world is waiting for you.

I have given you some of my tokens, the badge with my crest, for example. Bair has received one from me as well. He sealed the last message inside it and let Schrodinger carry it to me. It was Bairs token as well.

Ive travelled to many places on this continent. Many have received my favour. Some of them swore to repay the debt to me, my descendants or my disciples. Bair used to be a member of the Magic Senate of Ejypt. He had taught magic to many nobles and priests. Some of them also swore to thank him or reward him.

You may go to them for help when you are in trouble, and that will be my last gift to you. However, you must also take into account that these promises may have been broken or forgotten after all these years. The human heart is very mysterious, nothing can ever be certain. You have to learn to protect yourself, for being a low-level sorcerer is dangerous. Dealing with people may be a test more difficult than those in magic.

At the very end of the message was a list of names and families, each with brief introductions. The first person on the list was Golier, the chief priest and oracle of the Enlil Shrine of Syah. CrazyOle expressly exhorted Amon to visit Golier once he became a supreme sorcerer. Metatros family was also on the list, with an explanation of their relationship. CrazyOle didnt know that Amon had already met Metatro and taught him magic.

Amon walked out of the cave at sunset with deep fatigue in his sore red eyes. It was as if he had experienced the vicissitudes of life in half a day. The cavemen were frightened. Some guessed in fear that the rain could be the tears of the gods. They relaxed when they saw Amon came out of the cave in one piece, no longer crying.

To Lynks surprise, Amon asked him for wine for the first time. Lynk fetched him some from the fine brass bottle Amon had given him.

Sitting in his house, Amon was wondering why he had the need for wine. Maybe he was missing his father. The impulse was gone after several sips. Holding the goblet, he started to ponder about his future. CrazyOle said that the whole world was waiting for him, but Amon felt that there was no room for him in this world. He had no place to go, his future was deep in the fog, where only one path was lit.

If he wasnt content with being a god in the cavemans tribe, then what he could do was to become a sorcerer as CrazyOle had wished and unveil the secret of the gods. Even though he couldnt find Bair, he could retrace what Bair had already done. There was always something one must do in his life, but Amon couldnt think of anything else.

In the end, he stood up and lamented, Oh CrazyOle! You knew what was going to happen! Did you set all this up? You are so cruel, but I just cannot hate you!

Amon didnt have the habit to waste. Since he no longer had any intention to drink, he put the remaining wine in Schrodingers hay. Schrodinger had been watching him from the hay. But when Amon stored the bottle, it just turned over and slept over the bone, not showing the least interest in the cavemans wine.

Amon had been feeding lavish food to this cat, but it was becoming slimmer every day. Compared to its time in Duc, it was slender and fit with smooth, glossy fur. It was no longer appropriate to call it a dirty fat cat. The change took place slowly, but at a glance, Amon suddenly noticed that the cat had experienced a lot in these days as well.

Everything had changed. The whole Duc was washed off in the flood, and Amon was no longer a light-hearted boy!

The cat had been following Amon all day, staring at him. Was it worrying about him? Was it afraid that he might do something stupid? Anyway, it was now his only companion from Duc and would be his only companion in the future. Driven by a feeling from nowhere, Amon dragged Schrodinger into his embrace, and murmured softly while petting its back, Duc is gone, everyones gone. Theres only you and me now.

Schrodinger was surprised by Amons sudden action. It seemed that it didnt enjoy being hugged and petted by Amon. Sharp claws reached out from its toes, trying to scratch Amons arms. But hearing his words, it stopped halfway and just started to wriggle unhappily.

Amon saw that the cat clearly felt uncomfortable in his arms, so he sighed and put it down, then sat on a cushion and began meditating. He needed to find peace so he could he forget the sorrow.

Amon could start to practice some advanced magic. What he was interested in the most was spatial and message magic, relating to the special parangons left by CrazyOle. Neither of the two was within the range of a third-level sorcerer, however. So Amon was going to learn detecting magic, which was the basis of both spatial and message magic.

Message magic, especially, was just the extension and sophistication of the detecting magic. Amon already had a good understanding of it, so it didnt take much time for him to learn the basic magic called Detection Eyes.

Without seeing and hearing, even the smallest of details in the dark was in his perception. But Amon suddenly opened his eyes in shock and stood up, breaking off the magic he had just mastered.

A common sense of magic told Amon that the Detection Eyes could let one sense the environment much more distinctly than merely using the other ordinary senses. But Amon surprisingly found that two things in the house were missing in his Detection Eyes: Schrodinger and the strange bone! It was as if they didnt exist in the Detection Eyes!