I Don’t Want This White Moonlight Anymore!

Chapter 59 For two lifetimes around 60, Sun Lv was

At first, it was okay. When Zhao Zhengyang picked him up from the airport, he was emotionally depressed, but it did not affect his life.

After confessing his thoughts to Zhao Yinqing with his family, he went to school.

After about a week, the problems started to appear, frequent dreams at night, and always screaming to wake up. After all, it is a group dormitory, and I can stay through it for a while, if it affects others.

At that time, I deliberately found a house outside, but I didn’t stay for long. The nightmare all night inevitably affected my life, even life.

At the most serious time, there was self-harm. Liu Siqi was at that time completely shutting down and staying with Sun Lu day and night for fear of problems.

Zhao Yinqing asked: “What did he dream of?”

“His psychiatrist said that he dreamed of falling from a building.”

Zhao Yinqing hugged his knees and buried his face deeply.

Day after day, I have the same dream, dreaming of Zhao Yinqing falling from the building and dying. There is no chance to stay.

Sun Lu didn’t dare to sleep, stayed up all night and all night, and when he couldn’t stay up, he had to fall into a hell-like scene.

He began to lose the distinction between reality and dreams, his thinking was confused, his whole body was so thin that he was trapped in the abyss, and no one could drag him.

Zhao Yinqing said in a dumb voice: “I saw the scar on his wrist, that is…”

“Well, cut the wrist.” Zhao Zhengyang paused, “He committed suicide more than once.”

Actually understand, right?

As anyone, watching the beloved woman die once a day, and there is nothing she can do, no one can bear this kind of suffering.

Zhao Yinqing said, “Why didn’t you tell me?”

“His mother disagrees, and thinks it is Sun Lu’s own problem and can’t trouble you.”

Studying abroad is not a trivial matter, nor is it like being able to go back and forth at any time in China. Moreover, the two of them are Sun Lu’s unilateral thoughts. Liu Siqi believes that this is purely the result of Sun Lu’s own paranoia and should not be undertaken by Zhao Yinqing.

Although watching Sun Li suffer all the time, he feels distressed and uncomfortable, but it is not a reason for others to be responsible.

It took almost half a year to receive psychological treatment before the situation improved. Sun Lu returned to school and continued to attend classes. Liu Siqi took care of her. After stumbling and stumbling for several years, she could completely come out and live and work normally.

When Zhao Yinqing returned to China, Liu Siqi worried for a long time, for fear that Sun Lu would get sick again, but fortunately, it looks okay now.

Before hanging up the phone, Zhao Zhengyang said: “Actually, I think Sun Lu is a good boy. He needs to look good, he needs to be able and capable, let alone you, think about it yourself.”

Zhao Yinqing lay in the bed and tried to think about the past. A lot of the trivialities of the previous life have been almost forgotten, but this will suddenly become clear again, scenes flashed by, disappeared, and he was caught by the Sun Law Firm of this life. Cover a little bit.

Life is like a box, emptied and filled.

For two lifetimes, Sun Lv was all inside.

If there is nothing left to let go, or if there is any concern, this moment is all gone.

Zhao Yinqing closed his eyes, tears suddenly fell from the corners of his eyes, not knowing whether it was for himself or Sun Lu.

She thought, enough, let each other go and live a good life.

Both of them have actually been born again.

Zhao Yinqing had only fallen asleep for a long time in the past, and she didn’t fall asleep in a daze. When she woke up, her genius was bright. She looked at it and it was less than six o’clock.

But this will not be sleepy.

She got up and went to the balcony to stand for a while, then turned around, took her phone, and went out in her pajamas.

I walked two kilometers to the street and bought two soy milk and rice balls, as well as a drawer of xiaolongbao.

When she was about to go back, someone called her, and Zhao Yinqing turned her head. She was a woman, riding a battery car, and standing in front of her was a little girl with braids.

Zhao Yinqing didn’t recognize who it was for a while, until she took off the helmet, she realized that it was Zhao Sidi.

I heard that Zhao Sidi went back to the previous school after dropping out of the talents. He barely graduated, did not go to university, and went to work. After a few years, he got married and had children. At that time, Zhao Yinqing had already gone abroad and learned from Zhao Zhengyang about the other party’s The husband is a cook.

“It’s really you, I almost didn’t recognize it, why are you here today?” She smiled and said, people looked a lot mellow in the past, they should be going well, and her complexion looks good.

“I played nearby yesterday, so I live here.” Zhao Yinqing glanced at his child again, “your daughter?”

“Yes, Jiajia is called Auntie.”

The little girl screamed abruptly.

Zhao Yinqing said, “It’s pretty good, how old are you?”

“I’m five years old and will go to kindergarten in the second half of the year.”

“so fast.”

“It’s not.”

After a few more words of homework, they rode away on their bikes.

Everyone has grown up, and the grievances and grievances during the student period have become a joke and slipped past.

Zhao Yinqing walked back slowly, still quite emotional.

Pushing open the door, Sun Lu was already up, standing in the yard bathed in morning light, staring at the koi in the pool, hearing the sound, turned his head and looked over.

He wore the old sweater and slacks with short sleeves and short legs, but it was still loose when viewed horizontally.

Zhao Yinqing thought of the phrase Zhao Zhengyang said violently thin.

She put aside her eyes and raised her hand: “I’m going to buy breakfast, are these okay?”

Sun Lu nodded: “You got up so early?”

“can not fall asleep.”

Zhao Yinqing walked in, and when he passed by Sun Lu, he suddenly reached out and picked it up earlier, saying, “I’m going to heat it up.”

I haven’t opened fire in the kitchen for a long time, but the electrical appliances are still working. I cleaned the dust, plugged it in and pressed a few buttons to try it.

Then it will be served early and put in the microwave to heat up.

Zhao Yinqing took the chopsticks and spoon out to clean it, and put it on the dining table.

Before long, Sun Lu brought out the soy milk and rice **** and said, “The buns are still hot.”

“Well, no hurry.”

The two sat face to face, silently finishing their breakfast.

Zhao Yinqing leaned back and exhaled comfortably, and then said, “Are you still going to work today?”

“I’ve asked for leave, and I’ll take two days off.” Sun Lu rolled her neck, “How about you?”

“I happened to have no schedule for work these two days.”

Sun Lu has a wound on his forehead, and the white square gauze is very conspicuous, obviously not suitable for going home.

There are two options, live here for two days, or go back to city B directly.

Sun Lu said, “I can do it, what do you think?”

Zhao Yinqing looked out the window, the light began to brighten, and a new day began.

“Let’s live here, the environment is good, suitable for healing.”

Sun Lu lightly twitched the corner of his mouth, and said “Yeah”.

A day is said to be not long, but you have to find something to pass it.

After tidying up the two rooms, Sun Li took the two quilts back and forth to dry, and then took the bucket and mop for cleaning.

Zhao Yinqing took a quick rag and wiped it a few times. Then he sat by the window and watched, with his legs draped outside, his trouser legs rolled up to his knees, his calves were slender and white, and his heels and toes were a little pink.

When Sun Lu was holding the mop back and forth around her, he accidentally bumped it.

Zhao Yinqing hurriedly put his feet in, and said, “I’m sorry.”

Sun Lu glanced, and said calmly, “Go and put on a pair of socks.”

“did not find.”

Sun Li put the mop down, turned to find it himself, and found a pair of pale yellow in the drawer of the bedside table.

“It’s a bit damp, I’ll blow it for you.” He turned to the bathroom again, and the sound of the hair dryer came quickly.

After a while, he picked up his socks and walked to Zhao Yinqing. The two looked at each other. He said, “Shall I wear them for you?”

Zhao Yinqing was taken aback, then nodded the next second.

Sun Lu drew closer, stood between her legs, took her cold ankle with one hand and put it on her abdomen, warmed it up, put it on for her, and then replaced it with the other one.

This time she didn’t put it down immediately, she gently squeezed the soles of her feet, and then circled her calves upwards and rubbed them slowly.

Zhao Yinqing’s legs were cold, but his palms were hot. The obvious temperature difference caused her to get thin goose bumps, and her hands on the window sill flexed subconsciously.

The woman in front of her was a bit cramped, her cheeks were a little pink, her long curly hair fell on her shoulders, her eyes flickered, so many years later, she still looked like a porcelain doll from this angle.

Sun Lu’s gaze fell on her pink lips again. Fortunately, she had tasted it many years ago, and she is still nostalgic.

Without letting himself hesitate, he reached out and lifted her chin, leaned in and kissed it.

After a brief taste, he parted a little, and he was ready for the slap, but not this time.

Sun Lu opened his eyes, Zhao Yinqing seemed to be surprised by his behavior, and was shocked to return to his senses, and then he showed a little embarrassment and embarrassment, but he did not flinch in a stalemate.

He finally grabbed her by the waist, and forced the person into his arms, hugging her and kissing her with a force that almost melted into the blood.

The action began to be fierce, and the strong breath converged between each other. I don’t know whose mouth was broken, and there was a faint smell of blood in his mouth.

Sun Lu didn’t give her much time to think, and picked up the person and walked to the bed.

Brilliant sunlight leaped in from the window, witnessing the spring scenery in this room.

After the satisfaction, Zhao Yinqing lay on the bed in a daze, not wanting to move for a while.

Sun Lu embraced her waist and fell into a deep sleep, it was almost noon.

This development was simply unexpected, and Zhao Yinqing didn’t feel regretful, but would it be too fast?

She turned her head slightly to look back, Sun Li’s head was against her, the hair on the sideburns was still a little wet, her breathing was heavy, and she was obviously sleeping soundly.

She tried to move, and she wanted to get out of bed, but the hand around her waist was gathered up, so she could only give up.

After lying down for a while, he fell asleep, and woke up again at two o’clock in the afternoon, hungry.

Zhao Yinqing stood up, but her legs softened a bit. Recalling the scene a few hours ago, her face was hot for a moment, she patted her face, went into the bathroom to wash, and then walked out.

Just hit Sun Lu who came up with a glass of water.

Both of them were taken aback, and Sun Lu said, “I poured you a glass of warm water and drink a little.”

Zhao Yinqing took it and took a few sips.

Afterwards, we went out together to find food and walked out along the path. Compared with the past, there has been a lot of changes here. The houses on the street continue to move out, and there are many more shops.

When a car came, Sun Lu took her to a different position, and then walked out.

“What to eat?” Sun Lu asked her.

“It’s okay, I’m so hungry, I want to eat everything.”

Sun Lu said: “So proper exercise is good to promote intestinal peristalsis.”

“…”

They went into a very small shop, bought two Roujiamo and sent them away at the Temple of the Five Internal Organs, and then went to the supermarket to purchase them.

The clothing area I went to first was all cheap and miscellaneous, and the two of them didn’t mind, they were very happy to choose the clothes.

Sun Lu picked two sets of sweaters, one red and one black, which looked a bit like a lover outfit.

He looked at Zhao Yinqing questioningly.

“Yes, these two models are better-looking.” Zhao Yinqing said.

Then he turned to the opposite shelf to buy underwear, and Sun Lu showed her a blank expression.

After Zhao Yinqing arrived at this meeting, he realized something was inappropriate, and said, “I’ll come by myself, you go and see your own.”

Sun Lu said brazenly without expression: “Your participation is higher, I like it better.”

“…”

“How about this one?” He picked it up and showed it to Zhao Yinqing.

The surface is dark blue lace, and the white background is looming. The passing tallyman gave them a weird look.

Zhao Yinqing grabbed the underwear in his hand, and said with shame: “What are you doing, others are watching us.”

Sun Lu leaned over and smiled, and said, “What’s the matter? This is for our own use. It’s best for us to like it.

Zhao Yinqing never knew that Sun Lu had such a cheeky side, and was shocked.

Fortunately, he did not continue to refresh Zhao Yinqing’s understanding of him, took her hand downstairs, and went to the fresh food area.

They are going to fire on their own at night.

“Barbecue, hot pot, home cooking, which one do you like?”

Zhao Yinqing thought for a while and said, “It seems that hot pot is more convenient.”

So I went to the freezer to buy various hot pot ingredients, plus hot pot ingredients, and then went to the fruit and vegetable shop. The shopping cart was half full.

“I should have come by car.” Zhao Yinqing said, “It’s exhausting to carry it back like this.”

Sun Lu took her hand and kissed: “You have to believe me.”

There were several rows of condoms in front of the container at the cash register. Sun Lu stared at it for a while and said, “Which one do you like?”

Zhao Yinqing then took a look, coughed, and said, “It’s super lubricating.”

Sun Lu took two boxes and threw them into the shopping cart.

Zhao Yinqing looked down at the two boxes of condoms, still a little bit overwhelmed.

Sun Lu reached out and patted her head gently, and whispered in her ear: “Sorry, I forgot to take measures just now. When I will pass by the drugstore, I will buy an afterthought.”