Chapter 3
As I walked up to Hannah’s house my stomach began to sink. Why am I so nervous?
Before I could interrogate the feeling further Hannah opened the door and pushed me through.
“DAD I’M HOME!” she yelled.
She started guiding me towards the stairs but a figure came down the steps as we approached.
“Hey Honeybunch!! How was your day...” He looked right at me as I tried to hide behind his daughter.
“And who might this be?” he asked
Hannah and I looked at eachother and she nudged me with her elbow. Right...time to act.
“Hello sir, I’m a friend of Hannah’s from school.” I said shyly
“Hi Hannah’s ‘friend’ from school. Is that what I should call you, or do you have a name hun?” He did air quotes around the word friend and I tried to figure out why.
“That's a complicated question Dad...She’s only been a girl for a few hours so I’m not sure if shes put much thought into a name yet.” she said.
I blushed at the use of pronouns and tried to brush it off as embarrassment but...I felt...happy??
“Oh? OOOOOOOOOOH cool! I’m glad you're figuring yourself out kiddo! For the record you look really happy if that helps you feel any better about the only a few hours thing haha.” he smiled and i blushed even more. Am I happy?? I mean im not miserable which is new so I guess I could myself happier than normal at least.
“Thanks…”I said quietly as another man walked through the front door.
“Hey Greg! Hey Honeybunch! Ooooooh and a friend huh! I knew you'd bring a cutie home to meet us sooner or later!” He said as he walked up to Hannah who was now bright red.
“Daniel babe shes not our daughters date, shes questioning her gender.” Said Greg
“Oh okay! Well in that case you’ve come to the right place! Whats better than two gay dads and a lesbian to keep you safe while you're questioning right?” He smiled and I smiled back.
“And if it does turn out that you're a girl well...Ill make sure Hannah’s door stays wide open when you visit.” He said.
“Dad! You cant just assume shes a lesbian! She doesn't even know if shes a girl yet!” Hannah said.
“Well...I know I like girls at least...anything else im confused but that much I do know. So if i am a girl then I guess that'd make me a lesbian…” I added.
Hannah looked at me in a way she hadn't until now. It had been looks of worry all day but now its a look of awe?? What is that about I wonder.
“Ahhh the plot thickens!” exclaimed her other dad.
“You two are insufferable!” Hannah sighed and grabbed my hand yanking me up the stairs past her one of her dads.
“We know! Have fun girls!!! But not too much!!!” Her fathers said in unison.
“SHUT UP DADS!” she yelled
Hannah slammed the door behind her and threw me into her bedroom.
“What was that about!?” She fumed
“What? Your dads were just being nice!” I pouted and stuck my tongue out.
“THEY THINK I LIKE YOU DUMBASS!” She snapped as she sat on her bed.
“Do you not?” I asked meekly.
She blushed a bit but said
“Well...No..I’m not really into boys. And you might choose to be one again so...” she trailed off.
“Oh...yeah...sorry.” I sulked and sunk into her beanbag chair.
She looked at me strangely
“What?” I asked
“Nothing...its just the first time ive seen you upset since you turned…” she said
“And why is that important??” I asked
“Its...Its nothing.” she said defensively.
“Hannah...just spit it out.” I said
She took a deep breath and on her exhale spewed out a question i didn't expect one bit.
“Do you not want to be a boy again?” she asked
“Sorry what?” I said
“You heard me...Do you like being a girl?” she asked as she locked the door.
“I uh...well...between the principal, my mom, and your dads reactions it...it felt good getting to be treated as a girl. That doesn't mean I don't want to be a boy though right?” I asked
“I mean sure but, I was the same way at first when my dads asked me if i didn't want to be a boy after they found a skirt in my dresser. I uh...I’m trans...like Taylor.” She smiled
“And I think maybe you might be like me.” She said
“Huh?” I was confused
“I think YOU might be trans.” she emphasized.
I couldn’t breathe.
“What...I don’t...I couldn't be..I mean im glad you like being a girl, hell my aunts trans but like, every boy wants to be a girl every now and then right? I mean it’s obviously a common thing.” I said
“Uh...no it’s not a common thing. Sure a lot of guys think about it once in a while but how often do you think about it?” She asked
“....Quite a bit...every day...I don't hate being a boy though I don't think.” I said
“The last guy I accidentally turned begged me to turn him back until I got the antidote together. He was miserable until he was back to normal.” She said
“YOU’VE DONE THIS TO SOMEONE BEFORE!?” I yelled and she covered my mouth.
“Yes...hence why Mr.Green didn’t look surprised. but to me it seems that this guy was desperate to turn back because he liked being a boy...as most boys do. It isn't a common thing to want to be a girl daily unless you aren't a boy.”she brushed some hair behind my ear and sat next to me
“You’re saying I don’t want to turn back because I’m ...I want to be a girl?” I asked.
“Do you?” She asked.
I was quiet. I couldn't move. I couldn't talk. The world stopped and as I thought to all the times id thought about feeling like I should be a girl I felt a hand on my shoulder which snapped me back to reality.
“Do you want to continue to be a girl? Because if you do, there’s no way in hell that you’re a boy.”
I thought about it.
“Am I allowed to do that?” I asked shyly
“Why wouldn’t you be? I mean look at me you dork.” She snorted
I looked at her...and as I did my cheeks burned red.
“I um...I think I want to be a girl...” I whispered
“Well then...guess you're a girl then huh?” she asked
I blushed and cried again as I initiated the hug this time. I felt her stroking my hair.
“You’re a really really cute girl at that, by the way.” She said and I blushed
“I’m gonna have to get used to being called that aren’t I?” I smiled
“You bet you are cutie” she stuck her tongue out as she booped my nose.
“Aaaaaa rude! I just became aware that I’m a girl you can’t tease me already!” I pouted
“I’m not teasing you...not that much. It’s only fair since you attacked me and all.”
“That...is a fair point.” I added
“You are genuinely adorable. I happen to like girls so I’d say I’m an expert on if a girl is in fact cute.” She smiled
“Wait...hold on...I like girls too! So you're logic is invalid ha” I exclaimed while sticking my tongue out.
“I swear it’s like I’m looking in a mirror around you.” She snorted
“Speaking of girls though, does the pretty one I’m talking to have a name she’d like me to call her instead of your other name?”
My brain exploded in a flurry of fireworks at the use of feminine pronouns. Feeling right and wonderful, a name popped into my head that felt like it had been hiding in my subconscious for years.
“I...well...maybe Emily?” I said unsure
“Emily is an incredibly pretty name for a pretty girl like you” she replied
I blushed even more at that entire sentence.
“T-thank you.” I stuttered.
Hannah looked at me with a smile and seemed to be analyzing every inch of my face. I didn’t dare move.
She put her hand under my jaw and locked eyes with me. My brain turned into mush at the way she was staring.
“Emily?” She asked while she smiled
“Mhm?” I replied as she tucked some hair behind my ear.
“May I kiss you?” She smiled
The world stopped.
“You...you want to kiss me?” I asked stunned
“Yes...I do. I mean it'd sure make up for you attacking me and all." She smiled
“I...you may.” I said shyly
She smiled and arched my back. Putting a hand under my back and one supporting my head.
Her lips locked with mine as my hands found their home around her shoulders. Her lips felt so soft against mine. She started stroking my hair again and I started to moan softly. I could live like this forever...or at least I thought I could until Taylor barged into the room.
“Hey Hannah I’m here to get poked with the girl goop...oh...oh shit I’m sorry!” She covered her eyes.
Hannah laughed and got off of me
“It’s fine we were only kissing Tay. This is Emily. My not quite girlfriend.” Hannah said and I blushed
“I don’t know Han you two looked pretty girlfriendy to me.”
“Seeing as Emily has only been a girl for less than 24 hours I figured the U-Haul could wait. She was Jason Miller this afternoon.”
“Oooooh! Right! Dad told me you were questioning“ she said
“I wasn’t...rather I didn’t know I was yet.” I said
“Cool, I’ll let him know you’re a girl then!” She smiled
“Wait why did he think I was questioning?” I asked
“Probably the whole ‘tell my mom I wanna try being a girl’ thing” Hannah smirked
“Oh…yeah” I blushed