After Reborn, I Became the Bigshots' Beloved

"What did you say...?"

Upon hearing Wu Mian's words, Lu Sheng was taken aback.

The massacre back then wasn't caused by her, but by her father?

How is that possible?

The memory vividly surfaced before her eyes.

It was she who used Divine Power to create a world-ending catastrophe, earthquakes, floods, fires, ice attacks, all wiping out countless lives in a single night.

It was she who lifted her hand and effortlessly crushed the skulls of weak humans who pleaded in fear, regarding them coldly like ants.

She roamed the streets of the Human Realm under the midnight moonlight, with her gaze rendering all those humans immobile.

Then she would go forth, reaching into their chest cavities, digging out their hearts alive and holding them in her hand.

Lowering her head, she seemed to still see her hands covered in fresh blood. Those beating hearts seemed to still rest upon her palms, pulsing, accusing her of past sins.

Not the ones she killed, not her doing all this, how is that possible?

And their father.

He was the only Divine Lord of the Six Realms.

He was the symbol of light and pure goodness of the world, who endowed everything with the purest essence, and full of mercy and tolerance towards all filth and ugliness.

Massacre... anyone could,

But their father alone, absolutely could not do such a thing.

"Enough, Wu Mian!"

Li Zhi's voice rebuked.

Lu Sheng turned to see Li Zhi's chest slightly heaving, with a look of restrained expression on his face.

Knowing him for so long, this was the first time Lu Sheng heard Li Zhi speak loudly with emotion. In the past, he was always the calmest, never being harsh to any of them for thousands of years.

Wu Mian hesitated for a moment under Li Zhi's rebuke. He clenched his fist then released it, regaining composure.

"…Don't know the truth, will Ah Yin always be fine that way?"

Wu Mian's starry sky-like blue eyes looked at Li Zhi, carrying a trace of sadness, "No one knows better than us how kind-hearted Ah Yin truly is."

"If we don't tell her, then from now until the day she completely dies, she will bear the pain brought by such guilt."

Lu Sheng truly felt somewhat confused, and also looked at Li Zhi: "What is going on?"

Wu Mian didn't speak, just looked at Li Zhi with a stubborn gaze.

Under their gaze, Li Zhi's eyes trembled slightly.

Finally, he closed his eyes for a moment then opened them again, his voice sounding somewhat weary: "...Alright, I will tell her."

Perhaps sensing that she was about to embrace some colossal truth, Lu Sheng involuntarily took a step back.

Then met Li Zhi's gaze.

Li Zhi took a deep breath and posed a question Lu Sheng had never considered.

"Ah Yin, since you've regained your memory, do you still remember, what were you thinking when you were committing those massacres?"

What was I thinking when committing those massacres?

Lu Sheng attempted to find an answer from her memories, but the more she recalled, the more her brows furrowed.

"I... don't know."

Lu Sheng's eyes seemed a bit bewildered, "I don't think I thought about anything. Doing all that seemed just driven by my instinct."

"Creating disasters, massacring life. It was as if seeing those weak lives before me filled with fear and humbled pleas brought a sense of pleasure within me."

Lu Sheng's eyes trembled, her tone somewhat painful, "I don't know why I became like that at the time. Clearly, in the past..."

Clearly, in the past, when she was a child, she couldn't even kill an ant.

When Wu Mian's rabbit died, Wu Mian didn't cry, yet she would cry sadly. Feeling sorrow for the loss of a life.

Li Zhi's golden eyes full of compassion looked at her, showing heartache: "…Brother will tell you why you didn't think of anything."

"All along, the Six Realms revered us as divine children. Because we were personally conceived by the Divine Lord, inheriting his power, conveying the Divine Oracle on his behalf."

"What we were told was that when father initially became the Divine Lord, he separated the Divine Sense of seven original sins with deep-rooted nature within him. After purifying these Divine Senses, we were born."

"These seven original sins in the deep-rooted nature, from light to severe, are Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth, Anger, Jealousy, and Pride."

"We are the children born from these original sins. So, Ah Yin, you feel that committing those massacres was driven by your instinct."

"It seemed you didn't control your instinct well, giving birth to unallowed desires. All the blame was on you."

"But actually, it wasn't,"

Li Zhi's eyes flickered with complex emotions, "…We weren't born from father's purified original sins; we were conceived from his separated desires."

"…Conceived from separated desires?" Lu Sheng repeated.

Li Zhi took a deep breath: "In other words, the seven of us are the embodiments of father's own desires."

Upon hearing this, Lu Sheng stiffened.

Even Yu Si, hearing this truth for the first time, seemed struck by lightning, looking at Li Zhi incredulously: "What does this mean?"

"These so-called sins labeled as original sins are essentially prompted by desires," Li Zhi said.

"Lust is the desire for sex, Gluttony is the desire for food, Greed is the desire for possession, Sloth is the desire to escape, Anger is the desire to vent, Jealousy is the desire to compare, and Pride is the desire for supreme status."

"Humans are humans because it's challenging for anyone to completely escape these seven desires. Those who can't escape base desires cannot become higher beings."

"So when father became the Divine Lord, he separated these seven desires from himself. Without these seven desires, he naturally became a desire-less, loving God to the world."

"As embodiments of his desires, we developed self-awareness over time. But even with self-awareness, we remain united with father's desires."

"When father had a particular desire, when his particular desire grew, we too underwent changes."

"So, from beginning to end, what we were fighting against as so-called instincts were merely our father's desires."

"As the Divine Lord, he's already the highest existence in the world. Father's desires for sex, for food, for possession, for escape, for venting, and for comparison are quite small."

"So, except for Ah Yin, the six of us mostly acted on our own. I remained calm acting on my own, Tan Yuan fell in love with you and descended acting on his own."

"But, Ah Yin, you're different."

"To our father, there was only one desire which didn't fade away with him becoming the Divine Lord. Instead, with the passage of time, this desire has grown ever more rampant."

"That is, the desire to eternally remain the supreme existence."

Li Zhi spoke word by word.

"Father was chosen by the Creator God to become the Divine Lord. Yet as time went by, he began to fear whether someone else within the Six Realms might be chosen by the Creator God to take his place."

"To eternally remain the supreme Divine Lord of the Six Realms, he would allow no beings within the Six Realms to threaten his position. Therefore, he wanted to slaughter, kill all threats."

"Ah Yin, you might not know, but those you massacred back then, were all beings with pure and kind souls from the Six Realms. To father, they were all his potential enemies."

"His thirst for supreme power and strength blinded his eyes. His desire grew excessively, completely controlling you, depriving your true self-awareness."

"You became a tool for father to use and slaughter. That's why when you initiated the massacres, you didn't think of anything, because the one wanting to kill wasn't really you."