Chapter 39
Chapter 38 39 He looks down on himself. …
Without any pressure this summer, Zhao Yinqing spent a few days heartlessly.
When I woke up in the early morning, Zhao Yinqing turned over and stared at the window in a daze.
The sound of indoor air-conditioning rang from time to time, and the rest is boundless silence.
She suddenly felt very empty, as if floating in the air, without a sense of solidity. There was no backrest behind her, and once she leaned back, it was like a deep abyss.
Why is there such a horrible feeling?
Zhao Yinqing silently reflected on it. It should be because he didn’t have enough ability to support his future life. Once there was a slight change, he would be able to deal with the difficult situation again. There was no room for struggle and no extra energy.
You can’t go on like this, you can’t be so deserted, you can’t do it all over again and go the same way.
On this day, Zhao Yinqing forced himself to start at 5:30, run around the community in the morning, come back at 6 to wash and change clothes, go downstairs for breakfast, then recite vocabulary, or go to the library.
She tried to fill the time as much as possible so that she would not be free. The days suddenly became so fast that the trance of fear did not reappear.
The weather is cloudy and the weather forecast says another typhoon is coming. Log in this evening. The possibility of logging in here is very small, but the tail of the typhoon will definitely be swept.
Sun Lu stood at the window, holding a glass of warm water, staring at Zhao Yinqing, who had just left the house, and was blocked by the building after running for a certain distance. It didn’t take long for her to jump out of the road ahead.
Zhao Yinqing runs in circles every day, wearing dark gray sportswear, and walking back and forth with his slender legs exposed to the air.
Half of her route can be seen from this position.
Except for rainy days, Sun Lu would stand here watching her run two laps, walk one lap, and return after three rounds.
From that day to now, what they said can be counted with two hands.
Sun Lu is not satisfied with the status quo, but he does not know what to change, or is his unilateral effort really useful?
Zhao Yin clearly showed his attitude, and entangled again, what is it?
He looked down upon himself.
At the end of August, under the still hot weather, the school start time was approaching.
City B where Sun Lu went first, Zhao Zhengyang and Liu Siqi sent him off.
Zhao Zhengyang wanted Zhao Yinqing to follow along to see the style of the prestigious school, so as to know where his distance is, and to be an inspiration.
Zhao Yinqing wanted to say that he had seen it a long time ago, and he didn’t need to take a trip now.
But in case she asked other questions, she didn’t say a word.
When he left the house, Sun Lu suddenly said that something had fallen, and he wanted to go back to the room.
Liu Siqi said: “What? Is it important? Think about whether there is anything else left behind. Don’t be in trouble when this is missing or the other is missing.”
Zhao Zhengyang said: “There are so many and miscellaneous things to bring, and it’s normal to have one or two different things, and you can make up later.”
“I’ll get down right away.”
Sun Lu walked in and walked upstairs quickly. Instead of going back to his room, he went to find Zhao Yinqing.
Before Zhao Yinqing’s **** was sitting hot, the door was opened. She looked at the visitor in surprise: “What’s the matter?”
“Suddenly thought of something.” He walked a few steps closer, stopped at the foot of the bed, and they looked at each other at a distance of two meters.
Zhao Yinqing raised his eyebrows and asked with his eyes.
“Isn’t the one you’re looking for is in A? Now such a good opportunity, why not go?” Sun Lu twitched his mouth, with a smile, “Follow, and then just find a reason to leave. After a while, you can have a small date with him, right?”
Zhao Yinqing frowned at him and asked, “Are you angry? Are you still angry about that day? Your anger has been maintained for a long time.”
Sun Lu pursed her lips, and felt embarrassed after being so bluntly dotted by her, and had the urge to break the jar.
“I’m not angry.”
“Oh?”
Sun Lu said, “I am jealous.”
“…” Zhao Yinqing coughed, “You came up here to talk about these things?”
Sun Lu took a deep look at her, and suddenly smiled hopelessly, not knowing whether it was for him or her, and then turned and left.
Soon there was the sound of a car starting downstairs. Zhao Yinqing went downstairs to the kitchen and took a plate of cut fruits while sending Fu Ze a message.
“School A will start the day after tomorrow.”
He quickly returned: “When are you guys?”
“There are still 10 days.”
“look forward to.”
A week later, Zhao Zhengyang drove Zhao Yinqing over again. It was a second school, one hour away from A major.
I called Sun Lu in advance, so when the three arrived, Sun Lu was already waiting at the school gate.
After a brief collision with Zhao Yinqing, he immersed himself in helping with luggage, went to the door to do the registration, and then looked for the dormitory building.
Zhao Yinqing was wearing a pink cap and carrying a small satchel on the back. Liu Siqi was telling her to pay more attention to safety by herself and to leave school as little as possible. There were several people in the dormitory who wanted them to get along with each other. The family said, don’t be bullied.
Zhao Yinqing responded one by one.
The bedroom is on the third floor, a quadruple room, with a bed above, a desk below, and conventional furnishings.
There were already two people inside. Zhao Zhengyang and Sun Lu took their luggage in, and Liu Siqi talked to them first.
One was named Ding Zhiqi, who wore a floral dress, silver-rimmed glasses, and a long big braid on one shoulder, with a smile on his face and a gentle look.
One was named Jiang Zifan, with slightly dark skin and slightly fat figure. He was wearing red T and gray trousers, and his cheeks were covered with red plateau red, which looked very dull.
Both of them have accents and are obviously from outsiders.
“Everyone is used to living at home, and now you have to rely on yourself, can you adapt?” Liu Siqi asked them.
The two said that they have lived in school since junior high school, and they are used to it, and the problem is not big.
“We have never lived outside before drinking, so I will trouble you to take care of it in the future.” Liu Siqi called Sun Lu and took three bags of snacks from him. In the bed.
Zhao Zhengyang turned around, swept them around, and said, “I still have a few flatbeds in my car. I will bring them up for you later.”
While speaking, he handed the car key to Sun Lu and said, “Alu, help uncle run a trip.”
Ding and Jiang were already very embarrassed carrying a bag of snacks. This would be even more staring, as if they had heard something extraordinary.
Sun Lu gave an “um” and took the key and walked out of the dormitory. He quickly picked up the tablet and handed it to them.
Ding and Jiang blushed and waved their hands there, not daring to take it.
Sun Lu put the tablets on their tables.
Liu Siqi had already helped Zhao Yinqing to make up the bed, and Zhao Zhengyang picked her up when she got down from above.
Several people went downstairs again, avoiding the aisle, standing in the shadow, Zhao Zhengyang said: “We are gone, good luck to you.”
“I listened to how it felt as if I would not be able to live any longer.”
Zhao Zhengyang smiled: “You are used to your clothes at home and stretch out your hands for food and open your mouth, don’t you think it’s normal for you not to live? Besides, it’s still a four-person room. There may be people who grind your teeth at night. I’ll bet you live for half a month. ”
Liu Siqi gave a “tsk”, glared at him disapprovingly, turned to Zhao Yinqing, and gently soothed: “Don’t listen to your dad, young people just want to integrate into the circle. Living in school is another experience. I look forward to it, not to mention that I think the two little girls are nice and sincere, so it won’t be difficult to get along with each other.”
Zhao Yinqing nodded.
Liu Siqi said again: “If anything happens, you should call Alu. The two schools are not far away, and he will come over quickly. If you don’t go home on the rest day, go find him and have a meal together. It’s okay to have dinner or where to go, and you have to meet more of your own people.”
“I see.” Zhao Yinqing said.
Putting people in the car, Zhao Zhengyang lowered the window and asked, “Aren’t you leaving?”
Sun Lu said, “I will fetch her water later before leaving.”
Zhao Yinqing glanced at him.
Zhao Zhengyang: “Then fight now, and go together after the fight, otherwise it would be inconvenient to wait for a person to go back and take the car.”
“It’s okay, there is a subway, fast.”
Zhao Zhengyang didn’t say more, and the car left soon.
It’s already evening, and the whole afternoon will be over again.
“Supper together?” Sun Lu said.
Zhao Yinqing said, “Is our school cafeteria?”
“It’s not impossible, if you are a treat.”
“Then you beat the water for me first.”
Sun Lu stretched out his hand and patted the brim of her hat, a smile leaked from the corner of her mouth, with an obvious pampering.
The place to fetch water was in the northwest corner of the second floor. Sun Lu was carrying two thermos bottles. After all, it was a female dormitory building. When he went to the station, he suddenly had the illusion that Tang Seng had entered the country of his daughter.
The seemingly non-existent gaze around him kept swiping up on him, even if he was used to being watched by others, this would feel very uncomfortable.
Sun Lu frowned, curled his head and exhaled, and took out the phone to check the time.
“Classmate, which department do you have?” someone asked him.
Sun Lu glanced at her indifferently, threw the phone into his trouser pocket, put the cork on the bottle, picked it up and left.
“Fuck, so tugging!”
“It’s more flavorful, isn’t it? But is it from our school? No, otherwise I would have known this person.”
“Not sure.”
Sun Lu met Zhao Yinqing’s gaze all the way, and took the thermos bottle to Zhao Yinqing’s bedroom. The three girls were sitting in their seats eating snacks and chatting.
“Zhao Yinqing, go eat.” He said after putting the thermos bottle.
Zhao Yinqing looked at the other two: “When are you going to eat? Let’s go together.”
The two shook their heads, self-aware and didn’t bother too much.
There were not too many people in the No. 1 cafeteria, and the two shook their plates around.
“is that enough?”
Sun Lu glanced at him. Mapo tofu, braised eggplant, dried bamboo shoots, smoked ham and a seafood soup are more than enough for two people.
“Let’s find a seat, I may not finish eating.”
They picked a more partial position, and Sun Lu put the bowls and chopsticks in front of her.
“The freshman course will not be very full. I am looking forward to meeting you in A.”
Zhao Yinqing looked at him inexplicably, “I told you I’m going to A big one? I can really think about it.”
“Should lovers not see each other in a day like three autumns? For example, me.”
Zhao Yinqing was surprised: “Are you in love?”
“Unrequited love is also love.”
Zhao Yinqing felt that he couldn’t eat this meal.
“Just kidding.” Sun Lu put chopsticks and tofu into a bowl for her, “I’m not so clumsy, college life is colorful and I am looking forward to the next four years.”
Zhao Yinqing didn’t say a word, and Sun Lu was a bit scared to answer what he said. It was impossible to say the next sentence.
When Zhao Yinqing returned to the dormitory, the last roommate arrived. She was a very cold and beautiful girl. She was dressed plainly and didn’t talk much. She didn’t seem to like to make friends.
She saw Zhao Yinqing come back, took the tablet and snacks, and handed it to her.
“What is this?”
She said, “I don’t like to take other people’s things casually.”
Ding Zhiqi and Jiang Zifan looked at them, staring at each other.
Zhao Yinqing glanced at her hand, smiled, and said: “You don’t need to be grateful. This is the meeting ceremony. I haven’t lived outside. I will trouble you to take care of it in the future. This is nothing.”
She held her hand there, as if hesitating.
Zhao Yinqing pushed her hand over and said, “Take it, there will be no less troubles for you in the future. I hope you will take more care of it then, and not you have it, but everyone has it.”
She finally retracted her hand and turned back to her position.
There is a suitcase and snakeskin bag next to the chair, the canvas shoes on the feet have been a little degummed, and the collar of the clothes has become wrinkled because of too many washings.
From head to toe, it can be seen that this girl is very struggling in life.
“Don’t know what your name is?” Zhao Yinqing looked at the other two, “Do you all know each other?”
Ding Zhiqi whispered: “She is Chen Yange, who came in over one line.”
Zhao Yinqing looked at her unexpectedly and said, “I’m over the same line, why not go to a better school?”
She turned her back to them and said, “It’s nothing, it’s close to home.”
Later, she asked a few more questions, and she responded mediocre, obviously not wanting to say more, Zhao Yinqing went on her own.
After half a month, I was squeezed in a space with people I didn’t know very well. Everyone had different work and rest time, different habits and preferences, and it was really uncomfortable at first.
Zhao Yinqing had insomnia for three whole nights before relieving him.
“Is it because you haven’t slept for these three nights, so you have lost a few catties? I think your chin is a little smaller.”
Zhao Yinqing and Fu Ze ate at a private restaurant. They met for the first time since school started, and Fu Ze came to look for her.
“You’re dazzled, I eat supper every day, and I weighed three catties in the first two days.”
Fu Ze laughed: “The school food is very good, so be careful which day you weigh 30 catties.”
“It’s the same truth for women to gain weight with men. Maybe someday I will be really heavy.” Zhao Yinqing spit out a bone and looked at him, “What if I really grow fat?”
“Then I will exercise more and strive to be able to hold you at that time.”
The two chatted happily, Zhao Yinqing turned his head inadvertently, and unexpectedly saw Chen Yange holding a bouquet of flowers at the street stall.
She came back by stepping on the door guard almost every night. Ding Zhiqi guessed that she might have a boyfriend outside, after all, she was very beautiful.
Now it seems to be making money by running outside every day.
Chen Yange was short of money to set up a stall, and she could understand it after a little thought, and she could tell from her performance from the beginning that the economy was not well-off.
“What are you looking at?” Fu Ze followed her gaze and looked out, the neon was shining, and the cars came and went, nothing special.
Zhao Yinqing lifted his chin: “I saw my roommate. I’m selling flowers over there.”
“Normally, you can’t make a lot of money by selling flowers, but you can make a fortune on holidays.”
“But not every day is a holiday. Ordinary people live by earning money at ordinary times.”
Fu Ze scooped a bowl of soup for her and said, “I think I didn’t accompany you on my birthday this year, or I bought all your classmates’ flowers for you? Kill two birds with one stone.”
“Didn’t you already give me a necklace?” Zhao Yinqing pulled out from his clothes to show him, “I wear them all, and my classmates don’t want to see me when they set up a stall.”
Although I don’t have much contact, I can feel that Chen Yange is a very proud person.
On Wednesday morning, class is in Class 3 classroom.
Zhao Yinqing sat with Ding Zhiqi and Jiang Zifan. Chen Yange did not come together, but they specially reserved a place for her.
As soon as Chen Yange walked in through the back door, Jiang Zifan waved to let her come over.
Chen Yange took a look, and then went to the front position without seeing it, and sat alone.
Ding Zhiqi whispered: “Why is she doing this? We kindly grabbed a spot for her, and the relationship is not good for the same dormitory? It would be more comfortable to live in, right?”
Jiang Zifan said: “Forget it, maybe Xueba is just cold, she treats everyone like this anyway.”
Zhao Yinqing didn’t comment on this. Anyway, she was not an enthusiastic person. She did not have much contact with Chen Yange, did not deliberately talked, and did not deliberately alienate her. It didn’t matter what the other party’s attitude was.
The lecture hall will be noisy. The boys in a few classes are making a fuss, and it doesn’t take long to push a tall boy with glasses over.
He sat in front of Zhao Yinqing and the others, and said, “What are your three arrangements for the end of get out of class today?”
Ding Zhiqi said, “Yao Xiuping, what do you want to do?”
“What’s your expression? I’m not a bad person. Why are you so defensive!” He slipped over and paused on Zhao Yinqing. “We are going to form a sorority party by ourselves in the evening. Come and play if you have nothing to do. ”
“Who do you have?”
Yao Xiuping gave a few names, and the total number was seven or eight.
“Are you coming?” Yao Xiuping looked at Zhao Yinqing, and said unintentionally, “Zhao Yinqing, are you coming?”
Zhao Yinqing still couldn’t remember the names of the people, and the few people he told him were completely unworthy.
She froze for a moment, before she could speak, someone behind her suddenly knocked on the table.
A few people turned their heads to see that the person here was a gentle, handsome, big boy with a sunny smile on his lips.
Zhao Yinqing said in surprise: “Why are you here?”
Fu Ze tilted his head and said jokingly: “Fortunately I am here, otherwise my girlfriend will be abducted to join the sorority party.”