NOVEL WEB Chapter 25 - ridiculous
Yun Wan didn’t pick up the phone, her mind was blank, and the whole person was not right, she stood there for a long time.
It even blurred the concept of time and space for a time.
Yun Wan felt that she should have some emotions, but the funny thing was that she didn’t know what emotions she should have in the end, and she didn’t know what attitude she should take to face this fact.
Yes, fact.
Even if it was shocked for the first time, it was unbelievable.
But after all the details in his mind were tightly closed, Yun Wan couldn’t deceive himself.
You can’t lie to yourself, as You Chenxing doesn’t know.
You Chenxing clearly knew it.
Even as Shen Li’s small hair, it is very likely from the beginning…
From the very beginning…
from…
Yun Wan closed her eyes deeply, preventing herself from thinking further.
She is in pain.
All this time.
Even if she tries to avoid it, pretends to be nothing, and wants all the wounds to heal as quickly as possible…
But human beings are not machines. Emotional matters, how can you just let it go?
I understand intellectually, but emotionally I can’t keep up with my thinking, and I can’t keep pace.
During this time, Yun Wan’s biggest feeling was that she felt as if she had been split into two.
Reason yelled at her, don’t be sad, don’t be sad, she’s not worth it…
Emotions control the body, causing her to experience a real dull pain when she touches all the other parties.
She can’t control it, her body seems to be completely derailed at this time, even if she doesn’t want to, no matter how unwilling she is, she will still… or will continue to feel the same torment…
Even if this torment will get lighter and lighter with time.
But as long as it exists, Yun Wan will feel the pain unconsciously.
Yeah, pain.
Shen Li was her love at first sight, the only lover in her college days. They got married after graduation. Even though they have been married for so many years, in terms of getting along with her, Shen Li is very good to her…
The good past is still fresh in my mind.
Less than a month ago, she was a person surrounded by happiness.
The cruel reality was like a blow to the head, knocking her off guard, causing her head to bleed.
How can there be no emotion?
She is a real person, not a machine, how is it possible that all the damage will be passed in an understatement…
She and Shen Li were in love for two years, married for six years, and in total, eight years.
Eight years, not eight months, not eight days, not eight hours.
After eight years, many habits have been carved into the bones. If you want to change it, it is like scraping the bone and knocking the marrow.
It is impossible to be without emotion.
impossible.
She just had to pick herself up recently, so she tried to ignore it, ignore all the hurt.
Constantly numb yourself, so that you don’t listen, don’t watch, don’t think about everything that is suffocating.
Time will always heal her.
But why, why is it so slow?
Before being healed by time, she tried her best to disguise the illusion, tried her best not to recall all the pain, and this night, because of a little discovery, all her previous efforts were completely abandoned…
You Chenxing was like a pebble thrown into the water, destroying the peace she was struggling to maintain.
What’s worse is that she is powerless to stop it, the inner turmoil caused by this stone…
She couldn’t control her emotions, and she couldn’t control herself to think… Think about how You Chenxing looked at all this…
Think about what you look like in You Chenxing’s eyes…
Thinking about it, when You Chenxing looked at the happy life she tried so hard to disguise, was there a moment when she felt like a clown, very ridiculous?
Have it? do not have it?
There is no way to know, but it doesn’t matter. At the moment when he found out that the other party knew, Yun Wan’s heart defense that he had built up with great difficulty during this period of time, the disguised appearance of peace, has completely collapsed…
She didn’t know how You Chenxing felt, but she couldn’t control herself and thought she was ridiculous…
like a clown…
I feel so sad, I feel like a failure…
And for a moment or two during this period, she even thought that You Chenxing was better than Shen Li?
This was a real laugh.
You Chenxing knew everything from the very beginning, but he just didn’t say anything and made her play around.
When she mentioned Shen Li, the woman also cooperated with her…
This is true, it makes me laugh.
Really, so funny.
Yun Wan wanted to laugh, but tears fell.
Thanks to her two days ago, she felt that after this incident, they might be able to be friends…
friend…
Ha, You Chenxing just treats her as a fool!
Who gave her the qualification to play with the applause, is she still very proud?
Does she really think she can’t do anything about her?
Think her threatening words are just insignificant, fluttering words? !
Who gave her the confidence…
How dare she…
Shen Li is her object, no matter what happens between her and Shen Li, it is a family matter.
No matter how sad she is, it doesn’t mean that outsiders see her sadness, they can take the opportunity to step on her wantonly…
It doesn’t mean that she can be bullied by outsiders…
It doesn’t mean that she has no power to fight back!
I don’t know how long I’ve been sitting on the sofa, the night is getting dark, after Yun Wan’s mood has eased a little, he calmly draws a piece of paper and wipes the tears on his face.
After taking care of himself a little, he picked up the phone numbly.
The shattered screen displayed, and another message came.
Yun Wan clicked open.
The soldier sent another WeChat message, saying that Shen Li did not stay with the pregnant woman and went home.
Yun Wan didn’t feel anything when she saw it. Ever since she found someone to stare at Shen Li, it’s always been like this. Every time Shen Li went there, she didn’t take someone to the hospital, or she left after an hour or so, and she never stayed overnight…
But what’s the point?
Killing everyone, does it make sense to stab one more or one less in the calculation process?
meaningless.
So Yun Wan watched it, and never had any emotional fluctuations.
The most beautiful things have been destroyed, and the meaning of destruction is that they will never come back.
Since the results are all the same, there is no need to dwell on the details.
The other dialog was from Shen Li, a message from Shen Li to Yun Wan.
Said she was home, and then cared about Yun Wan a few words, asking Yun Wan to go to bed earlier, pay attention to health and so on…
Finally, I said good night and said I love her.
Yun Wan stared blankly for a while, then withdrew without returning, not wanting to return.
After reading these two dialog boxes, Yun Wan almost clicked on You Chenxing.
Input, delete, input, delete… After so many times, Yun Wan finally put down the phone.
And no message was sent.
Yun Wan thought, no need.
Disregarding all the derived malicious speculations, it is beyond doubt that You Chenxing knew that Shen Li was derailed.
And there is no doubt that the woman also knows the contact information of the pregnant woman.
That’s enough.
enough.
On the other hand, she had a clearer understanding of her relationship with You Chenxing.
It’s enough for her to make a final decision for an important matter that has been repeatedly tangled recently and has been undecided for a long time.
Yun Wan put down her phone and went to the study.
Open the drawer of the desk, and there is an agency document on the top.
Recently, Yun Wan kept taking out this light and fluffy piece of paper, and put it back again and again as it was.
She was very confused and didn’t know what to do in this matter.
Even how to do it right.
Seeing that the deadline for handing in was approaching, finally, she had the answer tonight.
Yun Wan sat down, read the document carefully again, and pulled out a pen from the pen holder.
Touching the header of the document, the print of the three words “You Chenxing”.
Yun Wan leaned over and finally put a pen on this piece of paper.