Chapter 142: Cinders of Doubt
Location: Gaia HQ – Harriet's Quarters, 6:04 AM
The room was silent, save for the soft hum of sunrise creeping through the frosted windows. Harriet sat on the edge of her bed, staring at the chipped handle of her halberd—Vermithar leaned against the wall beside her, silent like a sleeping beast.
Steam rose from the untouched cup of tea in her hands.
"Why now?" she whispered.
She'd awoken from a dream she hadn't had in years—her childhood village, the fire, the screams, and the look on her mother's face… not of fear, but disappointment. Even in the dream, her young self cried not from pain, but from shame.
Flashback – Age 9, Outside Ashen Vale
"You have to control it!" her mother had shouted, kneeling beside a burning fence.
"I didn't mean to!" Harriet cried.
"Intent doesn't matter when the house is gone!"
The villagers had looked at her with the same eyes they gave beasts of the wild—something beautiful, but feared. Untamed. A wildfire in human skin.
Present Day
A knock on the door broke the silence.
"Come in."
Cyg stepped inside—jacket over his shoulder, expression unreadable but quiet. He'd been checking on her every morning since the Abyss Gate assault. Not because he had to—because he chose to.
"Didn't sleep?"
"Not really," Harriet muttered.
"Bad dream?"
She didn't answer right away.
"Tell me, Cyg. If you destroy something without meaning to… does that make you a monster?"
He didn't blink.
"No."
"Even if it scars someone?"
"Then you help them heal. That's what you did for me."
She turned to him. His presence was warm—but not overwhelming. Grounding. Safe.
"I don't know if I deserve this. You. Us."
"Harriet," Cyg said, walking toward her. "Love isn't something you deserve or earn. It's something you give. And I'm still here, aren't I?"
She stared up at him. Slowly—almost imperceptibly—her hand reached for his. Not blazing. Not trembling. Just there. Human.
"Don't let the past keep you from who you are now," he added.
"But what if she comes back?"
"Then I'll hold her. Just like I hold you."
Location: Gaia Training Hall – That Afternoon
Training was fierce. Harriet moved through each motion with surgical grace, flames flickering with control—but her mind was distant.
Each spark reminded her of the moment she'd lost control back then—when her childhood friend had been injured by a misfire, when the village elders had demanded she leave, when even her own mother couldn't meet her eyes.
A familiar voice pulled her out of it.
"You're still thinking about it," said Sylvia, arms crossed from the edge of the platform.
Harriet blinked. "You knew?"
"You burned half your tea this morning. That's when I know something's wrong."
Sylvia sat beside her.
"Look, Harriet. You're not the only one afraid of losing control. But the people who care about you? We see past the fear. We see the fight."
"But what if the fire… consumes?"
"Then let it consume what hurt you. Not who you've become."
Harriet looked at her in silence, then—smiled. Just barely.
"You're not too bad with words."
"Only when people are worth saying them to."
Evening – Rooftop Over Gaia HQ
Cyg was waiting again. This time, she didn't hesitate.
Harriet walked straight toward him and leaned against his side, head resting on his shoulder.
"I'm scared," she whispered.
"Of what?"
"Of loving you too much. Of burning something good."
He turned toward her.
"Then let's burn together."
She smiled—truly smiled. And when she leaned up, lips brushing his, the warmth wasn't fire. It was peace. It was promise.