I Didn’t Mean to Kill the Heroine

Episode 5

‘What, you really don’t know that and are asking? You must want to break off your engagement.’

Helio and another woman’s engagement must have been a shock to Amelita’s pride, so of course she thought, ‘Fuck you,’ and… … .

‘… … Huh? 

Why did Amelita tell you that?’

If it were true to Amelita’s personality in the original, she would have let him experience it even if it was just because she was angry.

Rather than genuinely liking the crown prince, she was more of a desire to possess him, and this was her chance to take revenge without doing anything, because she had such strong pride.

And then when Helio was miserably betrayed by the princess, she would have laughed at him, saying, “If only he had come to me, it wouldn’t have happened… … .

At the moment when a strange question arose about an easy answer, words came out of my head without me even thinking about it.

“Because you’re pitiful… … .”

It was a mutter that was almost like talking to myself. But it was enough for Helio, who was nearby.

Helio’s expression hardened in real time.

‘Damn it. What the heck. Why did you suddenly say something like this!’

Of course, it was true that his life was unfortunate.

After his mother was murdered, he suffered all kinds of humiliation in the royal family since he was young, and he was currently suffering from various threats of murder, and people around him only tried to use his position.

If we were to be exact, Amelita was one of the people who tried to use him.

But that was only the sympathy I felt as a reader, not the various feelings I had for the man who just struck my head with his fist.

‘What’s so pitiful about it. If we were to be exact, I’m more pitiful because I suddenly got into trouble.’

But even if I regretted it later, I couldn’t take back what I had already said.

The crown prince’s sparkling golden eyes looked down at me. I thought I could see the current of ‘How dare you’ in those eyes. Helio, who had been looking down at me with a frightening air, raised one corner of his mouth and smiled. His eyes were not smiling at all.

“I just found out today that the princess can feel compassion. That was a very funny remark.”

Helio took his hand off the wall and turned away from me.

“I have something to do today, so I’ll stop.”

He just passed me and walked into the chapel. Perhaps there was a reason he had come here.

His gorgeous red cloak fluttered inside the half-collapsed temple. His back as he walked through the ruined temple looked somewhat lonely.

After watching him absentmindedly for a moment, I suddenly realized that I had finally escaped from him and hurriedly left the chapel.

While walking down the dark hallway, I kept looking back without realizing it.

* * *

“Haa.”

I sat down at the desk in Amelita’s office and sighed as if the ground was falling apart.

The desk was filled with piles of paperwork. Originally, didn’t noble ladies just wear dresses and go out to social gatherings?

“I never thought I’d work in the world of romance… … .”

I guess I have slave blood flowing through me. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have become a house fairy right after liquidating the slaves.

Amelita was participating quite actively in the management of the dukedom.

When I first found out that all these documents were mine, I thought about turning myself in to the temple.

Fortunately, I could easily understand and process these difficult documents.

At some point, whenever I saw objects or documents that Amelita frequently used, fragments of Amelita’s memories would suddenly come to mind.

They were very unstable, partial, and hit or miss.

‘I was worried that nothing would come to mind, but I guess that’s fortunate.’

Most of them were things that Amelita needed for various academic knowledge, martial arts, and practical document work. ‘Strangely, I can’t think of the people around me very well.’

Anyway, thanks to that, I was able to think of other things in my head while processing the documents.

Peridot was the one who dominated my mind right now. Even though it had been over two weeks since I had been possessed, I still hadn’t found the temple where Peridot was.

‘Considering that I haven’t found it yet, there’s a chance that Peridot is still alive… … .’

My hand gripped the pen tightly. At times like this, a thought lingered in a corner of my mind.

Maybe that was a good thing for me.

‘Yeah, honestly, I didn’t kill her, but it was unfair.’

If she was never found, my charges wouldn’t be revealed.

Thud-

After thinking this far, I hit my head on the desk in self-loathing. Peridot was no different from a random murder. She was clearly the victim.

Even so, I had both the desire for her to be alive and safe and the desire for her to die and let this incident be buried.

I really felt like I had become a split personality.

… … In fact, this wasn’t the real problem.

Because the main story of this novel was that the main character, Peridot, was chosen by God and saved the world from disaster.

That means that if there’s no main character, this world will soon be destroyed. So even if I’m not arrested for murdering the saint, I’ll still end up dead.

The only way to survive was to ask for forgiveness from her when she returned alive.

This was different from the original where Peridot’s status and fame were at the sky when I attempted to kill her. This was before she even met the male protagonist.

Now, even if my charges were revealed, there was a glimmer of hope that I wouldn’t be put to death.

So all I had to pray for was her survival.

… … Even if it was just a possibility.

I sighed as if the ground was sinking and buried my face in my hands. The only difference would be whether I’d be destroyed less or more, but either way, I’d be destroyed.

“What is this life… … . There should be at least one hole to pop out of.”

Knock knock-

At that moment, someone knocked on the door of the office. I quickly raised my upper body that had been bent down.

“Come in.”

It was the voice of the Knight Commander Allen, which I had become quite familiar with.

I hurriedly fixed my hair and clothes and cleared my throat.

“Come in.”

After my permission, the door opened and Allen came in.

The leader of Amelita’s direct knight order. Allen Avedo.

Amelita, the Duchess’s daughter, had her own knight order.

They were the real people of Amelita who even the Duke could not control within the Duchess’ residence, and they were knights she had personally selected and raised.

Thanks to that, I could easily assign them tasks such as selecting the list of abandoned temples or guiding and escorting them.

Alen, who entered the office, strode briskly and stopped in front of my desk.

“What’s going on?” I asked him without taking my eyes off the documents. However, I couldn’t help but look at him when he continued.

“There was an announcement from the imperial court regarding the saintess.”

Knock—

My heart sank at Allen’s words.

‘An announcement regarding the saintess? Did you find Peridot?’

I had clearly ordered him to relay any news regarding the saintess without fail.

But when I heard that he had brought me this news, I felt like opening the window and jumping out right away.

My fate would soon be decided based on that answer.

I tried not to tremble as I spoke.

“So, what?”

However, his next words were enough to shatter my barely held onto composure.

“They say she died.”

“She… died?”

I asked back, thinking I had misheard. The documents I was holding crumpled as my hands tightened.

“Yes. They said that a body was found this afternoon. I got a copy of the newspaper that will be published tomorrow morning.”

I took the newspaper Allen handed me. The words printed on the headline were very clear.

I felt the blood in my head go cold after being confirmed dead once again. My fingertips were shaking so much that I hid my hands under the desk while keeping the newspaper open.

‘Ah, Peridot is dead. … … She killed her.’

Maybe I had half expected this to happen. I was just holding on to the mirage-like hope that it wouldn’t be true.

“Ha, ha… … .”

I let out a hollow laugh. The corners of my mouth didn’t go up at all.

And then suddenly, I remembered that I had left the sword, the weapon of the crime, behind after stabbing Peridot that day.

‘Now, really… … it’s all over.’

I had no more chances to ask for forgiveness or destroy the evidence. The world will end, and I will be arrested before that because the murder weapon was discovered to be Amelita’s.

“… … Where was the place where the body was found?”

Even though it was over, I was curious about this.

I had information about the place, but I couldn’t find it even though I searched so hard, so how on earth did I find Peridot in such a ruined temple?

“It was the sea.”

“… … What?”

However, Allen’s answer turned all my thoughts upside down.