Chapter 18: Ch-18 I suddenly felt a wave of anger rise up inside me.
On the train ride home, I thought about the man's proposal. Natsuki had given me his contact information, including a phone number. If I contacted him, he promised to get me a man whenever I wanted. These men were probably porn actors who had previously worked under Natsuki's direction.
Thinking back, the men all had something in common. They approached me almost as soon as I entered the downtown area. They looked like ordinary office workers, were generally quiet and non-violent during sex, and would leave quickly after it was over.
My greatest fears were that I would be attacked or contract an infectious disease. In the end, neither happened. My fears turned out to be unfounded, and I was relieved.
And then... they were all good at sex. The first guy had the biggest one, but all of them were well endowed. Compared to them, Kazuya was no match. They were skilled and made me come every time.
Because of that, I thought it was normal for most men to be that good and that Kazuya was the exception. Maybe this feeling showed and made Kazuya explode in frustration.
To be honest, Natsuki's proposal feels like a gift from heaven right now. If I accept it, my sexual desires will undoubtedly be satisfied.
But I can't ignore Kisaragi who is behind Natsuki. His intentions are clear - he wants to control my sexual desires to prevent any scandals.
While I was thinking about this, a scary thought came to me:
Could it be that the other members of the Kisaragi clan are also being sexually controlled by Natsuki?
In addition to AV actors, Natsuki also manages AV actresses. Maybe the scandals are avoided by providing them as well.
It's not just scandals, but also requests from men who want women outside their marriages, wives who are unhappy with their husbands, or those with unusual preferences.
Does Kisaragi use Natsuki to control everything?
The thought fills me with a sudden rage.
I don't want to give in to Kisaragi.
What can I do?
The head of the family has forbidden me to stand on street corners, and I'm too afraid to use the Internet. My only option is to find a man on my own.
But my social circle is small, and there are no potential candidates among them.
When I think about it, all I feel is despair. Is my only choice to live my life tied to Kisaragi? In the end, will I have no choice but to satisfy my sexual desires through Natsuki?
But there's a rebellious part of me that refuses to give in.
I'll resist. As much as I can.