Became the Hated Illegitimate Son of the Duke in Romance Fantasy

26 – Episode 26

After taking the exam with Miss Louise, it seems that I did nothing for four days and just took a shower in the bathroom.

Because the saying “If you want to live, find something you want to do” Has stuck in my head.

While getting hit by the falling water, I think about what I will do in the future and what I can do.

The reason I want to live may sound like a long story.

So many people give various reasons to their lives and live according to that role.

As in the previous world and here.

I think back to the past, when I was me, not Eric.

Even in the previous world, I don’t think I had a specific role.

I had a lot of friends in my contacts, but I wanted to keep in touch and hang out with only 4 of them.

My parents passed away a long time ago.

Thanks to my grandparents, I grew up, but they passed away after I became an adult.

Money was inherited as a legacy, so even though I graduated from a decent university, I didn’t really want to work.

If you think about it, here and there, I am just a useless person.

I picked up the wine and opened the bottle, put the cork back on and put it under the bed.

Alcohol makes the brain dull, so not yet.

“What are you asking me to do?”

I felt my whole body sag.

First of all, get up and stretch lightly.

Then I ordered the maid to hand over my ID and get me some books from the library.

“What…What book are you talking about…?”

“Anything, something people wouldn’t read very well.

If you’re not sure, ask the librarian to bring it to you.”

After saying that, he sent the maid with a slightly gloomy face to the library.

In the meantime, I’ve been thinking about what I can do.

The body is large and strong compared to the average of people in this world.

It’s only natural that he ate well and grew up well.

However, his motor nerves are very ordinary.

As for strength, the farmer who hoeed in the big field in front of the mansion would be twice as strong.

If it’s fast, the kids playing on the hill might be much faster than me.

But if you ask me if I have good stamina, I would sit down and read a book, but it couldn’t be good.

If you look for the good points, compared to the others, his body is dull enough that his head is moderately turned.

I can’t even learn at least one book properly, so I’m so good that I’m on a different level than the idiots in my class.

If I had been in Xenia’s position, I would have done well.

I don’t think it would have been so painful, and other people wouldn’t have looked down on me this much.

Unlike Xenia, who is innocent, kind, and doesn’t even show a vicious side, she wouldn’t have been swayed around by others.

If you think about it, it was me who made Xenia like that.

I grew up as a positive and bright child, probably because I was not tall because I stuck next to my mother who was suffering from hysteria all day long..

However, would it be a positive thing if we looked at her as the heir to her duchy instead of seeing her as her grand duchy?

I, I made it that way.

In the original story, if she wasn’t blinded by love, she comes across as a smart, cool, and charismatic figure.

At least not now.

“No, no.

I can’t be like this.”

I went to the sink and washed her face.

I don’t feel like my emotions are going down at all, so I keep washing my face.

I wonder if the school uniform has a waterproof function, but it didn’t get wet.

All I was wearing was a top, so all my sleeping pants were wet.

I heard a knock on the way and took the book.

The maid seemed startled when she saw me wet all over with her clothes on, but she didn’t show it on the outside and handed me the book.

I tell you to leave the book on the porch in case it gets wet.

I roughly wiped my face, brought the book to the desk, and began to read.

When I read the title, it looked like a history book roughly written about an emperor.

Yeah, since I wasn’t very interested in history, it wouldn’t hurt to read it once.

A book full of details of what happened when the emperor, who is still criticized even now, governed this empire.

He is called Cancer Army.

To this day, I am the kind of cancer that makes people think that they are stupid and that bloodlines make places, not places that make people.

The emperor of this empire was also an illegitimate child.

Ever since he ascended the throne, there have been no crazy nobles who have spoken about it.

And prior to his accession, he was not officially an illegitimate son.

After the emperor adopted him as the son of the empress, he gave him the throne.

Of course, it is said that for that reason, the author of the Sun Emperor killed all of his father’s still living brothers and his own brothers.

The method has not been clarified until now.

The day after the emperor’s birthday banquet, everyone vomited blood and died at the same time.

Even at that time, and the historian who wrote this book wrote that it was impossible without poisoning.

However, it is written that no one can find fault with him because it is still unknown what method he used to assassinate him.

He is a great human being.

The women who had even a little bit of the emperor’s blood were confined to the tower using their powers and made it impossible for them to dare approach the throne.

They drove the empress to hang herself on a rope.

He made sure that those inside the palace alone did not dare to rebel against him.

He is a smart person.

My brothers and bloodlines made everyone vomit blood and die by taking advantage of the lack of vigilance of an illegitimate child.

And even after he became emperor, he firmly maintained his position.

A great man.

In order to somehow protect my shaky legitimacy, I gathered a private army of nobles, put a commander like an idiot, and made everyone die in the north.

Thanks to that, are there still one or two territories that are unable to use their power because there are no people?

He is a meticulous person.

I erased all other options and left only the path to become emperor in front of my father.

The emperor is old and there is no human left to succeed him….

In the end, his father, who said he was an illegitimate child and did not treat him like a human being, had no choice but to make the human who had slaughtered all of his children the emperor.

“……I, how can I keep only Xenia in confinement and the duke…?”

Unknowingly, those words came out of his mouth.

I felt bad for a moment, so I stopped thinking.

He enters the bathroom, once again dressed, and turns on the faucet.

He emptied his head while being hit with water.

I looked at the mirror in the bathroom.

Strangely, the corner of the mouth does not go down.

After roughly drying his body, he lay down on the bed to cool his head.

Because if I continued to think, the conclusion would go to a strange place.

I touched the corner of his mouth, and the corner of his mouth that was still smiling seemed unwilling to go down.

From the feeling of being drunk and not being able to distinguish properly, I feel like drinking a cup of delicious alcohol with low alcohol and a slight sense of elation rises from my stomach.

Ah, the black and white world looks a little brighter.

And I felt that the colors were slightly distorted.

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Was the probation on the 21st?

In other words, probation ends today.

It wasn’t very pleasant.

Because I had to go back to that classroom, take lessons, and breathe in the same classroom as Miguel Prugemutum and that pig.

Let’s find at least one good thing. When I thought about it, it was about getting out of this stuffy space.

But even if I get out of space, I want to keep meeting people like this.

Because seeing someone’s face hurts your feelings, having a conversation and hurting your feelings again is hard work.

Now, the work to be done increases again.

I have to go to class, not to soak my head in alcohol and suck tobacco like a person suffering from lethargy from being stretched out in bed.

Still, I wasn’t particularly lethargic these days.

I kept ordering the maid to bring the books and bring them back.

If I had been kicked out of here, would things have changed?

That can’t be the case, since you’ll have no choice but to return to the mansion.

I even thought about starting her life anew with the money the Duchess gave me, or maybe I should actually do it, but that hateful woman said, she went to the academy and used it for her Xenia. To do it

Now, it is said that everyone is paying for my new year and wine, but since there is no way to know where it is used, it would be okay.

If you find a house somewhere, there’s no way you wouldn’t know about it.

When I was at the mansion, I only got to see the Duchess and get in trouble at most once a week.

Even if the day was difficult, I was able to spend the other days and have time to comfort myself a little.

But here, it makes people suffer without a day off.

Before today came, Misty and Xenia came to visit us twice more, but we didn’t have very long conversations.

Should I say that I felt like I came to see if I was in the room just to say hello?

I pack my things appropriately and head to the classroom.

People who know my face look at me and whisper.

Some of them pointed their fingers and covered their mouths and felt like they were laughing.

It is a delusion of damage.

No one is watching me.

Someone will look at me.

Who cares about me?

I entered the classroom.

Many eyes were fixed on me.

I feel dizzy.

To the point of nausea.