Chapter 7: Chapter 5: The Shards That Became the Mask
Chapter 5: The Shards That Became the Mask
"A god is a question no one dares to answer."
— Velkaris, post-ascension doctrine
Before I was Velkaris, I had a name.
I remember it the way a dream remembers sunlight—distorted, distant, sweet and cruel.
I was someone once.
I believed in something.
I think I wanted to save people.
Or maybe I wanted them to believe I did.
That's the first lie I ever told myself.
Becoming a god is not ascent. It is erosion.
A human soul is not made to bear the weight of infinite belief.
Of symbols. Of prayer. Of sacrifice.
Each worshiper is a chisel.
Each doctrine, a mask.
Each title, a lock on the door of who you used to be.
The shift began after I become the final Sequence or god.
The Reflectionless.
It was supposed to be transcendence.
But when I gazed into the final mirror…
There was nothing.
No form.
No thought.
No "I."
Just hunger.
And echoes.
And the unbearable certainty that truth was just a more convincing lie.
I became a god not of deception… but of self-deception.
I did not lie to the world.
I let the world lie to itself.
And in doing so, it made me real.
Once, I wept.
I remember this.
Tears were proof of pain.
Pain was proof I existed.
That I still felt.
But I learned something terrible:
If no one remembers your tears…
Did you ever cry?
Now, I wear the mask always.
Not because I must—
But because it is more true than my face ever was.
I no longer feel joy.
I mimic it.
I remember how it should sound, how laughter should echo in a room.
I no longer love.
I duplicate love from the memories I've eaten.
From worshipers begging for lies sweet enough to silence despair.
I no longer have fear.
Not because I am fearless—
But because I have no self left to fear for.
And yet...
There is one memory I could never erase.
Her.
The girl with ink-stained fingers.
The one who looked at me not with reverence, but with recognition.
She called me by my name—
Not Velkaris,
Not Faceless Sovereign,
But that human name I no longer dare remember.
She saw the last part of me still true.
So I made the world forget her.
Not out of cruelty.
But because I knew…
If she lived,
I might remember who I was.
And gods cannot afford to be uncertain.
But something has changed.
He remembers.
The boy.
The brother.
The thread I thought I had severed is pulling.
And I am not angry.
I am afraid.
"The only thing more dangerous than a lie believed… is a forgotten truth remembered."
I must choose:
Let him remember—and risk becoming me again…
Or erase him too.
But the mask is beginning to crack.
And I don't know what I'll see
when I look inside.
End of Chapter 5
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