Jiaochen

Ji Qingying wanted to refute.

She was not a kid, but she couldn’t control her emotions.

She knew that she was a very sensitive person, but actually she rarely shed a tear.

Those awful events, she was able to outdo the hurdle slowly the best she could.

But it was only on the surface, but deep inside, it seems like it will always leave a hole.

When someone touches that hole, her emotions will overflow, exposing all the pieces she has concealed, with no place to hide.

Ji Qingying had an obsession towards candy and zoos.

Under normal circumstances, she rarely shows it. But once when she was drunk, Rong Xue and Chen Xinyu asked her why.

She didn’t say it.

When she was young, Ji Qingying’s family was happy. Even though her parents were busy, they were affectionate and were there when she needed them.

She had been living with her grandmother since she was a child, and her parents would come back to the town to accompany her on the weekends.

However there was an accident. She lost her father, a man who loved her unconditionally.

But fortunately, she still had her grandmother and mother who loved her very much, which let Ji Qingying quickly come to terms with her fathers death.

But it all changed after a year.

Her Mother’s visit once a week became once every two weeks, then once a month, sometimes even longer.

The candy she promised to bring to Ji Qingying she no longer will remember.

Her mother promised to bring her to the zoo on her birthday, but it kept being pushed back again and again.

When Ji Qingying was in school, she always looked forward to Friday every single day.

She hoped that her mother would come home, hoping that she would bring her candy, and that she would bring her to the zoo.

Her classmates had been there so many times. They said that giraffes, elephants in the zoo, and other animals looked a little pitiful and cute at the same time.

Every time she heard her classmate mention it to them it, Ji Qingying was very eager.

When she was very young, she didn’t hide any emotions, and all her thoughts were shown out in front of everyone.

She would tell them that her mother promised her to bring her to the zoo on the weekend.

——

These words had been said so many times. Not only did she begin to feel a sense of loss, but even her classmates told her childishly—

Ji Qingying, your mother definitely will not bring you to the zoo.

Ji Qingying, your mother doesn’t love you at all.

Ji Qingying, you no longer have a father, and even your mother doesn’t love you anymore.

As time passed, these words were imprinted inside her heart.

But even so, she still hoped that one day she would go there herself.

But in the end, that wish hasn’t been fulfilled.

On a school day. Ji Qingying came back from school and unexpectedly saw her coming back.

She was so happy that she ran over without taking off her school bag, grabbing her leg and acted coquettishly.

She told her how much she missed her.

Thirty minutes later. Ji Qingying learned from her grandmother that she was leaving to go abroad.

She wanted to chase her dreams, she didn’t want Ji Qingying to become her burden. She was still young, she didn’t want to be tied down here, she wanted a bigger stage.

When she left, Ji Qingying was a child without a parent.

She no longer counted days and looking forward to the weekend, nor would she stand under the trees looking for the figure that would appear at the corner of the street.

She no longer told her classmates that her mother would definitely take her to the zoo on the weekend.

These would no longer happen again.

The emotions that she had would never be seen again.

Because of Fu Yan Zhi’s words, Ji Qingying was on the brink of collapse.

Her tears fell uncontrollably, like a broken dam.

Caught off guard.

Fu Yanzhi was at loss, he didn’t expect Ji Qingying to cry.

Even though her eyes were red, he didn't expect it.

His fingers were stopped at the corner of her eyes, her skin was tender, with a little pressure it would turn red.

He looked down at her crying figure. There was a feeling of discomfort that couldn’t be spoken out.

There was a special emotion that emitted.

When Ji Qingying was crying, there was no sound.

Only the sound of her sobbing which she couldn’t control any longer, which let Fu Yan Zhi couldn’t control it as well.

His throat started to get itchy.

When the words came to his mouth, he pressed it down.. Only thing he could do was to reach out his hand and rub her head, then he hugged her.

“Don’t cry.”

He rubbed the back of her head helplessly, and whispered, “If you cry again, I won’t bring you here next time.”

“No way.”

Ji Qingying clenched the corner of his clothes and buried her head in his embrace, drenching his clothes with her tears.

“Next time… I still want to come here again.”

She sobbed continuously.

Fu Yanzhi was helpless, and could only continue to embrace her.

He had never calmed people before, and so didn't know how to deal with people who were crying.

If it was a child, it was still okay, they were easy to calm down. Although Ji Qingying could be classified as a child who hadn’t grown up, Fu Yan Zhi couldn’t coax her so easily.

The scent of a man approached, which surrounded Ji Qingying layer by layer.

That sense of security eased her. It seems that all the regrets, and the disappointments she ever had were slowly being wiped away by him.

After a while, Ji Qingying finally got her emotions under control.

Her tears stopped, but she didn’t raise her head. Fu Yanzhi also didn’t urge her, he also let her lean on him.

“Fu Yanzhi.”