Artistic Lover

Chapter 7: "Moments of Doubt"



The days that followed felt like a delicate balancing act for Ethan. Luna's words had given him a sense of comfort, but the fears and doubts that clung to him for years didn't just vanish overnight.

He tried to step out of his comfort zone a little more. A walk through the park here, a stop at the corner cafΓ© there. Each time, Luna was by his side, her encouragement like a steady drumbeat against his uncertainty. Yet every interaction with the world brought with it a weightβ€”an old, familiar voice in his head whispering that he wasn't enough.

It started small at first.

"𝚈𝚘𝚞'πš›πšŽ πššπšžπš’πšŽπš," Luna said one afternoon as they walked by the river.

Ethan shrugged, kicking a stone into the water. "𝕁𝕦𝕀π•₯ π•₯π•šπ•£π•–π••."

Luna tilted her head, her gaze searching.

"πšƒπš’πš›πšŽπš, πš˜πš› πš˜πšŸπšŽπš›πšπš‘πš’πš—πš”πš’πš—πš?"

Ethan sighed. She had a knack for cutting through his excuses. "𝕆𝕧𝕖𝕣π•₯π•™π•šπ•Ÿπ•œπ•šπ•Ÿπ•˜," he admitted.

They sat on the grass near the riverbank, the sound of rushing water filling the silence. Ethan pulled out his sketchbook, hoping to lose himself in the familiar rhythm of his pencil on paper. But his hand felt heavy, his lines hesitant.

"π•Žπ•™π•’π•₯ π•šπ•— π•₯π•™π•šπ•€ π••π• π•–π•€π•Ÿ'π•₯ π•¨π• π•£π•œ?" he asked finally, his voice barely audible.

Luna sat beside him, her expression soft.

"πš†πš‘πšŠπš 𝚍𝚘 𝚒𝚘𝚞 πš–πšŽπšŠπš—?"

"π•‹π•™π•šπ•€," Ethan said, gesturing vaguely.

"𝕋𝕣π•ͺπ•šπ•Ÿπ•˜ π•₯𝕠... 𝕓𝕖 π••π•šπ•—π•—π•–π•£π•–π•Ÿπ•₯. 𝔹𝕖 𝕓𝕖π•₯π•₯𝕖𝕣. π•Žπ•™π•’π•₯ π•šπ•— 𝕀'π•ž 𝕛𝕦𝕀π•₯ 𝕨𝕒𝕀π•₯π•šπ•Ÿπ•˜ π•žπ•ͺ π•₯π•šπ•žπ•–?"

Luna's smile was gentle but unwavering.

"𝚈𝚘𝚞'πš›πšŽ πš—πš˜πš πš πšŠπšœπšπš’πš—πš πš’πš˜πšžπš› πšπš’πš–πšŽ, π™΄πšπš‘πšŠπš—. π™΄πšŸπšŽπš— πšπš‘πšŽ 𝚊𝚌𝚝 𝚘𝚏 πšπš›πš’πš’πš—πš πš’πšœ πš πš˜πš›πšπš‘ πšœπš˜πš–πšŽπšπš‘πš’πš—πš."

Ethan frowned, frustration bubbling beneath the surface. "𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕀𝕒π•ͺ π•₯𝕙𝕒π•₯, 𝕓𝕦π•₯ 𝕨𝕙𝕒π•₯ π•šπ•— 𝕀 π•—π•’π•šπ•? π•Žπ•™π•’π•₯ π•šπ•— 𝕀 𝕑𝕦π•₯ π•žπ•ͺ𝕀𝕖𝕝𝕗 𝕠𝕦π•₯ π•₯𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 π•’π•Ÿπ•• π•Ÿπ• π•₯π•™π•šπ•Ÿπ•˜ π•”π•™π•’π•Ÿπ•˜π•–π•€?"

Luna's gaze didn't waver. "πšƒπš‘πšŽπš— 𝚒𝚘𝚞'πš•πš• πšπš›πš’ πšŠπšπšŠπš’πš—. π™°πš—πš πšŠπšπšŠπš’πš—. πšƒπš‘πšŠπš'𝚜 πš‘πš˜πš  πšπš›πš˜πš πšπš‘ πš πš˜πš›πš”πšœ."

Her words should have reassured him, but instead, they unsettled him. He felt the familiar sting of doubt creeping in, the fear that maybe he was chasing something unattainable.

That evening, as Ethan sat in his room, Luna seemed quieter than usual. She sat on the bed, flipping through one of his sketchbooks with a faraway look in her eyes.

"𝕐.. 𝕐𝕠𝕦'𝕣𝕖 π”½π•’π••π•šπ•Ÿπ•˜!," Ethan said abruptly, his voice tinged with panic.

Luna looked up, startled. "πš†πš‘πšŠπš?"

"𝕐𝕠𝕦'𝕣𝕖 π•Ÿπ• π•₯ 𝕒𝕀... π•€π• π•π•šπ•• 𝕒𝕀 𝕓𝕖𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕖," Ethan said, his gaze fixed on her. "𝕀π•₯'𝕀 π•π•šπ•œπ•–... π•ͺ𝕠𝕦'𝕣𝕖 π••π•šπ•€π•’π•‘π•‘π•–π•’π•£π•šπ•Ÿπ•˜."

Luna glanced at her hands, her expression unreadable. "𝙸'πš– πšœπšπš’πš•πš• πš‘πšŽπš›πšŽ," she said softly.

"𝔹𝕒𝕣𝕖𝕝π•ͺ," Ethan muttered.

Luna set the sketchbook aside and moved closer to him. "π™΄πšπš‘πšŠπš—, 𝙸'πš– πš—πš˜πš πšπš’πšœπšŠπš™πš™πšŽπšŠπš›πš’πš—πš," she said gently. "π™±πšžπš 𝙸 πšπš‘πš’πš—πš” 𝚒𝚘𝚞'πš›πšŽ πšœπšπšŠπš›πšπš’πš—πš 𝚝𝚘 πš›πšŽπš•πš’ πš˜πš— πš’πš˜πšžπš›πšœπšŽπš•πš πš–πš˜πš›πšŽ πšπš‘πšŠπš— 𝚒𝚘𝚞 πš›πšŽπšŠπš•πš’πš£πšŽ."

Ethan's chest tightened. "ℕ𝕠," he said, shaking his head. "𝕐𝕠𝕦'𝕣𝕖 π•¨π•£π• π•Ÿπ•˜. 𝕀 𝕀π•₯π•šπ•π• π•Ÿπ•–π•–π•• π•ͺ𝕠𝕦. 𝕐𝕠𝕦'𝕣𝕖 π•₯𝕙𝕖 π• π•Ÿπ•π•ͺ π• π•Ÿπ•– 𝕨𝕙𝕠 π•¦π•Ÿπ••π•–π•£π•€π•₯π•’π•Ÿπ••π•€."

Luna's gaze softened, her smile tinged with sadness. "𝙸'πš– 𝚊 πš™πšŠπš›πš 𝚘𝚏 𝚒𝚘𝚞, π™΄πšπš‘πšŠπš—. π™΄πšŸπšŽπš›πš’πšπš‘πš’πš—πš 𝚒𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚎𝚎 πš’πš— πš–πšŽβ€”πš’πš'𝚜 πšŠπš•πš›πšŽπšŠπšπš’ πš’πš—πšœπš’πšπšŽ 𝚒𝚘𝚞. 𝚈𝚘𝚞 πš“πšžπšœπš πš‘πšŠπšŸπšŽ 𝚝𝚘 πš‹πšŽπš•πš’πšŽπšŸπšŽ πš’πš."

Her words felt like a weight pressing on his chest. He wanted to believe her, but the thought of losing her, of facing the world alone again, was unbearable.

"π”»π• π•Ÿ'π•₯ π•˜π• !!," he said, his voice trembling.

Luna reached out, her hand warm against his cheek. "𝙸'πš•πš• πš—πšŽπšŸπšŽπš› πšπš›πšžπš•πš’ πš•πšŽπšŠπšŸπšŽ 𝚒𝚘𝚞," she said. "π™±πšžπš 𝚒𝚘𝚞 πš‘πšŠπšŸπšŽ 𝚝𝚘 πšœπšπšŠπš›πš πšœπšπšŠπš—πšπš’πš—πš πš˜πš— πš’πš˜πšžπš› πš˜πš πš—. πšƒπš‘πšŠπš'𝚜 πšπš‘πšŽ πš˜πš—πš•πš’ 𝚠𝚊𝚒 𝚒𝚘𝚞'πš•πš• πšπš›πš˜πš ."

Ethan swallowed hard, his throat tight. "𝕀 π••π• π•Ÿ'π•₯ π•œπ•Ÿπ• π•¨ π•šπ•— 𝕀 π•”π•’π•Ÿ 𝕕𝕠 π•₯𝕙𝕒π•₯."

"𝚈𝚘𝚞 πšŒπšŠπš—," Luna said firmly. "π™°πš—πš 𝚒𝚘𝚞 πš πš’πš•πš•. 𝚈𝚘𝚞'𝚟𝚎 πšŠπš•πš›πšŽπšŠπšπš’ πšπšŠπš”πšŽπš— πšπš‘πšŽ πšπš’πš›πšœπš πšœπšπšŽπš™πšœ." Ethan closed his eyes, his mind swirling with emotions he couldn't name. Fear, doubt, and a flicker of hope all battled for dominance.

When he opened his eyes, Luna was still there, her presence as steady as ever. But he couldn't shake the feeling that her time with him was running out.

That night, Ethan lay awake in bed, staring at the ceiling. Luna's words echoed in his mind, a mix of comfort and challenge. He wanted to believe in himself, to take the steps she believed he could. But the path ahead felt uncertain, and he wasn't sure if he was ready to walk it alone.

As he drifted off to sleep, he felt a strange sense of calm wash over him, as though Luna's presence lingered even in his dreams.

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To Be Continued...


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