NOVEL WEB Chapter 180
Chapter: 180
…Rosalyn’s body was soft in many ways.
It wasn’t just because her skin was smooth or that her texture was nice; it was soft in several other aspects.
There was that maternal feeling one could sense from her demeanor…
I inadvertently placed my hand lightly on her arm or belly.
I thought it would be similar to how it was with Rize or Ashley, but it felt different this time.
Originally, there were some slight differences between the two, but the contrast was particularly striking now.
“Huh…”
I did something rather embarrassing yesterday.
If Rosalyn hadn’t drunk and fallen asleep… I could’ve been in a bit of trouble.
But it wasn’t anything that would cause a major issue.
I just touched Rosalyn’s body…?
Was that all that happened?
“…I’m insane.”
This was a different issue from the recent struggle of seeing women as potential partners.
It was more serious than that.
“Anyway, Rosalyn was asleep and unaware of it…”
It was a matter only I knew about, my problem alone.
This was a completely different issue compared to the example I gave Ashley.
No matter what…
“…I shouldn’t look at Rosalyn like that.”
In my room, which was devoid of anyone except me.
Again, I found myself unable to stop these thoughts.
“Hah.”
Rosalyn.
She was a different person than my biological mother who had actually brought me into this world.
Even though I had memories and feelings from my past life, it felt quite different.
Of course, there were many similar aspects… but that didn’t mean she looked objectively like my mother.
“The visual differences are striking from the start.”
Right off the bat, both William and Rosalyn.
People connected by blood and those not.
They had appearances completely opposite to mine, making me feel like I was adopted or something.
“Sigh…”
On top of that, our ages were so similar.
Actually, even a little older than I am now, it would be tough to simply see Rosalyn as my mother.
“…Preferences.”
Right.
Her appearance fell into several categories of what I found appealing.
It wasn’t just her looks but various other aspects that matched my preferences.
“Tch…”
I finally realized yesterday why it had always been hard to interact with Rosalyn since childhood.
It was because I hadn’t recognized her as a mother from the start.
It started off on the wrong foot.
It was practically inevitable.
“…Huh.”
Men are awkward, bothersome.
So, even though I had quite a relation with women, it was stupid to not have realized this.
From childhood to now, my interactions with Rosalyn hadn’t changed much.
“…What should I do?”
Eventually, I started seeing Rosalyn in a different light.
Not just as family to joke around with, but as an object of attraction.
I was thinking of her as a potential partner or something similar.
Then, what kind of stance should I take going forward?
Simply liking women and being friendly or close to them was a different matter altogether.
“She’s married anyway…”
Skipping over numerous issues in that regard.
The fact remained that Rosalyn was married.
And she was my father’s wife.
Honestly, although William never showed up at the mansion and the two shared a purely business-like bond…
“We’ve never even been intimate.”
I had learned that through my investigations.
Hmm.
“…What’s actually wrong with me?”
…In the end, the conclusion was that Rosalyn had never experienced intimacy in her life.
Considering all the information I’d gathered about her before and after she arrived at the mansion, along with numerous other observations.
She had never sneaked out at night, so the conclusion was that she was still a virgin…
-Thud!!!
“…That hurt.”
I slapped my own cheek.
Hmm.
Well, at least it helped me snap back to reality.
Since last night, these strange thoughts had kept surfacing, which was concerning.
The way I saw Rosalyn and the reality of our situation were vastly different.
“After all, there are plenty of women in the world…”
Yeah.
Just because I liked women didn’t mean it had to be Rosalyn specifically.
She just happened to fit my preferences the most… simply put, I just thought she was the prettiest of all the women I’ve come across.
“…Should I find a way to resolve this?”
…Ultimately, this was also a matter of desire, of cravings.
Well, that’s just how it goes, right?
I never bothered with those bodily desires due to my father’s presence and the women constantly around.
I hadn’t experienced these feelings in my past life… but back in this lifetime, my childhood had been rather sheltered.
Thus, aside from having the body of a woman, I had never acted on those thoughts.
“…….”
Maybe once would be okay.
If I don’t do anything, I might end up having even stranger thoughts about innocent Rosalyn anyway.
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“…….”
Hmm.
In the end, the decision I made after thinking alone in my room was quite mundane.
“I guess I’ll just have to behave until I’m an adult.”
No matter what, I wasn’t going to be a scumbag who acted on sexual impulses with girls who were barely old enough.
We should have mutual agreement, and even if I spoke about such nonsense, it wouldn’t be tolerated.
Having lived in a modern, sensible world, I believed I should be at least 18 or 19 before engaging in such activities.
“…At least Karen seems to have the body of an adult now.”
Anyway, everything up to that point was just about me deciding to maintain my composure.
I wouldn’t say anything to anyone; it was just my own resolve.
Being friendly with beautiful women like this was fine, but I felt I wouldn’t be personally satisfied with mere friendship.
It looked like I was a worse person than I thought.
“…Old habits die hard?”
Considering my father’s numerous shortcomings, I likely inherited some degree of that.
“Hah… how ridiculous.”
Honestly, reflecting on these thoughts made me feel quite absurd.
There were several reasons why I felt this way, but thanks to this, I was able to think clearly… which was a good thing, right?
“I’m only 13 now… roughly around 15 by age counting.”
…I still have a long way to go before reaching adulthood.
“Huh… since I decided, I should stick to it.”
I would endure until adulthood.
Having decided not to engage in anything beyond mere interactions with other partners, I was determined to refrain until then.
“…Well, I’ll probably still engage in non-sexual stuff.”
I got up from my seat.
I threw a cardigan over the thin clothing I was wearing and set my sights on Ashley’s Room.
I was feeling rather bored, and after this deep internal struggle, a fair bit of stress had accumulated.
I wanted to relieve it by teasing and playing around with Ashley.
“Camelia?”
“Ah, you’re awake! Teacher.”
“Uh… what’s going on? I taught you magic a few days ago… did the lady ask you to do something…?”
“Hehe, nothing like that.”
Clearly, she had come to visit.
Despite her curvaceous figure, she was surprisingly innocent.
Of course, that aspect was one of Ashley’s charm points.
“I’m always curious, but you seem to really like beds, Teacher.”
“Well, they’re comfortable.”
“That’s true.”
“You also said you often lie down in your room…”
“Oh my, have you heard such rumors? I thought you were too busy sleeping to catch wind of them.”
We continued our conversation with playful smiles.
Though I was lying in bed and completely covered by a blanket, it didn’t matter much.
“Teacher, is it okay if I lie down with you?”
“…Huh?”
“Hehe…”
“Lie down…? Why…?”
How funny it was to show this side of myself to a girl who was only about a head shorter than me.
Did she even realize how amusing it was?
Well, if she didn’t, it would just be all the more entertaining.
“I find it a bit bothersome to have a conversation while standing like this.”
“Then you could take that chair over there…”
“You love lying on the bed, so I’m just going to lie beside you for a bit. After all, we did lie together before, didn’t we?”
“Uh…”
Her flustered reaction was quite entertaining.
Perhaps it was because it was different from her usual sleepy expressions.
When I’d gotten into bed with Ashley while she was asleep before, she had shown some playful cuteness too.
Ashley had unexpectedly many adorable aspects.
“Oh…? I haven’t given permission yet…”
“Well, this room, bed, and blanket are all things I provided, right?”
That was a fact.
However, that didn’t mean I had presumptive rights to just enter.
“Is it alright?”
“Uh… um… yeah…”
Ultimately, she quietly nodded her head.
Yep, that was nice to see.
“Hehe…”
Eventually, I could comfortably be in the same bed with Ashley, under the same blanket.
“Phew…”
Maybe it was just me feeling this way?
In any case, I had moved from Rosalyn’s bed last night to Ashley’s bed today.
Both were nice beds, but the scents were intriguingly different, and the feel of the skin I touched was also quite distinct.
“Hehehe…”
It felt good.
It wasn’t something particularly steamy or sexual.
Simply, the fact that my actions evoked responses from them was what made me feel delighted.
That alone inexplicably brightened my mood.
“What… Camelie? Why are you hugging me from behind like this…?”
“Because you’re so soft, like a pillow?”
“No…”
“When I sleep, I usually need something soft and pillow-like to feel at ease.”
“You’re not even going to sleep though… Heh…”
“Hehe… Is that a problem?”
“It’s not like… I’m against it.”
…Anyway, I’d definitely hold off on the real naughty stuff until I hit adulthood.
After all, such matters could be indulged in plenty once I was officially an adult.
Until then, I figured I could just content myself with playful teasing and enjoying the business side of things.
Probably…?