Chapter 7: "Moments of Doubt"
The days that followed felt like a delicate balancing act for Ethan. Luna's words had given him a sense of comfort, but the fears and doubts that clung to him for years didn't just vanish overnight.
He tried to step out of his comfort zone a little more. A walk through the park here, a stop at the corner cafΓ© there. Each time, Luna was by his side, her encouragement like a steady drumbeat against his uncertainty. Yet every interaction with the world brought with it a weightβan old, familiar voice in his head whispering that he wasn't enough.
It started small at first.
"πππ'ππ πππππ," Luna said one afternoon as they walked by the river.
Ethan shrugged, kicking a stone into the water. "ππ¦π€π₯ π₯ππ£ππ."
Luna tilted her head, her gaze searching.
"πππππ, ππ ππππππππππππ?"
Ethan sighed. She had a knack for cutting through his excuses. "ππ§ππ£π₯πππππππ," he admitted.
They sat on the grass near the riverbank, the sound of rushing water filling the silence. Ethan pulled out his sketchbook, hoping to lose himself in the familiar rhythm of his pencil on paper. But his hand felt heavy, his lines hesitant.
"ππππ₯ ππ π₯πππ€ ππ ππ€π'π₯ π¨π π£π?" he asked finally, his voice barely audible.
Luna sat beside him, her expression soft.
"ππππ ππ π’ππ ππππ?"
"ππππ€," Ethan said, gesturing vaguely.
"ππ£πͺπππ π₯π ... ππ ππππππ£πππ₯. πΉπ πππ₯π₯ππ£. ππππ₯ ππ π'π ππ¦π€π₯ π¨ππ€π₯πππ ππͺ π₯πππ?"
Luna's smile was gentle but unwavering.
"πππ'ππ πππ π ππππππ π’πππ ππππ, π΄ππππ. π΄πππ πππ πππ ππ πππ’πππ ππ π ππππ πππππππππ."
Ethan frowned, frustration bubbling beneath the surface. "ππ π¦ π€ππͺ π₯πππ₯, ππ¦π₯ π¨πππ₯ ππ π ππππ? ππππ₯ ππ π π‘π¦π₯ ππͺπ€πππ π π¦π₯ π₯πππ£π πππ ππ π₯ππππ πππππππ€?"
Luna's gaze didn't waver. "ππππ π’ππ'ππ πππ’ πππππ. π°ππ πππππ. ππππ'π πππ ππππ ππ π ππππ."
Her words should have reassured him, but instead, they unsettled him. He felt the familiar sting of doubt creeping in, the fear that maybe he was chasing something unattainable.
That evening, as Ethan sat in his room, Luna seemed quieter than usual. She sat on the bed, flipping through one of his sketchbooks with a faraway look in her eyes.
"π.. ππ π¦'π£π π½πππππ!," Ethan said abruptly, his voice tinged with panic.
Luna looked up, startled. "ππππ?"
"ππ π¦'π£π ππ π₯ ππ€... π€π πππ ππ€ ππππ π£π," Ethan said, his gaze fixed on her. "ππ₯'π€ ππππ... πͺπ π¦'π£π πππ€ππ‘π‘πππ£πππ."
Luna glanced at her hands, her expression unreadable. "πΈ'π πππππ ππππ," she said softly.
"πΉππ£πππͺ," Ethan muttered.
Luna set the sketchbook aside and moved closer to him. "π΄ππππ, πΈ'π πππ ππππππππππππ," she said gently. "π±ππ πΈ πππππ π’ππ'ππ ππππππππ ππ ππππ’ ππ π’πππππππ ππππ ππππ π’ππ ππππππ£π."
Ethan's chest tightened. "βπ ," he said, shaking his head. "ππ π¦'π£π π¨π£π ππ. π π€π₯πππ ππππ πͺπ π¦. ππ π¦'π£π π₯ππ π πππͺ π ππ π¨ππ π¦ππππ£π€π₯ππππ€."
Luna's gaze softened, her smile tinged with sadness. "πΈ'π π ππππ ππ π’ππ, π΄ππππ. π΄ππππ’πππππ π’ππ πππ ππ ππβππ'π πππππππ’ ππππππ π’ππ. πππ ππππ ππππ ππ πππππππ ππ."
Her words felt like a weight pressing on his chest. He wanted to believe her, but the thought of losing her, of facing the world alone again, was unbearable.
"π»π π'π₯ ππ !!," he said, his voice trembling.
Luna reached out, her hand warm against his cheek. "πΈ'ππ πππππ πππππ’ πππππ π’ππ," she said. "π±ππ π’ππ ππππ ππ πππππ ππππππππ ππ π’πππ ππ π. ππππ'π πππ ππππ’ π ππ’ π’ππ'ππ ππππ ."
Ethan swallowed hard, his throat tight. "π ππ π'π₯ πππ π¨ ππ π πππ ππ π₯πππ₯."
"πππ πππ," Luna said firmly. "π°ππ π’ππ π πππ. πππ'ππ πππππππ’ πππππ πππ πππππ πππππ." Ethan closed his eyes, his mind swirling with emotions he couldn't name. Fear, doubt, and a flicker of hope all battled for dominance.
When he opened his eyes, Luna was still there, her presence as steady as ever. But he couldn't shake the feeling that her time with him was running out.
That night, Ethan lay awake in bed, staring at the ceiling. Luna's words echoed in his mind, a mix of comfort and challenge. He wanted to believe in himself, to take the steps she believed he could. But the path ahead felt uncertain, and he wasn't sure if he was ready to walk it alone.
As he drifted off to sleep, he felt a strange sense of calm wash over him, as though Luna's presence lingered even in his dreams.
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To Be Continued...