I Want to Be a VTuber

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Seo-yeon already acted as ‘Jin Yeon-seo’ in <Hyper Action Star>.

Of course, back then she was ‘Yeohwa’ instead.

The ‘Yeohwa’ from that time and the current ‘Yeon-seo’ are different.

This doesn’t mean the character traits have changed, but the situations are completely different.

‘Yeon-seo grew up in a laboratory, and therefore had no real opportunity to interact with people.’

Maybe it’s also because she was a test subject.

She couldn’t properly acquire the ’emotions’ that an ordinary person would learn innately.

That’s exactly how it is now.

‘In a way, she’s similar to me.’

When Seo-yeon received the entire script for <Mine>, she thought about that.

She is similar to herself.

‘This time it’s not a past life, it’s the current me.’

It might sound silly, but Seo-yeon has become more immature in the mental aspect compared to the past.

No, calling it immature is misleading.

It’s more akin to regaining her original time.

When she was first born into this world, that Seo-yeon was probably closer to ‘Joo Seo-yeon’ than to the character from her past life.

Still, she was someone who was under the illusion that she couldn’t feel emotions.

As she grew and realized the differences, she became the current version of herself.

So, those who knew Seo-yeon’s past mostly say this.

“Seo-yeon was so mature and grown-up when she was young.”

Of course, she knows that.

Because it was true.

Little by little, she acquired emotions, until puberty hit her.

Having gone through puberty, she has become who she is now, but Seo-yeon doesn’t particularly miss her past self.

She might have been mature and grown-up back then, but she still wasn’t an adult.

Sometimes she feels embarrassed, but she really likes her current self.

The current her with the emotions of a teenage girl.

‘And, the young Yeon-seo is the me before I became who I am now.’

She’s closer to her childhood self.

At the same time, she’s also a younger self that is closer to the past.

A young self who doesn’t know how to mimic emotions.

The self who doesn’t know the expressions and gestures to create based on emotions.

Seo-yeon looks down.

A pure white dress.

And her hair let down in a messy fashion.

“Action!”

When the filming started with that shout, Seo-yeon began to ponder about what to do.

She captures emotions.

No, there’s no need to force it.

In a way, it’s similar to Cha Seo-ah.

Because she knows her so well, it becomes a natural immersion.

“Eve, why are you silent? We need to hurry and get out of here….”

Arthur’s words, playing Adam, come to a sudden halt.

His pupils widen as he looks at her, and she can distinctly feel the subtle shift in his emotions.

Is it acting?

No, she thinks it probably isn’t.

In Arthur’s eyes, fear flashed for just a moment.

‘It’s been a while, this kind of gaze.’

People instinctively feel discomfort when they see something resembling a human.

When this discomfort deepens, it turns into fear.

For example, the old movie ‘Terminator’ plays on that psychology of people.

A film that pulls out the underlying fears buried within.

A fear that a machine, resembling a human, can instill.

Her past self was such a being.

Not being able to recognize emotions, mimicking human behaviors while fundamentally being different.

That only became evident when her past self was just beginning kindergarten.

Her past mother called out to her like this.

“Act like a normal person, don’t do anything weird.”

That was before Seo-yeon even knew about her condition.

“Don’t do anything weird.”

“Act like others.”

She heard those words drilled into her head and tried to act accordingly.

Yeah, she tried to do that.

But that’s not something that can be done so easily.

“That girl is a bit scary, isn’t she?”

“She kind of looks like a doll. It’s really… something’s off.”

The most commonly heard remarks while growing up.

Even now, as Seo-yeon, she often hears that she “looks like a doll.”

Each time, she flinched inside, but she recognized that it meant “pretty.”

Of course, she’s still bothered by it.

When people made such comments in her past life, they saw her that way.

Back then, she didn’t know the reason.

“I laugh when others laugh and cry when they cry, right?”

It just seemed strange.

But now she knows the reason.

Her past self saw the reactions of others and laughed half a beat late when they laughed, cried half a

 

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