NOVEL WEB Chapter 57
A person’s breakdown often happens in an instant.
At this moment, Qingning was happy because the reappearance of Jiang Chen made her feel her heartbeat once again.
But when she realized.
The events of this life, though slightly different from the last, still led to the same outcome.
She collapsed when she realized that this was not an illusion, nor was it someone punishing her, but the genuine memories of Jiang Chen.
The smile on Jiang Chen’s face in the picture, though still warm, only made her feel a strong sense of sin.
She hated herself, hated everyone!
Perhaps all of this was influenced by the heavens, but they were the true accomplices, the ones who kept stabbing Jiang Chen in the heart!
Over and over again. One life after another. Until he was bloody and full of holes.
In every life, Jiang Chen was smiling.But Qingning could see the light gradually fading from his eyes.
In every life, Jiang Chen was trying hard, but Qingning could see the dimming expression on his face when faced with misunderstandings and cold stares.
She could only watch all of this helplessly.
Even if her tears dried up and her heart ached as if her soul was being torn apart, she could only watch!
Life after life, watching Jiang Chen being misunderstood by everyone.
Life after life, watching Jiang Chen die at the hands of Lin Feng.
Life after life, watching the little wooden sword gradually consumed by the pill fire…
【Eighth Life】
The outcome was the same. Qingning stood beside Jiang Chen, motionless.
At this moment, she was like a puppet, her large eyes as empty as the abyss, intimidating to those who looked upon them.
This life was somewhat different.
Thunder roared in the clouds at the moment of Jiang Chen’s death, and torrential spiritual rain poured down.
The spiritual rain did not extinguish the alchemical fire burning Jiang Chen’s remains.
Instead, it intensified the flames, growing fiercer and fiercer until the fire lit up the sky, turning the area red for li.
Beneath the firelight…
The rain, like blood.
The wind, like a roar.
The thunder, like a threat.
It seems that even the heavens are afraid.
That’s why they’re putting on such a grand display, trying their utmost to showcase their divine might.
The spiritual rain continues, showing no signs of stopping.
Qingning looks up to the sky, letting the rain beat against her face, then slide down her cheeks and finally drip onto the ground.
At this moment, she can no longer feel the cold.
The only proof that she’s still alive is the pain that penetrates deep into her bones and the guilt that could drive one mad.
“Eldest Senior Brother, Qingning is in so much pain…”
Of course, there is no response.
Because once again, Jiang Chen left this world and left her all alone.
Suddenly, her heart feels even more pain.
Like a moth to a flame, her thoughts drift back to the village where she used to live with her grandmother.
A conversation surfaces in her mind.
“Qingning, you must always have a heart that aspires to be good. No matter how filthy this world is, you must keep that innocence in your heart.”
“Why?”
“Because only then can you live happily! And when you meet the most important person in your life, he will be happy too.”
“Qingning remembers!”
Once, Qingning believed this to be true.
Because as long as she kept smiling, the people around her would smile too.
Once, no matter what she faced, her grandmother’s words were like the last light, illuminating her world.
“Grandma, you were wrong,” Qingning murmured.
At this moment, she is not happy.
Eldest Senior Brother is not happy either.
A heart that aspires to be good?
What’s the use of being good if it’s not up to her to decide what’s good or evil but up to the heavens?
“What’s the use of this goodness?!” Qingning screams.
By the time she speaks these words, she has gone from collapsing to madness, with a fury in her eyes that seems ready to surge out and devour the world!
At this very moment, she extinguishes the last light in her heart.
Now, her world is devoid of any light.
She has gone mad.
Completely insane, unlike Jiang Lianyue and Lin Mubai, she has lost all reason.
The scene shifts again to the ninth life.
Apart from Jiang Chen, with the appearance of each person, she lunges at them, wanting to tear them apart alive!
Although her efforts are futile, she keeps relentlessly trying.
She wants to kill everyone except Jiang Chen.
Including herself.
“Qingning! Stop messing around!”
Suddenly, a scolding voice rang out.
Qingning’s body stiffened after hearing this.
A glimmer of clarity returned to her eyes as she looked at the image before her.
In the image, a young Qingning was hitting and kicking a disciple from Ninth Peak, crying pitifully as she did so.
“Eldest Senior Brother, he spoke ill of you! He said you don’t care about Qingning at all, that you don’t like Qingning!” the young Qingning was very angry.
Upon seeing Jiang Chen, the Ninth Peak disciple panicked and ran away.
Jiang Chen did not stop him.
Instead, he squatted down, took young Qingning’s small hand, and said, “Eldest Senior Brother is used to it.”
Young Qingning didn’t understand the meaning of his words and simply asked, “Does Eldest Senior Brother like Qingning?”
“Of course I do.”
Jiang Chen said with a warm smile. “Especially Qingning at this age. Whenever I see you smile, I feel happy.”
“Eldest Senior Brother likes it when Qingning smiles?”
“Mhm, very much so!”
“Then, Qingning will smile more for you from now on! But Eldest Senior Brother, what do you mean by ‘at this age’?”
Jiang Chen did not respond, but his expression turned dark.
“Eldest Senior Brother, why aren’t you speaking?” young Qingning pressed.
“It’s nothing.”
Holding her in his arms, Jiang Chen whispered, “Qingning, there was a time when Eldest Senior Brother hoped you would grow up quickly. But now, I wish you would never grow up and always remain innocent and pure.”
“…Qingning doesn’t understand.”
“You don’t need to understand.”
…….
【Tenth Life】
……
The tenth life came to an abrupt end.
On the bumpy back of the White Tiger, Qingning slowly opened her eyes.
After listening to the conversation between her younger self and Jiang Chen, she had been lost in thought, and before she knew it, she had returned to reality.
She touched the corner of her eye. It seemed she had cried again.
Even though her tears had long since dried up, they still flowed uncontrollably…
Even though she had decided to be strong after feeling the malice of this world, she was now so vulnerable again.
Recalling that conversation, Qingning felt a twinge in her nose.
Her younger self didn’t understand, but she did now.
In her ninth life, her Eldest Senior Brother was almost at his limit.
Because he couldn’t hold on, he wished she would never grow up. Because he couldn’t hold on, he sought healing for his battered soul through her smile.
Suddenly, Qingning smiled again.
Her eyes curved like crescent moons, innocent and whimsical.
“Qingning, are you okay? Did you have another nightmare? Why are you crying and laughing at the same time?” White Tiger turned its large head, completely confused.
Qingning shook her head, her response seemingly out of context, “Xiaobai, do you know? Eldest Senior Brother likes me, and he likes to see me smile.”
“…”
Xiaobai looked bewildered, its large tiger eyes filled with confusion.
Eldest Senior Brother?
Could it be that person named Jiang Chen who, according to Qingning, was utterly despicable?
I don’t get it!
Just half an hour ago, it heard Qingning recount all of Jiang Chen’s misdeeds, but how come after just one sleep, when Qingning mentions Jiang Chen again, she sounds like she’s talking about her lover?
Are women always so fickle?
Looking at Qingning. It seems that she had no intention of explaining. She just continued to smile.
Ninth life.
She had once fallen into darkness due to guilt and heartache.
She had once extinguished the last lamp in her heart because of the injustice of this world.
She had once chosen to let madness consume her reason, unable to bear the piercing pain.
But in the end, her Eldest Senior Brother…
That Eldest Senior Brother, who had been tormented through nine lifetimes and could no longer bear the burden.
With his own hands, he lit her light in her heart again.
Jumping down from the tiger’s back, Qingning turned her back to White Tiger and stretched her limbs.
Her movements were still as cute and playful. But the next second,
“Xiaobai, burying someone alive should be quite interesting, right?” Qingning turned her head with her smile still present.
Xiaobai was confused again!
Something was off!
It felt that something was wrong with the girl in front of it!
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