I Should Have Just Died

Did you hide any treasure in that garden?

However, Alyssa wasn’t even obsessed with jewelry. It was because the queen had been so gorgeous. The queen who values what is seen outside decorated her with the same splendor, even though she may not have a high appearance inside. Like a noble royal.

In addition, she had lived under oppression, and she was a human with the least desire for wealth.

She was married, and she had left the royal family with a small amount of dowry and standard fortune for a princess, but she was the one who said that was enough.

Then.

The person who went out with a face that looked like she was about to die soon returns with a smile. It was a situation where Sasha couldn’t help but wonder.

“Madam. You must have felt better.”

Sasha, who cried the whole time Alyssa was out, laughed. Alyssa smiled with a small, ‘hee hee’, looking at the swollen face.

“I’m sorry, Sasha. You know I’m always grateful, right?”

“Oh, why are you doing this? Madam, are you not hungry? I prepared something easy to digest.”

“It’s all right.”

Alyssa shook her head gently. It seemed that the warmth of raw eggs was still filling her stomach. She was full of it too.

“I’m full.”

“Did you eat something in the garden?”

“Uh-huh.”

She nodded her head. A slightly reddened ear caught Sasha’s eyes.

Alyssa was thinking of the gardener. He was the first person to befriend her. Alyssa has never had anyone other than Sasha in her lifetime.

The queen hated Alyssa’s relationship with anyone. She treated Alyssa as if she was a royal catastrophe, and she thought Alyssa would someday destroy the royal family.

So, to Alyssa, the gardener was her first friend.

A friend who made her happy just by thinking of him.

He will see her not as Avery’s Alyssa, but as Alyssa.

“I ate something delicious. Very sweet.”

“That’s a relief. I’m afraid you’ve been on your stomach until now… Then, have a little meal later, and come here. I will warm your cold body.”

Sasha pulled Alyssa’s hand. Alyssa was laid on a bed that had been warmed beforehand and made her drink warm honey. The burning fireplace added warmth to the room.

“You’re not going back to the royal palace again, right?”

“Huh?”

Alyssa opened her eyes wide.

Sasha stamped her feet with a stiff expression, like one who must get her confirmation from Alyssa.

“Don’t go. There are still some memories left.”

“Well… ”

“What?”

Sasha opened her mouth to Alyssa’s suspicious reaction.

No, there is a limit to being nice! Where do you think you’re going again?

“I promised to go, so I have to go. Actually, I was going to go once a week.”

“No, Madaaaamm!”

Sasha shook her head. What else are you going to do there? Besides, Ophelia or Juliana wouldn’t be on Alyssa’s side. Sasha grabbed her mistress’ hand.

“What are you going to do if you go and meet the queen or prince? What?”

“But… ”

Alyssa swallowed at the thought of if something happened if she ran into Norfe again. Then, Sasha would be more worried.

“…still.”

Alyssa laughed bitterly.

Someone held her hand at the most desperate moment. He was a gardener who didn’t even know who she was, but he comforted Alyssa.

So, shouldn’t Alyssa be the one to hold Juliana’s or Ophelia’s hands? It is nothing special to be desperate for them. She just sits in front of their dead son’s graveyard and comforts them.

“I can do that much. In fact, that’s the only thing I can do.”

Just don’t expect any more from Ophelia and Juliana. Then it’ll be alright. Alyssa nodded bravely.

“Madam… ”

Sasha tapped her chest as if her insides were bursting.

She was such a good person but now Alyssa’s kindness was driving her crazy.

“I’m fine.”

Alyssa muttered. Not knowing that it makes Sasha’s heart sadder.

“Shh.”

Ophelia hid her behind the pillar. Her maids followed and hid themselves.

She waited for Alyssa to return when she heard that Alyssa had been in the garden. She was worried about where she was going with that body that just woke up, so she just popped her neck out and waited.

Luckily, Alyssa returned with a smile.

‘…It seems that you’re skinnier.’

Ophelia drooped her shoulders in grim. Ever since Alyssa was sick, she knew so well who the cause was and it caused her guilt.