Your Mother’s Right There

“I don’t think you need to explain at all,” Gu Xueqi sent banana slices one by one across from my mouth. “Gu Xingzhi’s kind of person always wins with a good grip and should give him a lesson.”

She drank milk tea again: “Too conceited, they are like this in the family.”

I stirred the juice: “Gu Xueqi, you are married. Of course, you can calmly comment on other people’s family affairs like a free-spirited lady, but I am the client, and I am just like a quilt It ’s especially shameful and guilty for her husband to catch young women who are cheating on the bed. “

Gu Xueqi rolled her eyes to the top of her head: “Isn’t the young woman cheating on her bed caught by her husband the scene you dreamed of? The classmate Xue who claimed that” a woman sleeps for five men in a lifetime is enough “actually told me shameful guilt? “

I smiled: “Gu Xingzhi has a top five.”

She: “How do you know that you have slept with him?”

“Ok.”

Gu Xueqi stood up and shook me over the table: “Have you slept? You haven’t told him before you slept! Don’t share the feelings!”

I held my cheeks and made myself a stupid sunflower: “Isn’t it just shared? A top five ~”

I can’t understand why the topic of Gu Xueqi and I can always be led to the bed.

Every time I started with a solemn and solemn finish, I ended up with a yellow filth, which really hurts.

“Well, put away your spring hair,” Gu Xueqi sat back. “We will discuss it later. The top priority is yesterday. I will ask you now, would you like to gamble?”

I watched it: “What bet?”

“Does that guy in your family have feelings for you now? You are cold, just like he does to you. See if he will come to you on his own initiative,” Gu Xueqi sipped the milk tea: “What do you think? ? “

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I did not agree with Gu Xueqi’s proposal, because Gu Xingzhi was a pervert, indifferent and ego. I don’t think I ignored him, he would come to me on his own initiative, I haven’t had such high self-confidence and courage.

And I’m already thirty, I really can’t afford to gamble.

Use this sentiment as a bet, although maybe it may not have belonged to me.

I can’t do it at all.

During the noon break, I took the initiative to call Gu Xingzhi and asked him, “What are you doing?”

He was very quiet there, and his voice was deep and nice. He didn’t answer my question at all, but asked me instead:

“Xue Jin, are you tired with me?”

My whole heart was lifted with this inexplicable question, and suddenly, I didn’t know what to say.

Probably after seeing me keep silent for a while, he said again: “There will be a meeting soon, let’s talk again.”

When I finished speaking, I hung up the phone, leaving only a rapid beep.

Obviously it was a series of short and boring homophonic syllables, but it easily defeated me.

I haven’t put down my phone, and I am sitting alone in the office, my whole body seeming to be evacuated out of thin air, and I haven’t moved for a while.

When strength returned to me, I sent a text message to Gu Xueqi:

He just asked me if I was tired with him. His implication was that if I said tired, he would break up with me? You also told me to bet, it’s funny now, even if I don’t bet now, he doesn’t give me any chance!

Gu Xueqi quickly returned to me: look in the mirror to see how you look, he said that he broke up, would you think too much? Because one casually asked person made himself a second-handed, how much do you love him? And does Gu Xingzhi have such a glass heart? Seeing you embraced by a stress-free man, crying and crying to break up, do you think he is you? Can’t be tough, don’t suffer so much, my dear old girl.

After reading Gu Xueqi’s text message, I remembered that five years ago, I was not an “old girl”, but it could not be called a real girl. I stayed at the tail of youth, and I was passionate about every moment of life At the bottom of the company, I am happy and busy facing the difficulties of my superiors. There are also boys who may really love me, caring for all my excitement and sorrow, and every text message I send with him is full of passion and like a beautiful poem. With the same teenage friends, you can also sit in the milk tea shop for an afternoon and chat happily without getting bored. The topic is always repeated. Takuya Kimura looks really handsome, you nympho.

I now look at myself in the small round mirror, and I am used to a cold face, putting on makeup that covers all the fatigue, and walking peacefully between my colleagues, regardless of how they curse the villain behind me.

Growing up is really a terrible thing, making us from human to not human, not human.

It was not until I met Gu Xingzhi a few months ago that I felt like my life was alive again.

It turned out that I still had such a vivid feeling of being emotional and distressed. After such a period of time, I felt that I was alive.

I always hear people say that there are only two people who really love, one is themselves, and the other is their own imagination. When one day he felt he didn’t love himself, it just didn’t meet his imagination.

I never felt how much Gu Xingzhi loved me, but I did not leave him. He was so inconsistent with my imagination, not even as much as tenth of the warmth that Tang Jian gave me, but I still couldn’t bear to let go, I think I fell in love with him.

I really love him, just like an idiot who squats under the umbrella and squats in that self-directed and self-proclaimed I am a mushroom.

Thinking of this, my nose is sore and I want to shed tears, but I can’t really cry. If I cry now, I’ll cry for another half an hour, and then I will add half an hour of class to read this Quarterly financial statements.

What I especially want to do now is to send a text message to Gu Xueqi: Go drink a little wine tonight.

Gu Xueqi quickly agreed to me: Well, Dafan happened to be in my house, she said that she would go together.

I sniffed my nose and sent the acid back into my body: was n’t she just giving birth? Can you drink and go to a sister?

Gu Xueqi replied: She must go, saying that it has been a long time since she conceived and conceived a baby, and she hasn’t gathered with her sisters. If you dare to cut my hair again, I will cut your chest!

The fact is that it is not easier to get a friendship than to get a love. Having a boyfriend is not necessarily more valuable than having a girlfriend. ¬

I am in a much better mood: Well, the housewife is really pitiful. Let us come to the bodhisattva with compassion and compassion. Let us murder the nanny hahaha.

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Rarely did the high school iron triangle get together again, we opened a small box in the Rui Ai bar, sing while drinking, and have n’t seen the ordinary for a long time. She had just given birth to a baby, her body was slightly blessed, but her skin looked like ceramics. I held her back. “How come you are so beautiful now, it turns out that this is the legendary young woman charm?”

She waved her hand: “Where you are, you haven’t changed a face. I still think I haven’t seen you for so long. You should be old too. How is it still the same as in college?”

Gu Xueqi brought in a plate of pineapple slices and came in: “Xue Jin’s family has a top five Lang, young and full of vitality and blood, can Xue Jin not stay young like an old goblin?”

“Let’s stop doing this!” I threw the pillow on the sofa onto her.

She squeezed the plate and avoided me: “Sister, don’t ask me to let go of your desires. The consumption here is too high. Just give me a box and pineapple to give me half a month’s pocket money.”

“Come on, Sister.” I smashed another pillow, Gu Xueqi finally put down the pineapple and rushed over to pinch me, the three of us laughed and twisted together on the sofa, played for a while, drank some wine, Gu Xueqi, who is always zhuangbility (pretending to be forced), pretends to be a petty bourgeoisie to sing youth and egg pain art songs, plus last night thinking about Gu Xingzhi is really not asleep, waking up many times in the night, I listen They are sleepy. Dafan saw that I was absent and handed me a pillow to squint for a while, and I did the same.

My phone seemed to be shaking, and I picked it up. The other side asked: Xue Jin?

I lazily hummed.

He asked again: sleep at home?

No, I turned over towards the back of the sofa: at the bar, I drank some wine. After a short sleep, I’m sick.

He dropped the sentence “I’ll pick you up” and hurriedly hung up the phone.

After a while, it seemed that someone had entered the box. I heard Gu Xueqi yell out, “I didn’t call a top goro, why are you here?”

There was a deep smile in the man’s voice: I came by myself.

Then the figure of the voice master came over. He patted my back: “Xue Jin, don’t sleep, go home.”

I rolled my eyes and opened my eyes, and saw a familiar face that used to haunt all the dreams of my young days: “Tang Jian, why are you here?”

“It’s so tired, you don’t have to play outside, I will pick you up.”

Gu Xueqi also came over: Tang Jian, I called Gu Xingzhi to pick her up, how are you doing?

Tang Jian’s face remained the same, and Gu Xueqi choked back with a word: “So is he here? Or, is he here first?”

He didn’t come, although my mind was groggy, but my heart was hit hard with a heavy object.

Tang Jian hugged me horizontally, I felt uncomfortable posture, shaking his legs to come down, he also let me go.

Supporting me, I didn’t care about Gu Xueqi’s eyes, and helped me out of the bar.

I do n’t drink much today, but I do n’t know why I ’m uncomfortable, top-heavy, and ca n’t move.

Tang Jian touched my forehead, “Xue Jin, your head is really hot. Go back quickly, this will make you lose your temper, it’s not going to get along with your body.”

“Well,” I promised him, straight up and walked outside the bar, the outside was not more comfortable than the bar, on the contrary it was the uncomfortable heat of the roadside, I looked around, and when my eyes touched a place, I was all Immediately again, like falling into an ice cellar, the brain was half awake.

Gu Xingzhi’s familiar Bentley car was parked outside the bar. He also happened to come down from above. He seemed to have just rushed out of the house. He didn’t wear a formal suit, only loosely put on a T-shirt, like Like a good-looking college student.

He didn’t hesitate. He walked straight towards us and stopped before me. Fang Buddha didn’t even see Tang Jian. The long arm pulled me to his side easily. Then he said coldly to Tang Jian: “Okay Now, I’ll pick her up, you can go. “

Then he looked down at me again and frowned habitually: “Why are you drinking again?”

His inexplicable tone at the moment crushed me all at once, and I wondered why every time, every time in front of Gu Xingzhi, was my most embarrassed and the second best, I really couldn’t figure it out.

His clothes were flat, like a beautiful sculpture under the street lamp. I looked down at myself and collapsed like a puppet who was abandoned.

My nose is sour again, and I bite my teeth to hold back the tears I want to fall, so I pretend to be calm and say, “Don’t bother with me, can I drink at all?”

He wrinkled deeper: “I am your boyfriend, I don’t care who you are?”

“Did you treat yourself as my boyfriend?” He said that I was funny again, and he didn’t want to cry at all. The tone was plain. “Are you asking me if you are tired with you today? See now You, I thought of the answer. I’m not tired, I’m really not tired at all, but I’m going crazy, uncontrollable emotions, uncontrollable behavior, becoming like a neuropath, I’m really crazy Breaking up with you, even if you do n’t say it, I ’ve thought about it for a long time, will I be able to return to normal life, can I? ”

After I finished, I looked up and looked at Gu Xingzhi. His pupil, which was bright because of anger or surprise, was like a candlelight suddenly covered by–

It flashed and went out.

I pushed back the hand he held on my shoulder until I left my body a little bit and looked back at Tang Jian. He just stared at me, gentle like a pool of spring water. But there is no strength to warm my heart. Finally, I saw Gu Xueqi standing in the bar door and looking out to us. I can clearly hear my voice with a dull crying voice:

“Gu Xueqi, take me home!”

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In the taxi home, I was already talking nonsense with tears in my eyes. I was lying on Gu Xueqi’s lap and she kept holding my face. When I got home, I could hear my mother screaming, “How come it burned to 39 degrees to die, it’s already stupid, and it gets stupid!”

When I got up in the morning, I recovered quickly every time I had a fever, and I was able to get out of bed and brush my teeth and wash my face.

At breakfast, my mother said, “How old is my first child, and I’m crying and making noises in order to do more things to ruin my body.”

I took a sip of milk: “I won’t cry again next time.”

While tidying up the tableware, my mother sat on the sofa playing wool and looked at me for a few times. I was hairy by her and asked, “Why do you look at me?”

She looked sad and said after a while, “The car named Gu stopped under the building all night.”

I wiped the table and returned to her: “Which surnamed Gu?”

She said, “Is there any other surnamed Gu, although I don’t know what happened to you, you should go and see it, and break it cleanly.”

I put down the rag and promised her: “Okay.”

Going downstairs, sure enough, Gu Xingzhi’s black Bentley car was terribly pressed against the entrance of my house.

Before I walked over, the window of the car had been rolled down. Gu Xingzhi sat inside and looked at me. The expression was still as cold as ever.

He immediately got out of the car and came over and asked me, “Is he better?”

I wish I could automatically generate a calm buckle in a QQ emoticon and answer him: “Very good, it can’t be better, the body and mind are good.”

“Are you going to break up with me?”

“Well,” I looked up and looked back: “I think clearly, I must break up with you.”

He also looked at me directly: “I disagree.”

“Oh, whoever disagrees with you! I’m going to work, goodbye.” I sneered and left.

He obviously didn’t mean not to let me go. He held me tightly and clenched tightly. He didn’t mean to let go.

The black flow under his eyes, let the Buddha want to brew a grand tsunami.

I was anxious, and my chest was full of resentment: “What do you mean now? Why don’t you hold my hand when I hold it? That little cloud, isn’t it good? I can recall her when I entered a ward and use my anger Your former enemy, my ex-boyfriend, is n’t you very happy to do the same? Do you think I do n’t know anything? What should I do? I like you so you are self-inflicted and clearly understandable. Are you still letting me go? “

Gu Xingzhi tried to calm his emotions, but the intensity of his hands was not relaxed at all. He chuckled and said, “You still don’t understand anything. It’s not about Xiaoyun’s business at all. I just remembered that I was in the third grade The scene of sneaking in to give me something. I do n’t have any meaning to be angry, you really worry about it. “

My already calm emotions all fluctuated again, and in front of him, I became a madman again: “Yes, I do n’t understand anything, you are smart, I ’m stupid, so I do n’t deserve you at all. You must be so rich in finances Many girls are going to succeed for you, why do you want to play with me, I am thirty, thirty! I have no more thirty years for me to squander, why do n’t you find another girl? Younger, twenty How could it not be in the next year? “

Gu Xingzhi still didn’t change his face, his voice was still on a smooth and calm line: “There is no other girl in my dictionary.”

“So what words do you have in your dictionary? Tell me!” I started desperately trying to draw my hand, but there was absolutely no way.

When I was about to take Gu Xingzhi’s hand and take a bite to get rid of him, he put my other arm around my neck and led me into his arms, clashed me tightly, and said in my ear:

“Your name, Xue Jin, is your name. I sat in the car last night, and I was full of you. I really want to forbid you from contacting Tang Jian, but I really care. Please do n’t follow me Tang Jian is together, I feel very uncomfortable. “

The tone of his sentence is still so calm, but all my struggles are collapsed, and some things that are unclear whether it is joy or grievance are overflowing. These emotions are all tumbling in my body, and I ca n’t restrain my tear glands. , A drop of hot stuff came out of my eyes instantly.