Before Prying Away the Small O

After You Chenxing changed his shoes, he carried his slippers and walked into Yunwan’s apartment barefoot.

There is no sound when walking.

Yun Wan’s state…

You Chenxing was afraid that the slightest disturbance would irritate the other party, and he was also afraid that Yun Wan would think that Shen Li was back, and an accident would really happen by then.

When people are emotional, anything can happen.

Arriving at the door of the study, the door was half closed, and You Chenxing made the first voice, “Yun Wan.”

She and Shen Li’s voices are very different, and the other party should be able to recognize them, but even so, in the last sentence, You Chenxing still called out his name.

“I’m You Chenxing.”

After thinking about it, he added, “I’m the only one.”

After these three sentences, he knocked on the door, leaving enough time for the other party to react.

The movement inside was broken, and despite being so careful, You Chenxing opened the door and saw Yun Wan. Her first reaction was to close the removed magazine with a bang, then hold the gun and take a shooting posture…

squeak-

The wooden door was pushed open slowly.

During this period, You Chenxing didn’t move any other parts of his body except his hands. When the door was opened, Yun Wan could see You Chenxing clearly through the light, and You Chenxing could also clearly see Yun Wan’s eyes when he had taken off his guard. Just proceed to the second action.

You Chenxing put his shoes on the ground and put on slippers.

This is how he entered the library.

Yun Wan’s nerves were highly tense for a moment, and she realized that it was You Chenxing, and then looked at the other party’s calm face, relieved her strength, and banged, the pistol also hit the floor with the whereabouts of her arm.

Yun Wan lowered his head, his expression was sullen, the focus in his eyes was scattered again, he let go of his hand, and threw the gun to the ground again.

In the silence, You Chenxing walked up to Yun Wan, Yun Wan propped up her legs and hugged her knees and sat on the floor.

You Chenxing didn’t speak, Yun Wan didn’t know where to look, and didn’t move.

After being speechless for a long time, Yun Wancai asked with deep exhaustion, “Why are you coming back?”

“Don’t worry about you.”

You Chenxing answered in a very soft voice, without exaggerated accents, just like every word she said on a daily basis.

But the care is often more simple and casual, the more touching.

In the interference of the noisy emotions in her head, Yun Wan’s heart seemed to be touched by something, and the feeling was not real, but she didn’t hate it.

You Chenxing slowly squatted down, and within Yun Wan’s sight, he reached out and gestured to get the gun.

The movement was very slow, Yun Wan’s eyes moved slightly, and when he saw it, he didn’t stop it, and You Chenxing couldn’t help letting out a sigh of relief.

When you touch the gun and get it in your hand, the first action is to unload the magazine.

But more in place than Yun Wan, not only unloading the magazine, but also pouring out the bullets.

Ladies pistol, small in size, mainly for self-defense purposes, the magazine can only hold 12 rounds of bullets.

That’s the case, You Chenxing counted the number of bullets that were taken out, eleven, and then counted the one that had already been fired. To restore the scene, Yun Wan came out to find Shen Li with a full magazine…

You can imagine how angry she was at that time.

“Where’s the safe?”

With the release of the gun, a new material polymer metal safe for storage will be issued at the same time.

Yun Wan quietly watched You Chenxing’s movements, “Bedroom.”

You Chenxing got up and went to her bedroom. He didn’t take the gun with him, but brought the safe over. In front of Yun Wan, he disassembled the gun and put it back for others. He also helped her count the bullets, and said in surprise. , “Only thirty-three rounds?”

The standard is three magazines of bullets, thirty-six rounds is the initial number.

In addition to today’s, there are still two missing.

“Yeah.” Facing You Chenxing’s gaze, Yun Wan did not hide it, “I used two rounds on missions before, but I used an empty gun for warning.”

“Those two shots have already been registered.”

Afraid that You Chenxing wanted to ask, Yun Wan added.

You Chenxing nodded and moved neatly to help Yun Wan put the gun accessories back into place one by one. After they were all lined up neatly, he looked at Yun Wan and signaled, “I’m closing the box.”

It is to Yun Wan to confirm that it is correct.

Yun Wan hesitantly turned his eyes to confirm, and tapped his lower jaw.

click.

The safe was closed, and the dangerous weapon was finally stowed away in a safe place.

The person put the safe back in the bedroom, You Chenxing went back to the study, dialed an internal number, and reported a misfire.

Listening to the woman’s phone call, Yun Wan was surprised to find that not only did she remember her job title and ID number, but she didn’t even report the wrong gun number just now.

“Well, okay, let her take it to the unit tomorrow and hand it over to the military supply center for unified inspection.”

“Yes, no casualties, confirmed.”

“thanks.”

Hanging up the phone and letting out a light breath, You Chenxing squatted down and looked at Yun Wan.

Looking at the eyes that were no longer lustrous, You Chenxing’s voice couldn’t help becoming gentle, “I have reported to you that the firearms are missing, you heard it, take it to the unit when you go to work, and they will check it. After that, it will come back no problem.”

Yun Wan woodenly nodded.

Not wanting to talk at all.

You Chenxing didn’t stare at her either, got up and poured two new glasses of warm water, and handed a glass to Yun Wan.

Yun Wan took it, as if she had been sucked out of her soul. She gave her the water glass, and she lowered her head and took a sip.

There was a long silence. While waiting, You Chenxing also changed from a squatting position to sitting on the floor, with his long legs overlapping and his back straight.

“Do you have anything else to say to me?” Yun Wan said suddenly.

“Why do you think so?”

“Feeling.” Putting the cup beside him, Yun Wan pressed his chin against his knee and closed his eyes gently.

Confirmed with Shen Li about Tang Xing’s situation.

Yun Wan subconsciously felt that Tang Xing should still have something, and what You Chenxing wanted to say, told her.

“Originally there was.” When asked, You Chenxing did not shy away, “But… if it’s like this, forget it today, it’s not a big deal.”

She didn’t want to stimulate Yun Wan any more.

She didn’t say it, and Yun Wan didn’t rush it. She said it wasn’t a big deal, and Yun Wan believed it wasn’t a big deal.

You Chenxing has always been a very trustworthy person.

Besides, she really didn’t have the energy to manage those.

“Aren’t you going?”

After being quiet for too long, Yun Wan wanted to say something, but she opened her mouth to drive people away.

“Not urgent.”

After a pause, You Chenxing confided in a rare voice, “I want to accompany you.”

“I think you should have a lot to say.”

Yun Wan does have it, but, “I don’t know where to say it.”

“Whatever, if you want to say it, you can say it from anywhere, you can say it wherever you want, don’t hold back.”

Some things are more comfortable to say.

It will be much better if you let your emotions out.

I don’t know where to look, the time is pulled by the warm light to create a wonderful feeling, dazed and chaotic, Yun Wan said, “Have you guessed it long ago?”

“what?”

You Chenxing’s voice in his ears also became hazy.

Yun Wan: “Tang Xing, Shen Li, and my dad’s case, did you guess it when you were in your hometown?”

“Otherwise, why do you go to school and go to Tang Xing’s distant relative’s house?”

“Oh, and also, Yu Xi is the prosecutor. You asked her for help, right?”

You Chenxing lowered his eyes, “I can’t say that either.”

“I have rich experience in handling cases. When I feel that something is wrong, Yingyingchaochuo thinks it is related, but things without evidence can’t be taken seriously. I have to come back and continue to look for it.”

Looking back, Tang Xing’s water-tight situation surprised You Chenxing.

When Yun Wan saw that there was a problem with the formula, it was another thunderstorm, and then went to Yu Xi, the overall outline of the incident slowly emerged in front of You Chenxing.

Yun Wan: “But you didn’t tell me before.”

For some reason, she just wanted to say this, and she really said it.

This sentence finally has mood swings and some grievances.

Without saying it, You Chenxing heard it.

After flicking his hair, You Chenxing lowered his voice a little bit, “Before there is an exact number, speaking out will only make you feel negative. It’s not necessary. What if I made a mistake?”

Although so far, You Chenxing’s intuition has not been wrong, but the truth is this.

Yun Wan didn’t speak, her cheeks puffed out, then went down, puffed up, went down again.

Looking at his expression, he reluctantly accepted this explanation and nodded, “Okay.”

Reluctantly, it was acceptable.

After asking the only question she wanted to ask You Chenxing, the only thing left was her own family, Yun Wan thought, her mind was full of clutter, memories and reality intertwined, what happened a few years ago and what happened recently , scrambling left and right in her mind, stirring the inseparable piece.

Yun Wan felt suffocated and subconsciously buried her face between her knees again. From You Chenxing’s perspective, she could only see that with her movements, her long hair slipped with luster, completely covering Yun Wan’s profile. .

“Am I a failure?” Yun Wan suddenly asked.

Before You Chenxing could answer, Yun Wan said again, “I feel like a failure.”

“It feels like the past years have all gone wrong all of a sudden.”

“I feel ridiculous.”

Long eyelashes trembled, Yun Wan said with difficulty, “My marriage is ridiculous.”

Now she feels exactly the same as when she discovered Tang Xing’s existence, she can’t figure it out, she can’t figure out why things turned out like this…

Their family didn’t feel sorry for Shen Li.

Not at all.

“My dad never disliked her.”

“Even when we were arguing, my dad said that I was too extreme. He said that I was still young. If there is anything I can’t do, just teach it slowly. Don’t be so anxious and make troubles…”

“My dad also chose a location for her parents’ house for a long time. Her family moved to Beijing. My dad was busy with work during that time, but no matter how busy he was, he still drove out to help deliver things…”

“I have chosen the furniture well.”

“She is about to be promoted, and she is always afraid of being squeezed out of her place, so she will greet Uncle Zhou in advance.”

“…”

“My family has never sorry for her.” Yun Wan murmured, finally saying this sentence.

“So why did it end up like this?”

“I can’t figure it out.”

“Am I wrong from the beginning, maybe, I should choose the path of all the families, maybe…”

“Yun Wan.” You Chenxing interrupted her messy remorse, and said firmly, “You are the victim.”

“The perpetrator has the perpetrator’s statement. For the victim, don’t look for the reason from yourself, because the reason is not in you at all.”

After a moment’s pause, You Chenxing slowed down again.

“The plane crash, is it because someone on the plane chose this flight? A car accident can’t be blamed on which party was hit too much obeying the traffic rules, right?”

“Similarly, the failure of your marriage should not be blamed on you who did nothing.”

“You’re fine, don’t think like that.”

Yun Wan looked up with a painful expression on her face. After a long while, she raised her head to force the tears back, and muttered, “I’m fine, so why does she still treat me like this? To my family?”

When Yun Wan asked this question, in fact, his thoughts were a little paranoid.

You Chenxing stared at her for a while, and said quietly.

“It’s her fault.”

“She doesn’t deserve you.”

“Really?” Yun Wan’s voice was very soft.

“Yes.” You Chenxing’s answer was very strong.

The woman didn’t actually say anything special, but maybe her attitude was too firm. In the mud, Yun Wan suddenly felt that she was just the one who was unfortunately stained with mud, not the one who was stuck in it and couldn’t extricate herself. .

“What do you think of success?” You Chenxing suddenly asked.

“Huh?” Yun Wan was stunned.

“You just said you feel like a failure, what does success in your eyes look like?”

With some hesitation, Yun Wan looked at You Chenxing for a while, thought for a long time, and said, “You and Zhou Ding are like this?”

“What? Have a successful career?”

Feeling vague, Yun Wan nodded, thought about it again, and added, “It seems that you can completely control your life and not be disturbed by everything.”

“I don’t know what you think of me. Zhou Ding is not such a person. To be precise, neither of the aristocratic family.”

People of aristocratic families, the family is the weak spot, and it is impossible not to be disturbed by anything.

On the contrary, they are actually more seriously disturbed by various relationships in private.

“That’s what you are.” Yun Wan took a step back.

“But my family has passed away. My mother and I are not close, and we won’t be in touch. I look fine, but it just looks like, Yun Wan, no one lives easily.”

You Chenxing: “Living is not an easy task.”

“You think I have more control. Maybe for me, I envy you, your family, and people you can care about.”

“There are no two identical leaves in the world, no identical people, and no life.”

“The lives of two people cannot be compared.”

“You feel like a failure, but you’re actually better than most people when it comes to it.”

After thinking about it, You Chenxing emphasized, “It’s much better.”

“Recently, you are better than Tang Xing and our growing environment. Even if it’s a failed marriage, yours is much happier than hers.”

“If you dislike this example, I can change it.”

After a pause, You Chenxing suddenly said, “Have you seen people in the war zone?”

Yun Wan was stunned, shook his head, looked at You Chenxing, and said uncertainly, “Have you seen it?”

“I have seen.”

It was difficult for You Chenxing to describe exactly what kind of scene it was with Yun Wan.

After going there, people’s understanding of the word “cruel” will be much deeper.

“On the front line, education is suspended, guns are privatized very seriously, gun battles break out on the streets from time to time, most of the children’s faces are dirty, and there is no hope in their eyes…”

“You live in a peaceful environment. It may be inappropriate for me to compare like this, but you are still young and have infinite possibilities in the future. What you are experiencing now may be painful in your opinion, but no one can help you. It’s the way you have to go.”

“My only experience in the face of pain is to get through it, and then it will be fine.”

Yun Wan thought about this for a long time, and after a while, he asked, “Will it be okay?”

“meeting.”

You Chenxing: “Growing up is always painful and unavoidable.”

After letting out the turbid air, Yun Wan buried her face again, feeling her eyes burning hot.

You Chenxing: “If you feel uncomfortable, just cry if you want to.”

To her surprise, Yun Wan shook her head this time.

is a firm refusal.

“Don’t cry.”

Yun Wan murmured and repeated, “I can’t cry anymore.”

“It’s been so long, I should be stronger.”

After a pause, he added in a low voice, “My dad still needs me.”

When it was confirmed that the child was Shen Li, Yun Wan collapsed, and tonight, she also collapsed.

But she may have experienced the collapse of her worldview once, and when she was hit the same by the same person the second time, she actually felt that she could not bear it anymore.

pain.

But not uncontrollable pain.

sad.

But it’s not uncontrollable sadness.

You Chenxing sat closer, helped Yun Wan to pick up the hair on the side of her ear, and patted her on the back lightly.

Hearing the eldest lady talking to herself, she muttered, “Tough hardships, Yuru Yucheng.”

You Chenxing suddenly couldn’t bear it.

Even though she knew that Yun Wan should go through this, and she must have experienced it herself, can she grow up and see through it, but the emotions in her heart were uncontrollable, and she just felt distressed.

“Do you want a hug?” You Chenxing said suddenly.

“Humans are social animals, and hugs make you feel supported and should be better.”

Afraid of Yun Wan’s misunderstanding, You Chenxing added in a mocking tone, “Anyway, when you sat on my lap to stimulate Shen Li just now, you were already a tool person once. Now, I don’t mind being a second time.”

“At least, can you ease your mood?”

Yun Wan raised her head, the dark red pupils at the end of her eyes stared at You Chenxing, with an inexplicable sense of vulnerability, making You Chenxing’s heart skip a beat.

Yun Wan muttered, unhappy, “You don’t have to stress that I use you as a tool, don’t keep making fun of me.”

“Be serious.”

Be nice to her.

In the end, he opened his hand to You Chenxing.

Feeling the softness of the omega again, Yun Wan’s warm breath sprayed onto You Chenxing’s collarbone.

Even if he knew the current atmosphere and there was no ambiguity at all, You Chenxing’s breathing tightened.

Her breath is filled with the rose fragrance of Yunwan pheromone, which is very light, and only her special alpha can smell it.

“I didn’t tease you.”

Unable to see the other’s face, You Chenxing’s voice had a dreamy haze.