I Want to Be a VTuber

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I bit my finger or heard people say the acting was inappropriate.

The filming of <Gyeongseong Young Lady> brought about an unprecedented humiliation for Seo-yeon!

Honestly, I didn’t care much about those elements.

Seo-yeon hardly ever makes mistakes, so for the staff, it was just a moment of surprise.

It seemed that Director Baek Min thought of it merely as a process of finding the emotional lines.

So there wasn’t really any problem with the mistakes.

I was just a little embarrassed.

Especially the reactions from the people sent by the Japanese broadcasting station were a bit overwhelming.

“Wow~, did you just see that performance? Tanaka-san? Definitely, Korean acting is quite different from Japan’s.”

“More than that, Joo Seo-yeon’s acting has some serious experience behind it. I thought the mistake was really cute.”

“Ah, me too! I was watching with my mouth open, and I inadvertently ended up smiling at the end. Did you just film that?”

“Of course. We filmed it. I was really worried since she’s an actress who hardly makes mistakes, but wow, we’ve hit a jackpot right from the first scene.”

Recently starting to interact with Sora, Seo-yeon was picking up some Japanese from her.

Since she had been exposed to various video media like anime or games from the start, learning wasn’t that difficult.

It was mostly just fixing a few incorrect words.

However, despite watching so much, I surprisingly didn’t understand things as well as I thought I would, but now that issue had been somewhat overcome.

So, their conversations were clearly captured by Seo-yeon’s sensitive ears.

Of course, there were a few words she didn’t know here and there.

But generally, she could understand the nuance and the gist of what was said.

‘Are they really going to send this to Japan?’

That thought naturally crossed my mind.

That just filmed scene?

Could it be the one where I was shaking because I bit my finger?

Should I stop it?

As I thought that, I flinched.

“Eh, what’s this, cute.”

A voice from beside me caught my attention.

Turning to look, there was Jo Seo-hee holding her mouth with both hands.

“……What?”

“Oh, no. I just blurted it out. But, um, it can’t be helped. It’s just that it seemed different from usual.”

Seo-hee accidentally let out something she always thought internally.

At first, she was a bit flustered, wondering if she said something wrong.

But that was genuinely cute just now!

“Saying something like that while shooting a gay film is a bit loaded with meaning, isn’t it?”

But then Lee Ji-yeon, who had been quietly listening, remarked.

“Could you not misinterpret my innocent words? I just said it was cute.”

“Well, that was pretty uncharacteristic of Joo Seo-yeon. She hasn’t shown that side in a while.”

“Right? … Recently?”

Seo-hee was intrigued by Ji-yeon’s words.

Did she used to show that side often before, but not as much now?

‘But I feel like she wasn’t particularly like that during her child actor days?’

At that time, Seo-hee had a pretty clear image of Seo-yeon, so she could hear about what happened during the filming of <The Moon That Hid the Sun>.

After all, it was the actress Jeong Eun-seon, who was like a mentor to her, who often spoke about Seo-yeon.

The most frequent story she heard was this.

“That girl isn’t like a child.”

“She hardly shows emotional fluctuations and fears nothing.”

“She’s a very dangerous kid.”

Of course, that comment might have been slightly misleading; it meant dangerous in a physical sense, not ideologically.

Children usually don’t know fear.

So, they might casually do something very dangerous.

Not just in terms of acting, but more closely related to everyday life.

Seo-yeon was so calm and had so little emotional expression that Eun-seon must have found it quite precarious.

At that time, she thought little of it.

‘My teacher should probably choose her words more carefully.’

Honestly, Seo-hee thought Eun-seon was pretty bad with her words.

The type to end up creating unnecessary trouble?

Anyway, when Seo-hee received Eun-seon’s remarks, Seo-yeon was truly not like a child.

She was literally a steel girl.

“Is that a story from the time you went MIA for a bit?”

“Uh? Oh, right. Joo Seo-yeon during middle school was something else.”

Seo-hee became very curious about that.

What exactly happened during middle school?

“It was because she couldn’t control her emotions… Ugh!”

White hands suddenly covered Ji-yeon’s mouth as she was casually bringing up that time.

Seo-yeon, who had been quietly listening from behind Ji-yeon, had struck her.

“…I’ve only just changed my blanket.”

“Blanket?”

“There’s today’s business to think about, and I can’t really delve into the past… I was young back then.”

The teenage Joo Seo-yeon was suddenly hit with a whirlwind of emotions.

With hormonal changes, she couldn’t grasp her feelings.

Good or bad, it was quite emotional.

Moreover, it was during a time when physical abilities changed most dramatically, almost like a storm.

No, it could be termed a tempestuous time.

At that time, Ji-yeon was following Seo-yeon closely and witnessed that entire change.

But then, Ji-yeon had been spurring on some parts of it too.

“Hmph, why are you being shy about such trivial matters? That’s not like you, Joo Seo-yeon.”

“Back then, you said something like that to my mom too.”

“…Well, that’s true.”

Seo-hee, who had been watching their exciting exchange, felt a strange sense of isolation.

After all, it was a conversation she wasn’t part of.

‘Hmm, that did happen back then. You got into trouble a lot.’

‘Ah, is that the incident? That was really something, wasn’t it? Right?’

The conversations exchanged with that kind of feeling made her curiosity just grow.

If they were going to have a conversation only they understood, then they should at least explain it to her too.

As Seo-hee pulled on Seo-yeon’s sleeve, clamoring for her to say more, Director Baek Min’s voice was suddenly heard.

“Alright, let’s move on to the next scene.”

The scene Seo-yeon and Ji-yeon had filmed wasn’t the one continuing from Yuina and Yeon Seon-ye’s encounter.

The scene itself would come up quite a bit later, but they were filming from parts they could shoot first in that set.

In other words, it meant they were filming all the events that would take place in Yuina’s mansion.

‘A bit of a difficult type, huh?’

Seo-yeon nodded at Baek Min’s filming style.

Directors have different filming styles, after all.

Some shoot according to the flow of the story.

While others shoot according to the set or location during filming.

Baek Min is one who fits both categories.

Generally, he films in accordance with the story’s flow, but occasionally he shoots whatever can be filmed in one location.

It’s probably because he has a clear narrative flow in mind regarding <Gyeongseong Young Lady>.

In such cases, it can be quite challenging for the actors to hold onto their emotions.

Especially for those who get absorbed in their characters like a method actor.

The emotional nuance of a character changes from scene to scene, so those practicing method acting would need to recapture their emotions anew every time.

Fortunately, Seo-yeon didn’t have to be particularly fixated on method acting anymore, so there weren’t any issues in that regard.

She only applied method acting when it was truly necessary now.

Although, that alone could influence how her character behaves or thinks during her everyday actions, it hadn’t significantly impacted her previous roles.

“The scene we’re shooting this time is a scene a bit later. In other words, it’s after Yeon Seon-ye and Michiko have somewhat recognized their emotions. It might be a bit challenging, but are you okay with that?”

After that, Director Baek Min began the performance guidance for the scene.

Scene number S# 126.

As indicated by the number, it was essentially a scene that comes after the midpoint.

So, the acting guidance could only be more detailed.

Since the scene jumps significantly, both actors and the director would require many discussions to shoot the desired scene.

“Okay, then.”

Baek Min’s words marked the beginning.

Up till then, Seo-yeon hadn’t been thinking much of anything.

It was peculiar as she was already rather anxious due to what had just happened.

Especially since she was constantly in the spotlight from the Japanese broadcasting station, they were showing interest in her.

But then something unexpected happened.

“Seon-ye.”

It was Michiko’s voice, a little more agitated than usual.

“What have you been doing in this mansion?”

Though it seemed she wanted to maintain her usual demeanor, Michiko’s words trembled unlike normal.

Her feelings towards Yeon Seon-ye had changed from before.

Seo-yeon inadvertently admired Jo Seo-hee’s acting in that very moment.

In the previously filmed scene, Michiko, played by Seo-hee, had a disinterested attitude towards the existence of Yeon Seon-ye.

Just an interesting Korean maid.

That was all the emotion she held.

But despite filming various scenes out of order, Seo-hee skillfully reflected the changed emotions in her acting.

“Miss, you’re mistaken.”

Ji-yeon’s acting was slightly anxious.

But fortunately, because the scene reflects Yeon Seon-ye’s anxious state, it didn’t feel odd at all.

In fact, depending on the viewpoint, it appeared quite natural.

‘Is she going to be okay?’

Seo-yeon couldn’t help but worry about Ji-yeon’s acting, while simultaneously being amazed at Seo-hee’s performance.

After all, Baek Min was keenly observing that aspect.

It felt like the situation could unravel at any moment.

Because of that, Seo-yeon also watched the situation with a hint of anxiety.

Yes, it had been that way up till then.

“Ah, Miss. Please put that down.”

“No way. First, tell me what happened between you and Yuina.”

“I swear it’s just a coincidence. What could a mere Joseon maid have done?”

“Don’t lie, Yeon Seon-ye.”

That verbal sparring was quite intense, filled with various emotions.

As Seo-yeon watched the scene intently, she gradually started feeling a subtle, complicated emotion.

It was because she realized, somehow, the emotions passing between the two were mixed with something other than anger.

“Why do you want to go to Yuina now? I’m sorry, but I’ve lost my intention to let you go.”

“That’s not it.”

“I knew from the start that you were connected to Yuina. But I thought it didn’t matter. But on the moment I coincidentally saw you here, completely different feelings surfaced.”

Michiko was not a weak lady at all.

Even having noticed Seon-ye’s betrayal, she didn’t cast her aside.

“I thought it would be enough for me to just discard you as before. I used to think that way. I’m sorry, Seon-ye. You missed your timing.”

Instead, she tightened the leash even more.

Michiko’s actions, awakening her feelings toward Seon-ye, were quite resolute.

An unwavering, fierce young lady.

“Why haven’t you ever received this kind of treatment from Yuina? I’m sorry, but I’m not a nice lady.”

Thus, the intensity of the subsequent scenes had no choice but to be quite strong.

‘Huh?’

Seo-yeon couldn’t help but open her mouth in surprise.

<Gyeongseong Young Lady> was rated for ages 15 and older.

The scenes permitted under that rating were quite robust, after all.

Of course, there was no nudity.

Yet, how to express it?

‘Is this a bit…too much?’

Yeon Seon-ye’s acting was based on Ramiel’s performance.

From the beginning, the vocalization was similar.

She only dulled the colors a bit.

Thus, the scene Seo-yeon witnessed now overlapped with Ramiel experiencing… well, similar situations!

No, she knew it wasn’t that!!

‘Are they really going this far? To that extent?’

Seo-hee’s performance was unrestrained.

As she observed the intimate emotional scene depicted by Michiko, her pupils dilated.

The feelings of love she expressed were exceedingly intense.

And due to Ji-yeon’s naive acting, the hapless girl seemed crushed by those feelings.

That… indescribable feeling wrapped around Seo-yeon.

Could she express that level of emotion as well?

No, it was more than that; wait a minute, Ramiel.

My Ramiel.

It crumbled at the sight of such emotions.

Jealousy!!

…wasn’t the only feeling lingering.

In any case, there were numerous complex emotions swirling within her.

It made her think of how Yuina must have felt watching the interaction between Michiko and Yeon Seon-ye.

Anyway.

‘It seems I might be a bit lacking.’

Seo-yeon was roughly interpreting the emotions of Yuina.

But after watching the acting today, she thought that the feelings she wanted to express as Yuina might fall a bit short.

At least, she had to match Michiko to be correct, right?

If Michiko was an inferno, then the feelings Seo-yeon attempted to convey as Yuina were merely the flame of a matchstick.

‘The feeling of loving someone.’

Love.

That was a feeling far more intense than Seo-yeon had anticipated.

‘But why is Jo Seo-hee so good at this?’

Amidst all the doubts, she glared at Seo-hee, who was timidly hiding behind Ji-yeon.

Of course, her gaze only intensified.

What was this? Is she trying to show off at me again?

What’s with the relationship between Yeon Seon-ye and Michiko anyway?

What’s more, it bothered her that Seo-hee could articulate what she couldn’t as an actress.

Seo-yeon’s pride as an actress had significantly strengthened compared to her past.

So.

Seo-yeon took it upon herself to hasten her scheduled meeting with Yeo-hee.

Kasugayama Yuina.

To perfectly express the young lady who has a crush on Yeon Seon-ye.

***

‘How did it come to this?’

Yeo-hee pondered as she looked at the girl sitting in front of her.

They had made plans to meet later.

However, that was indeed a meeting with Jo Seo-hee or some others, not a one-on-one conversation.

No, this felt odd.

Why did she come alone?

She must have heard something from Sua about the past events.

But regardless of her heart, Seo-yeon just listened to Yeo-hee’s words, gazing at her blankly.

The girl’s lack of facial expressions was stunningly beautiful to the point of being eerie.

This made it hard for Yeo-hee.

‘She’s Sua’s daughter, but why is her emotional fluctuation so low?’

It was totally different from when they wore masks during the dramas or <Masked Singer>.

Back then, she felt Seo-yeon was emotional enough to make her think she indeed was Sua’s daughter.

Thus, Seo-yeon’s silent demeanor felt imposing to Yeo-hee.

Naturally, Seo-yeon didn’t feel that different from Yeo-hee at that moment.

‘What should I start with?’

She’d come here out of nowhere, but she couldn’t just blurt out, “Hey, let’s talk about your first love.”

Even if Seo-yeon had zero social awareness, she knew that would be quite rude.

‘What should I start with?’

‘I feel like I need to say something, but…’

As their gazes interchanged, the first to speak up was Yeo-hee.

In her awkwardness, Yeo-hee blurted out some random things about recent events.

“Uh, well, recently my friend… um, I mean, a very close friend is a web novel author? And they got their work adapted into a drama!”

“A friend? Is that someone from high school as well?”

“Uh, that’s….”

It was indeed correct.

Oh, she felt as though she’d blurted out something awkward.

Yeo-hee squeezed her eyes shut, feeling frustrated by the narrow scope of her personal relationships.

“Is it okay to know what the title of the drama is?”

“Hmm? Well, that’s probably the title of the web novel, right?”

Am I allowed to share this?

She felt she had said something awkward and was now pulling a face of regret.

‘If it’s a high school friend, could it be someone who was in the club with my mom?’

She was convinced of it.

So, her curiosity grew more.

“It surely must be titled….”

Then, Yeo-hee said the name of her friend’s novel.

Seo-yeon would definitely not know that title.

And upon hearing the title, Seo-yeon couldn’t help but question her ears.

‘Huh?’

She had to doubt her own hearing.

Seo-yeon had the ability to vividly recall anything like movies or dramas she’d seen in her previous life.

Among those, there was the drama Yeo-hee had just mentioned.

The moment Seo-yeon recognized the title, she was startled by the information that instantly flooded her mind about that drama.

First of all, it was a drama that had caused quite a stir with a captivating plot.

And.

‘That was terrible!’

The drama, adapted from that web novel, had completely flopped because the screenwriter messed it up.