NOVEL WEB Form of Thought
I have been wondering about this body I have for quite some time. It is in the form of Violet from before her resurrection. This was the form I took when I first created it and it has not changed at all since then. Even when I had to reform it, I just went ahead and made it the same way without giving it much thought, it still even has the same clothes that it did when it was first created; a pink shirt that is a little too big with a unicorn on it and lime-green pants.
Violet did not care much for colour coordination back then, though to be fair, she did not have a wide selection of clothes to choose from at the time.
I wonder though, with this body being just a projection of my consciousness beyond my core, I should be able to change how it looks, right? Not that it actually matters, since no one can actually see me anyway, but I am curious. What should I change it to though?
Perhaps the first thing I should try is updating my form to reflect Violet’s current appearance. I try to visualise how she looks now, including the clothes she was wearing when I last saw her; a better fitting shirt that was almost the same colour as her skin, just a little darker, and some tight-fitting shorts that were light pink with strawberries on them.
The change is not immediate and it takes a lot more focus than I expected, but eventually, I am able to achieve the desired effect. Looking into a mirror would be pointless since I do not cast a reflection, but looking down, I can see the purple skin on my hands and the clothes matching Violet’s.
I look over my shoulder to see the long, purple tail trailing behind me. It seems to float a little in the air, as though not affected by gravity as much as the rest of my body. Since the physical sensations I can experience are extremely limited, I actually forget it is even there most of the time.
I wonder how Violet is able to keep hers from dragging on the ground as I am sure it is affected by gravity. Does it weigh her down? Is it tiring holding it up off the floor all the time? Is it something she had to get used to or did it just come naturally? She has been practising moving it around with intention ever since her fight with Coal. I wonder if it is flexible enough to be prehensile.
Thinking back to my own form, I try changing it again to emulate some of the other imps. Starting with Rose, the initial change in height is noticeable, but after that there is not much difference as I change into others as there is only a few centimetres in height variation between them and their skin tones only differ slightly in shade. Coal is a bit different though as he is a little taller than the others and has unique colouring.
I then wonder if I could take on the form on a hellhound. Maybe it is because I have been in the shape of an imp for so long or just that I have been around imps longer, or maybe it is just because they are much larger, but it takes a lot more effort and concentration to adopt the form of a hellhound.
I still succeed though, and now I have a perspective much higher than even Violet’s form. I try running around the room, but adapting from bipedal to quadrupedal movement is quite awkward at first. After some practice, I eventually get the hang of it.
It has never occurred to me before, but do I even need to have a form at all? Can I just exist in a formless state? I close my eyes and try to imagine myself as an invisible floating cloud. To my surprise, it actually works.
Even more surprising is that in this state, I have full vision in all directions simultaneously, not unlike back when I was limited to only my core. That could be advantageous. However, I quickly find that there is a drawback to this state; it is difficult to move without limbs. I can drift around, but it is slow and inefficient. I prefer the greater freedom of movement that comes from having an actual body.
As interesting as it is to try new things, I think I prefer my first form. But now that I know that superficial aspects are pretty easy to change, could I make changes based purely on my imagination, rather than copying something specific?
What if I could be an imp with bright pink skin, to match my core? Even as I picture it, the colour on my hands changes to a vibrant shade of pink, similar to the colour of the mana crystals that I create.
As I try changing to other colours, cycling through every different colour I can imagine, I lament the fact that no one else can see me. I am sure my imps would be delighted at such a dazzling display.
In the end, I decide to stick with my original colouring, even though it is simple and does not stand out at all compared to my imps. Maybe that is exactly the reason why I feel that it is the best.
The only thing I will change is the clothes; from the rather unfortunate outfit that Violet was wearing when I first took this form, to plain black t-shirt and pants. I do not need anything special or extravagant; it is not like I am trying to impress anyone. But it is nice to know that I can change things with little more than a thought whenever I want some variety.