Chapter 108
Xiao Hongyi quickly realized that although this was his second life, Jiang Chen didn’t seem to have any intention of giving up.
From the still shining light in Jiang Chen’s eyes, she even had the feeling that this second life might not be the last.
As she expected, the plot of the second life continued to develop in the same direction.
Compared to the first life, Jiang Chen’s resistance was more intense and he exerted all his efforts.
However, the stronger his resistance, the stronger the suppression he faced.
He tried to avoid the various misunderstandings and coincidences from the first life, but many plot points were inevitable.
Even if he successfully avoided some minor misunderstandings, new coincidences and misdeeds would emerge.
He even wanted to reveal the truth of this world, but as soon as the words reached his lips, it was as if he had violated some taboo and instantly lost the ability to speak.
In this life, he was still stripped of his Core Formation and expelled from the sect.
Once again, he recuperated in the Red Jade Pavilion, and ultimately, he died under Lin Feng’s blade just the same.【Third Life】
【Fourth Life】
【Fifth Life】
【Sixth…】
……
【Eighth Life】
The same ending was replayed over and over again.
In this life, the light in Jiang Chen’s eyes had begun to dim, and his smile became extremely forced.
At the same time, he became more impatient.
He no longer hoped to change the views of those around him in this life but planned to use the power of the Jiang family to kill Lin Feng before he could join the Jiuyan Sect.
But the moment Lin Feng was about to die, the Imperial Dynasty arrived.
His goal was not achieved and only hastened the destruction of the Jiang family.
It was also from this life that it seemed as if the heavens had lost their composure.
Whenever Jiang Chen made a grave mistake and was punished, there would always be a sudden downpour and lightning filling the sky. And at the moment of his death, the spiritual rain against the backdrop of flames was like a rain of blood.
It was as if the heavens were roaring. As if they were going mad.
As if they were puzzled, questioning:
“You ant, why do you try to defy your fate?”
When Jiang Chen met his end, Xiao Hongyi still stood where Jiang Chen had died, her body just a shell.
In these lives, she begged over and over again, begging Jiang Chen to give up, begging him to become a bad person.
But even if her heart was riddled with holes, even if she fell into the same abyss in every life, Jiang Chen still did not give up.
In these lives, she was still always on the path searching for Jiang Chen but no longer encountered the ‘lifesaving’ hallucinations.
It was lonelier and more torturous.
She could feel the pain, guilt, self-blame, and the deep longing more clearly.
At the end of each life, her heart would be completely devoured by the phoenix blood, and the world would turn black and white.
But at the beginning of each life, her world would regain its color as soon as she saw Jiang Chen.
Over and over again, with no end in sight.
Xiao Hongyi herself could no longer remember how many times she had collapsed nor how many times her heart had become numb from the pain.
But she was very clear. Compared to the pain Jiang Chen suffered, hers was insignificant.
“This world should be destroyed.”
At the end of the eighth life, Xiao Hongyi stood by Jiang Chen’s tombstone while murmuring expressionlessly.
At this moment, she should have been completely devoured by the phoenix blood and should have lost the ability to speak, but she still spoke without any pause.
【Ninth Life】
It was still the same perilous peak in front of the Red Jade Pavilion.
Still, her young disciple was fishing with the red-clothed woman standing behind him.
That boy in white was still the only color in Xiao Hongyi’s eyes.
Instinctively, she came to Jiang Chen’s side as if seeking the only warmth in a cold winter.
But this time, her world did not regain its color with the appearance of Jiang Chen.
Because the boy in white in beside her was now silent.
That clean smile had almost completely faded, leaving only weariness and helplessness.
“Jiang Chen, what troubles you?” the woman behind the boy asked.
The boy remained silent.
“If you encounter difficulties, feel free to speak up,” the woman said again.
“…Master,” the boy finally called out.
“Hmm?”
“Am I not following the right path and not doing good deeds? I feel like I can’t hold on much longer, and I want to… resign myself to fate.”
The boy bowed his head as he said this.
His tone was unwilling and bitter.
His body trembled and his jaws clenched tightly.
His black eyes were filled tears.
The boy tried to control himself, but couldn’t.
Finally, tears streamed down his face, the grievances, helplessness, and bitterness of several lifetimes all poured out at this moment.
Seeing this, Xiao Hongyi also burst into tears.
She wanted to hold Jiang Chen tightly, but she couldn’t.
She wanted to wipe the tears from Jiang Chen’s cheeks, but still, she couldn’t.
She could only crouch beside Jiang Chen, crying her heart out while repeatedly saying:
“Disciple, it’s your master’s fault.”
“I shouldn’t have made you be good. I shouldn’t have made you walk the righteous path.”
“You don’t have to hold on anymore, you can resign yourself to fate, you can be a bad person.”
“Whether you are good or bad, whether you follow or defy heaven, whether you are righteous or fall into evil, you are still my disciple, Xiao Hongyi’s disciple. Our hearts as master and disciple are united as one, never to part…”
Although heartbroken, she was also somewhat happy.
Because if Jiang Chen truly gave up, then he would no longer suffer so much.
If all this was the price of being good, then she would rather her disciple be a bad person forever.
But the woman behind stepped forward, hugged the crying Jiang Chen, and said with a pained expression: “Jiang Chen, you must not lose your heart to do good. No one is born a bad person. Just hold on a little longer, your master believes you can definitely reform.”
Upon hearing this, the boy fell silent again.
Xiao Hongyi’s beautiful eyes widened, fury raging within them!
She lunged at her own reflection in the image, her expression ferocious as if she were about to devour someone.
She was utterly mad, continuously screaming at herself:
“Xiao Hongyi, you are unworthy of being his Master, unworthy of being human!”
“Why, why are you so obsessed with righteousness? Just because it’s Grandfather’s teaching, the guidance of the Old Ancestor?”
“Let Grandfather pursue righteousness on his own! If the Old Ancestor wants to walk the righteous path, let him crawl out of his coffin and walk it himself!”
“Do you not have a brain of your own, not even a single thought of your own?”
“Open your eyes and see, what has become of the disciple in your arms?!”
“Why, why are you so foolish!”
“Why, why am I so foolish…”
Her voice grew lower and lower, and after a burst of hoarse shouting, Xiao Hongyi collapsed to the ground, burying her head and weeping bitterly.
She had grown up on this perilous peak since childhood.
Her grandfather often visited, telling her that only by being good could she be loved and not end up alone.
The Old Ancestor frequently communicated with her telepathically, boasting about how he cleared away evil demons and defeated invaders from other worlds to protect the countless beings of this world.
“Hongyi, the Xiao family is a major righteous clan, the Jiuyan Sect is a major righteous sect, and I, your Old Ancestor, am even a paragon of righteousness! When you grow up, you must not bring shame upon me, your Old Ancestor.”
His words were still vivid in her memory.
Once, Xiao Hongyi had used this phrase to motivate herself.
But now, she looked up to the sky and roared while cursing directly: “Old Ancestor! Why don’t you just die?! You call yourself a paragon of righteousness? A paragon who hides in a coffin waiting to die?!!”
“???”
As these words were spoken, the sky seemed to be filled with question marks.
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