Chapter 85
Shi Yunnan looked into Luo Lingsheng’s eyes and slowly confirmed the truth of his words.
With the drunkenness rising from the faint, he finally couldn’t help hugging Luo Lingsheng back for one second, two seconds, three seconds…until Luo Lingsheng felt a warm dampness on the side of his neck and shoulders.
“Yunnan?”
“I thought…” whispered into the dust, mixed with a sense of grievance, “even you don’t want me anymore.”
Luo Lingsheng’s heart was severely pierced by these words, and he wanted to lock his lover in his arms forever, “How could I not want you?”
Shi Yunnan felt the strength of Luo Lingsheng’s embrace, and he couldn’t stop crying, “Then why didn’t you tell me before, before?”
“I just don’t want to explain this casually, and I don’t want to kidnap your emotions with the secret love and intentions of these years…”
Luo Lingsheng’s palm caressed the back of Shi Yunnan’s neck, with patience, doting, and self-blame in his tone.
“I didn’t think my legs would be perfect before. Even if I knew you didn’t care, I still couldn’t let it go. Yunnan, I don’t want to be a burden on you.”
“Later, when I finally saw the turning point, I thought to wait… wait…”
“I want to stand in front of you with a healthy posture, protect you in times of danger, and hold your hand for the rest of my life.” Luo Lingsheng kissed Shi Yunan’s hair, “You have to believe me.”
Knowing that Shi Yunnan accidentally broke into the study and saw the items would cause such misunderstanding and despair, Luo Lingsheng could not wait to let the time go back, rushing to speak out when they expressed their feelings to each other.
Shi Yunnan replied dully, telling the truth, “…I almost wanted to pack up and run away.”
If the ‘Bai Yueguang’ that Luo Lingsheng was thinking of was really Wen Yibei, then Shi Yunnan didn’t have the confidence to win the other side. Rather than wait until the final truth was revealed, it would be better to walk away before the self-esteem was completely broken and the inferiority complex broke out.
But he was reluctant.
Can’t bear Luo Lingsheng, can’t bear the little goldfish, can’t bear this family.
Shi Yunnan didn’t realize until the decision was in front of him that his dependence had already taken root over time, and there was no possibility of him getting out.
“Escape to where?”
Luo Lingsheng asked rhetorically, and while he was afraid, he was extremely glad that everything was still in time. He stepped back slightly, allowing Shi Yunnan in his arms to easily meet his gaze.
The tip of their nose seemed to rub lightly, and Luo Lingsheng’s tone was soft but firm.
“Shi Yunnan, listen, when we first got together, I gave you three chances to go back and leave. You didn’t choose.”
“Since you insisted on not leaving when my legs were bad, it is even more impossible for me to let you go now and in the future.”
“Wen Yibei may be excellent in the eyes of others, but in my eyes, you are the one and only, and no one can replace you.”
unique?
Can no one replace you?
Shi Yunnan’s mind was completely occupied by these words, and he finally lowered his eyes and shed tears in desperation——
From beginning to end, he just wanted to be firmly chosen, that’s all.
Luo Lingsheng rubbed his fingertips against his tearful eyes, and continued to coax and comfort him, “Don’t cry, you’ve drank so much and haven’t eaten, do you feel sick to your stomach?”
Shi Yunnan shook his head, no matter how hard he felt, it was over.
Compared with the ignorant waiting time before, he now just wants to let go of everything to enjoy and indulge in the love given by Luo Lingsheng.
“Wait a while, I’ll pour you some warm water and get you something to eat.”
Luo Lingsheng explained something, but before he got up, he was pulled by his lover.
“Don’t go.”
Shi Yunnan wrapped his arms around his arms, holding back his dizzy head, and tentatively touched the corner of Luo Lingsheng’s mouth with his lips, “…husband.”
With the unique tone of drunkenness and crying, it was so soft that she was confused.
“Ok?”
Luo Lingsheng responded with a sound from his throat, and his breath was easily aroused by his love.
Shi Yunnan greeted his warm breath, blurred and vague, “I want you.”
“later.”
Luo Lingsheng took a deep breath, and tightened his arms around Shi Yunnan uncontrollably, “Eat first, you’ve drank so much wine, it will be uncomfortable to have an empty stomach.”
The lips of the two seemed to be sticking together, and the extreme heat was floating around.
“I don’t want to wait…”
Shi Yunnan snorted softly again, indulging in the love that had been deeply rooted in his bones.
He raised his head and kissed Luo Lingsheng’s eyebrows, his blurred expression looked particularly beautiful in the dim light.
Luo Lingsheng was defeated in the end, and he licked his lover’s lips forcefully.
“Well–“
The lingering voices all fell into a tantalizing monophony.
The wine tasted late, and the indescribable throbbing wrapped the two of them together.
Shi Yunnan finally confused his reason, and could only cling to Luo Lingsheng’s arms, letting his reason be let loose again and again in this deep kiss.
I don’t know how long it took, but Shi Yunnan only felt his body suddenly rise into the air, and the momentary sense of weightlessness made him subconsciously hug Luo Lingsheng’s shoulders tightly.
“What, what’s wrong?” Shi Yunan narrowed his eyes and hummed.
Luo Lingsheng kissed his thin lips and explained with his remaining rationality, “The door to this bedroom was just kicked down by Yuan Meng, let’s move to another place.”
With that said, Luo Lingsheng weighed Shi Yunan slightly, and for the first time in his life, he could feel his lover’s weight so clearly.
Sure enough, I don’t have a few pounds of meat, but I’m still thin, so I’ll have to make up more in the future.
Luo Lingsheng thought to himself, and hugged the lover in his arms tighter, “Baby, hold on tight, I’ll take you back to the next room.”
…
…………
Shi Yunnan was woken up by Luo Lingsheng in his sleep, and the burning pain in his stomach made him groggy.
He raised his eyelids laboriously, and groaned to the extreme, “Ling Sheng.”
“I’m here.”
Luo Lingsheng took the almost paralyzed lover into his arms, and patiently persuaded in a coaxing tone of children, “I know you’re sleepy, but you have to get up to eat something, and then sleep on your stomach.”
As soon as Shi Yunnan finished digesting this sentence, the warm water cup was handed to his lips.
His throat was so dry that it was about to burst into flames, and Shi Yunnan drank it in obedience to his original intention.
Warm water into throat.
It warmed to the stomach for a moment, and finally woke up a bit of reason.
Shi Yunnan tilted his head and rubbed against Luo Lingsheng’s arms again, but within a few seconds, he could smell the delicious smell of fish porridge.
Hungry.
Luo Lingsheng saw Shi Yunnan’s cute appearance with his nose cocked by the smell of the food, and patted his cheek as a reminder, “Eat some before going to sleep?”
Shi Yunnan didn’t move, and hummed, “I don’t have the strength.”
Luo Lingsheng instantly understood what he meant and chuckled, “Okay, I’ll feed you.”
After receiving the answer from his lover, Shi Yunnan simply closed his eyes again, just waiting for Luo Lingsheng to feed the moderate temperature porridge into his mouth bit by bit as if taking care of kindergarten children.
The pain in the burning stomach finally eased. Shi Yunan looked at Luo Lingsheng half-closed, “What time is it? I still want to sleep for a while.”
“It’s only eight in the morning, and you only slept for four or five hours.”
Everything was so out of control not long ago, they hugged each other and died in love.
Luo Lingsheng knew that Shi Yunnan was still sleepy, so he didn’t force him to do anything to digest food after meals, but just accompanied him back to the bed, “Go to sleep, it doesn’t matter if you sleep until the afternoon or until the night.”
Shi Yunnan subconsciously touched Luo Lingsheng’s articulated hand, and after interlacing his fingers, he muttered contentedly, “…husband.”
“Ok?”
“When we wake up, let’s buy the right ring. Don’t wait for me to design it. Everything else is easy to talk about. Xie Keyue will use this to pick on me…”
Shi Yunnan’s voice was still soft and mushy, “The more I think about it, the more angry I get.”
Externally, they are **** for tat tough, but internally they are soft and obedient. He was obviously sleepy, but he wouldn’t let it go.
There was a hint of smile at the end of Luo Lingsheng’s eyes, and he kissed his lips, “Well, let’s talk about it when you wake up.”
Shi Yunnan was too tired to answer, Luo Lingsheng closed his eyes and rested when he saw this.
The two slept together.
When I woke up again, the sunset outside the window had already dyed half of the sky.
Shi Yunnan was just about to stretch slightly, but in the next second, the comfort on his face turned into inexplicable pain.
The whole body is sore and swollen.
Luo Lingsheng rubbed his back for the first time and laughed, “Stop moving, I’ll rub it for you.”
Shi Yunnan took a deep breath and silently looked at Luo Lingsheng beside him.
“Why are you looking at me like that?”
“Those words I said before thinking about you.” Shi Yunan replied.
In less than two days, too many things have happened to him. This personal mood has gone up and down and changed several times. At this moment, his mind is in a mess.
Luo Lingsheng asked in a low voice, “Can you still remember? You forget a lot when you’re drunk.”
There is something in the words.
“…”
Shi Yunnan snorted and gave Luo Lingsheng the right to speak.
“Then talk about it, talk about…” He stopped to clear his throat and pointed out embarrassedly, “Tell me about the white moonlight you have hidden in your heart.”
Luo Lingsheng teased him deliberately, “Aren’t you uncommon?”
– What white moonlight? Are you jealous?
– What am I jealous of? Do you think I’m rare?
Shi Yunnan vaguely remembered this conversation, and his ears quickly dyed crimson.
Can you blame him for this?
He didn’t know in advance that Bai Yueguang would actually be him.
Alright now, all the jealousy, both overtly and secretly, has come back to you? Funny and speechless.
“Are you going to tell me?”
“Speak.” Luo Lingsheng originally thought about returning to China for a showdown, but now he naturally follows Shi Yunnan’s meaning, “I’ll tell you everything you want to hear.”
Shi Yunnan raised his eyebrows in satisfaction, and took the initiative to ask curiously, “I only met you when I was drunk at the eighteenth birthday party, didn’t I?”
“Yes.”
“Then what happened?” Shi Yunan continued to ask.
He heard that he was drunk before, so he was embarrassed to delve into this first encounter, “…I wasn’t good at drinking at that time, you didn’t fall in love with me because of my looks, right?”
Luo Lingsheng chuckled, “I was dragged in by Yu Shuo that day. Later, I felt too bored, so I ran to the backyard to get some air, and ended up meeting a little drunk who was very drunk.”
Luo Lingsheng recalled, “There was a man who rashly rushed up to grab my first kiss while he was drunk and said, ‘You’re so beautiful,’ and squatted on the ground the next second and vomited.”
“cough.”
Shi Yunnan choked, rarely stammering, “I-Is it the first time we met? That’s it?”
“More than that? Later, you hugged and cried so hard that you wanted to celebrate your birthday alone too.”
“I finally found a decent slice of cake, brought it to you and said ‘Happy Birthday’, and started crying after a few bites.”
Eighteen-year-old Shi Yunnan was so pampered after being drunk.
“…”
Shi Yunnan was embarrassed to answer, and after thinking about it for a few seconds, he couldn’t help laughing, “Really? Then why didn’t you say it earlier?”
Luo Lingsheng asked back, “Then do you remember what you said in the car when I took you out of Shi’s house?”
——Mr. Luo, if I remember correctly, this is the first time we met.
Shi Yunnan remembered this, but he didn’t remember everything that happened at the birthday party, and his conscience was beyond words.
Luo Lingsheng bit his ear punishingly, “Do you think you have no conscience?”
Shi Yunnan snorted and refused to admit it, “I was interested in you when I was drunk at the age of eighteen, and I was also interested in you when I was sober at the age of twenty-six, which is enough to prove that my vision has never changed. I am too conscientious.”
Luo Lingsheng let him talk nonsense, and the hand on his waist did not stop.
Shi Yunnan continued on the topic, “Then you went to Shi’s house on purpose?”
“Well, I came here on purpose.”
The marriage negotiated by the Shi family and the Luo family’s second room is very low-key. To put it bluntly, the two sides want to use each other. By the time Luo Lingsheng heard about this, the parents of both parties had already made a preliminary marriage plan.
“I heard that Luo Yanchuan ran away from home because he refused to marry, but I’m still worried…”
Luo Lingsheng couldn’t bear Shi Yunnan being with his titular nephew, so he kept people watching Shi Yunnan’s return to China, and “visited” early the next morning.
At that time, the colloquial expression was ‘in lieu of proposing a marriage’.
To put it more seriously, it was Luo Lingsheng who wanted to personally come forward to put pressure on the Shi family and the second room of the Luo family, so that they would not do such useless marriage abacus.
Of course, he also wanted to meet Shi Yunnan.
It’s just that Luo Lingsheng didn’t expect that Shi Yunnan was far bolder and unexpected than he imagined.
“I knew you were mad at the family, but I agreed according to your wishes. I knew you were just joking when you called ‘husband’ and ‘marriage’, but I couldn’t help making further demands in the car.”
Use marriage to help block rotten peach blossoms with ulterior motives? It was an excuse he came up with temporarily.
Luo Lingsheng had a 99% chance of failure, but he didn’t expect Shi Yunnan to agree.
“Yunnan, I’m not a decent gentleman. On the one hand, I know that your life and freedom should not be delayed because of a leg injury, but on the other hand, I can’t wait to tie you to my side.”
“I know the reason for ‘blocking the peach blossoms’ is unreliable, so… That’s why Uncle Qin took you to see Jin Yu.”
The housekeeper, while waiting for school to pass by with Shi Yunan’s Luo Shi, also passed Luo Lingsheng’s acquiescence and permission.
In the depths of Luo Lingsheng’s heart, he desperately longed for Shi Yunnan to stay in the Luo family and by his side.
Taking the past to gain sympathy, letting his nephew tenderly buy it, and exchanging superficial interests… Any unsightly form is his bargaining chip.
Shi Yunnan didn’t complain about the ‘careful’ behind Luo Lingsheng’s secret love at all, because by comparison, he was actually thinking of ‘for himself’ at first.
“So, whether it’s in the restaurant near the group or at the Zhao family’s banquet, you are afraid that I will be bullied and you deliberately show up to support me, right?”
Luo Lingsheng didn’t deny it, “It’s just that you can handle it well without me.”
Shi Yunnan rubbed his lover’s Adam’s apple, the more he thought about it, the more he felt, and he couldn’t help laughing for a while.
“What’s wrong?”
“I just think it’s amazing…” Shi Yunnan raised his eyes to look at him, not hiding the joy and love in his eyes, “How could such a good person like me for so long?”
“Luo Lingsheng.”
“Ok?”
Shi Yunnan kissed Luo Lingsheng’s lips like a chicken pecking rice, and murmured, “If only I hadn’t forgotten what happened when I was eighteen, maybe…”
Luo Lingsheng’s kneading hand stopped, and his fingertips rubbed and changed the taste, “Maybe what?”
“Maybe we’ve been together long ago, I think…”
Shi Yunnan’s tone changed, and the unfinished words were sealed in the unforgettable kiss.
The two rubbed together repeatedly, as if they couldn’t kiss enough no matter what, and finally Luo Lingsheng temporarily braked the car, “Are you still sleepy?”
Shi Yunnan shook his head slightly.
His out of focus eyes regained clarity, panting, “I’m not sleepy, what’s wrong?”
Luo Lingsheng remembered the ‘study’ problem that had not been completely resolved, and his hoarse voice was still filled with feelings that had not completely faded away. “If you are not sleepy, I will take you to the study to have a look, okay? I don’t want you to think about it.”
Shi Yunan swallowed his breath, “Okay.”
…
Luo Lingsheng took the initiative to get out of bed to find clothes and slippers for his lover. Maybe it was because he had just recovered. Luo Lingsheng’s pace was not fast, and he was slow and steady.
Shi Yunnan stared at his back, and the feeling of deja vu came to his mind again. Before he could come up with a reason, the other party walked back with the clothes.
“Is your leg completely fine?”
“You can walk, but you need to resume treatment in the follow-up. Dr. Bens said that you should also avoid overwork.”
Shi Yunnan breathed a sigh of relief, “Take your time.”
Luo Lingsheng replied with a smile, “I know.”
The two simply cleaned up and walked towards the study hand in hand.
Shi Yunnan was accustomed to bending over and bowing his head. Now, looking at Luo Lingsheng, who was much taller than himself, he felt a little novel and excited for a while, “Luo Lingsheng.”
“Ok?”
“What should I do? I think you look more handsome when you stand up.”
Shi Yunnan’s mouth was just a compliment, not shy at all.
Luo Lingsheng widened the curvature of the corners of his mouth and opened the door of the study, “What should I do? I was your legal partner.”
“That’s right, I earn blood.” Shi Yunnan was proud.
Stepping into this study room again, Shi Yunnan no longer had the first sourness and suffocation, but instead had a lot more curiosity to explore.
He looked around, “You hid everything in the drawer?”
Luo Lingsheng closed and locked the study door, and took the initiative to walk towards the desk with his lover, “Well, open it, the password is still the one you know.”
Shi Yunnan was rude and simply entered his birthday neatly.
— Tick tock.
The electronic drawer door opened. Luo Lingsheng put the first invitation at the top to the side, and took the initiative to pick up the ticket stub of the concert, “Come on, see clearly, whose seat number is on this?”
Shi Yunnan took a closer look at the lower right corner, the embarrassment of being slapped in the face was intertwined with heartfelt joy, “It seems… it’s really where I was sitting back then.”
The tickets for the first concert that year were handed over to Shi Yunnan by Wen Yibei, and the seat number was the birth date of the two brothers. Coincidentally, they were in the VIP seat.
Luo Lingsheng replied, “It seems? It was originally.”
Shi Yunnan shook the ticket in front of Luo Lingsheng, “Who would have thought that Mr. Luo could still ‘pick up trash’?”
Then, out of the corner of his eye, he noticed a white bill in the drawer again, “What is that?”
He was upset before and left in a hurry without looking at it.
Luo Lingsheng took out the things to show him. The list was covered with plastic sealant, which could well prevent the font from being faded.
When Shi Yunnan saw the above content, his still not completely calm heart was quickly covered with shock, “This…”
“Ellie, it’s your favorite coffee and dessert shop.”
“…”
Shi Yunnan grunted, unable to react, “What, what are you keeping this thing for?”
Luo Lingsheng reminded, “Look at the date above?”
Shi Yunnan looked at the last line of words, and suddenly understood something in his mind, “When Fu Ziyu and I went to that Ellie’s for the first time, you were there? Are you paying our bills? “
“Ok.”
Luo Lingsheng didn’t expect his lover to be so excited, and continued to tell the truth.
“It was an accident that day, but I heard your conversation and knew that you had forgotten me completely, and I thought Fu Ziyu and you were lovers.”
Shi Yunnan immediately denied, “Who is in a relationship with him? How could I possibly fall in love with him!”
They are really a father-son relationship, a kind of father-son that is not blood, not biological.
Luo Lingsheng smiled and did not speak.
After the accidental encounter that day, Luo Lingsheng felt that he had entered a labyrinth with no way out.
If it is said that Shi Yunnan’s drunkenness at the birthday banquet just made him interested, but after meeting again after a few months, he can’t let go of it at all——
On the one hand, Luo Lingsheng felt that Shi Yunnan ‘loves to play unruly’, but on the other hand, he was unwilling to be a passer-by in the other party’s life, so he sent someone to inquire about his college again.
Luo Lingsheng never did anything outrageous, and never bothered Shi Yunnan.
Until he really confirmed that he was not on a whim and decided to appear in front of Shi Yunnan to pursue——
Mr. Luo had an accident, and everything began to develop in a direction that he could not control.
However, luckily, after going around, the person in front of him at the moment was the young man he was thinking about day and night.
Shi Yunnan held the well-preserved bill in his hand, and his eyes were full of small smiles, “This is the end, I will secretly reveal a secret to you.”
“what?”
“Last time we went to Ellie and came back from shopping, didn’t you see that I was distracted in the car?”
Luo Lingsheng vaguely remembered something like this, “Well.”
“I remembered someone that day.”
Shi Yunnan narrowed the distance between the two, deliberately biting every word clearly, “Before I met you again in the Shi family, I actually had a crush on someone, so…”
After he finished speaking, Luo Lingsheng couldn’t help but interrupted jealously, “Who? When?”